Shiho walked into the room calm and confidently. Yzak was already there, sitting with a cup of coffee in his hand. She slowly made her way over.
"You're late." He muttered, not unkindly as he opened his arms towards her.
She smiled at him and answered, "No, you're just early."
Crawling into his arms, Shiho rested her head against his chest. Yzak put down his coffee, and slowly began stroking her body. Lowering his head, he began to kiss her neck, and jaw line. "Shiho, it's been too long."
Relaxing, Shiho straightened up, and turned to look at him.
He was gorgeous, and the love in his eyes was so evident, it made her want to scream with happiness. She leaned forward and kissed him with all her might. He returned the kiss, and continued to run his hands up and down her body.
Suddenly the phone rang. "Let it ring Shiho." Yzak muttered burying himself into her hair, "Just let it ring, and let me have my fun with you."
Laughing Shiho pulled away from him, "Sorry Yzak, but you're gonna have to wait."
Bending over, she went to pick up the phone.
"Hello?"
"This is Radio 11834 playing Lacus Clyne's latest hit, Fields of Hope. Be sure to stay with us as on the way, we have an exclusive interview with the beautiful singer."
Shiho stood up, and shut the alarm off. Damn…it was just another dream. Yzak.
Rubbing her hands, Shiho made her way into the washroom. Allowing the water to run for a few minutes, Shiho stripped down and stepped into the shower.
It had been almost three weeks since her conversation with Dearka, since her decision to no longer try and compete with those other girls…three weeks of failure.
Well for me anyway, Shiho thought rubbing soap all around her body, Dearka never called Miriallia again. I guess they're finally really broken up.
Only a week ago, she and Dearka had gone out for dinner and talked about Miriallia and Yzak. Dearka benefited for their conversations, but Shiho had only lied about feeling better. He had decided that he wanted to try things out with Alsee…she lied, telling him that she would try and get over Yzak.
Grapping the shampoo, Shiho began to wash her hair.
I'm not over you yet, Yzak.
Groaning in frustration, Shiho angrily began to scrub her hair and body. Why can't I Yzak? You don't want me…why should I keep trying?
Allowing the water to rinse off the soap on her body and the shampoo in her hair, Shiho stood still in the shower. Sighing, she decided that she should hurry up and get ready. Getting out of the shower, Shiho ignored her reflection in the mirror, dried her wet body, and quickly dressed in the regular red uniform of Zaft.
Getting into her car, Shiho made her way to the office. Yzak would already be there, and with any luck so would Dearka.
She didn't want to spend any unnecessary time with Yzak alone.
"Hello? Dearka, are you there? Listen this is me, Miriallia, I wanted to see you and talk things through…could you please just call me?" BEEP.
Dearka stood still listening to the message, Yzak standing right behind him.
"So, are you going to call her?" He finally asked.
Dearka didn't respond, just stood up and went to his room.
Groaning mentally, Yzak followed him. "Hey, I thought you said you wanted to try things out with Alsee. Why are you even getting upset over some Natural?" Yzak asked, watching Dearka, lying on him bed.
"I only said that because I knew that's what Shiho wanted me to say." Dearka answered without any emotion.
Yzak frowned, "Since when did you care what Shiho wanted?"
Dearka shrugged, "I don't know…we've just been talking about stuff you know," sighing Dearka turned around, "Listen, I'm not going to go to work. Sorry I know that I'm already behind on work, but I'm not up to it yet."
Yzak wasn't really paying attention. It bugged him that Shiho and Dearka were getting together without him. That Shiho was with another guy except for him. Dearka, though was watching him and Yzak didn't want to too obvious.
"Don't worry about work, Dearka," Yzak finally said, starting to leave the room, "I already did finished most of your papers for you."
Dearka bolted up, "Hey, really? When did you have the time? Shiho said that you've spent all your time with those, what's her words, low-life sluts."
"I've just been finishing it up at night...and I never really said that, I just let Shiho think that way." Yzak answered right before he reached the door but then stopped, "Dearka don't go around telling anyone else though, don't need people to think I've gotten soft on my officers…go ahead and tell Shiho though. That girl has been on my back forever."
Dearka grinned, "Tell Shiho huh? Want her to think you're a better guy than you make yourself out to be? Gotta a little crush on her, Yzak?"
"Shut up Dearka." Yzak reported angrily. Grabbing his briefcase, he left the room.
Dearka laughed a little…Yzak hadn't denied what he had said.
