DISCLAIMER. Boohoo, I do not own Twilight. Although the SPARE CHARACTERS, such as the additions to Bella's family, boyfriends and girlfriends, I do.
A/N. Very quick. I need ASAP a beta-reader. PM me or something like that. :) - Share with me your opinions about the cast. Do you like them, or not? PS.: Re-Reposted First Chapter, because there some changes to it. You might want to read it.
[EPOV]
Fuck my life. These had to be the longest thirty minutes of my life. Saying that the ride to the Rose Bowl right after I almost kissed Bella was torturing was a freaking understatement, she didn't even had the courage to talk to me, or even look at me after my stupid move, and I couldn't complain, because after all, I didn't have enough balls to ask her what had gone wrong, what had I done wrong?
She stared at the passageway the whole drive, I stared at the window, it seemed impossible to forget how her breath tingled on my tongue or how her hand felt good underneath mine, and then, with words coming from Coach's mouth, everything went downhill. Talk about cockblocker bastard, but the truth was, I didn't want my first kiss with her to be on the back of the bus, she would feel like she's any other girl and she's not, maybe she's THE girl for me, the one I've been waiting all along and the one who's been right under my nose, but I've been too damn blind to see.
Are you a woman or a man? You're starting to grow a vagina between your dick and your balls!
Yes, you can say that I was definitely pussy whipped and fuck! I didn't even was in love with her yet, maybe starting to, but not love… not yet.
After the "bus trip of hell" we had finally arrived at our destination, the Rose Bowl was packed, even thought I wasn't inside it just yet, I could hear the yelling and the shouting, every single college who we played against, just as our own, stopped on their tracks on Friday nights and every student – aside from the non-football fans – drove all the way to Pasadena to see the game.
Bella was out of her seat before the bust could even stop, I caught a glimpse of her standing up and practically running down the little corridor with her blue and gold pompons, I had fucked majorly with her, I shouldn't have done this stupid move, I had to jump to my bones and just be me. I just wished that I could find some time at the party to tell her something, to talk to her about what happened and even apologize.
We all got out of the bus and I didn't see Bella after her little escapade, Emmett and Jasper said goodbye to their girlfriends saying that they would catch them on the field; I couldn't help but feel a pit of jealousy in not being able to do the same, however, I shook the feeling off as soon as I saw them making their way towards me.
"Let's go?" I asked I'm sure I was looking quite annoyed.
"Geez man, don't need to get all worked up, we have to say goodbye to them you know… They hold our balls in their bags." Emmett said.
I knew what they were talking about more than I could imagine.
"They got you wrapped around their little fingers."
"You have no idea what magic those little fingers can do." Jasper spoke for the first time, still staring at the ground.
"Enough! I don't want to hear or imagine what you do with my little sister, for my concern, she is a virgin please Jas? Don't take my sweet illusion away from me."
They laughed at my disgrace, but I wouldn't complain, payback's is a bitch and I am sure I would get my payback in time, I just didn't know how.
We started to walk towards the locker room to get into our protections and uniforms, Joshua was already inside, and I really needed to talk to him, specially now, he knew Bella more than anyone else in this world, even more than her mother and father and he was helping me to get a way into her heart, which is incredibly strange. Shouldn't older brothers be against any kind of relationship their little sisters might want to have? Anyhow, the guy saw something in me, something I was clearly too dumb and too blind to see it for myself, but I was hoping Bella could.
As soon as I got in front of the lock I took off my jersey and sat in front of the locker and put both hands on my face, trying to stop the million thoughts in mind from getting out through my ears, or any hole I had in my face, but as soon as I heard footsteps approaching me, I lifted my hand and rested my hands on my knees.
"What did you do Edward?" It was Joshua, reading me like a book. Was I this transparent to his sister?
"I, uh… Tried to kiss her?" I answered, there was no point in lying to him, and he could see through me, it was scary sometimes.
"Well, what happened then?" He leaned on my locker and crossed his arms in front of his chest.
"Then I think everything was going great, until the Coach came in, spoke something and she didn't look at me for the rest of the trip." I really sounded defeated, like nothing could work, how could I have any hope? Everything I was investing in trying to get to her, and she always pushed me away on the critical time, it has been this way for the past few months, when I first realized that I cared for her more than just like a little sister, I wanted to be able to hold her, and kiss her. And fuck her?
