Chapter three: human brains

I looked with shock at Emmett. His smell was in one word delicious. I turned to Jasper and Alice who were walking back slowly. The smell was too good for them, but for me it was incredible, amazing. Like it called me to drink it. I could almost taste the blood on my tongue. I licked with my tongue down my lip. I wanted that blood so bad. Suddenly I remembered the day when I saw Emmett for the first time. I still couldn't understand how I could've run miles with him in my arms, blood covering his body.

'Alice, take Jasper downstairs,' Carlisle ordered immediately.

Jasper glared deathly at Carlisle. Something you didn't experience often. 'How do you mean: "Alice, take Jasper downstairs?" I can handle this, Carlisle! I'm stronger then you all think I am,' he snapped at Carlisle. 'I'm done with being the weakest one. I'm not going to kill my own brother!'

'Well, you've almost killed your own sister!' Edward snapped back.

I gasped at the two. Edward immediately bowed his head in shame after his comment. Jasper looked insulted.

'Jazz...' Edward couldn't say more because Jasper walked furiously out of the room and slammed the door behind him. Edward sighed. We all knew too well that Bella's eighteenth birthday party was a sensitive subject for both Bella and Jasper. Especially Edward realized that because he could read Jasper's mind. I decided not to pay attention to what had happened. Emmett, human Emmett, needed us.

'Carlisle, what is going on?' I gulped the venom down. His blood smelt so delicious.

'Wh... what happened?' Emmett asked. His voice was hoarse as he rubbed his head. 'Wh... why does my head hurt so badly?' he asked. I took Emmett's hand, but Emmett flinched immediately. I looked shocked and hurt at him, then I remembered how cold my touch must have felt. 'Ouch! Why are you squeezing me so hard?' Emmett rubbed with a painful face at his hand. I forgot that I was stronger too.

'Emmett, son. How do you feel?' Carlisle asked him.

Emmett sighed. 'Carlisle, what happened? I felt pain... a terrible pain... Like my transformation in 1935. Carlisle?' Emmett asked him. 'And Rosalie is so cold and...' suddenly he broke off. 'Carlisle, my... my,' Emmett placed his hand on the place his heart was.

'Emmett, we don't know what has happened. We only know that you're a,' Carlisle took a deep breath, 'Human.'

Emmett gasped. 'No way.'

'Son, I don't know what happened to you in Tennessee. I only know that you aren't a vampire anymore,' Carlisle said softly.

'A human?' Emmett snapped through gritted teeth. 'But why?' I realized that his "human brains" didn't work as fast as our vampire ones. 'Carlisle, change me back!'

'Emmett,' I warned. 'We don't know what's going on yet. And you have suffered enough pain for this week,' I stroked lightly his dark curls out of his face. Trying not to hurt him with my impossible strength. 'I'm just so glad that you're awake. You don't know how hard this was for me,' I whispered to him.

'Emmett, can you remember what happened that night in Tennessee?' Carlisle asked him. Emmett frowned at him. 'Three days ago you were in Tennessee with Rosalie. The place where Rosalie had found you, mauled by a bear,' Carlisle tried to explain to him.

'Oh,' Emmett said and nodded slowly. 'Dude, human brains are much different then vampire brains,' he muttered before answering Carlisle's question. 'Hm,' Emmett pondered. 'I remember that I was standing on the place where the bear ad mauled me and then...' Emmett clicked his fingers. 'Pain. A lot of pain,' Emmett sighed. 'Human,' he muttered like it was a dirty word. 'Can I see the rest?' he asked Carlisle.

Carlisle shook his head. 'We're vampires, remember?' Carlisle chuckled shortly. 'No, I have to do some tests to know if you're physically all right,' Carlisle said. He turned to me. 'Rose, maybe it's better if you go to the rest. Explain them the whole...' Carlisle searched for the right word. 'Thing,' he finally said.

I nodded and stood up. I walked downstairs and before I could blink the whole family surrounded me. 'How is he?' they all asked me.

'Is he all right?'

'Is he hurt?'

'Is he in pain?' everyone asked me randomly.

I clapped my hands as a sign for them to be quiet.

'He's okay,' I said when everybody finally shut up.

They sighed in relief.

'You've probably...' I bit my bottom lip. 'Smelled him,' I said quietly. I walked to the couch and placed head in my hands as I sat down. 'He's a human!' I sobbed and I felt two arms around me. Esme. 'Oh mom, I almost slipped when he woke up. His smell called me. Literally! How can I ever come near him again? Every second next to him I had to force myself not to kill him and drink his blood. My own husband!'

'It's okay, Rose.'

I looked surprised up at the voice. I thought I was in Esme's arms.

'I know how it feels,' Jasper said softly to me while he send waves of calmness to me. 'I'm going to help you,' he reassured me.

Jasper and I had a very strong bond. We maybe pretend to be twins, but sometimes I really see him as my twin brother. Well, always to be honest. We were always there for each other. When he came into the family, he was covered with scars. He told us his sad past and I was relieved that I wasn't the only one anymore with a horrible past. Jasper and I had talked a lot those days about our pasts. It was fine to have somebody to talk with. Don't get me wrong, I talked to Emmett and Esme all the time. It's just that it was sometimes like they couldn't replace them self in my place. I never blamed them for that.

