Okay, this chapter came a little late. That was because I took a little break after writing "Acceptance." But now, I got off my butt and typed up this chapter for you guys.

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Here's Chapter Four.

Warning: This chapter can, and will, make you cry. Some images on this would not be advisable for imaginative minds. With that in mind... ENJOY!

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Chapter Four: What is a Dream?

Takes place after Beast Boy fell asleep in the air.

Falling, such a wonderful sensation at first. The feel of air parting around you as you feel like you're flying. You then proceed to spread your arms out and flap like a bird for the fun of it.

And that is when the cold reality hits you harder than a flying brick (reference to Home Alone 2). You aren't flying, as a matter of fact... you're falling… faster and faster... with each passing second. And the ground coming up might as well be soft as a pillow for all the good in the world that would do. Because even the biggest, softest pillow in existence, wouldn't be enough to keep you from becoming a stain of red on the ground.

At this point, most people would start screaming their heads off as they plummeted towards certain death below.

Only, Beast Boy didn't feel that way since he knew he could just change into a bird to stop his free fall. He continued to have fun as he dropped faster and faster towards what looked like a jungle below. 'Okay, you've had your fun now Beast Boy. Morph into an eagle… now!'

Nothing happened. He was still falling. 'Okay… now!'

Ground was coming closer from below. 'NOW! NOW! NOW! NOW! NOW!'

Ground a thousand feet away. 'What do other people do in these situations… oh yeah!'

That was when Beast Boy started to scream like a little girl as the ground came closer and closer in his vision. A thick green canopy not going to help in the slightest way. 'Well, Cyborg always called me grass stain, I wonder if I would leave a green stain on the ground?'

At the last second, he closed his eyes, still screaming his head off.

Only... no impact of any kind came. He stopped his screaming out of surprise when he felt nothing, not a leaf, nor a branch. Not even the cold hard ground that should have surely killed him on impact. Slowly, he peaked one eye open as he looked around and gasped in shock.

He wasn't falling anymore, although he wasn't really sure what to think of this sensation either. "Am I… in Nevermore again?" he asked himself.

Beast Boy was floating in the air now, no longer falling towards the ground… if there was any to begin with. He was surrounded by a sea of black filled with red glittering stars. As he examined his surroundings, he also saw floating rocks of various sizes all around him.

"What… do I do now?" he asked himself. Unsure of what to do. First he had been flying to the tower, then he had somehow gotten thousands of feet above Africa in a free fall where his powers didn't work, and to top it off, he was back in Raven's mind.

As if the words he said had sparked it, the rocks around him flew into the area beneath him and molded together to make a platform for him. Then, whatever force that had been holding him up in the air, dropped him roughly onto said rocky platform.

"Ow! Sorry I asked!" he shouted into the void around him, being a little mad.

He looked up, and saw a path being formed like the first time he had entered her mind. At the end of it, he saw a stone arch forming in the distance. Just like one of the ones he had walked into in Raven's mindscape that changed depending upon whoever's realm he was in. Not really knowing what to do, Beast Boy started walking along the floating stone path towards the archway.

As he approached, he saw a small black bird with red eyes on top looking at him. He recognized it from before, but it made no move to attack him. As a matter of fact, as he examined it, he saw that it looked sickly and weak. And then, it started to fade before his eyes, catching Beast Boy off guard as he watched. Before it faded completely, it said two words in its sing song voice. "Help me."

And then it disappeared. Beast Boy started scratching the top of his head in confusion. "I thought it was going to say turn back like before. Why would it change it's phrasing to help me?"

Beast Boy looked forward, still seeing a stone path behind the archway. He was still curious, but for some reason, that lone bird had put him on edge with those two words. Still, he walked the last few steps forward and passed under the archway into the next mindscape.

He was instantly hit with a rotting dead smell as the landscape around him changed. He tried his best to cover his sensitive nose, but he still couldn't fully block the dead smell out. Nor could he take his eyes off the source of it that made him gasp in shock.

He recognized this domain, although it had certainly changed since last time. Instead of thriving trees, there was dead, rotting trunks surrounded by dead shriveled leaves. Instead of grass, there was dead, moldy ground. In the distance, he saw what looked like a shriveled up strawberry laying down by the biggest tree of all. It's scent changing to that of the landscape around it. Clouds covered what had used to be a brightly colored sky.