Hormones are louder than my own wishes.
"Well, I'd say you fucked real badly there. I mean, what were you thinking? Kiss her on the back of the bus Cullen? This is so classy you! You get the backseat to make out with girls; you want Bella to think that she's just another one on your list? On your long list?" Okay, Joshua seemed to be a little too mad this time.
"No man, you know I like her. She's not another one on my list Joshua, you know that, I just have to make my way in, but I wasn't really thinking with my head."
"Exactly, you were thinking with your damn balls! Man up Eddie, and tell her how you feel. I think that this might be the only way to go."
He was shitting me right? Tell her how I feel? Spill my guts out to a girl? The girl I like, I know, but still I didn't do that, feelings were inexistent in me, at least that was the girls' post-coital line. My behavior now was understandable… I've never, since my junior high school years was single, ever, I always had a new girl by my side with each passing day, I didn't care what people said, because I was building my reputation as the womanizer, football captain, but then, few months ago, probably longer than that, I started to notice her, how beautiful she looked under the sunlight, how her hair was thick and smooth, how she has the most stunning smile in the whole fucking world, and how I'm desperate to make that petit body of hers mine, I'm not talking just about fucking, of course that I cannot help to grow hard rock when Alice put's her in the tight dresses that shape her firm round perfect ass, but still, I want her to be mine, and I want her to trust me, I want to wake up in the morning and with her in my arms while I trace patterns on her bare back with my fingers, I want to spend enough time with her to fall in love with her… this won't be very hard, will it? I. Want. Her. As simple as this.
See how she got me all wrapped around her finger? Fucking unbelievable.
Joshua was laughing at me, laughing at the panic that was screaming out of my eyes, laughing at my dropped jaw and of the fact that my whole body suddenly grew tense.
"I was kidding Edward. You know Bella, we all know her, if you go and spill your guts to her, she'll probably run away. Smooth your way in man, after all, I can see in her eyes that Bella likes you, she just doesn't trust you enough." He patted my back. "And she has a reason not to right?"
Of course my promiscuous acts were less than holy, but I am a man, a guy after all. I swallowed my argument seeing that it wouldn't do anything helpful to release my tension, so I just got up to start getting ready for the game.
"Don't stress over it Edward, just talk to her on today's party… you know, before Alice kills you."
My body tensed up again. "You think that she'll tell Alice?"
"They're girls Edward, they tell each other everything, and I really mean everything."
Fuck me. I was dead.
[BPOV]
Okay, call me a coward or whatever you want, I really didn't have the guts to look at him after his little act, the Coach ripped me off his intense gaze and I hadn't even realized that I was that lost in his eyes, my head started to spin a little like there was no oxygen going to my brain, that was when I realized I had forgotten to breath, that might have been one of the most deep almost-kiss I had in my life, not to mention that Edward's effect on me was growing with each passing day, I just don't know what to do with myself, how to break this little charm that he has upon me, I don't even know if I want to.
It's better to have loved and hurt than never loved at all.
Did I want to fall in love with him? I could, that was a huge possibility, if I could let myself open up to him, Edward wasn't a bad guy, necessarily, but he wasn't one of the greatest either, but what if he was willing to change for me? Would I be willing to trust him with this? With my heart? Well, I would defiantly find out. As soon as I would create some courage and talk to him tonight. Unless he has his tongue occupied in some skank's mouth. I couldn't forget however the fact that he tried to kiss me on the seat he makes out with all the girls, I can't let myself be blinded by the fact that Edward Cullen had just tried to kiss me.
The bus stopped and flew right out of my seat, still not gathering the amount of courage necessary to chat with him about what had just happened. When I passed by Alice's seat, she gave me the look, the "what the hell happened" look. I mouthed to her, 'we will talk later' and she nodded, Rosalie didn't even notice me passing, she was too busy sucking faces with Emmett, so predictable. I don't even know how the Coach let them sit together.