'But Jasper, his smell is so delicious. I never had this with a human before. I have no problem with my controling my thirst, what makes it so different now? Why Emmett? If I'll ever hurt him... I don't know if I can handle that, Jasper. I would rather kill myself than...'

Jasper interrupted me. 'It's okay, Rose,' Jasper replied. 'There must be a reason for that. I bet that Carlisle has a theory. When he is back we'll ask him, okay?'

I nodded my head and buried my head into his chest.

Jasper brushed his fingers through my hair. 'You're going to be fine. Both of you,' Jasper said to me in a comforting voice. 'Be strong,' Jasper said. 'For Emmett.'

I pulled back. 'Thank you, Jazz.'

Jasper simply smiled at me.

'We're the Hale Twins,' I said with a big grin.

'The Hale Twins,' Jasper replied, also his face showed a smile. We gave each other a high five. We both chuckled when a smell hit us both. Emmett.

I looked towards the stairs and saw Emmett and Carlisle. Emmett seemed in pain while he stumbled down the stairs. Carlisle had a arm around him to support Emmett. I immediately ran to him., trying to ignore the delicious scent coming from my husband.

'I'll take him,' I said. I pushed Carlisle gently away and gave him an apologetically smile. Carlisle returned the smile warmly what meant one thing: he was good with it. 'Honey, what's wrong? Do you feel any pain?' I asked my Emmett when we finally reached the ground.

'Well, I'm fine,' Emmett said. For some reason I didn't believe him.

'Emmett,' Carlisle said and shot him a look. What was going on? Was he hiding something? But why?

Emmett sighed. 'Well, you know the transformation from human to vampire.'

We all nodded.

'If you wake up as a vampire, you're strong and everything. But I'm a...' Emmett swallowed. 'Human,' Emmett said through gritted teeth, pronouncing it like he hated the word. 'So, I'm not strong. I had a horrible pain for three days, in other words, I have to recover from pain first. My muscles hurt in ever part of my body and I've got a headache,' Emmett explained to us.

'Oh, Emmett,' I rested my head against his shoulder but that was worst thing I could've possibly done. For two reasons. One, Emmett flinched in pain. Two, the smell was getting to much. I could feel my throat burning, wanting Emmett's blood so badly...

'ROSALIE NO!' I suddenly heard Edward and Alice roar at the same time. I growled loudly and launched myself at Emmett. I could hear glass break and Emmett making sounds of pain.

'ROSE STOP!' Edward and Jasper both pulled me of Emmett, a second before my teeth sank into his throat. I screamed, growled and hit everywhere I possibly could. Jasper send me waves of calmness as much as he could. I felt myself calming down.

'Edward, Jasper, take Rose outside,' Carlisle ordered immediately before he let himself fall down next to Emmett. I could smell blood and I wanted it. I wanted that blood, I needed it.

'He's your husband, Rosalie,' Edward whispered in my ear.

Those words repeated themselves in my head. I realized what I had done.

'What have I done?' I whispered. 'What have I done? Rosalie, what did you do?' I kept whispering as I saw Emmett flinching every time Carlisle touched him. 'Emmett, I'm so sorry. Emmett forgive,' I whispered.

Jasper and Edward dragged me outside.

'No! No, let me GO!' I yelled. 'I want to go to Emmett! FORGIVE ME, EMMETT!' I screamed. 'Please,' I whispered the last part so low that only my brothers could hear me. They were holding me down on the ground. 'Let me go!' I struggled. I sighed when they didn't gave in. 'I'm fine,' I tried to sound as honest as possible. 'Please?' I looked at Jasper, knowing that he would gave in easier than Edward.

'Edward?' Jasper asked his brother.

'She's...' Edward looked at me for a second. 'Fine,' he finally said. I sighed relieved when they let me go. I stood up and wanted to walk back into the house when somebody stopped me. 'Rose, it's better if you go hunting now,' Edward said to me.

'I don't need your advice. I'm fine!' I snapped at him. 'I will never kill Em...' I broke off. One minute ago I had attacked my husband. Isat down on the ground. I raised my knees up to my chin and wrapped my arms around my legs. I stared at nothing. I started to rock myself back and forth. 'I almost killed him,' I whispered with shock. 'I almost killed my soul mate,' I still couldn't believe it. I had almost killed my husband. My Emmett. Why couldn't I control myself anymore? I hurt Emmett physically. Something I had never done before. Ever. 'I hate myself.'

'Rose...' my brothers started a grand speech. Something about how strong I was and how much I loved Emmett. I didn't even listen, I didn't care anymore. I was all crap to me. Emmett was almost dead because of me. It started raining but I didn't care. I looked at a rose in the garden of Esme. It was a red rose. It was the most beautiful one of all. It looked so free and happy.

It was a happy rose. Emmett always bought red roses for me, he said it was the most beautiful flower on earth and the flower represented me.

But it also had its thorns, just like me.

I hope you liked this chapter!
In the next chapters I will write more about Emmett's change and the reason why Rosalie is struggling with her thirst around him.
I would love to hear your opinion about it.

Thank you.