And in front of the tree, laid a dirty, pink cloaked emoticlone.

"Happy!" Beast Boy yelled as he ran the short distance to the curled up emoticlone on the ground. She was face down, covered by her dirty pink cloak so he couldn't tell what was wrong at first. But when he reached for her and turned her over, he stared in shock at what he was seeing. Claw marks, viscous, deep, claw marks, covering all over her small frail body. She was still bleeding from her wounds, her life essence staining the ground red beneath her.

She was still alive, but barely breathing. As he watched, she slowly opened her dying eyes as she focused on Beast Boy. Her eyes filled with one last bit of happiness, and with her dying breath, she spoke her last word to him.

"Why?"

And then… she released her breath… fell back onto the ground... and faded from view. And then, the rest of her realm faded along with her.

Beast Boy was left on the stone path… alone… after seeing Raven's happiness die. He slowly got up, still in shock, as he approached the next archway. No bird was on it this time.

The last one having faded long ago with it's desperate plea for help.

As he passed through it, he was hit with no dead or rotting smells. But that didn't mean he still wasn't shocked at the sight before him. Timid's maze, which had even resisted Cyborg's sonic cannon, was in pieces all around him. It looked like a large fight had happened here recently. And he could easily see the exit from where he was standing. He started walking that direction, carefully climbing over pieces of the broken walls along the way. Trying to find another one of Raven's emoticlones along the way.

As he climbed over a section of broken wall close to what had been the exit, he finally saw a gray cloaked emotion on the ground in front of the broken wall section. He jumped down the rest of the way and turned Timid over so he could see her.

The same thing had happened to her as well. Her body covered in deep, bleeding, claw marks. Only, this time, when she opened her eyes, they filled with fear at the sight of him.

"Why?" she whispered to Beast Boy.

And then, she too faded out from view. He had now seen her fear die along with her happiness.

The broken maze around him disappeared, the stone pathway remaining to the next archway. He walked towards the archway, expecting to see the sword bearing guardian that had marked the end of the maze before. Only, he found pieces of it littering the ground in front of the archway. Heck, the only thing that helped him to identify it were the two swords, sticking out of the ground where it had fallen. He'd never forget how they almost turned him into two Beast Boy's.

The changeling gulped, moving through the archway again into the next mindscape.

He found in total, a burning library, an inactive volcano, a burning coliseum, a destroyed mountain top, and a burning house that looked extremely dirty. Knowledge... had been in the middle of the library. Followed by Rage on her volcano, Brave in the middle of her coliseum, Wisdom on her destroyed mountaintop, and Rude and Sloth in the center of some burning junk in her house.

All had been ravaged with claw marks, all of them had been close to death, all of them but Rage had said one word to him as he held them in his arms as they died.

"Why?"

Rage had been the only one who had been different. The marks on her had been deeper, even going across her throat and four eyes. She hadn't looked angry when he had found her. She had been crying, and he had cradled her as she finally succumbed to her fatal injuries, still crying, in his arms.

All their domains had disappeared with them, leaving Beast Boy alone on the same stone path. The stone archways mocking him as he tried to find what was killing Raven's emoticlones.

Now here he was. Raven had only one emoticlone left, and he was about to go through the last archway, begging to find if she was at least alive still. He walked through, and found himself on a burning beachfront with a sunset in the distance.

Only this time, it was different. It wasn't from Raven's emoticlone dying, but from the battle currently taking place in front of him.

He saw a purple cloaked emotion, flying around a white and black spotted thing on the ground that he couldn't recognize from the distance. She was firing purple bolts of energy at it. He saw that whatever the thing was, it was merely shrugging off the hits like they were nothing as it moved forward at around inhuman speeds, trying to catch the flying emoticlone in the air.

Beast Boy tried to morph again, desperate to help out the losing emoticlone, only to find that he was still unable to morph into anything. The emoticlone, whose name he didn't know, looked his way and let out a gasp of shock. Only, the thing on the ground took advantage of this as it finally managed to grab her out of the air and started to claw at her body as he pulled her down towards him.

Beast Boy felt something in him snap. Whatever the name of this emoticlone was, it was Raven's last one. And he wasn't going to let this thing kill her without a fight. Still in his human form, he ran head long into the big white thing with all the strength he had. It hardly budged, but it did take it by surprise for enough time for the purple cloaked emoticlone to fly out of its clutches. Blood dripping from several different cuts on her arms and legs.