Once we were out of the bus, all the squad reunited and we made our little pre-game Cheer, which was just to give us luck, or mainly to myself, because I know how most of the girls around here were wishing for me to fall flat on my face from the top of the pyramid, but that was not going to happen.
We didn't have to wait any longer than thirty minutes to get our asses on the field, the cheering of the crowd that was coming from the inside was mind blowing, I couldn't help but feel the burst of adrenaline being shot right through my veins, there was possibly no better feeling than this, the stadium was packed with both College's supporters the game tonight would be thrilling. The players got into the arena making the crowd cheer louder, as we took our places in front of the bleachers our cheering were nearly unnoticed; our voices couldn't get louder than hundreds of people's voices, right?
Let's go BRU-INS!
Let's go BRU-INS!
Let's go BRU-INS!
Let's go BRU-INS!
The rest of the game was unreal, yards were ran, touchdowns were made, my throat got sore from much yelling, my pompons were up in the air a few times, me, Alice and Rose hugged with each touchdown made, and we cheered our ass off, just like I promised Edward, and just like he promised me, every time he would score a touchdown, he glanced at me, winking, and I would just blushed into a new shade of red, the connection between us was palpable, even thought we were not together. Nevertheless we won the game, and Blue and Gold week was on the move. During the ride back to the campus all of the bus was cheering along with us and there was no awkwardness between me and Edward, probably due to the fact that we didn't even exchange glances during the ride, or… words. Everyone was having a blast and the guys were bragging about how easy the game was.
"C'mon, those guys had nothing on us little sis." Joshua laughed, ruffling my hair – I had pulled my ponytail down right after the game, my hair lowered in waves until my waist now and it would had behaved, if Joshua didn't like to mess it so much - .
"Joshua, you would never have done anything without us." I released myself from his arms and sunk on the chair next to him, the slut Liz had "given" me the seat. Yeah, Joshua and I were on good terms now. "We rocked, didn't we girls?"
A chorus of 'yes' and 'hell yes' filled the bus.
"See brother? Not everything is up to the players." I raised my eyebrows and put on a mischievous grin on my face. I got up from my seat and walked up to Alice's.
"Hey Al." She lifted her head to look at me. I bent and whispered something on her ear, she simply agreed and got up, letting me take her place on Jasper's side.
"What the hell was that?" Jasper asked.
"Wait and see."
Alice got up, walked to the middle of the bus and clapped her hands together, once, twice, three times, to get everyone's attention.
"Hey guys." She raised her voice just a bit so it would reach the very end of the bus, where Edward was in. "So, us, cheerleaders, already figured out what we're going to do to raise money for charity." An evil smile was already set on her lips, the whole team on the bus started to ask what, and the squad to hi-five. "Shut up!" Alice demanded, everyone obliged. "I'm not going to tell you what it is, and don't you even try to get our cheerleaders to tell you, or you'll be missing out on the surprise. Me, Bella and Rosalie will tell everyone, gladly today at the Beta Theta Pi party, so you better not miss it out doing other… things."
By the time Alice was finished, even the Coach was smiling. Shoot. The Coach, forgot completely and entirely to talk to him, maybe I should wait until the bus stop, catch him off guard and ask him, I had a feeling that he would willingly persuade Dean Roberts into acquiring our idea. Nobody could resist an old man with puppy dog eyes could they?
I gave Alice's seat back and went to my original seat, on Joshua's side. Man Liz doesn't chill out one minute, does she? She has to be all over him and he has to keenly give in to her. I don't know what my brother saw in her actually, like I said, she was a total Barbie Doll, not of the beautiful kind, more like Barbie Doll gone slut, and my bother – oops, I mean, brother – he was handsome, a ten good inches taller than me, all of his body was build with muscles in all of the right places, blue eyes – from mom - and brown hair until his chin, he never cut the damn hair, I preferred that way anyway.
"Ahem." I cleared my throat and she quickly unlocked her lips from his, I crossed my arms in front of my chest and tapped my feet on the bus floor.
"C'mon Bella, don't spoil my fun." Liz pleaded, I started to laugh.
"Please Liz, remove your coochie from anywhere near my brother's dick, would you? Chop, chop. I don't have much time."
Liz got up, whining and I sat down next to Joshua.
