Hi there. This story is so dramatic, it's ridiculous. Let me know if you think it's good, bad, and thanks for all the reviews. PM me also, please. FF isn't working exaactly right like it should. Oh, and I got a blonde wig lately. I was wearing it and I was all, "Oh Kanou-san, don't rape me even though I'm amazingly sexy, ohhhh." And my friend, who is blonde, was all, "Um, yeah. You can't be Ayase." "Why not?" "You're black, ya dildo."

I think my depression's gotten worse...That, and it's now 2012. Yay for the end, folks.

Kanou POV

His foot jiggled on his knee. His cigarette just barely hung in his mouth as he stared aimlessly out the window. Ayase hadn't left the room for 8 hours. It was 4:00 in the afternoon. Kanou looked toward the clock. 4:05. He glanced down at the marks on his hand. Ayase bit him. Ayase bit him. Rage bubbled in his stomach, but fell as quickly as it came. His throat hurt. He thought of rising for some water, or coffee, or both, but didn't move. The room had been quiet since 8:00 that morning. Kanou remembered pounding on the door, shouting Ayase's name. There had been no answer. Kanou stubbed out his cigarette and lit a fresh one.

Ayase.

Ayase.

Ayase.

Kanou's foot stopped moving. What the hell am I doing? He sat up straight. I'm in the fucking yakuza! This is what stops me? This is what brings me down? This hormonal, selfish, ungrateful teenager!

Kanou stood up, and dropped his cigarette. Why? Why Ayase? Why not so many of those women, why this boy?...

Because I love him.

Kanou's heart thudded in his chest. He sat down, his eyesight suddenly blurred.

Because I love him and his child.

And I can't lose him.

He felt his heart pounding, and his chest felt closed. This is what happens when you fall for someone...you can't leave them.

He looked down at his feet. The cigarette burned a circle into the white carpet.

Ayase.

The circle turned red, then orange, as a flame flickered toward his foot.

Ayase.

All he could see was the blurred reds, oranges, yellows.

I love you...

"Kanou-san! What are you doing?" Something was hitting his foot.

Kanou looked down. Ayase was batting out the fire with a towel. He blinked back tears and stared at the angel coming to his rescue. Ayase slapped at the flame until it backed down, meeting its match. Ayase's huge blue eyes blinked up at Kanou. He felt a pang in his heart as he saw how red they were.

"Ayase-" He started, but stopped. Ayase stood up slowly, his hand on his stomach, the other one feeling his way backwards to the room. Kanou reached toward him. In an instant, Ayase recoiled, reeling out of his grasp. Kanou made a mad dash for him.

"Ah-" Ayase fell backwards onto the ground, but Kanou, propelled forward, landed on top of him.

"Ayase! Are you okay?" Kanou asked, suddenly sitting up so he wasn't crushing his tiny love. Ayase groaned, and gripped at his abdomen.

"Ohh...Kanou, that hurt..." He said softly, gasping for air. Kanou pulled him into his chest, and rubbed his back, his own heart fluttering. Ayase gulped in air, and pushed away from Kanou, who held him closer. "Kanou!" Ayase screeched, "I can't breathe!" Kanou immediately let go of Ayase, who fell back to the ground.

Kanou leaned over him. He pinned Ayase's hands above him so that he couldn't move and stared at the teen kicking and squirming beneath him. Eventually, Ayase noticed that he wasn't doing anything and stopped moving, looking up at Kanou curiously. Kanou silently offered one hand, which Ayase took, never moving his eyes from Kanou's. Kanou led him to the couch, where he took Ayase into his lap. Ayase blinked large blue eyes, and let Kanou run his hands through his hair.

"Small animals don't do well with loud noises and sudden movements."

Kanou slowly moved both his hands to cover Ayase's. His hands were so small that he covered them both with only one hand. He blinked rapidly.

"Kanou-san, are you alright?" Kanou's head snapped up. Kind blue eyes stared into his black ones with only concern. The lump in his throat was back. He cleared it.

"I want us to be good parents." Ayase's eyes widened to their full size. "I want to provide for you and this...our child. And I can, I will, Ayase. I want to be... a father to your child."

He reached blindly for his phone on the couch, keeping his eyes on Ayase's face. He picked it up, and began to dial. Ayase looked down at his hand. "Who-who are you calling?"