After that, Beast Boy found himself dodging left and right, ducking and jumping, doing every acrobatic exercise Robin had ever taught him as he tried to avoid being clawed by the thing that was trying to kill him. He still couldn't tell what he was facing, and instead, focused on trying to avoid being turned into Beast Boy slices for this monster's sandwich.

Only, it was moving to quickly for the human eye to follow. His reflexes up to this point had been the only thing keeping him alive.

And Beast Boy's reflexes could only hold up for so long. He finally got scratched up his left arm, then on his right hand, followed by his left shoulder. As time went on, he compiled more and more scratches and other injuries as whatever it was tried to put him down for the count. He tried once to identify what his enemy was, but it moved to quickly for him to see what the hell the thing was.

Finally, he made a mistake. He rolled away from another swipe and got back on his feet, only to lose his balance as he started to fall forward. He fell right into an uppercut that sent him flying through the air and landing just at the edge of the shoreline.

The emoticlone, whatever her name was, let out a scream as she landed right by him. She gently cradled his head in her arms. From what he could see, she was clawed up, but not to badly. In fact, he looked a lot worse than she did right now. He still didn't know her name, he only knew that she had been one of the emotions that had combined with Raven when she became her pure white Raven form.

He tried to sit up, but she wouldn't let him, she was looking at him with warmth brimming in her eyes. Something he had rarely ever seen from Raven before. And after closer examination, he saw a warm smile also adorning her face as she stared down at him. He tried in vain to put a name to this particular, yet interesting emoticlone. But as soon as she looked up, he saw the warmth in her face be replaced with fear as she tried to back up with him still in her arms as she approached the lapping waves of the seashore.

Beast Boy tried to get up, but he was still weak from the hard hit, along with the fact that this emoticlone had a vice grip on him. Raven's emoticlone continued dragging both of them closer and closer to the water.

Beast Boy finally managed to look up at the thing in front of him. Only, it wasn't an unidentifiable thing to him anymore.

In fact, he what he saw was a person, a white skinned person in a black and gray doom patrol suit. Same fang poking out of the evil grin on his mouth, same pointy ears adorning the sides of his metallic colored hair. Only, it was red eyes that gazed lazily back at him. Beast Boy felt himself fill up with fear at what he was finally seeing, something that hadn't visited him since the time Trigon almost took over the world. Something he had hoped he'd never have to see the light of day again.

"What is it oh master? You look like you're seeing a ghost or something to me."

Suddenly, it clicked in his mind. Why all of Raven's emotions had been clawed up, why they had been left to die, why they all said that one word to him before they faded away. 'They thought… it had been me who had killed them the whole time! He's trying to kill all of Raven's emotions!'

Beast Boy let out a primal scream of rage as his body finally morphed for the first time since he had fallen into Raven's Nevermore. Only, he didn't morph into a tiger... or a rhino... or even a T. Rex.

He morphed into the Beast.

His wounds forgotten, he charged forward, murder written in his eyes as he faced the dark duplicate in front of him. Only, dark Beast Boy let out a laugh as he easily avoided the enraged monster's viscous attacks at him.

"Come on master. Surely you can do better than that. Or do I have to kill Raven's last emotion right here in front of you!"

Whatever shred of control Beast Boy had had over the Beast, disappeared as his dark clone said his comment to him. In a rage, the Beast tore up the landscape as it tried in vain to at least land a hit on the fast moving changeling in front of him, who was currently still in his human form.

"No wonder why she hates you." dark Beast Boy continued to taunt. "Even in your most powerful form, you're nothing but a weakling!"

The Beast continued with it's desperate onslaught as it tried to at least land a hit on the dark changeling. Finally, as if he was bored, he brought his hand back and hit the Beast with so much force that he flew up several hundred feet into the air, before falling and making a crater in the ground in front of the last stone archway. As the dust cleared, it showed a battered Beast Boy, face down on the ground, trying to get back up.

"Beast Boy!" the purple cloaked emoticlone shouted as she tried to fly towards him with her wounds slowing her down. Beast Boy lifted his head from off the ground just in time to see his dark self jump through the air and grab the emoticlone, bringing her back to the ground with him. He tried to crawl forward, desperate to save Raven's last emoticlone from himself. The dark changeling looked at the struggling Beast Boy as he started to laugh. A dark, evil laugh as Raven's last emoticlone was still in his tight, clawed grip.