"Damn Bella, you're bossy!" Emmett's loud words were heard and the whole bus laughed.
"That was really necessary Bella?" Joshua sort of sounded a little angry.
"That was really necessary Joshua?" I retort, mentioning his acts from just two minutes ago. "I don't know what you see in her, but all I can do is regret for your bad taste in woman." I finished my sentence with a deep sigh, right before the bus stopped.
"Okay now, I have to go, have to catch the Coach and talk to him about our plans for Blue and Gold week."
"Ooh, which are?"
"Not. Going. To. Happen." With that I started to walk down the passageway and out of the bus, George Waters was already outside, probably walking to his office.
"Coach wait!" I cried for him, he stopped his track and turned on his heels to face me.
"Yes Isabella?" His voice was still husky for a sixty year old man, and he was still quite handsome, most of the girls were afraid of him, but Alice had taught me how to turn men into putty on my hands.
"Coach, I was wondering if we could discuss Blue and Gold week?"
"Oh, yes. I defiantly want to know what you girls are up to."
"It sort of involves the Football team as well. Since next week the game is on Sunday, we were wondering if you would let us do this on Friday night?" I pulled my bottom lip between my teeth and chewed on it.
"And what this would be?"
"Well, an auction." Coach looked at the same time, surprised and intrigued, but yet, interested.
"An auction?" He repeated my words.
"Yes, you see, we are aware that this is no longer high school. But the majority of the students would gladly go out with one of us, so I thought, why not put money in it? We auction the Cheerleaders and the Football Team to go Friday night on a date with the person that gives more money; all the money raised will go to charity."
Waiting for his response to the idea was nerve wracking; he had absolutely no expression written on his face what so ever. My bottom lip was being chewed on again, but all of the sudden, his lips turned into a smile.
"I like your idea Isabella. I'll talk to Dean Torres today, but you girls can officially move on with your plan and surprise the team tonight. Good Luck and Good Night."
I didn't showed on the outside but on the inside I was completely jumping up and down with happiness, and I didn't even had to pull out the big guns, like the pleading and begging and the eyes. Nothing. He accepted, I felt like kissing the old man, but obviously held me back.
"Thank you, thank you, thank you so much Coach. Good night." I could have stayed the night thanking him, but I didn't I had to run to my dorm room and tell the girls the news, yet I went along the way preparing myself to the Rosalie and Alice's questionnaire, obviously Ali had already shared with Rose her assumptions about what had happened on the back of the bus, and Rose was obviously dying to hear it from my mouth and I dreaded the moment with each step, I would probably be tackled down once I walked through the door, perhaps that's why I was standing in front of the door with any bravery to open it.
I sighed deeply and turned the knob only to find them waiting for me sitting on the bed.
"Come here Bella." Alice tapped the empty space on the bed, in front of them.
I groaned and walked to them, sitting myself and taking my sneakers off along with my socks, tossing them somewhere on the room. I crossed my legs Indian style and prepared my ears to the inquiry.
"What happened on the bus?" Alice asked.
"No Ali, don't be so hasty, Bella, we want to know what happened today, start from this afternoon, please?" Rosalie smiled kindly to me. Evil bitch from hell.
I struggled in finding my first words, wanting for them to quit the story and leave me alone. That was not going to happen, I knew it.
"Well, um… I got out of Bombshelter, and went to the same place I always go to clear my mind, and I didn't know he would come after me but he did, he said he was sorry, and we opened up Lauren's envelope, he really hadn't seen anything in there." I sighed. "Then, I got out of there, claiming that I needed to get to classes soon." I wasn't going to tell them the joke part, where he made me a little uncomfortable. "Then tonight, when I was forced to sit with him on the make out seat… We started to talk, and he, um…"
"He what?" Alice rushed me.
"He um… Triedtokissme." They stood there with confused looks all over their faces.
"Repeat that please? We didn't get a word of what you said." Rosalie could be so annoying sometimes.
"He tried to kiss me okay? On the fucking make out seat!" I let all out. "Isn't it a little obvious? He wants nothing with me, just other freaking panties on his door knob." I buried my head into my hands, my elbows on my knees.
"It's not like that Bella." Alice caressed my arm.