Luck isn't on my side Shiho thought.
Yzak was sitting there, and without even looking up to see whom it was, muttered, "He's not feeling great today. Miriallia called again."
Mentally groaning, Shiho grunted back.
They worked in silence, and Shiho realized that Yzak, for the first time, wasn't attempting to make a conversation with her.
It bothered her that it caused such a pain in her heart.
"I had a dream about you."
Shiho felt herself burning up. What had made her say that?
"What?" Yzak looked up at her and Shiho repeated once again, "I had a dream about you."
Swallowing the lump that had suddenly formed, "Umm…ya, it was weird you know. I don't normally have dreams about you."
Ya right. Shiho thought, mentally remembering the countless dreams she had about Yzak, some of them not all that clean either.
Yzak stared at her for a while, and Shiho felt herself turning such a shade of red, she was sure with the red uniform, she looked like a tomato.
Yzak didn't say anything, and just went back to work. "Shiho I have a lot of work to do, and don't have time to listen to you talk about these meaningless dreams you have."
Shiho jolted back to reality. Yzak looked back down at the papers he was filling out. It still bugged him that Shiho and Dearka were getting together. Swallowing hard, Yzak felt his heart plump down as he began thinking what would happen if Shiho and Dearka began to date.
Shiho, though, was annoyed by his attitude. "Listen, the only reason I even told you that was because you looked annoyed…I thought it would cheer you up."
Grabbing the paper back from her, Yzak reported back, "What, hearing about how a random girl has dreams about me? That's supposed to make me laugh? Want to make me feel better Hahnenfuss, huh? Why don't you just freaken tell me why the hell you've been such a bitch these past few weeks, hmm. Why the hell have you acted that way towards me, but still go out on dates with Dearka?"
Shiho sat there, very aware that both she and Yzak had frozen in their spots.
"Sorry Shiho. I didn't mean that."
Shiho didn't say anything, but realized that Yzak had noticed her change in behaviour, her closer relationship with Dearka…. and he was jealous by it.
The realization made her feel embarrassed, and yet happy at the same time.
"Yzak, I know I've acted differently towards you but it's only because I'm…" Shiho stopped.
She had been so close to telling Yzak the truth, so close and yet she still couldn't tell him
. "You're what? Shiho tell me. What the hell is up with both you and Dearka?" Yzak was staring at him with so many pleas; it made her heart want to break.
If she told him, what would be his respond? Shiho bit her lip…she was scared of being rejected, more afraid than she had ever been. Yzak was too important to her…she didn't want to lose him.
"I have to go Yzak." Standing up, Shiho stood up to leave, but stopped when Yzak grabbed her arm.
"Shiho just tell me. What the hell is it? What are you both upset about?"
"Yzak, it's nothing. I didn't even know that Dearka was upset; I thought he was fine. I haven't really gotten around to seeing him much. I only went out with him last week for dinner."
Yzak froze. "You, went out with him? On a date."
Shiho tried pulling her arm away, but couldn't. Yzak's hold on her seemed to have only tightened. "Ya. We went to dinner and then the movies."
"Do you like him, Shiho?"
Shiho felt her mouth drop. Yzak looked so miserable, she couldn't believe it. He thought she and Dearka were going out. She couldn't even understand where he had gotten that thought. She couldn't help but laugh.
"Yzak!! You can't honestly believe that can you?"
Relief flowing through her body, Shiho began to shake with laughter, and, with Yzak still holding onto her arm, leaned against his chest laughing.
"Dearka was an even bigger player than you!! How did you even think that we had that sort of a relationship?"
Now giggling, Shiho tired to stop laughing but found it hard. She had no idea if it was just the relief of knowing Yzak still didn't know how much she liked him, or if it was the idea of her and Dearka going out that made her laugh so much.
Yzak didn't seem that bothered either with her laughing. In fact, it seemed as though he was glad she was laughing.
Wrapping his arms around her, he leaned his head against hers. "I don't know Shiho. You've both been acting weird."
Shiho didn't say anything. Very aware of Yzak's arms around her, Shiho allowed herself to relax.
Yzak, she smiled faintly, smelling his scent, you're such an idiot sometimes.
A week later
Shiho looked around. How the heck did I end up back here?
She, Dearka, and Alsee were at the same pub they had first gone to. Same girls, same loser guys trying to get it with one of them, and unfortunately it seemed as though Alsee, Yzak, and even Dearka now, liked it here.
