Sorry for the late update! Also sorry for writing a different chapter. I said this chapter would be "Visitor" but I felt that if this could come first the better. I won't keep you more from the chapter go ahead and enjoy this chapter. I don't own Fairytail but yes, this plot is mine…. Any complaints, let me know.

Chapter-4 I wish I could say

"What the hell is wrong with you, Natsu?" Lucy screamed.

"That's what I have been asking you? What the hell is wrong with you, Lucy? Why were you standing so close to that man?" he shouted.

"That man?" Lucy said as a baffled expression crept on her face.

"He would have even kissed you if that girl hadn't arrived," Natsu scowled at the thought of her kissing him.

"You mean that man… You're pissed off only because of that man…. Let me clear your misunderstanding… He, just asked me some help to make that girl confess to him," she said as she crossed her arms against her chest. It didn't strike her fast but now it struck her. She cocked an eyebrow.

"Wait! Why are you asking me about such a thing? Are you… jealous or something?" she said in a teasing manner but Natsu didn't seem to be playing any jokes. He was serious, damn serious…

"Why in the hell did you agree in first place?" he shouted at her. It isn't usual that he'd shout at her. Something was wrong with him, terribly wrong. Lucy was annoyed at his strange behaviour and blurted out the first thing that came to her mind.

"Why are you so overprotective of me? What are you to me anyway?" She was annoyed and she couldn't control herself from saying what she has said. It was strange. Natsu wasn't this type. He was fun loving and he wouldn't have mind that at all. At least that was what she thought.

Little did she knew that the things she blurted out had pierced through his heart and the next thing she saw was him approaching her, pinning her to the wall. Her eyes went wide. Drops of sweat appeared on her forehead as she saw through his eyes, his face very close to her, almost inches away. There was no room for escape…However; the thought of escaping never crossed her. It was his eyes. Though his face kept on a serious expression, his eyes showed hurt, very badly. Did she hurt him? Why not? He'd be hurt by all those fierce words that shot into his heart like arrows. After all, being a nakama for years now and hearing his nakama say that he means nothing to her; no one was going to forgive her. She regretted what she said. She didn't mean it. She was just so annoyed by his actions that she just blurted out stupid things that crossed her mind. Without her notice, tears appeared at the corner of her eyes as she heard him speak.

"What am I to you?" he said, hurt evident in his voice, "Don't you know what I am to you?"

She flinched. Tears were rolled in his eyes. She didn't mean to hurt him….

"Natsu?" Never had she seen the dragon slayer this way. An awkward silence filled the air between them. A kind of tension that developed. Their eyes were locked with each other.

"Never say that….." he said, in a low but hurt voice, his head bowed letting his bangs cover his eyes, "Do you know how it feels to see you with some other guy. I feel like beating him up to death. Why do you do this to me, huh? It was never like this before… not with any other girl at least. We were normal, right? We were best friends. Then why do I have this feeling all of a sudden which tells me to kill any guy, nakama or not, whom I see with you? Why do I feel like killing anyone who has hurt you or even made you cry? Why do I feel so sad when you're not around? Why do I go crazy when you're with me? Why does my heart beats fast and my breathe stops at your very sight? You do all of this and yet say I'm nothing to you….. Never say that… Never say that! Or I'm going to kill myself before I hear those words again," he said.

She was shocked. She was so shocked that she was rendered speechless, let alone to react. It was like he was drunk or something. He didn't have any control on what he said or did. The next thing she knew was a pair of hands, wrapping her closer as her hands moved to his chest, her eyes never leaving his. His face was now incredibly close. He didn't even realise what he was doing and she was too shocked to even utter anything. And the gap between them was closed. He was kissing her, his eyes automatically closed. Her eyes widened even more. She just couldn't think. She just couldn't react. Has he confessed to her? She was confused. Her heart began racing like it has never before. She has never felt it before but now she cannot deny what she has been feeling. Only one question crossed her mind. Is Natsu aware of what he said or did? It didn't seem so…. In fact he didn't even know that he was kissing her. And what happened next has left her even more confused.

He slowly opened his eyes as he pulled back from her, only to see a confused Lucy. He realised what he did and he stepped back in horror. Before even she could say something, he ran away from her jumping out of her window.

"Natsu!" she shouted but he didn't turn back.