Kanou ignored him. "Someya?" He said, his voice hard and official again. Ayase sat up straight. "I need you to look into the hospitals for...childcare...and pregnancy classes. Yes, whatever, child birth classes! Just do it, you stupid crossdresser!" He shouted at the phone before hanging up. He sat there fuming until he felt a warmth on his shoulder.

Kanou looked down. Ayase had lain his head on his left shoulder, his eyes closed. His mouth was curved into a smile. Kanou's heart melted, and he ran his long fingers through Ayases soft, straight hair. Ayase blinked up at him, and his lips moved, but Kanou didn't hear anything at all. He stood and carried Ayase to the bedroom. Ayase gripped his shirt, but Kanou opened the door without difficulty. He laid Ayase down on the bed before him, and smiled softly at the boy.

Ayase's lips trembled. He spoke something else, a name perhaps, but Kanou leaned in and kissed those lips carefully. As he pulled back, Ayase stared at him fearfully, gripping handfuls of the sheets in his fists, but Kanou simply slipped off his shoes, crawled under the sheets, and pulled Ayase close.

Ayase POV

His body tensed in Kanou's arms, but his hands were soft and warm on his back. Ayase leaned into Kanou's chest, allowing the heat to enclose him. He let his eyes close, and felt lips on his forehead. Words were spoked to him, but even as he tried to listen, sleep called him. He felt the lips against his skin, and his eyes closed completely. Yet, before the blackness called him, he caught one word that warmed him head to toe-

"Love."

Next Day

In the morning, Kanou insisted on treating him out to breakfast. As he lead them to a booth in the local diner, Ayase felt as if he was being pampered. Kanou ordered him eggs with no salt or pepper, and 2% milk, just the way he enjoyed it. Kanou sat down beside him, still towering over him, and cut his pancakes for him. Ayase pulled his jacket closer and shivered.

"Are you cold?" Kanou's deep voice cut into his thoughts. Ayase turned red.

"Just-just a bit, Kanou-san." He said softly. He felt a heavy weight on his shoulders, and suddenly felt much, much warmer. He looked up. Kanou-san had draped his jacket around him. Ayase smiled. "Thank you Kanou-san." He leaned forward to eat, and Kanou rubbed his head fondly.

"You're welcome, Ayase." He replied, and they began to eat together.

Kanou-san drove them to the hospital. Ayase looked out the window and kicked his feet. The morning was so full of people, all of them going places, looking for others. He glanced over at Kanou-san, who was stone-faced as usual. He sighed, and set his head on his hand. Sometimes he didn't even know if Kanou-san was serious.

As the car pulled up to the hospital, Ayase sat up straighter and looked around the parking lot. The structure was clean, and there were many women standing around, talking about probably nothing. Ayase shrunk into his seat, but suddenly Kanou-san was at his side, helping him out of the car. He took the older man's hand, and they headed straight into the heart of the throng of women.

They stopped their chittering as the couple came forward. Ayase's grip on Kanou-san's hand tightened, and he felt a squeeze in return. Kanou-san pushed his way through the now silent women. "Excuse us," He said. They all complied, humming little words that Ayase couldn't hear. He scooted closer to Kanou-san, but could still hear them saying things about them-

"Did you see that? She can't be older than 16!"

"She's so tiny, I hope they're going to see someone, and she's not the one pregnant."

"Oh my gosh, he like twice her age, and her size!"

Ayase closed his eyes and let out his breath in a whoosh. Kanou-san looked down at him. "Is something wrong, Ayase?" He asked, stopping them along the wall. A couple of female nurses walked by, smiled at them, and continued on. Ayase ran a finger along the side of a wheelchair.

"No. It's just-they-those girls-they thought I was a-" He stopped, then blinked back tears. "They thought I was a girl. Do I really look like..." Kanou-san pulled him close to his larger frame.

"They're jealous of your figure is all," He said into his ear. Ayase shivered from the intensity of Kanou's voice. "They want to be like you." He released him, and they entered the hospital.

Kanou POV

Kanou kept Ayase close to him as he approached the desk. "We're here for the 11:30 childbirth class." He said in an official tone.

The lady at the desk assessed them, but didn't blink twice. "All right, that's room 205, right down the hallway past the bathrooms, it'll be on your left, thank you."