"I'm not stupid Ali. I know your brother better than he knows himself, I just don't know why I let this little fantasy of mine roll along." My voice was muffled by my hands.
"You know, I wouldn't be surprised if he kissed you by the end of the game. You two are so oblivious to each other and so obvious to everyone else." I lifted my head to her words.
"You know that Alice's right Bella. It's like you two are made for each other, and I know he doesn't want you to be his fuck buddy or something like that."
I was sitting on the same level of theirs now, our backs to the headboard, Rosalie's right arm around my waist, Alice's left arm over my shoulders, and their other hands holding mine.
"I just don't know what to do you guys. I've never felt like this around someone."
I was comfortable in spilling my guts out to them, I knew they wouldn't tell anyone and they would support me if I decided to continue ignoring those feelings like I've had for so long now.
"Butterflies?" Rosalie asked, I simply nodded.
"Lack of air?" Another nod.
"Flying and forgetting about the rest of the world." Another nod, their arms were around me, hugging me.
"I don't know what to do. I'm scared." I admitted at last.
"We won't push you into saying something for him Bella, we know he feels the same way, and we know he won't push you either, but give the guy a chance, isn't he worthy of your credit? I mean, he can be a womanizer sometimes, but I know my brother Bella, better than you think, and I bet he is nervous and thinking he screwed up majorly with you, talk to him, at least say a word to the poor guy."
"I just get so confused sometimes." I lied my body down a little harder than I imagined, and my calculations were all wrong, I ended up hitting my head, full force on the headboard. When the girls started to laugh, I knew our heart to heart was over, thank God for that.
"You okay there?" Rosalie asked, turning her body to look at me.
"I'm lucky today… Not bleeding." I smiled. "Okay, shouldn't we be getting ready for some party?"
"We going to knock the boys out of their minds." Alice attempted to make an evil laugh, but failed miserably.
"They won't know what hit them." And they wouldn't, but I'm sure they would gladly accept the offer.
After that we hit the showers, and got back to our dorms, Alice decided to let me slightly comfortable with myself today saying that she had already picked my clothes and letting them laying on the bed, she wouldn't mess with my hair today only makeup and according to her it wouldn't be something too much, I proceeded to blow my hair dry letting my waves free on my back, once I was done, I noticed that Rosalie was nowhere to be seen, but Alice had already finished her makeup, it was just a hint of pink eye shadow, black eyeliner, and pencil, which emphasized the blue color of her eyes even more, her lips were glossy, but transparent, and her cheeks were peach, just enough to outline her cheekbones, to sum it all up, she was hot.
"Sit, Barbie Bella." I laughed and sat on the bed, on my side there was Alice's complete collection of makeup, I barely fit on the bed.
"Where's Rose?" I frowned.
"She went on Emmett's dorm to get her Louboutins, but she's ready already, she was just waiting for you to finish blow drying you hair so she could do hers."
I let out a little 'oh' and shut myself up, letting Alice work her magic on me, it didn't took her more than ten minutes, which was a first time.
"I said it wouldn't be much Bella; don't put that surprise face on me." She said like I was offending her or something, I closed mouth and went to get myself dressed.
In thirty minutes we were all standing in the room, dressed and ready to go, Rosalie had arrived twenty minutes earlier and dried her head, her Louboutins already on.
She was dressed with a belt ruffled cream corset, which made her girls pop out a little bit, khaki shorts with a sash, a big stone set ring – which was her only piece of jewelry – and black Christian Louboutin pumps, don't even need to say she looked smokin', she only had black eyeliner and glossy lips, Alice however, had a more screaming outfit, a blue strapless glitter satin mid thigh bubble dress, glitter platform pump – that made her almost my size, if I was wearing flats – and hoop silver earrings with stones, and then we have old, boring me.
Alice had smoked some black on the end of my eyelids, a lot of mascara, making my lashes seem longer and thicker, and bronzed cheekbones, with glossy lips. She never put much color on my full lips, because I really distasted lipstick, or any kind of makeup that is, but I discovered that Alice could only push you so much.
She dressed me in black latex leggings; I would have a serious trouble getting myself out of it later, no head oversized tee that went mid thigh to me, reversible jersey vest and ruffled booties, thick heels because it would be more difficult for me to just fall down like this. I had placed one diamond stud on each lobe.
