A/N: I started this story around season 2 so no present season plots/character changes will be in it right now i.e- George dying, Lexie, Izzie cancer stuff. I might just go back and rewrite it to fit the current season...tell me what you think about that....but right now I'm just updating. Thanks for reading and reviews much appreciated. Also I think from this point on I'm going to make the story entirely in Meredith's point of view.

"Grey, Yang, Karev and Stevens I need you down at the pit now. There are five school shooting victims coming in and they will need surgery."

School shooting. Every time I hear that word now I get a little scared. Yeah I would hear about a local school shooting or some kind of threat and it's bad I get that but a local school shooting now-a local school shooting that could possibly be at my baby sister's school? That definitely scares the shit out of me. It shouldn't right? What are the chances? But it does and as we run down to the pit I pray that Madison is no where to be seen.

The first ambulence pulls up and the doors bust open.

"What do we got?"

" Tyler Keller, Eighteen year old male, one shot to the upper chest, one to the lower abdomen. Bleeding has been stabilized."

"I'll take him!" I hear Christina shout.

I look over at the teen and see him attempting to talk.

"Don't try to talk right now. Concentrate on breathing." I shout as Christina runs with the EMT who wheels him away. Two more ambulances pull up and the four of us wait anxiously.

"Katie Butler, sixteen year old female, bullet went through the right bicep."

"Eh yours."

"Alex!" I give him a disgusted look and turn to wheel Katie away.

"Madison Grey, fifteen year old female, one shot to lower abdomen, one shot to right shoulder."

I stop running and turn around at my sister's name.

"Meredith! Meredith! You need to take Katie inside. She needs surgery NOW. Meredith!" I hear Dr. Bailey yell but my body has immobilized.

"I'll take her." Izzie comes to my rescue. I do nothing but stand there as Katie and my sister are wheeled past me and then my senses kick back in. I start running beside the EMT wheeling my sister.

"What happened?" I yelled.

"Two crazy teens opened fire on their cafeteria this morning. Most got out safely but these five weren't so lucky."

Two more people were wheeled in behind us.

"Okay more critical cases need OR preference. Grey take Madison to OR 1, Yang should be in 2 and O' Malley take the brain bullet to 3. Shepard has rescheduled his craniotomy and should already be in there."

This isn't happening. This is not happening. My sister is bleeding and lying on a gurney below me. I finally get her into OR 1 but don't let my breath out yet.

"Grey you need to leave now."

"What? Dr. Burke this is my sister I need to be here!"

"I'm aware this is your sister Dr. Grey and because of that you need to leave. Now."

Seriously? I stalk out of the OR and practically run into Melanie. I start to cry when she looks up at me with her swollen face and red watery eyes.

"Mer?"

"It's her. She's...She's stabilized. She's in surgery now but Burke kicked me out."

"What?!"

"We just need to...we need to wait."

Exhaustion was taking over my body. How could this be happening right now? Her school had 3,000. 3,000 students and my little sister was one of the five that were shot. I sink down to the floor and start feel tears run down my face. I squeeze my eyes trying to get the last one to fall but it's not point they keep coming. Melanie sits beside me and is silent.

"Meredith?"

I look up into watery eyes once again. Blue eyes staring me in the face.

"Derek. I thought you were in surgery with the boy who had the bullet in the brain."

"We lost him." He says, emotion drained from his voice. "Too much bleeding. How's it going? How is she?"

"I don't know. Burke won't let me in."

"...You want to watch from the galley?"

"...No.

Derek sits down to my left side and embraces me and whispers in my ear.

"It'll be okay. She'll be okay. She's so strong."

I bring my head up to face him.

"...I'm scared."

"I know, I know. It's going to be okay."

We sit like this for hours-me holding Melanie's hand, Derek holding me. Finally I hear the door open and Dr. Burke steps out. We immediately stand and wait for my sister's condition.

"She's stable. We restabilized the artery nicked in the right shoulder and the abdomen damage was solely internal bleeding. Thankfully no severe damage to any organs." He takes off his cap and rubs his eyes. "She's strong yes, but she will be extremely weak and in and out these next few days. They're taking her to ICU now."

I turn and walk as fast as I can without feeling light headed. Derek and Melanie are right behind me as we make our way to ICU. I gasp when I see Madison on her bed. I shouldn't really, I'm a surgeon, I see much worse than a wrapped up shoulder and stomach but it is my sister's wrapped up shoulder and stomach. I go into her room and take her right hand while Melanie takes her left.

"Hey baby girl. Time to wake up now. Please. Please. Please." I whisper and wait for her to acknowledge our presence.

"Mer."I barely hear her croak.

"Oh my gosh. Thank God." Melanie and I both start to cry again as I watch Madison's eyes open.

"Mer.... Where's...Lucas?"

My heart stops. Lucas...Lucas Brandon....was he brought in? Was my sister's best friend shot as well?

I turn towards Derek and his face confirms my theory. Oh my gosh. My sister's best friend just died from a bullet in the brain.

"Sweetheart, I'll be right back okay? I've been with you this whole time and I didn't know he was brought in."

"I think he was shot Mer...like...really...badly."

"I'll see okay?" I shoot Melanie a face that says I'll fill her in later. I wait till I'm out of their seeing distance to grab Derek's arm and ask him.

"Derek please. Please do not tell me you operated on Lucas Brandon."

"Meredith, he...I couldn't have..."

"That is her best friend!" I sigh and let the shock wash over me. "Her best friend was shot in the head and died. What do I tell her? The first thing she asked about was Lucas and he's...he's dead? I can't do this." I turn to walk away. Walk outside, walk to a room, just be anywhere but here. Before I could run Derek grabbed my arm

"Meredith there was nothing I could do. They thought the bullet just skimmed his frontal lobe but it went deeper than that...there was just too much bleeding. But you are not going anywhere besides back into room 32C and you have to tell her Meredith."

"You do it. You're the one that killed him."

I shouldn't have said it. I shouldn't have. But I did.

"You're upset and you're pushing away. I don't care though. I will not have you put this one me Meredith. I won't."

I take a deep breathe and look up at Derek.

"This will kill her. I need to wait."

"Meredith..."

"I'm going to wait until tomorrow. She needs a day to rest. I'm waiting until tomorrow."

We walk back into the room and I let out a deep breath when I see Madison asleep in her bed. She looks so young, so innocent, so peaceful but part of her life was taken away from her today.

"I have to go. Sloan needs my help on the girl with the bullet through her arm."

"Okay."

"Mer...it'll be alright, okay?"

He leans down and pecks my on the cheek then leaves the room.

I scoot my chair closer to Madison's bed and stare at her face. Melanie's voice takes me from my thoughts.

"He's dead isn't he?"

"Yeah. He's dead."