"You must really feel something for her Garfield if, even in your broken state, you still choose to struggle for her. Even if she is nothing but an emoticlone."

He crawled out of the crater, trying to get to her. Trying to save her. Still fifty feet away from her.

"Do you even know the name of this particular emotion... Garfield. Why would you want to save something as worthless as her." he asked, bringing his claws to her throat.

Beast Boy started speaking in a begging tone. "No, please, don't hurt her, just kill me instead, please! Just don't hurt her, take me instead!"

The dark changeling smirked at the downed changeling. "What could I gain by killing you, when I get far more from killing the ones you love." Something seemed to click in Beast Boy's minds at his words. But he set it aside for later as he saw the dark changeling's claws on her throat line.

"I beg you." he said in a defeated voice.

He started to dig one claw in.

"No…"

Blood started to come out of the small wound.

"JUST STOP HURTING RAVEN! I'LL DO ANYTHING YOU WANT! JUST PLEASE DON'T HURT HER!" he shouted, despair clearly evident in his voice.

The dark changeling lifted his clawed hand from her neck as Beast Boy collapsed onto his stomach, five feet in front of him.

"Well then, when you put it that way…" he said. Beast Boy raised his head, hope starting to show in the changeling's green eyes.

But faster than the eye could follow, the dark changeling's claws suddenly cut open the emoticlone's throat. And before he could react, the dark changeling dropped her onto the ground and disappeared in a dark cloud of particles. Laughing insanely as he found his job was done.

Beast Boy could only stare in shock though, as Raven's last emoticlone lay dying in front of him. He reached forward, and in his weakened state, pulled her body to him as he sat up. He cradled her head, just as she had done moments earlier for him, as he watched her life force fall from her throat.

Beast Boy couldn't hold back the tears anymore, as he started crying into the dying emoticlone's violet hair. He didn't know how long he did this for, it could have been minutes, it could have been days, a lifetime could have passed for all he knew, when a pale hand reached up and cupped his face. He put his hand to her hand as he opened his eyes and looked into her eyes. They were still full of that warmth, even as she laid dying in his arms. She let one last breath out as she looked into my eyes. And I finally knew the name of the emoticlone that laid in my arms, dying in my arms, a warm smile still on her gray lips.

"Love." he said out loud to her. Her smile remained, as she died in Beast Boy's arms, content that she had at least died seeing him for herself one last time.

She faded, much more slowly than the other emoticlones had before. The beautiful, yet charred landscape around him also disappeared slowly with her. But he still found himself cradling the dead emoticlone in his arms, one thought going through his mind.

'She loved me… she loved me… she loved me… and I failed her…'

He had seen her happiness die, then her fear, intellect, anger, bravery, calmness, and even her rudeness and laziness.

But this was the worst thing of all that he had learned. Raven had loved him, and now... her love for him was dead.

Like a dam breaking open, the tears fell from his eyes. She had loved him, and now, he had killed her. He didn't care what the others would say, that it had been his dark side that killed her. That was the thing, his own personal demon had killed the love she had for him, along with every other emotion she had along the way.

He had left her emotionless, an empty shell of what she had been before. She no longer had to restrain her emotions.

He had killed them all.

Love's body had long since faded along with the landscape around him, the beach and waves disappearing, the sunset being replaced by the blackness and faint red stars.

His strength had returned enough where he was at least able to get up and slowly limp his way for the last stone arch, hoping it'd take him away from this emotionless, dead hell he was in. Wanting to flee from all the carnage he had wrought inside Raven's mind.

He walked through the stone arch, and finally found himself in the center of her mind. The hooded Forbidden Door in front of him. He started walking forward when he saw something in front of it.

It was Raven, on her knees, still dressed in her blue cloak, looking at the ground in front of her.

"Raven!" Beast Boy yelled as he tried to limp towards her without falling. He still fell onto the ground beside her but still reached for her hand. He found that it was still warm.

But she didn't react to his touch. And as he looked more closely, he saw that her hand was slowly getting paler.

He examined her, and saw that she was still breathing normally, and that she looked perfectly fine. But then, he looked at her face, and saw her eyes.