We looked hot, there was no way of arguing, even thought I felt less hot than the both of them, but I was already used to it.
I passed my hand through my hair, making it messier just a bit, and heard Alice's deep sigh.
"Okay, which car today?"
"Mine." Rosalie simply said, picking up her key and opening the door, we followed her outside of the building and into the car, which was parked in front, we hopped in and Rosalie drove away.
We got on the frat house within no time, the party was already going on, no surprise, and there were people trashy drunk, no surprise there either.
We got out of Rosalie's red BMW and started to walk down the lawn, some Britney Spears song was playing, people greeted us, and everything, we just smiled and passed by, I don't know why, but I already felt uncomfortable, I knew it wasn't my clothes or anything, just a feeling on my gut, I tried to shake it off and have a great time, tomorrow I would have to finish the paper work and I was not lingering for tomorrow.
We finally found our men, or their men, whatever, we finally found them.
"Damn baby, you're hot." Emmett said, leaning to kiss Rosalie.
"Lip gloss Emmett. Lip gloss." She turned her head to the side and he kissed her cheek.
Alice and Jasper were once again lost on their little world as usual.
"Um... Rose?" I called out to her.
"Yes?"
"Do you think you can give the news to the guys? I see a mic near DJ, you can use it." I smirked at her, and she knew what I meant.
Rosalie quickly made her way through the crowd that was dancing on the front lawn and made her way to where DJ was playing, she whispered something into his ear that made him lower the music and help her on the little stage he was standing.
"Yo, yo, yo! Hear this, hear this. The beautiful and stunning Rosalie Hale has an announcement to make." He winked at Rosalie, if there was a person who could take a compliment well, that person was Rose, and she didn't even blush.
I heard Emmett shout 'HEY' behind me and I giggled, and I thought he would already be used to that.
"Good Night everyone." Rosalie's melodic voice grabbed everyone's attention, and every single head turned to look at her. A few whistles and a few 'Rosalie you're so fucking hot' later, Rosalie was able to talk again.
"Well, the cheerleaders have a little surprised to you all." She started, winking at me, I winked back at her. "We are going to make an auction on Friday night!" Everyone looked confused. "We are auctioning ourselves and the handsome football team for a date night. The highest bitter wins… Don't miss out, Friday right after classes." Now every people in the room were clapping their hands in excitement. The football team however, looked dumbfounded. Feeling accomplished aren't we?
An evil grin played on mine, Rose and Alice's lips.
Okay, only the first part of my accomplishments was done, I would have to look for Edward now, it wouldn't be very difficult, but I didn't even dare to ask the guys or anyone for that matter. I gave the girls one last look and they knew what I was going to do.
I really couldn't imagine my life without Rosalie or Alice, they were my rocks, supporting me on whatever I did and what I chose not to do as well, we were so together but we couldn't be more different, we kind of completed each other, they give some balance in my life, they were there for me when I always needed and I was there for them when they needed as well.
They rubbed my arms and let me go, giving me courage by that simple action. I don't know if I would want to do this if I didn't have their shoulders to cry on later if everything went terribly wrong.
What if I was misjudging his actions towards me? What if all of what he wanted was get into my pants and toss me aside like a used paper tissue? What if all of this, all of what I was doing was going to make everything more difficult on both of us? What if I was about to be the Mike Newton in our friendship? My steps started to slow down by just thinking about it, I was already inside the house, and my mind was getting confused by the second, I was doing all of this the wrong way, wasn't it obvious?
He didn't want anything with me. All of my self confidence turned into self doubt, on the moment I turned my heels and saw his tongue occupied in Lauren Mallory's mouth, his beer bottle in hand. I laughed at myself, at my stupidity, I wanted to run away from there, but I couldn't stop staring could I? I bit my bottom lip for a second, my head was starting to throb, then, Lauren pulled away and he looked at me, I laughed humorlessly, not at him, at myself, and rolled my eyes. In two seconds I was out of there.
[EPOV]
I arrived at the party not long before everyone else, it hadn't even started, and the music was loud, filling my ears, I was looking for her already, I knew she wouldn't be there for another hour or so, but I wanted to talk to her, see her, touch her, anything.
