A month or so must have passed before I saw Lestat again and although I admit I missed his company, I concluded that not seeing him again was probably for the best. But then, one evening, Lestat was waiting for me outside my work, in the dark alley I usually take to get home. Same old same old, as if nothing changed.

" Ha Lestat, you're starting to be predictable."

" Really? that is funny. I have something to show you. Come to my place."

" I don't think so. I'm still upset with you"

He grabbed my hand and went to his knees. He kissed my hand looking at me with these sexy, devious eyes I couldn't refuse and somehow, I think he knew that. He begged me and of course I gave in. " All right, All right I'll go. But I'm not doing with you whatever we did last time I went to your place. I promised myself that this would not happen again."

" No problem chérie." He was laughing a little " We won't do this again, even though I know you loved it."

I chose to disregard this last comment. I knew this was a bad idea but I went anyways.

When I came in, there was a gorgeous man sitting on his couch, with no shirt. I turned to leave but Lestat was standing between me and the door, and I knew it was useless to try to move him, he was so strong he could probably kill me with 1 finger but, somehow, I knew he wouldn't do that now since he wanted something out of me.

" Please, hear me out. Take off your jacket and sit down."

I did just that because I knew there was nothing else I could do.

" Just this once, do this for me please. You know there is nothing else left for me but this. This is the answer to all my prayers. You cannot deny me this I know you can't."

" I cannot do this for you Lestat. I just can't. This isn't right and way too scary."

" Please listen to me. There is nothing else left for me to accomplish for the remaining centuries I have to live. I have been wondering around for years with no purpose in my life. You have no idea how empty I'm feeling inside. You can't imagine it. This will give me the chance to continue, watch over and take care of all my descendants, my true bloodline. I'm not asking you to marry, or have a relationship with someone, I'm not even asking you to raise the child now, just give it birth and let's put him or her up for adoption if you want. I understand and respect your need for solitude. I simply require this of you because only you can give this to me. "

I looked at him and I felt so sorry for him, I admit it was tempting to say yes. Still, I couldn't bring myself to the idea. I cannot go through with this however; I know that I cannot leave this place either. He would rape me if he had to that much I was convinced of.

So I took a look at the man that was on the couch. Wondered how much he was getting paid for this. He was a good looking man, early 20's. well built, nice tan, dark brown eyes, black hair to his shoulder. Hmmm, maybe I could do this for fun, and then leave and never go back. I'd have to figure a way to keep Lestat away but I would do that later. For now, I had to come up with a plan.

" Not bad don't you think ? I have some taste wouldn't you agree ? You won't be disappointed. " Lestat was whispering in my ears. But I was barely listening to him.

I was having this debate with myself. The one when you have a devil on one shoulder and an angel on the other giving you contrary advise. I chose to listen to the devil because after all, I was already in pretty deep so why not get in deeper.

I thought about this. I had slept with a vampire, sorta, who happened to also be blood related to me. How much worst could I get into really. This might actually be fun.

Suddenly, I felt I had some sort of power over Lestat. Thing I never thought I would feel. I wouldn't give him a child cause I was using birth control, and he wouldn't kill me cause I was the only blood related he had. I wondered how long I could let this charade go on. How long before I'm totally bored with this very very bad thing I was about to do. I must be loosing my mind.

" Okay, I'll do this for you " I said looking at him straight in the eyes, taking his face into my hands.

He was surprised " You will ? okay, good, this was easier than I thought"

" Well, you don't make it easy for me to say no I mean, look at this guy" He gave me a little laughed and sat in a big chair in a dark corner.

" So I guess my little speech didn't get to you ?"

I didn't reply. Instead I said:

" So I'm guessing you're staying for this ?"

" Ho yes, I wouldn't miss it for the world."

" Great, all the more fun for me "

I didn't really mean that. Or did I ? I have to admit that to have him watch was kind of exciting, especially when I thought of the fact that with all his might and power, making love to me was something he could never do. So, all he could do is watch, and try to remember how that felt. I suddenly felt bad for him…..a little. The games we could play him and I. I knew that we could do these things to each other for all eternity. But now, I had to focus on this guy. This guy that I don't even know his name nor do I care to know. Don't want to get too personal, not interested really.

He had gotten off the couch and came close to me. He started kissing me and feeling me, slowly undressing me. It was all going fast and it wasn't that much fun just yet. I wanted to ask if he checked for disease and stuff but knowing him, he did all that already; that much I trusted. He wouldn't spare any details for getting a strong and healthy bloodline.

This guy was moving real fast and my mind just wasn't in it. Next thing I knew, my pants were off and he was picking me off the floor, shoving me against the wall and shoving himself inside me at the same time. I have to admit that this woke me up from my daze and didn't feel so bad, but anything after that left me numb. He was good looking, and probably well equipped down there, though I never looked, but he didn't know what turned me on, nor did he care to find out.

