Ok so ya im sorry this took so long a wrote it last Sunday and post it but it wouldn't come up is here it is now and as you can see it longer then any of my other chapter so far I hope you like it now I going to post and other chapter over the weekend so ya and in this story renesmee nickname right now is renes ok so here it is chapter 4
JPOV
I still remember the day that bella came to tell me that renesmee was gone and that she should get to have a normal life where not where not everyone want her deed.
Flash back
I was walking thought the forest on my way to visit renesmee when bella voice appeared behind me.
"Jake I'm so sorry we had to" she said with the softest voice she could mange.
"bella what are you talking about? What did you have to do? Tell me what happened." I was getting mad what did she do that she would feel so guilty about that she was trying not to make me mad at the moment. Then it hit me nessie. What did they do to her.
"what happen to nessie?"
"well you see we, we well how do I say this um" now I was mad why doesn't she just spit it out? Why? What was it that happen that she didn't want to tell me?
"bella just spit it out already. Now what happen to nessie?" she stay quit for about a few second probably trying to say it so I wouldn't be less mad but I guess she couldn't find anyway to see say it that it wouldn't make me mad because she just came out and said it.
"renesmee gone we put her up for adoption. She deserve to have a normal life where not everyone want her deed" how could they say this? I hope she was lying but then I saw her face was deed serious. Why would she do this without even talk to me first. She might be there daughter but she was my imprint.
(END OF FLASH BACK)
My life was never the same after that. They took away my reason for living I never talk to any of the Cullen again. I stay in la push took over my place as alpha. I wouldn't let anyone tell me what to do. I been 18 years since I have seen her and I couldn't help my self from wondering thought what she now look like. Was she happy? Did she have a boyfriend? Did she remember me? If she did, did she ever think of me? What was her new family like? Did they treat her right? I want to know all of this but now would I know? I had no clue where she was but for some stupid reason I felt like I would find her soon but I knew that, that she was never coming back she was long gone and she was never coming back.
RPOV
After we found mom and dad they said anted Caroline can stay but in about a week everyone else would come to. After my mom said that I went upstairs to my room and lay down on my bed listing to a drop in the ocean by Ron pope. I don't know why but I felt like my life was going to make a big change.
A drop in the ocean, I don't wanna waste the weekend, Still I can't let you be, Just a drop in the ocean,
A change in the weather,
I was praying that you and me might end up together.
It's like wishing for rain as I stand in the desert,
But I'm holding you closer than most,
'Cause you are my heaven.
If you don't love me, pretend
A few more hours, then it's time to go.
And as my train rolls down the East coast,
I wonder how you keep warm.
It's too late to cry, too broken to move on.
Most nights I hardly sleep.
Don't take what you don't need, from me.
A change in the weather,
I was praying that you and me might end up together.
It's like wishing for rain as I stand in the desert,
But I'm holding you closer than most,
'Cause you are my heaven
Then I remember my dream of the handsome man from my dream the other night. He had short jet black hair, tan, and very tough looking. He was my heaven. Wait what was I saying? I didn't even know who this guy was. It was just a dream. Wasn't it? It just felt so really like I was remembering something that I should have never forgot.
Misplaced trust and old friends, Still I can't let you be,
Never counting the regrets,
By the grace of God, I do not rest at all.
and New England as the leaves change;
The last excuse that I'll claim,
I was a boy who loved a woman like a little girl.
Most nights I hardly sleep,
Don't take what you don't need, from me.
I felt like I knew him my whole life without ever even meeting him. I never told anyone of these dream I felt like if I told anyone the dream would go away and I would never see my heaven again.
drop in the ocean,
A change in the weather,
I was praying that you and me might end up together.
It's like wishing for rain as I stand in the desert,
But I'm holding you closer than most,
'Cause you are my
Heaven doesn't seem far away anymore no, no
Heaven doesn't seem far away.
Heaven doesn't seem far away anymore no, no
Heaven doesn't seem far away.
aooo
aooo
It's just a drop in the ocean,
A change in the weather,
I was praying that you and me might end up together.
It's like wishing for rain as I stand in the desert,
But I'm holding you closer than most,
'Cause you are my heaven.
You are my heaven
Then after the song was done I thought came to me what if I never found anyone? What if I was alone forever? What if I never found my Jacob? Wait Jacob was that his name know? Now that I think about that I
Then it hit me, what if I never found anyone? What if I was alone forever? What if I never found Jacob? My Jacob. Wait Jacob was that his name? that sound good in my head.
"my Jacob" I said with a smile then I sigh
" know who this Jacob renes" my uncle Damon ask. Wait Uncle Damon? When did he get in her?
"how long have you been standing there" I ask hoping he really didn't hear my say my Jacob.
"well I have been standing there since you said and I quote " my Jacob" now I going to ask my one more time who this Jacob you were talking about." Oh no he heard me. Should I tell him? Should I not? Oh what should I do?
Ok cliffhanger so I will try to write soon and now I need to get start on my homework so ya and if you notice this chapter id longer then any of my other chapter in this story so far and the song in her was a drop in the ocean by Ron pole and review and tell me what you think is going to happen next or what you think
Love
Marissa 3