Raven's normally vibrant, amethyst eyes, that had always shown her emotions to the world.

Were like glass.

"Raven, what's happening to you." he said in a shocked whisper, as he saw her entire body was slowly growing more paler in front of him.

She spoke in a dead voice (no trace of emotion whatsoever). "My time is up Beast Boy. It's time... for me to go away now."

He stared at her in shock. Finally realizing the reason to why she was paling, because she was slowly fading now. Just like her emoticlones. "No… you can't die now! We defeated your father! You were finally free of his influence over you! You're finally free to feel!"

She continued to look at me, no emotion showing in her dead eyes. "Beast Boy, there's nothing you can do about this. My emoticlones are gone, they supplied me with my power and existance, without them..." she trailed off.

His face contorted in anger. "Nothing! So you're telling me that I should just stand by while the girl I love dies in front of me!" he shouted to her face. Finally admitting what he felt for her, had felt for her, for so long. Hoping it'd help her find the strength to feel. To stay.

Only, she had no reaction, except to say…

"Garfield. Once I fade, everyone will forget about me, what I've done, what we accomplished as a team... Cyborg will forget about me... Starfire will forget about me... Robin will forget about me."

Pause "Even you… will eventually forget about me as well." she said quietly at the end.

He started crying into her shoulder. "I'd never forget about you Rae. Even if I got freaking amnesia, I would never forget you." he sobbed into her shoulder.

When he looked up, he found that she had a small smile on her face.

Not one like Happy's, or Brave's, or any of her other emoticlones.

It was simply hers, her own Raven smile.

"Gar… I just wanted you to know… that I wanted to say... thank you." she said in a soft yet dead voice.

His tears continued to fall, as he saw her legs disappear from view. "F-For what?" he said through his tears.

She continued. "For being there when no one else was… for making me feel like I wasn't alone in the world… for helping me want to control my dark side... for simply making me… feel like I was human... and not... demon."

He started to cry harder. Her legs now completely gone as he held to her. "Please, don't leave me." he said in a small voice through his sobs.

With her dissolving hand, she turned his face up to hers. She gently pressed her lips to his, and he put in all the passion, the love, the lust, he had ever felt for her... into her first, and final... kiss. She separated, and said one last thing to him. "Gar… I just wanted you to know… that I did love you…"

Her eyes. Her dead eyes, showed one last trace of emotion. Warmth, the same warmth that had been in Love's eye's as she died.

And then, the rest of Raven's body…

Faded…

The last thing to disappear…

Had been her eyes.

Now closed.

As she disappeared from his world forever.

Beast Boy… looked to the ground beneath her... and saw her cloak still laying on the ground. He picked it up, and a flash of memory came back to him.

The time he had been standing on the beach of Titan's Island, and he had gotten her to laugh and smile at him.

"Raven."

He felt part of himself… disappear… just like she had... just like all her emoticlones had...

And the truth hit him hard.

She was gone... gone forever in his mind... never to appear again.

He fell into a pit of deep despair inside his mind. Sobs wracking him as he tried to hide himself deep within his mind from the outside world. Blocking out all his senses as anger and despair consumed his being.

He couldn't see it when the landscape around him changed from Nevermore to jungle. He couldn't feel it when someone started to shake him roughly. He couldn't hear it when that someone was shouting his name.

To him, he had lost the best part of his world, the last girl who he had loved more than his own life. And he had killed her with his own two hands, with his very own demons.

Beast Boy, while deep in his mind, clutched onto all his precious memories of Raven, afraid that what she had said would come to pass. That he would eventually forget her and how she had loved him.

And so he sunk, into the deepest recesses of his mind, his precious memories being his only companions…

As the girl he loved… his Raven… tried to wake him… in the jungle that was his mind.

But in his subconscious mind, he was numb to all outside feelings. Just like Raven had been, before she disappeared.

He had no will to live anymore. His last, and only reason, having disappeared from the world forever.

Author's Notes:

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What the hell did I just write…

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I'm going to go cry in a corner now… give me a moment here... (Loud sobbing from the author in his room)

All right... please review… and don't hate me for writing this… I think that this drama/angsty ride will be over with now.

I want people to guess what I based the last scene in here off of. Here's a hint, it's a well-known video game that you can only play on DS. And it's actually well-known on this site since many people write about it under games.

Till Next Time

Allen