With my back against the wall and this guy pounding me, all I could do is stare at Lestat sitting in the dark corner of the room, in his chair. He had no expression on his face, none whatsoever. He'd look completely dead if it wasn't for his deep, glistening blue eyes, looking back at me. I wondered if he knew how much I wish I could unite with him in that way, how much I wish he was human but still had all these years of experience in his mind, adventurous and knowledgeable that made him more interesting than anyone I had ever known.

And when this guy came next, Lestat was now standing right behind him. He had moved so fast, I didn't even see him move. With one hand he grabbed the man by the neck and tossed him aside like you would an old rat, breaking his neck in the process. With his other hand, he grabbed me quick so I didn't fall on to the floor and he was now taking the place of the man that was there before him. I had my legs around his waste but he couldn't get inside me, at least not in the same way.

With an even faster movement, he bit my neck and entered me with his fingers at the same time. I had no time to think or protest and there it was again, this feeling of pleasure and pain, or pleasures pain, whatever it was. I came at once and he was satisfied. He didn't drink that much blood this time, barely any. I didn't know what he was thinking but I was upset with the fact that he had just killed that man. When he let go of me, he allowed me to push him off and I went for my clothes taking a quick look at the man that was on the floor, dead. I went to the washroom and when I came out next, he had already disposed of the body, as if nothing happened.

" Did you have to do this ?"
" Yes."

" Well then, you could have at least drained him or kill him while giving him somekind of pleasure, did you have to be so cruel and break his neck like this ? It seems like such a waste"

" Tell me, what pleasure did he give you ? " He wasn't even shock by what I was saying. I was shocked by what I was saying. This was a dead man. Have I become so numb to people ?

" You are unbelievable. The reason I wasn't enjoying this had nothing to do with him. It had everything to do with you. So there you have it..now you can sharpen that stick and commit suicide since death seems the proper punishment for you when it comes to me not having any pleasure."

He was laughing, again, and I went for the door, but he got there before me and kept me from opening it of course.

" Please sit down for a minute. I don't want you walking back home alone at night."

" Now that's funny. What could be more dangerous out there than what I'm doing with you in here ? You are a vampire unless you have forgotten."

" Sit down, just for a few minutes"

" No, let me go now"

But he wouldn't listen and sat me down on the chair that he had been into, just a few minutes ago.

It seemed that the darkness around me was suiting, made me feel like there was nothing else going on other than what was in front of me which of course, Lestat made sure was him.

I stayed there for a few minutes, silent. Then I began to speak.

" This will never work Lestat. We have to end this game now. Besides, I won't agree with you killing these men every time they are not to your, or my satisfaction."

" I know. But this one, I couldn't resist, he was a moron and had no appreciation for you. It was a privileged to have you and that I chose him to continue our bloodline, and he couldn't even understand that. He was paid a great deal to do this. He might have been the father …" " Sperm provider, not father" I cut him off to say.

"all right, sperm provider of a Lioncourt. His attitude enraged me and the fact that he couldn't even pleasure you enraged me even more. I couldn't help myself."

" Look, let's cut the charade shall we. I'm not going to be pregnant ever because I'm on the pill. I just went along with this because …"

Now he was looking at me with the devilish smile again, so I wondered what the hell that meant. He should have wanted to kill me by now but he seemed amused. Then he pulled the little pack of pills out of his pocket.

" You mean these things?"

" How did you get that?"

" Well, while you slept at home, I entered your house and went through your purse. I wasn't born Yesterday as you know. I knew about different methods of birth control and I figured you had to be using one, any descendant of mine would not be living on abstinence, and I found these. I replaced them with some fake candies I found in a fun store. I did that about a month ago therefore, tonight might have worked after all."

" I can't believe you did that to me."

I just grabbed my things and went for the door. He was standing there and I was trying to move him but that wouldn't work. I was not mad or upset, I was enraged. If I had a stake, he'd be dead.

I shouted " Get out of my way or I'll kill you; better yet, I'll kill myself just to hurt you."

He knew I meant it and in my madness, I was very capable of it, so he moved. I left running all the way back to my place, not knowing what tomorrow was going to bring.

I remembered how my grandmother, my dad's mom, had always bothered my mother about how fertile she was, and how she could have had a kid per year and bla bla bla. All that because my mom only had 1 child. And I was praying that I wasn't taking after my grandma's fertility.

I had been had in everyway, shape or form possible. He was the ultimate devil in all its might. There was no stopping, or matching him. I was a fool to think I could match him. Who the hell did I think I was ? He was hundreds of years old, I was only 32 years old. He has centuries of experience and what do I have really ? Nothing at all.

When I got home, I went straight for the shower. I must have stayed there till I ran out of hot water, hoping that this would clean me inside out. My mind was empty.

When I got out, I got drunk and went to bed. Before I fell asleep, I told myself that I would get an abortion, that was the only solution. He'll probably kill me for this and at this point, I didn't really care. Then I fell asleep.