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"Natsu!" came a yelp from the blonde as she just sat up on her bed. Emi was still asleep. Lucky she, Emi was a deep sleeper, just like him. Otherwise she would have been worried sick about her mother, hearing her squeal in the middle of the night. She would relentlessly keep on questioning her about why was she shouting, if she had a nightmare, who was Natsu? Or so on.. A smile crept on her face as she heard the sleeping little girl snore. She brushed her hair gently, so as not to wake her up. It wasn't unusual for Lucy. It wasn't only this night she woke up like this. Every night she wakes up in the middle of night, calling out his name. Why does she do that? That too, when practically, they were away. What is it that is eating her away?

She tried moving but a little pair of arms obstructed her motion. Lucy looked at her beloved daughter. She knew there was no point struggling as her grip was as tight as his. She would never let her go. Lucy bent her head down and kissed her daughter's forehead, making her loosen her grip. Actually, she turned to other side. Lucy knew this trick would always work. It was the same with him but his grip used to tighten soon. She just couldn't help getting out of his hold.

Wait! Why is she thinking about him? She shouldn't…. That isn't…. May be she can't help but think about him. She got up from, making her way to the window. She let the cold wind hit her face as she peeped through the window, looking at the clear night sky. She felt her eyes moisten and a memory that seemed still fresh surfaced.

"Lucy, I love you… I love you more than my own life,"

This was what she cherished. It was something he had told her…. Something that he told her, when he confessed to her, under the stars.

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"Natsu! Wait!" he heard the blonde shout but he didn't stop. He just couldn't. He behaved so badly with her a moment ago. He felt like dying before he faced her. What made him change so much? Lucy? Was she the reason for everything that is happening in his life? Why? Why? It wasn't like this before. Why now? He questioned himself twice, thrice, several times but yet he found no answer. He was angry with himself. He wanted to run away from her. He did not want to experience her spite. Why him? Why did it have to be because of her? He never thought he had to run away from her. Why was she so on his head? Why? He was messed up in his own thoughts…. He didn't stop for her.

She ran after him as fast as she could. She was panting heavily. Breathing became difficult for her. She could no longer run now and he wouldn't stop for her. He wanted to go away from her and that's when he smelt salt. His eyes went wide. The thought of it actually made him angry. He turned back only to see her cry, tears slid down her porcelain cheeks. Was he the reason she was crying? Now he felt even guiltier than before.

"Lucy?" He stopped, going away. His legs drove him in her direction. He lost control of his own body, acting on his own. She seemed to be broken. He just couldn't leave her to cry…. He just couldn't….

He ran to her, cupping her face as he brushed away her tears with his thumbs.

"N-n-natsu… W-w-w-what-t-t ma-a-ade-e-e you-u-u-u-"she couldn't even complete her sentence as she broke down into tears, clenching onto his shirt and hugging him tight. She didn't want to let him go. He was the world for her. How could she let him go? Not ever. Not for the world. Not for anyone, would she let him go. He meant so much to her. May be life wasn't worth living without him. Why did he make her feel that way? Why did she feel like dying at the thought of losing him?

"Natsu, I'm really sorry. I didn't mean that…. I'm really really really sorry. Please, don't you ever leave me. I cannot LIVE WITHOUT YOU", she blurted out, still not letting him go for he may leave her if she just lets him. His eyes widened as he now realised what the strange feeling in his heart was. He loved her. He truly loved her… with all his heart and that's what he whispered to her the next moment.

"Even if you've really thought I was nothing to you… But you mean the world to me," he said, "Lucy, I love you….. I love you more than my own life"

"I love you too, idiot," she said, digging deep into his chest. "Just don't ever scare me…. Just because I blurted out something very stupid and weird, okay? I just can't bear to lose you, Natsu," she said as she felt his grip on her tighten, assuring that he was there for her…. Always…..

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"I love you, Natsu….even today…" A tear slid from her chocolate brown orbs, "Even after whatever happened, I still want you. You still mean the world to me…. Say that….. Say that you never meant it….. Just once…. Say that you still want me….. Just once….. say that you still love me…. Just come back to me, would you?" she said to no one in particular as another tear made its way down.

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A gentle breeze of wind hit the dragon slayer's face as he sat at the window sill, gazing at the clear night sky. Happy was already asleep, oblivious to the fact that she has arrived. His eyes were all tearful.

"I wish I could say I love you, Lucy. I wish I could tell you how much you still mean to me…. I wish I could say that the world means nothing to me compared to you. I wish I could say stay with me, weirdo. I wish I could kiss you and hold you the same way I used to. I wish I could but I don't want you in this darkness I already am in," he said in a low voice, as a tear made its way down his tanned cheeks….

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