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"I want it. Help me heal, Alex."
With the end of her sentence, she was swept up in arms. Strong arms she thought to herself. Strong enough to hold her, strong enough to comfort her, strong enough to heal her. At that thought she let a single tear slide down. The last one. I love you Denny.
Chapter 4 Finding Strength
She's going to let me help her. Help her find herself. When she was with Denny she radiated happiness and self confidence. I'm going to help her get that back. It's going to be hard, and it's going to be long but it's going to be worth it-she's worth it— My thoughts are disturbed by the sound of Izzy near screaming at me.
"Alex! Alex!"
"What Isobel!?" At her hurt look I realize I probably shouldn't have yelled. She's still sensitive. Alex don't be a prick. Shaking my head in apology I look at her with remorse. "I'm sorry Iz I didn't mean to yell. I didn't think." To my surprise rather than upset she gives me a look of understanding and sorrow. Just as I start to apologize again she begins to talk.
"I understand how easy it is to get caught up in a feeling. How much you hate being disturbed from it. When he looked at me Alex, it was like I was everything. Not just to him but literally everything. The world would stand still and at the same time be flying by. All because of the way he looked at me. He made me feel perfect Alex. I'm not perfect, I never have been, but he was okay with that. He accepted me for who I was and helped me to accept them. I wasn't naïve enough to believe that he was invincible. But damn I hoped. I hoped I prayed I wished. I hoped that somehow he'd find a way. When he stopped living the world stopped turning-Don't give me that look Alex- everything crashed down and I saw everything I had spent so long praying for crumble. I wanted it so much Alex. I wanted him to get better I wanted to grow old together, be each others family. Love each other forever when were old and decrepit in our little wheel chairs. He was every bit my world as I was his."
When she stopped she finally broke her stare and looked at me. I expected to see pain and all the sadness she's been through but instead I found her smiling. A smile of tranquility and peace. As a single tear slides down my cheek I smiled inside too because I know that she's made peace with Denny's death.
"Iz, you can still love each other forever. He'll always be there for you even if not in body." Feeling a cheesy quote come to mind I smirk "You know someone once told me 'Love lasts forever. Once you love someone there's no going back. Either you'll love them forever or you never did to begin with.' So he may not be here for you to hug and romance but you'll always have him, always." Rather than speak she simply looks at me with that smile on her face.
"You know there are moments since he's-" I see that although she may have come to terms with his death she still had problems talking saying exactly what happened. "When I feel completely broken and like life simply can't go on and I feel him Alex. I feel him. I know I do. Everything just feels light again. It feels like he never left. My heart skips and I feel happy again. Like truly happy and I know that he's there. He wants me to be happy. He always has." As she talks I watch her hands. They slowly become more animated as she talks. Letting my eyes drift from her hands up, I find myself completely in awe of her. She's let a few tears down but I know they're not in pain like recent ones have. She has delicate features. She's beautiful. Absolutely beautiful when she smiles. She needs to do it more often. Like she used to." She's talking and I'm still listening but I've stopped hearing.
I just watch. Watch as she relives her happy moments with Denny. Watch as she remembers what it was like to be in blissful love with someone. Watch as she finds her strength to carry on.
Coming Up:
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He wasn't to OOC was he guys?? Once again sorry about the wait and still getting a short chapter-but I actually really like this one! Note.. please keep an open mind abotu the chapter length! I have practice everynight and 2 try outs this week as well as new season conditioning and I just happen to enjoy writing different chapters differently. There are going to be some chapters that will be long and some that won't. I go where the story takes me ) I'll keep the chapters comign as soon as possible!
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