ELI'S POV

"By the way, you are the only one alive that knows that, besides family of cores," I walked through the living room to the kitchen and grabbed my cell phone. It wasn't blinking, in fact, it was dead, not like anyone would call or text besides Adam and Clare. I just saw Adam and Clare was waiting for me to join her on my couch.

"Okay," she replied, "Do you want to talk?" I walked over to where she was, I sat down next to her and put my arm around her.

"Not really, there's nothing to say," I said. We sat down and stared at each other's eyes for a while. I leaned in to kiss her but she stopped me.

"Does this mean I have a boyfriend?" she asked. Her eyes were hopeful.

I starred into them and said, "Yes, if you don't mind, I would love to call you my girlfriend."

she smiled and said "I don't mind at all," Then she kissed me! We were interrupted by Clare's phone vibrating "Oh, crap, my parents want me to get home soon,"

I smirked, "Thats okay," I grabbed her hand and led her to my car.

ADAM'S POV

Right when I got in the house Drew came and helped with my bass "Mom and Dad are at Gram's house" he told me.

"Okay," I said.

"Why so sad?" Damn, he always knows.

"No reason."

"Okay, have you ate?"

"Yeah at the Dot,"

"Well, I'm gunna make some food," Drew stretched and left my room. He's moved on from Allie since she's dating K.C.. I hate people sometimes. They just disappoint, stab you in the back, cut open your heart, and stomp on it and cut it until it's dead. I hate this feeling. I hate my life. I hate myself. My two best friends are in love and they left me to fend for myself.

I got off my floor and locked the door, Drew didn't need to know. With tears in my eyes I took my lighter and hair clip from the bottom of my top tears flowed like silent waterfallls down my cheeks. No time to wipe them away. I pulled up the sleeve of my shirt.

Flick, there goes the lighter turning the clip a nice red.

Sizzle, the sound as it makes contact with my skin. I yelp. It hurts, but not as bad as my heart, the pain helps me focus.

Click, the sound of a door unlocking. I forgot Drew has an extra key. I quickly flicked off the lighter and tossed them both on the be beside me as Drew came through the door. He gasped, "Adam, you said you would stop,"

I remember last year, before Degrassi, when I was still Gracie, Drew was the only one I trusted. He grabbed my arm. I looked away. He traced the rectangular shape on my arm. Burns were less messy than cuts, I had to learn the hard way.

"Why?" Drew whispered.

"It hurt Drew! I couldn't take it anymore! The heartbreak, it was just too much!" I replied gasping for air. By then I was spbbing. He waited for more. When only tears came, he left the room and came back with Puffs, the only tissue that got me through Gracie. "Eli and Clare are in love, and I'm a third wheel. I wonder if Eli knew, would he still kiss her like that?"

"If Eli knew what?" Drew asked. He was a great brother.

"IF Eli knew I liked his new girlfriend."