To Love a Werewolf
Chapter Four: The Return Home
A/N: More reviews PLEASE!! I'm going to write the next chapter soon but I won't put it up until I have 5 more reviews. It only takes a few second so please respect my hard work in writing these fanfics and give me five seconds of your time.
A/N: Also does anyone think that the song Viva La Vida by Coldplay reminds them of Twilight. I don't know what it is about that song but every time I hear the only thing I can think about is Bella and Edward. Anyways if you haven't heard it then listen to it while you read and you'll see. To me it is like the soundtrack of Bella and Edward. Its weird but idk it suits them.
I wanted to go back to Forks and make it easier for everyone else but I was being selfish. I decided to keep running for a while. I would see where I ended up and spend some time alone to speak. The good thing about running is the relaxing feeling it pushes through my body. I knew if I kept up at this pace I would forget all my problems.
I didn't know where I was headed still but when I entered Denali, Alaska I knew I must have subconsciously pushed myself here. Carlisle and I shared a common friendship with the Denali Coven. They were the only coven I had met in my lifetime other than the Cullens that I got along with.
I stopped running for the first time in who knows how long when I arrived at their house. It sounded like they were having a party inside which was typical of them. They never liked to live without excitement. I knocked lightly on the door knowing they would easily hear me over the music and sure enough Kate answered in a matter of seconds.
"OH JAY!!" She pulled me into a bear hug. "We have missed you so much. We actually just got done talking with Carlisle and he told us what happened in Forks. You must be here for our support." She patted my shoulders and led me in the house. I heard screaming from above us and then the music was gone. Tanya came rushing down the stairs as fast as she could before she collided with me.
"JAY!! I think we could both use each other's company." She pushed me further into the living room and sat me on the sofa. "So tell us whats on your mind. We need to make this quick. You have to get back to Forks soon. They need you there." The word 'need' always sent shivers down my spine and strengthened the pull my ability had on me. I groaned and tried to make myself a little more comfortable.
"I'm sure Carlisle told you everything so why don't you go ahead and tell me your opinion."
"Well, we aren't too fond of the werewolves but we do understand the meaning of their imprinting. It is a very unpleasant feeling but it means everything to them. You won't be able to fight that kind of compassion and love. There is also no way you will find it with anyone else. Just think of this as a lifetime opportunity. You will have someone to love you unconditionally for the rest of eternity. I would give anything for a love like that." Tanya sighed and turned to her sister who had started to talk.
"I agree with Tanya. You are hurting yourself just as much as you are hurting them and you don't even realize it. I know you are confused and think it is better to leave but you know that isn't true."
"I really don't think going back is going to make me feel better though."
"You won't really know that until you go back. You could at least give it a chance. You didn't even get to know the werewolf. You didn't even give him a chance to get to know you either. You two could be a match made in heaven or whatever." Tanya slapped me lightly. "You really need to snap out of this whole desperate to be a loner attitude I think you have been alone long enough. Actually I know you have been alone long enough. It kills me to be alone. Now that Kate has found someone and…….Irina is gone." Her voice drifted off quietly and her eyes glazed over.
"What we are trying to say is don't let yourself ruin this. We know you good enough to know that you need this just as much as we would in your position. I met Seth when we were over that way last time and he seems like the sweetest dog oh sorry werewolf that I've ever met. He didn't even know us but accepted us as family just like the Cullens. He wasn't even scared when he was surrounded by vampires. All he wanted was for his friends to be safe and happy. Could you really ask for a better man than that?" She rolled her eyes at me and walked away.
"I guess that makes sense…..I just don't know how to handle it. I've never been attracted to anyone before. I don't know what to do or say or think. I'm so lost in my own emotions I don't think I can function." I looked down at my hands in my lap and sighed. "I just didn't think it would be this hard. I thought when I found a mate that he would be 'different' than Seth. Plus Seth is just a kid. Is he really ready to be in a relationship with a 110 year old vampire. It just doesn't seem right."
"Like we said you will never know until you go back." Tanya followed her sister out of the room and left me to think.
I stayed in Denali for a little over a week before I finally decided it was time to go back to Forks. Every day the pull that I felt in my chest got stronger and the emptiness I had never felt before got even worse.
I called Carlisle that morning to assure him I was on my way back. He told me that Seth hadn't left their house since my departure. He just waits around for me to return. Bella had tried to reason with him but he wouldn't talk to anyone. It made me feel a little guilty. I put his life on hold while I ran away.
I ran faster on my way back than I had on my way to Alaska but it seemed to take forever to get there. I knew what awaited me when I entered the Cullens' house and I feared it. As I got closer I slowed down debating on what I would say to them to repair the damage I had done when I left.
When I was staring down their drive and saw the faces awaiting me I lost all control. I ran right into Seth's arms surprised that he was happy to see me and not dwelling on the fact that I had left him.
"I'm so sorry." I apologized to everyone that had come out to meet me. A few faces were missing but that was better than what I had expected. I stayed in Seth's arms until he finally spoke.
"Please don't leave me like that again. Next time at least take me with you or let me know where you are going. I have been going crazy. I didn't know what to do to distract myself so I just waited."
"I will make it up to you. You deserve better than me but if you want me then I am yours to keep. We'll give this strange relationship a try and see how it turns out. I shouldn't have over-analyzed it in the first place." I lightly kissed his cheek and held him even closer. "Will you ever be able to forgive me?"
"I already have forgiven you. I understand why you left. I even told you that you that I would give you time to think about it. It was just harder than I had expected. I'm just thankful that you decided to come back to me." I could feel my chest about to explode. The magnet that had been pulling me all this time was finally dissolving into nothing. The void had been filled by whatever I was feeling with Seth right now. I knew this is where I belonged and I knew I would try my best to stay here.
No one else had said a word to me while we reconciled. I could tell they were just happy to see me and Seth together. Happy that we were finally happy. Thankful that I did come back.
"Well maybe we should give ourselves a try at a first date?" I looked up into Seth's eyes quick enough to see the excitement spread through them.
"Where to?"
A/N: Ok that was a little shorter than I had wanted it to be but the next chapter should be interesting. A werewolf and a vampire out on a date. I wonder what interesting things will happen. Hehehe you'll just have to wait and see.