The snow melted, and spring surfaced. It was early april, Grandpa said my growth had slowed down to almost a crawl, and in just a couple months id be fully matured. I was excited to be able to wake up not looking different. I was nervous, because I would look the same after wards for the rest of my life.
Daddy declared my home schooling over for the summer, saying he would need to read new material to teach me. I laughed at that.
I could feel the changes in me, not physical, but mentally. I was getting better at controlling my emotions, and I felt my childish tendencies start to fade. Most of my toys and stuffed animals got put away, I only kept one out. A stuffed wolf that jacob had given to me when I was 2.
Daddy suggested I picked up a hobby, so he started leaving books in my room for me to read. I loved reading them, but I finished them quickly, so I also studied art and grandma taught me how to paint. I excelled passed her quickly and fell in love with painting. My life was almost perfect, except for the whispered conversations that started behind closed doors.
One night me and jacob were having a horror movie marathon, eating pizza and laughing at the gore on tv. As one movie ended, mom and dad came in to the big house, after going 'hunting'. Ew. They turned off the tv, sitting down and facing me and jake. Uh oh. This can't be good.
"Whats going on?" Jacob sounded alarmed, and I could see he knew something was wrong.
Dad spoke first. "Renesmee, Jacob. The family has been discussing something and its time we talk about it..."he paused, And Jacob grabbed my hand. Mama looked sad.
He sighed. "Im afraid..the time has come when we need to move on." He paused, letting it sink in. "We've spent to much time here already, we didn't wanna move while you were growing so fast sweatheart. But if we stay here any longer, im afraid things might get dangerous." He said.
He looked at Jacob, who for the first time looked pale, and like someone had punched him. I understood, Jacob was part of me, he was my Jacob. I couldn't leave him. Dad nodded, he must have been listening to Jacob's thoughts.
"We decided on Montana, its not two far away, just two states. It has a decent amount of over cast days." Mama put her hand on dads, stopping him.
"Nessie baby, why don't you go to the cottage and process. We can finish this conversation tomorrow." Her voice was gentle, and I was greatful. I felt like everything was falling apart. Slipping away. Jacob. My Jacob, Not with me. I stood and left, mechanically. To over whelmed to think. I sat on my bed, in my pjs, for I don't know how long. Just stunned, what would I do? I couldnt imagine my life without Jacob.
I didn't hear him come into the cottage, or knock on my door, but suddenly he was there, sitting on my bed pulling me into his arms. Wiping the tears from my face, he kissed my forhead, And rocked me gently back and forth. I touched his cheek. What are we ganna do my Jacob? I was trying to stay calm, but the tears pooled again.
"Dont cry Nessie. Its okay. Shhh." He held me tighter. "Im not going anywhere hunny. You can't get ride of me that easily." He whisperd. But dad said? "I know what he said. But that doesn't matter, im not leaving you. Im coming with you guys. I already talked to Bella and Edward and its ganna be okay."
I pulled back, stunned. My hand fell. "But Jacob, I dont understand. You cant just leave everything. What about your work? And the pack, and Billy and Rachel. You cant leave your family for me."
I shook my head, the tears coming again. He caught my face, stopping me and looked into my eyes. "Renesmee, you are my family. You are my imprint. I cannot live without you, the rest ill deal with. Billy will understand and he has Rachel. Im sure Leah would love to be incharge of the pack and I won't be that far away. I'll check in and if they need me ill be half a day runs away. And as for work, we've talking about hiring a manager to deal with finances and ordering." He breathed loudly, soundng nervous.
"Instead, I think once we move. Im going to finish school online and look into some business courses at a local collage.." He said, sounding very unsure of himself.
"Jacob, that's amazing. You would do so good." I was so proud. I hugged him tightly, feeling grateful he was there. "are you sure?" I whisperd. " Absolutely hunny. Im not going anywhere." I felt so much better. I laid with him for a while, my head on his chest and fell asleep there.