Pussy whipped.
I passed my hand through my hair, letting out a sigh of frustration, I was letting myself get too enrolled in this, there was a huge probability she didn't even want to see my face, nevertheless kiss her.
"She's not here Edward." Emmett said patting my back.
"Really? I hadn't noticed" The sarcasm was heavy on my voice. "Wait, who's not here?" I tried to mend the mess I made; I didn't tell Emmett anything about my new crush.
"Bella's not here yet. We're not dumb Eddie; we see the way you look at her. The same way Jasper looks at Alice." I laughed at his comparison.
"I need a beer." And with that, I entered the house.
People still questioned me about why I wasn't a pledge for Fraternity, really? These guys are all too tidy and neat for my taste, alright I was the Captain of the Football team, but I still had bad boy on my blood, never let my leather jacket aside, I made my way indoors and started to look for the kitchen, these playboys might have to Heineken inside their fridge, of course they let the cheap beer to everyone else, but I was less than dumb.
Ah, promised land.
Not right after I reached the kitchen, and grabbed my beer, I heard Rosalie's voice saying something about an auction, I would ask the guys later, I opened the green bottle and took a sip of it. If Rosalie was here, that meant that Bella was here too, and I really had to talk to her, the house had filled up pretty quickly and everyone seemed to have a good time, I made my way trying to stay unnoticed but I almost bumped into Lauren's fake boobs.
"Sorry." I apologized before trying to make my way out of the house; she grabbed me by the jacket.
"Are you going to ignore me Edward?" Yes, yes I am, now, let go of me bitch.
"No Lauren, what do you wish?" My hand was on my hair again.
"I just wanted to for you to explain you behavior this afternoon. That was not the reaction I was predicting to the presents I sent you." She crossed her arms in front of her chest and put on an annoyed look on her face. I leaned myself against the wall.
"Look Lauren, I can't play games with you anymore." Are you really apologizing? It's not like she thought you were in love with her or something.
"Sure we can Edward; there are empty rooms upstairs we can play all sorts of games…" Before I knew it, she pulled me to her and crushed her lips on mine. I was astounded for one second before pushing her away, my eyes met Bella's, she wasn't very happy. I was screwed. I couldn't say anything to her, because she was gone sooner than I could put any words out of my mouth.
"Look Lauren, nothing is going to happen between us, ever again, face it. Today was a mistake and the last time things like this will ever happen; don't try to kiss me… Move on, I'm not the only guy in the world."
"You're the only guy in my world." She tried to make puppy dog eyes, I guess, but that didn't work so much with me, not like Bella.
God, Bella! If I wasn't already majorly screwed up with her, I was even more now. I didn't know what she was thinking or if she was thinking anything. How could I want some credit with her if I always ended up making her trust me less? I tried to kiss her this night and in the same night my lips were all over Lauren's. She was probably thinking that she was another one on my list right now. Good going Cullen.
I pushed Lauren aside and gave her my beer while making my way out of the house quicker than I thought it was possible, I needed to make this wrong right. I had to.
I didn't have to look far, I knew where she was, she liked peace and quiet when she was upset, and by the look on her face earlier, she was truly upset.
I walked out of the house and then to the backyard. Far on the backyard there were two swings, Bella occupied one, and the other one was empty… Mike Newton was beside her, talking to her.
Have I already told how much I hate Mike Newton?
I approached them, Bella had her head leaned on the chain that supported the swing, she didn't look at Mike, but I could tell he was babbling.
"Bella?" I called out to her softly. Mike looked at me, and then she did. My heard skipped a beat. You. Are. A. Chick.
Her beautiful brown eyes were sad, and she didn't even try to hide it.
"Mike, could you please, give me a minute alone with Bella?" I asked, looking at him, he looked at Bella and she simply nodded, he walked out of the backyard passing by me, I think he wanted to say something, but didn't.
I walked up to Bella; she looked down at her feet now.
"Mind if I join you?" I asked gently.
"Be my guest." Her voice was nothing more than a whisper, like she was controlling it.
