A/N: OH MY GOD. HOW LATE AM I?! ._. THIS IS HORRIBLEEE. I'M SO SORRY GUYS! D: School started on 3rd September and I've been busy ever since! ._. Also, it was my 16th Birthday on 23rd so HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME XD Hehe. This story is back! I shall bring you a new chapter very soon!

Also, check out SoraxKairi7's story, "Final Call" and PrincessXion's story, "Tears on the Runway." They're amazing and so much better than this story. :D

Disclaimer: I don't own KH (I wish I did)!

Entry Four

Date: 10th/11th July

"I..."

His voice was hoarse and broken into a million shards. His lips were dry and coated with busted dead skin; they quivered as he inhaled sharp breaths in order to compose himself.

I had never imagined to feel so terrible and broken by just looking at a friend struggle. His bad state made me react as if it was happening to me. Weird...huh? It made me feel as if he was very special to me. Well he was special. A creepy, good looking stalker who accepted me as his friend even though it was just an assignment.

He is special. So special that- No. I'm going into the denial phase, aren't I? I just don't want to accept the fact that I'm...

OH HELL NO. I AIN'T WRITING THAT DOWN!

"I'm sorry Kairi!" he apologised for the hundredth time. I sternly pulled back and stared into his sorrow-filled eyes.

Is it just me or do you get some kind of feeling under your chin when you're crying or you're about to cry? You want the feeling to go away yet it just pains you more. It hurts to see him like this.

"STOP APOLOGISING!"

"Okay...I'm sorry..."

My expression hardened. "Sora..."

"I was held back. I couldn't go to college and I couldn't come to work.," he responded rather seriously.

"What do you mean?" I asked.

What else could I do?

He glanced at me hesitantly. "I was held back. By my dad. I had to help with chores and look after my younger sister."

I furrowed my eyebrows a little in confusion; "I thought you lived alone?"

"I did but...I had to look after my sister...I'm really sorry, Kai. I'm sorry you had to be alone. Plus I couldn't pay the rent so I had to go back to my dad," he said all this in a rush.

I lowered my gaze sadly while taking his hand in mine while examining his arm, it was completely burnt!

"WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED TO YOUR ARM?!"

"I...it's nothing... It was just a-," I interrupted him.

"NOTHING?! You call this nothing, Sora? It cannot be an accident! Do you...self h-harm?!" I was choking at this point. It may seem like I was over-reacting, however, it was too serious to be from an accidental burn while cooking. It looked as if hot water was poured on his arm.

He turned away from me and snatched his arm away while pulling his sleeve down. "I don't, stop worrying so much. Worry about your health Kai! You're becoming skinny!" he practically told me off.

"I shouldn't worry? What are you doing? Huh? And don't change the subject, Sorablue, you're hurt and you're hiding something! You can tell me if you want! I'm here to listen," I tried persuading him.

My confidence was really weak at this point but I didn't care. I had to know how to end his suffering. His once flawless skin was covered in old and fresh scars, despite how much he tried to conceal it.

"I'm almost nineteen, in fact, I'm older than you, stop treating me like a child Kairi. I know you're here and you're always going to be there to hear me but trust me when I say this, I'm fine."

I stared at him for a long time, there was something seriously wrong with him. And he didn't trust me enough! I attempted to stop the tears from cascading down my face; however, I failed miserably.

"How can I stop worrying? How can I stop? I can't, Carablue, I really can't. Especially when I know you don't trust me enough to tell me what is causing you so much pain. You look abused. Your flesh is smeared with scars! How can I stop worrying?!" I cried while choking on my tears.

He smiled weakly in response and embraced me. Being near him like this, made me feel extremely nervous yet at the same time I was worried about him, so I was glad to be able to hug him...

A few hours had gone by and I had just got up from a little nap to freshen up and get something to eat.

Fear struck me as soon as I realised Carablue was missing. Did he leave again? If he did, I really hoped he would be alright. I felt so stupid and useless! I couldn't do anything to help him!

After returning to my room from the washroom, I found him sitting on the edge of my bed. Grinning, I rushed to him and embraced him. He chuckled in response and wrapped his arms around me.

He ran his fingers through my hair and whispered in my ear; "You're a really great friend Kai. I'm so glad to have you but please, believe me, I'll be fine, stop worrying."

"But I can't!"

He pulled back a little so that we could lock eyes; "Why?"

Our proximity was extremely nerve-wracking but I had somehow managed to stop myself from freaking out. I inhaled a long breath and felt my stupid heart rapidly thump. Oh now you decide to pump blood, huh?

My face felt as if it was ignited with flames and it would turn into ash very soon. I stared into his vibrant eyes and smiled; "Because I love you."

He looked genuinely surprised but almost immediately he had gotten over it and I noticed how flushed his cheeks became too. His gaze softened, a smiled trailed up his lips and tilted his head to the side.

His beautiful eyes were slowly closing only to show off his thick, long lashes as he leaned in. I felt myself doing the same. I was so nervous. God. As soon as our lips were about to meet-

I was thinkin' about you

Thinkin' about me

Thinkin' about us

What we gonna be?

Open my eyes.

IT WAS ONLY JUST A DREAM!

You do not know how frustrated, angry and sad I was. After receiving my snack after my long kitty nap, I had fallen asleep again and dreamt up this perfect, flipping...ugh! It was too perfect to be real.

Hah. (Silly too, but I ain't admitting). Wait... I just did.

Silly Kairi inserts the " ._. " face here.

Memories flooded back, Carablue had told me he was going to leave soon after our little hug.

Am I hugging him too much? I don't want to admit it, reader, but if you're smart enough you can understand why I'm constantly thinking about I don't harbour romantic feelings...I'm just...concerned because I care for him.

SO HA! YOU WERE WRONG, READER!

The following day I got permission to walk around the beautiful garden that surrounded the hospital. I hummed different tunes; however, there was one that made me feel extremely nostalgic, yet, I did not know what for.

'When you walk away You don't hear me say, "Please! Oh baby, don't go." Simple and Clean is the way that you're making me feel tonight, It's hard to let it go...'

"Kairi...?" I heard a voice whisper.

I thought I was alone.

I cautiously turned around only to see Naminé staring at me with a confusing expression.

Man, I don't even know how to describe it!

Hm, I'd say; mysterious.

She held onto a very mysterious expression...

She exhaled and looked directly into my eyes; "I've received news about your biological mother..."

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