I dreamed of jacob that night, we were out in the city, hanging out like we usually did. When he wrapped his arms around me and hugged me tight, I didn't wanna let go. Hed hugged me a million times in my life, but this felt diffrent.
I woke up the next morning, but I couldn't remember any dreams. I sat down to talk with mama and dad that day. They went over the details. We were moving to Kalispell Montana.
Grandma and grandpa had purchased a older built property that butted against the flathead national park, it was over two thousand miles of forest and touched parts of Canada. Grandma wanted to do some remodeling to the house first, so we had till the end of july till we moved.
That summer seemed to come so fast. I spent time with Jake, and when he wasn't there, diong pack things, I painted, or worked with grandma. She came to me a couple weeks after that first talk with mom and dad, explaining her project and wanted my help. She showed me the plans for our new house, explaining anything I didn't understand.
She wanted my help, with designing my room, and Jacob's guest house. Behind the big house, was an in ground pool, and off to the side of that, was a pool house. Grandma wanted Jacob to feel at home, so she planned him his own place. It was so pretty I was jealous. The outside matched the big white house, with big windows wrapping around his place. That was were the similarities ended. While grandma and my vampire family seemed to enjoy the white on cream scheme, grandma planned Jacob's to his style better.
She had me pick all the colors, warm browns, dark greens, and beige. We both decided on furniture, picking large sturdy peices. Jacob's home had two bedrooms. His master, and a guest room, each had there own bathroom. Off his bedroom was french doors, that lead to his own little private patteo, that was blocked from the big house.
I smiled so hugely when she told me that I was so grown up she had to rethink my whole bedroom scheme. I picked out colors, and furniture and was so excited it made leaveing forks almost bearable. Grandpa charlie was sad when we told him, but said he had never been to Montana and would have to visit.
Most things were set and it was the beginning of july. Forks had one of its rare heat waves, and me and Jake were outside. Hiding under a big oak tree, having a grandma aproved picnic. He was shirtless, wearing his cut off jeans and laying on the grass. His arms and legs spread out around him. I copied him, basking in the cool shade.
"It is so friken hot." I complained, pulling my tanktop from my sticky skin. I was in my shortest shorts, and lightest tank top, And I was sweating. I didn't even know I could sweat, thats how hot it was.
He laughed. "When did you learn big kid words?" I stuck my tongue out at him.
"You know Jacob, I am almost an adult."
I glanced at him. His tan russet skin always me jealous. It contrasted so well with his white teeth. I had began to understand some of the emotion's mama told me about. I always new Jacob was handsome, but so was the rest of the men in my family. It was a fact. But I had started to recognize certain parts of why he was so good looking.
First, were his eyes. They were so dark brown sometimes you would swear they were black. And so full of emotion. He has perfect control of his face most of the time, but his eyes. In those eyes I could see everything. Next was his smile. He had the ability to lighten my whole entire day, with one his famous smiles. Last, was his muscles. This man was wrapped, from head to toe in muscles. My eyes unfocused, and my heart seemed to beat louder, thinking of Jacob and his muscles. "Ahum." My eyes focused, and I realized I was staring. I blushed, and looked away.
"As I was saying, I do know swear words." He laughed, seeming unfazed bye my embarrassment. "oh ya, like what?" His voice was challenging. I turned back towards him, and his face was confident, a smirk on his lips. Well, he started it. I smiled innocently, turning onto my stomach and looking into his eyes. "Fuck." His eyes grew, there depths pulling me in. I couldn't help but laugh at his expression. He watched me for a second, his eyes darting from my face to, what? I looked down at myself, noticing how low my tank top was, had jacob really been looking at me? When I looked back up his eyes were at the sky. But it almost looked like he was blushing, under his tan skin.
"Were did you learn that from?" He asked, I couldnt help but laugh. "You should here yourself when u play xbox with Emmett, thats not the worst thing iv heard you say." He frowned, but before he could say anything more footsteps approached and mom and dad were making there way to us.