I sat on the swing next to her and we stood in silence for a few minutes, waiting to see which one of us would be the first one to talk.
"Bella, I-" I started.
"Edward, I-" She started at the same time.
We laughed. "You first." She mentioned for me to talk. We were looking at each other now.
I sighed deeply. "I'm sorry for that."
"Edward, why are you apologizing? It's not like we're together or anything."
That might have hurt a little bit, but it was the simple, plain truth.
"I don't know Bella. It just seemed like the right thing to do? I mean, I did tell you on the bus I had ended everything with Lauren, and then, you saw her kissing me."
She laughed. "Well, I'm sorry too… I don't know why I stormed out of there like that. I had no right of doing so; I don't even know why I am here. I'm not mad at you Edward, I'm not… I'm just upset at myself." I don't think the last part was meant for me to hear, but I heard.
"Mad at yourself? Why?"
"Because I get too caught up on my own illusions." She whispered while getting up and starting to walk towards the house, this wasn't going to happen, I had to tell her everything, and she had to know.
I got up right after her and grabbed her by the wrist.
"What?" Her voice became shaky.
"Bella… I…" I sighed; there was no easy way of doing this. "I had the need of apologizing to you because I care about you Bella; I do… more than you think." I murmured the last part, but I could see in her eyes she didn't buy any of the truth.
"Don't lie to me Edward, I hate lies. What about that little stunt you pulled on me? On the back of the bus, really? That was so original Cullen; I'm not going to be another one on your list… You can't smooth your way in." She was getting mad.
"I'm not laying Bella; this is hard for me to do, to say." I was the one getting mad right now. That was it. Word vomit on the move… Protect yourself. "But I like you okay? I want to be with you, no one else but you. I've wanted this for a long time now; I want to be the only guy in your life." I wasn't yelling at her, I wouldn't want to scare her away or gather attention to the backyard. We didn't need audience.
"Well, I find that hard to believe Edward. Why me? Why me when you have a line gathered behind you, all of the girls that are clearly more beautiful than me. Why me?"
I shook my head in disbelief, how could she doubt herself so much.
"Because you're clumsy Bella. Because you kink your eyebrow when you're mad, and because you crinkle your nose when you're confused or disgusted. Because I get irrationally jealous whenever Newton touches you. Because I've wanted you so long, and with you, I don't need to be the Captain of the Football team, I can be myself with you. I can let go, but I won't let go of you." I was closer to her now, her breathing got erratic and I cupped her face with my hands. "And because you don't think you're beautiful, but you are, and I intend to spend a long time trying to make you see that."
I leaned my head, my forehead was on hers, my nose touched hers, and our mouths were just inches away from one another.
"Edward, what are you doin-"
I didn't let her finish the sentence, my mouth covered hers, the simple touch of her lips upon mine sent an electric shock through my body, and my imagination didn't do her lips any justice. They were warm and soft, and fit mine, like they were molded together, I traced her lower lip with my tongue, asking for entrance, she parted her lips and I let my tongue inside.
Fuck. She tasted better than I thought.
Our tongues intertwined themselves in a battle for dominance exploring each other's mouth, her arms left her sides traveled up my chest and locked firmly around my neck, her right hand massaged my scalp, while putting myself more to her, and the other rested right beneath the right. My hands left her face and my arms were mechanically around her waist, pulling her more and more to me, I really wanted to get her out of there and in one of the beds upstairs, but I had to remember myself, this was Bella, not Lauren.
We parted the kiss gasping for air my forehead resting on hers, my body fighting against any kind of distance from hers, a smile played on my lips as well on hers as we looked into each other's eyes.
"I care about you too Edward. For so long now."
She gave me another kiss; this one was smoother and less urgent than the last one. When we pulled apart again, Bella rested her forehead in my chest and my arms embraced her. I felt like a huge weight was lifted off my shoulders, and I was more than glad to find out she felt the same way about me, hell, I was in fucking heaven. Being close like this to Bella, just embracing her was enough.
For now, right? Shut up.
A/N2: Please remember that the lines in Italic are from mean Edward in EPOV, ok? And remeber that Bella is completely messed up. Don't think she gave in just yet. Leave me some love so I can get quicker to the lemons and very much drama.