Kanou held Ayase's tiny hand, and led him to the room. As he pushed open the door, the groups of women looked up at them. Their husbands and children stared. One woman smiled broadly. They continued talking. Kanou sighed inside. They weren't too out of place here. Ayase smiled at the children approaching him. Kanou glared at them. If they thought that they could even think about touching his Ayase they had another thing-

"What's your name?"

What. The. Hell. Ayase had bent down to a little girl's level, as she grinned at him with now front teeth. The child responded by offering him a wet sucker from her mouth. Ayase laughed lightly, and said she could have it. Kanou sat down on one of the plastic blue chairs. He noticed that Ayase wasn't the only one that the kids were messing with. The other mothers were bouncing children on their laps, and even the men were high-fiving little boys that obviously not theirs.

It's like brotherhood of parents...Kanou thought to himself. He felt a tug on his sleeve. He looked down. A small boy blinked up at him lazily. Out of the corner of his eye, he could see a concerned mother slowly making her way toward her child, watching him as if he were a dangerous animal. The boy patted his knee, his green eyes unblinking. Kanou glared down at him. He didn't move. The mother got closer.

The boy opened his mouth to speak. Kanou snapped, "Do you want something?"

The moving boulder stopped just on the fray of his vision. The little boy closed his mouth. He frowned indignantly, and stood up straight. "Yeah. How'd ya get so freakin' tall?" The kid snapped back. Kanou stared. The chittering mothers stared. The mother of the child stared the hardest of all. The green eyed boy crossed his arms and glared back at him, expecting an answer. Kanou felt the corner of his lips twitch, and the next thing he knew he was laughing harder than he ever had before. The mothers relaxed and sighed, returning to their conversations. The little boy held out his hand. Kanou stared at it, then slowly held out his hand as well. They stood in that position awkwardly for a moment. The boy shrugged, then slapped the large hand. He grinned up at Kanou, then turned back to his mother.

The instructor entered the room. The only thing that Kanou remembered later was failure. Fail, fail, fail, fail. Change the plastic baby's diaper.

"That's perfect...but...it's the head." The instructor said in a gentle voice.

Burp the other plastic baby. It vomited water on his front.

Even though the other fathers were having equal or less trouble as he was, he felt completely out of place. Not only was he a head above everyone else, they all seemed to know each other. No one offered to assist him, only dealing with each other. Ayase was surrounded by all the women who were convinced that he was a teenage mother and Kanou was his sugar daddy. Of course, none of the men wanted to even give Kanou any advice. He felt his anger boiling as he failed each exercise.

When the class finally ended, Kanou had to drag Ayase from the irritating mothers and children holding onto his arms and clutching his shirt sleeves. As they pulled away, Ayase spoke about the women and the children, holding the pamphlets close to him and he gushed on and on. Kanou's hands gripped the wheel tighter. He counted the seconds until they arrived at home.

"And Kita-chan said, 'Aya, can't boys be mommies too?' And I just couldn't stop laughing-" Kanou slapped the steering wheel.

"Stop talking." Ayase blinked up at him innocently.

"Huh?" He said slowly. "You-you didn't have a good time?" He asked tentatively. Kanou exploded.

"No, Ayase, as a matter of fact, I did not. The class was stupid, and that instructor was out to get me." Ayase blinked again.

"What...You didn't learn anything then...?" He looked down at his hands.

"Oh," was all he replied. Kanou was still fuming as they headed up the stairs of their building to the condo. Ayase looked down the entire time.

By the time they arrived at their door, the rage was gone from his being and he could see Ayase's frame trembling slightly. He unlocked the door and Ayase entered silently. Kanou let the door shut behind them and sat down on the white couch, ignoring him completely. Ayase walked into the bedroom, and shut the door behind him. Kanou lit up a cigarette. He was being dramatic again.

The rest of the day was tense. Ayase slept most of the time, vomited, then slept more. Kanou rubbed his back, then left the room.

That evening, Ayase cooked them soup and didn't eat most of his. Kanou finished it for him, and then retreated to the couch to discuss terms with Gion about the latest projects and such. Ayase went to bed alone. At some time around 10:30, he fell asleep on the couch, so exhausted that he never heard the front door open. He never heard someone enter, and someone else leave.

Oh. Would ya look at that. A cliffhanger. Good thing I'm already on the next chapter. Leave a review, and thank you, thank you, thank you so much to everyone who reviewed! I love you guys so much!

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Estelle J