A/N Hey people on fanfiction that are bored enough to read my stories! Just so you know I am not abandoning my "fate has a twisted sense of humor" I just got bored with it for a while. Shout out to dolphinmama06 and Rath101 for giving me the idea that I will will work with! Stepine Meyer may be the creator and owner of the twilight universe but there is a dark side where Jasper and Bella are in love and soul mates, and that stalker Edward that watches Bella sleep never existed. Muhahahaha! BTW I am team Jasper/Izzy. Song fic to "If I Die Young" by The Band Perry. here's a link to the video. I really need to boost of confidence and the word to get get around about my stories so READ THEM! On with the story!

Jasper POV (just before Bella's funeral)

Oh Bella, will you ever forgive me?

I feel as if my soul has been taken from me, leaving only a lifeless, soul-less, body for whats left of my mind to ocupy.

If only I could have gotten to Bella faster, if only I could have talked Alice out of the party idea, if only I could of saved her. A million questions but no answers.

Do I really have anything anymore? I mean I have no more sunshine in this god forsaken town, no more reasons to live, no more happyness to fill my boring eternal days, and no mate to love and cherish forever, starting three days after graduation. For we planed to change her directly following the ceremony.

As I stand and walk to the podium to read my eulogy for Bella I feel the venom tears that will never fall form in my eyes. Because after I finish reading these words, these departing words Bella's casket would be lowered into the ground and it would be official.

My mate would be gone, gone forever. Leaving my to live out the rest of my eternal life grieving for her.

A/N I tried and TRIED to write Jaspers eulogy but it allways either came out wrong or I cried just thinking about it, so just imagine his eulogy, OKAY? Thanks guys!

As I fineshed my speech my speech was no more than a whisper, my vision was clouded by my never to be fallen tears, and all the people in the courtyard of the town cemetary's eyes were over flowing with their tears.

It's offical, I have to leave.

I cannot stay here and be crushed my my family's crushing emotions anymore, I decided.

After the service was over, condolences were all given, and cars all gone I went to each of my family members, gave them either a kiss on the cheek (Rosalie, Esme, and Alice) or a manly half hug, (Carlisle, Edward, and Emmett) I started running.

/:\:/:\:/:\:/:\:/After running to Texas, 3 days later (just before Bella gets there)\:/:\:/:\:/:\:

Peter and I had just finished hunting (A/N I've decided to have Jasper convert back to hunting humans, he's WAY HOTTER with red eyes ;D) when I was hit with such agony I fell to my knees, I could barely concentrate on anything enough to hear Peter and Char yelling to each other.

Peter had to help me up and we immediatly ran to the house and the first thought I had when I saw the beautiful source of these unbearable emotions was one word.

Bella.

A/N Sorry for the wait guys! I am SO happy to see that so many people like my story, it makes me feel AWESOME! Shout out to AnaMarieWest for writing "Highway to Hell" which is my FAVE story right now and cullenwhitlockhottie01 (awesome pen name btw ;D) your review for chapter one made me LAUGH! PREACH IT SISTER!

Already working on Chapter 5 so it will be up in like tomorow or Wendsday. THANKS FOR READING!