Alice's POV

I know Jasper thinks he's doing the right thing by keeping his feelings hidden from Bella. I can see his point. She's so broken and dependant on him that he thinks she'll feel obligated to be with him. But she loves him too. It's the only reason she stays here. She tries to make him happy, she tries to quit the clubs and the drinking but she's too deep into it. On top of all that she thinks we both think of her as a child we are responsible for. I tell her all the time that's not true. We both love her like family. Jasper brought her home after we had been dating for just a few months. It took me a little while to get used to having her around all the time but I came to love her like a little sister and I thought Jasper felt the same way. But as the months went on I watched him fall in love with her. He was so busy running his family business and taking care of her he didn't even notice. So I broke up with him and told him why and I've watched him suffer having her so close but staying so distance from her ever since. I agreed with it at first since she was 15 and he was 18. But she's 17 now! He's trying to push her at Emmett and I don't see the point in that at all. He's not a bad guy but he's in love with Bella from two years ago and that is not who she is anymore. She's starved for attention though and could easily confuse that for love. Not that it matters. He managed to piss her off and she is stubborn. Chances are she will refuse to see him for a very long time, if ever.

"Ali, why aren't you and Jasper together anymore? You seemed so happy when I first moved here. Is it my fault?" Bella asks sadly. This seems like a good time to tell her the truth even though Jasper might kill me.

"It's not your fault. We just fell out of love. He actually has feelings for someone else and he has for a long time." I watch her reaction and see the hurt in her eyes.

"Does she not love him back?" She sounds heartbroken. I wonder if he will try to force me out of her life for this.

"I think she does, but Jasper is too stubborn to tell her how he feels."

And she starts crying and asks me if it's because he doesn't want to get involved with someone when she is still here being a burden.

"Bella, you are not a burden to him. He loves you. It's you and has been you for a long time now." Now she looks confused.

"But I thought he wanted me to love Emmett."

"He thinks Emmett is suitable for you. And he doesn't think he can be with you because he thinks you will feel trapped." And now I know I'm banned if not dead.

"Trapped?" She's not getting this at all.

"Like you won't feel like you have a choice in being with him after all he's done for you." She finally gets it and she's mad. That's not what I expected.

"He thinks I'm that weak and pathetic? That I would pretend to love him out of obligation? Does it not matter that I really do love him!" I knew it! "He's takes such good care of me and I treat him so bad but I do love him. I try to be good enough for him but it never seems to be enough. So then I figure why the hell not sneak out and get drunk and sleep with whoever will take me home. He won't even hug me Ali."

He thought she never noticed. He won't hug her because he thinks she will be able to feel that he loves her like a lover more than a sister. Which is stupid because she's screwed up and usually drunk so I doubt she would read much into a hug? He really has issues.

"What can I do to make him see I'm good enough Ali?"

"It's not about you not being good enough Bella. He just wants you to be able to support yourself so you know you have the option to leave if you ever want to."

"Can I tell him you told me? I don't want him to be mad at you."

"He will be mad but you can tell him. You should tell him. I'm tired of the secrets." I'm actually relieved.

"What if he won't let me see you anymore?" She's panicking.

"Has he ever refused you anything you really want Bella?" She shakes her head no.

"Let's go to lunch and he should be home by time we get back." I know he feels like crap for yelling at her.

"Ali? I don't want to drink anymore." She sounds serious.

"Then I will do everything I can to help you." It will be a long hard road but this is the first time she's ever mentioned wanting to quit.

Bella's POV

We go to lunch and all I can think about is Japer. Has he really loved me all this time? Why would he keep his feeling from me and worse act like I disgust him? I've known I loved him for a long time but I think sometimes I didn't know as soon as it happened. I loved Edward so my concept of a relationship is a bit screwed up. Then one day I realized he's all I think about and how it's always good things and how I can truly be myself around him and never have to worry about him judging me. Even if sometimes I totally deserve judgment. And I thought this must be love. And if it's not then I don't want to be in love because I can't handle caring about someone more than this.

Still I was excited to spend time with Emmett because I wanted someone to WANT to hang out with me instead of it being a responsibility. But the second he went all control freak I was done. Maybe I overreacted but I don't care.

Now I just have to make Jasper see that I am good enough for him and that I love him out of love not obligation. And I have to start but not drinking and not going to clubs anymore. Ali tells me they will both do whatever they have to do to help me. We finish lunch and head home. I'm tired and I want to sleep and I'm hoping he's not home yet. But he is.

"Bella, I am so sorry for you yelling at you earlier! You just frustrate me to no end. All I want is for you to be happy." He says as soon as we walk through the door.

"Because you love me right? But you didn't want me to know because you didn't want me to feel trapped? Right?" I come off as a bitch but I'm just really emotional.

He tells Ali he's going to kill her and she tells him he can do it as soon as she helps me get into bed.

I lay awake listening to them fight until she leaves. I want to go tell him everything I feel for him but he kept his feelings a secret for almost two years. He can wait until after my nap.