Sighing, Shiho watched Dearka and Alsee dancing.
Yzak was late.
The two actually looked like they were having a good time. Dearka was laughing, and Alsee's face was blushing a little. Not from dancing either.
"Hey, how's it going?" Shiho looked up at an attractive blond guy.
He was wearing a white shirt and just plain jeans. He had a nice smile, and he sure didn't smell drunk.
Giving a smile in return, Shiho answered, "Nothing really."
"How about a dance then…Miss?" The guy looked at her, grinning again. Shiho felt something stir in her stomach.
"Shiho, Shiho Hahnenfuss."
"Nice name, mine's Dick Faldrok. So how about a dance, Shiho?"
Smiling, Shiho agreed.
Half an hour later, she was still dancing with Dick, and having a great time. Laughing, Dick had introduced her to so many people; Shiho couldn't keep track of them, not that she cared much. She was having so much fun with Dick; she didn't even notice what was happening around her.
Finally around midnight, Dick asked if she wanted a drive home. Shaking her head, Shiho told him she was waiting for someone else. She had had fun with him…but not enough to go home with him.
Looking upset, Dick didn't make a move towards the exit despite the fact that many of his friends were calling him.
Feeling excited, Shiho reached over towards a napkin and wrote her number on it. "Here, in case you ever want to call me." She told him, smiling again.
Dick looked happily at the napkin, and bent over and gave her a kiss on the check. "I will, but sorry I got to go now. Bye" He whispered, his voice low.
Feeling her heart beat widely, Shiho smiled bye and turned around to walk back towards Alsee and Dearka. Dick was still staring at her.
"Shiho! That guy was so gorgeous!!" Alsee screamed once Shiho had reached her, Dearka, and Yzak.
Feeling self-confidence, especially with Yzak around, Shiho smiled shyly at her but didn't make a comment.
On the drive home, Dearka and Alsee left in a cab and both her and Yzak drove home. Yzak didn't say anything, and Shiho didn't attempt to start a conversation. When they came to her place, Yzak just sat there, and Shiho felt uncomfortable just leaving the car.
"What was his name?" He finally asked, emotionless.
"Dick," Shiho answered, feeling suddenly nervous.
"Dick? Dick! Wow Shiho," Yzak said dryly, "you must really want sex huh?"
Shiho felt herself burn up, but didn't make an attempt to leave.
Tightening his grip around the steering wheel, Yzak stared right ahead. Shiho looked down at her lap.
"Yzak, does it bother you that I met another guy?" She asked him slowly.
Yzak's grip tightened. Reaching over, Shiho pulled his hands away from the wheel and closed them with her own.
"Yzak," she mumbled, "don't get jealous about any other guy…you're the only one who means anything to me."
Taking a deep breath, Shiho continued, "You're the only one who's ever meant anything to me."
Closing her eyes, Shiho could feel the blush burning her checks but she still held onto him. Yzak remained silent, annoyed with Shiho, with the blond guy Dick, with Dearka and her hanging out so often together, and with the thought that he wanted Shiho to be only his.
Pulling his hands away from her, he snapped, "Shut up Shiho. I really don't care how you feel towards any guy or towards me. Hurry up and get out. I have to get up early tomorrow."
Gunning up the car again, Yzak turned around to look ahead of him.
Shiho sat, frozen in position.
She had known that Yzak hadn't felt anything towards her, she had told herself over and over again. But she had allowed herself to believe he had started to like her…she had believed he had gotten jealous over her.
Shiho felt tears burning. She wanted to start crying over Yzak and her own stupidly. Taking in big gulps of air, attempting but failing to remain composed, she muttered, "Fine."
Opening the door, she got out of the car, only allowing the tears to fall when he had sped off.
Okay so I had no real idea what to do in this chapter…. I only wanted to introduce Dick into the fic (ya he's gonna be a character in the story). I didn't really want to have Shiho admit her feelings towards Yzak, but it kinda just happened.
In case I didn't make it clear, Yzak does have feelings for Shiho…he's just being kinda arrogant about it. This chapter was long and confusing so please just ask if you didn't understand something….sorry I know after having such a long break (if you could say studying for exams was a break) I should have been able to write something a lot better than this…but nothing was coming to me!! LOL!
Please review anyways…and tell me anything I could do to make it better!!
Thanks…and if any of you guys are also reading Complicated Love I'll try and update that fic sometime this week too…but I'm kinda having a writers block on that story as well!
Okay so please R&R!
Thanks