I sat up, pulling my top up alittle and willing my blush away. They paused infront of us, and dad glanced between Jake and I, raising his eyebrows at me but didn't comment.
"Whats up edward?" Jacob asked, Mom answered.
"We wanted to talk to Renesmee about something."
Oh no. Not again. Mom settled on the grass infront of me and Jake, but she didn't look upset or sad.
"Me and your father have been talking, and we understand how hard things have been for you, growing up the way you did. Your birthday is coming up soon, and you'll be full grown." Did Jacob see how dads eyes flashed to his?
"soo...we've decided, that if you want to, when we move. We could enroll you in highschool." She finished and smiled.
I sat still, processing this information. Wait, what? I looked at dad, asking him with my thoughts if she was serious. He nodded. The excitement bubbled up and I launched myself into moms arms. "Really? Oh my god, mom. This is ganna be awsome." I squealed, and she laughed at me. I stood, and wrapped my arms around dad, thanking him repeatedly in my head. "Your welcome." He said, chuckling, but stepped back and held me still. "Know Ness, I know your excited but there's alot of things you need to learn if you want to do this. Mom and I will take care of the paper work. You will start some lessons with grandpa Carlisle, on how to be fully human. He's already stopped working at the hospital, so he'll have plenty of time to teach you." I nodded, and they left.
I laid back down on the ground, thinking about what it would be like. I knew they probably wouldn't teach me anything I didn't already know. I wasn't going to school to be smart, I was going to be normal, and I loved my parents so much for letting me.
When I glanced at Jake, he looked lost in thought, frowning. I placed my hand on his arm, trying to ignore the way his warm skin felt on mine. Whats wrong jake? I could see my question make its way into his mind. He smiled, but it didn't seem genuine. "Nothing ness, why do u ask?" I put the image of his own frown into my touch. "Its nothing Ness, im happy for you. Your ganna love it." He moved his arm away from me, placing it under his head.
"Jake, whats it like?" I asked. "What? Highschool?" I nodded. " Its been a long time since iv been there, about 7 years." He smiled. I didn't. I didn't like thinking that Jake had put his whole life one hold for me. To help raise me, to care for me. I knew he imprinted on me, and that meant we couldn't live without eachother, we wouldn't want to. But he put aside everything for me. I frowned.
"Why Jake? I mean...I know the imprint makes you stay, but why put me before everything?" I just didnt understand. He sat up, leaning half over me to look at my eyes.
"First thing, Renesmee." I paid close attention, Jake only called me bye my real name when he was serious. "The imprint, does not make me stay. Yes I didn't have control over who I imprinted on, but I wouldn't have imprinted on anyone but you. Its complicated, and I'll tell you more when your ready." I meant to protest. To tell him im not a little girl anymore. He placed his palm on my cheek. " I know your not little anymore Ness, believe me I know that. Your almost an adult, but we have forever. Dont rush it hunny. But my point is, im here cause I want to be. These years have been nothing short of amazing. Watching you grow up, become this beautiful young woman, and conquer everything in your step. I wouldn't want to be anywere but here. Okay?" All i could do was nod.
"Secoundly, I didn't put you infront of everything. I became the alpha of both pacts, I helped build the garage and work there. But you were my priority. You grew so fast I didn't wanna miss anything. I guess part of me was just...waiting for you to catch up. Soon we can be adult's together." He chuckled.
I couldn't help but feel butterflies at his words. I knew he was right, we did have forever together, and I knew better then to indulge in my crush of him so soon. But part of me loved that he was waiting for me, to grow up and be an adult with him. I smiled and nodded.
"Okay Jacob."
He smiled and leaned down. Ever since I was born he had kissed my forehead. Before bed, when he saw me, or whenever I was sad. It was a natural thing for him. But this time, his warm touch landed on my cheek, causing them to burn. "Know, why dont we go to my dads house and start packing my things?"