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Sitting in her chambers and the sitting area Helen Magnus offered her daughter a smile as she carefully sat her full teacup down and said she was going to go watch a movie with Henry. She smiled and returned the tight hug from Ashley as she said that she was glad she was ok and all right, As am I my darling, thank you releasing her so she could go. Carefully picking up her journal again the woman scanned the previous words before her daughter had interrupted her to bring her a fresh hot cup of tea, which she was grateful for.
It is with deep regret that I have to log officially that the mission to retrieve the creature that is believed to be a myth in the mountains of the area closest to the New Delhi facility resulted in a great loss of lifeincluding the facilities head of house and a dear friend, Doctor Allison Grant. Fortunately Will and myself survived the encounter but I fear if it had gone on for much longer we may not have. The creatures natural ability to manipulate the humanoid brain to see or not see whatever it wished resulted in the deaths of Dr. Grant as well as one of the Sanctuarys oldest contacts, Sylvio plus four other innocent personnel who were aboard the plane when we were forced to make an emergency landing. Also so it is made clear the decision to track the creature and to allow others on the cargo plane that was bringing us back lays squarely on my shouldersall decisions including those that resulted in the loss of so much life rest solely with me.
From a scientific standpoint the body of the creature has as yet taught us much, its ability to manipulate humans or humanoids rather is truly remarkable and the blood samples I ran so far have revealed some rather remarkable physiological changes and evolutionary stepsgiven time to study the results in detail I am confidant this species may offer very detailed insights or at least bring about more poignant questions about the past of humanity and the future of how we may evolve to deal with radical changes in our environment from the effects of global warming or other phenomena that can effect the environment.
Pausing in her writing or rather reviewing of her already written words to lean forward and take a sip of her tea the woman glanced over at the fire taking a moment more to form her thoughts then settled back in on the lounge to continue her thoughts
Despite the horrific loss of life I must especially commend my young protg, his aid in figuring out what was going on despite what surely had to be a great level of fear and uncertainty was invaluable. His insights were accurate and normally very quick in coming however he also formed poignant and necessary questions that in turn forced me to think in areas it may have taken me slightly longer to come up with on my own. Why I deeply regret what has happened and accept full blame I also offer my heartfelt praise and congratulations to my young colleague, his future with the network is looking brighter with each mission he embarks upon.
Similarly a part of me is troubled over the hallucinations and nightmares that young Will experienced aboard the plane, it is possible the creature simply pulled out what was most vivid in his recall which is why I have Henry pulling the security footage from his bedroom for the past few weeks while Will sleptI hope to review it and assuage any concerns but if he is still suffering from the nightmares of his mothers passing when he was a child then it troubles me to a degree that he has not sought me out or at least spoken of them and informed me hes sufferingat the very least I could prescribe him something to allow him to get some rest; I do hope he is not self medicating at this time however.
My own hallucinations/visions on the plane thanks to the creature revolved around my own demons and I fear they will forever be with me. Montague John Druitt will always be the single man who holds my heart, despite what he is or what he has become, I shall always love him however having him appear even in hallucinations rattled me and distracted me at times when I possibly could have prevented one of the others from being murdered. Though I know it was the abnormal who was manipulating me I have to wonder if my own feelings about John and our history did not perhaps allow them to have more control than was strictly necessary and if I had been less caught up in the memory and the feelings this man still after all these years brought forward in me, I may have broken out of the hallucinations for all but a moment to see what was really going on? I fear that maybe a question that as yet never has an answer because regardless of my feelings John Druitt shall always impact mefor all eternity.
Many have asked me over the years if what I have done and what I continue to do through the Sanctuary network is worth it and I have never hesitated in my resolve, not once but it has come at the cost of so very much both personally and professionally. Ive lost a great many colleagues, friends, lovers and more over the many years since as such a young and nave child I stormed into my fathers study demanding to be shown his private research. I flatter myself to think that if he knew today what his dream and his work had become he would be immensely proud. Why our workmy work will likely always remain clouded in shadow and mystery there is also an inherent reward when those few others that have glimpsed into but a small portion of what this world can offer share with me how they understand and applaud my efforts. No longer simply a chance to study the strange and unusual, the Sanctuary now provides a vital function not just to me and other scientists of our time but to the protection of the worldshould it ever falter I fear that fear, chaos, and destruction would reign and may very well lead to the final destruction of the human and possibly all life on Earth.
There were a great many more thoughts Helen wished to share but they were more scientific based and she had work to do, dealing with the loss of life and the mission which had gone so wrong plus she had more tests on the creatures body she wished to conduct and could perhaps incorporate them into her upcoming appearance at the conference in Romeit would depend on the results of those tests. First on her agenda however as she stood up putting her log back where she kept it in her room and picked up her tea Helen wanted to check on her young protg, offer to have him help her if he had the desire though based on previous experience with him walking in on an autopsy she doubted he would take her up on that part of the offerstill she would make it, he was a scientist at heart just not the same level and type she was; of course that was why they worked well together.