It is immensely difficult knowing what you once had, and that it can never
be the same way again because of one little mistake. Maybe you could have
fixed that mistake maybe you couldn't have. But than maybe you weren't
supposed to, maybe it was all part of destiny and as cruel as destiny is it
always has a purpose. If it was meant to happen it would have happened
sooner or later, even though it happened sooner than you would have wanted.
I watched Rei disappear into the rain, I turn to go back in but I couldn't, I can't do it, seeing her pale face again will rip me up, that's not how its supposed to look. Her face was always so bright and cheerful, as well as loving and kind you knew you could depend on her but now.now I don't know what I'm supposed to do, whats going to happen and even if I want to be apart of it.turning around I smile or at least try to, but I know it falls pitifully short, "Tell Makoto I'll see her tonight, at the temple." I tell this to the blonde before turning, I wonder if she even hears me her cornflower blue eyes are glazed wither shes holding back tears, just thinking, or both I can't tell, we have all held similar looks lately, "All right Ami ja!" She calls after me trying to sound cheerful but we both know its fake, to fake and hollow for our liking. The pelting rain feels good on my skin, refreshing, I take my time walking home and just take in my surroundings a little more carefully than I usually would, I always found comfort in water.. if only it could wash away my sadness but I know nothing can, it mats my dark sky blue hair to my forehead, my pale blue eyes are tired and I feel as if they are all cried out and yet I can still cry more, strange isn't it? Opening the door to my two room apartment I glance at my fish and tap on the glass, my way of saying hello, for a few mere seconds I watch them swim about carefree all they worry about is food, somewhat sad if you think about. Quickly changing from my shoes to slippers I drag into the living room sagging down on the couch, I had taken a few days off from the office. I notice I have messages and slowly reach for the phone, but something else catches my eye, it's a letter, curious I pick it up, the soft paper feels familiar in my fingers bringing it closer my eyes widen as I see, "MIZUNO AMI" Scribbled on it, hastily I rip it open and pull out the letter. Ami- Ami-chan, I know your looking for answers.you always were the question type, ne? And I guess you deserve your answers, these may not be the questions your asking but maybe they are so here goes! Why did I do this? Why did I chicken out? Even as I write this I am not sure if I will be able to go through with this..but somehow I know I will. Leaving you all behind isn't what I wanted, but I needed to be free. What was on my mind that lead me to this decision? A few things were on my mind, one of them was leaving you behind, it wasn't fair I know, you were a true friend Ames you all were. One of my true reasons was, Mamoru.I didn't want to-no I couldn't live a life with him, a life with no love, a life of loneliness. And the last thing was Seiya. Ami, I love Seiya Kou! I don't know when and I don't know how but I do. Please after I'm gone don't go through your life sad, I wouldn't want that, you are one of my best friends, now and forever. You told me one time I helped you but in truth you helped me. Remember our window-shopping? I do.but that was so long ago.long ago when we all dreamed but look you're a doctor now! Your life long dream came true and I am proud. Someday Ami you are going to find a cure for all diseases that ail people and I look forward to that day. So hold your head up and look everyone in the eye, because you are one of the most special people in the whole entire world, and mankind will benefit from your knowledge. I can't wait till the day when I can once again see you all, look forward to that day because I know I will. Ja ne Usagi
Carefully folding the letter she placed it into the breast pocket of her black dress a small smile came to her lips, "Oi Usa-chan." She whispered starring out at the sky and wondering if her oujo, her good friend was happy now.
I watched Rei disappear into the rain, I turn to go back in but I couldn't, I can't do it, seeing her pale face again will rip me up, that's not how its supposed to look. Her face was always so bright and cheerful, as well as loving and kind you knew you could depend on her but now.now I don't know what I'm supposed to do, whats going to happen and even if I want to be apart of it.turning around I smile or at least try to, but I know it falls pitifully short, "Tell Makoto I'll see her tonight, at the temple." I tell this to the blonde before turning, I wonder if she even hears me her cornflower blue eyes are glazed wither shes holding back tears, just thinking, or both I can't tell, we have all held similar looks lately, "All right Ami ja!" She calls after me trying to sound cheerful but we both know its fake, to fake and hollow for our liking. The pelting rain feels good on my skin, refreshing, I take my time walking home and just take in my surroundings a little more carefully than I usually would, I always found comfort in water.. if only it could wash away my sadness but I know nothing can, it mats my dark sky blue hair to my forehead, my pale blue eyes are tired and I feel as if they are all cried out and yet I can still cry more, strange isn't it? Opening the door to my two room apartment I glance at my fish and tap on the glass, my way of saying hello, for a few mere seconds I watch them swim about carefree all they worry about is food, somewhat sad if you think about. Quickly changing from my shoes to slippers I drag into the living room sagging down on the couch, I had taken a few days off from the office. I notice I have messages and slowly reach for the phone, but something else catches my eye, it's a letter, curious I pick it up, the soft paper feels familiar in my fingers bringing it closer my eyes widen as I see, "MIZUNO AMI" Scribbled on it, hastily I rip it open and pull out the letter. Ami- Ami-chan, I know your looking for answers.you always were the question type, ne? And I guess you deserve your answers, these may not be the questions your asking but maybe they are so here goes! Why did I do this? Why did I chicken out? Even as I write this I am not sure if I will be able to go through with this..but somehow I know I will. Leaving you all behind isn't what I wanted, but I needed to be free. What was on my mind that lead me to this decision? A few things were on my mind, one of them was leaving you behind, it wasn't fair I know, you were a true friend Ames you all were. One of my true reasons was, Mamoru.I didn't want to-no I couldn't live a life with him, a life with no love, a life of loneliness. And the last thing was Seiya. Ami, I love Seiya Kou! I don't know when and I don't know how but I do. Please after I'm gone don't go through your life sad, I wouldn't want that, you are one of my best friends, now and forever. You told me one time I helped you but in truth you helped me. Remember our window-shopping? I do.but that was so long ago.long ago when we all dreamed but look you're a doctor now! Your life long dream came true and I am proud. Someday Ami you are going to find a cure for all diseases that ail people and I look forward to that day. So hold your head up and look everyone in the eye, because you are one of the most special people in the whole entire world, and mankind will benefit from your knowledge. I can't wait till the day when I can once again see you all, look forward to that day because I know I will. Ja ne Usagi
Carefully folding the letter she placed it into the breast pocket of her black dress a small smile came to her lips, "Oi Usa-chan." She whispered starring out at the sky and wondering if her oujo, her good friend was happy now.