Author's Note: Hello people! Here is my new chapter and this time it will be in Elliot's POV. I decided to change it up a bit so you can see Elliot's side of the story. And decides, I bet you where wondering how he felt during the last chapters, you just couldn't because it was Leo's POV. I will most likely be doing this a few times in the future, just so you could get a taste of the character's perspectives. It helps bring up the moment and explain things more. By the way, there will be some super adorable sappy stuff going on, just to let you know if you are interested. 0v0

"Finding Forgiveness"

Elliot's POV:

The late evening sun beamed down on my face as my dazed blue eyes stared blankly. My sight, slightly blurred with exhaustion, could barley concentrate on one thing before forming a small headache. I sat with my back slouched and my shoulders sagging as I stayed on the small seat in front of a grand piano. Currently I was in the school music room alone trying to calm my aching body with some soothing music. But I failed to even create a single note without my hand hurting badly. I sometimes forget that I stabbed my left hand and now I couldn't press the right keys. I guess I finally realized how much pain I really am once my medication ran out. I shouldn't of moved so much during the week with my medicine; because now I feel miserable. As if there was a heavy weight on my shoulders and it kept weighing me down. Even this morning, I could barley get out of bed and inch my way to class. My head felt like a ticking time bomb, it hurt so bad. And my chest had waves of pain that made it hard to breath. Luckily, Leo was there to help me and he acted calm about it. I don't know what I would of done without him. Even how quiet he was getting, he never failed to cater me. But even how much he was there for me, I couldn't help notice how different he was. He hid so many things from me, thinking I wouldn't know, but really I remembered everything. I know I was the contractor for Humpty Dumpty and died to stop it. I know I killed my family and betrayed the people I cared for. So why was he being so suspicious and not telling me anything?

That is another reason why I sit here with me eyes lowered in a dazed way. I wanted to be alone on purpose, not only to calm my nerves, but to get away from everything. I tried to talk to Leo today, about what happened after I passed. He refused to tell me and it was very upsetting. I felt almost crushed that he wouldn't tell me. Doesn't he trust me? We ended up screaming at each other and me walking out the door. I felt overwhelmed with mixed emotions that I searched refuge in the music room. On my way there, the principal of the school came up to me. He didn't say much but gave me a envelope. I took it and continued to walk to the room. But as I read what the letter said, I could just feel me heart sink. Not only is Leo hiding about what he feels, but he kept the fact that my family was actually alive. The letter was explaining about the Nightrays coming back and to have a moral for their lost son, Elliot Nightray. Not even they know I am alive and now I have a big feeling Leo knew this all along. How could he do that to me? This whole time, the nagging feeling of guild tugged at me because of the loss of the Nightrays. How loneliness visited me sometimes, even when I was happy with Leo. And he never noticed my pain for loosing my family? I would of thought he would when I first saw my sword with my mother's blood on it. I wasn't remembering anything, but rethinking how I brutally killed my brothers. It wasn't that I regretting killing them for Leo, it was that I actually killed them. Yes, I would do anything to stop someone from hurting Leo, but I wouldn't kill them without good reason.

So now here I am with my head rested on top of the piano, my arms limp on my side. I could say I felt out of character for acting depressed, but I had no energy to be angry. I was frustrated and overwhelmed with terrible memories that I could burst at any moment; but I tried to stay calm to avoid hurting myself. The mixed emotions that swirled around in my heart became very annoying and I couldn't understand it. I wanted to be upset but refused to shed any tear because the confusion kept bugging me. Why am I feeling to overwhelmed about this? Yes, my best friend is still lying to me, but I normally would just get mad at him. Instead I was getting emotional about why he couldn't trust me; was it betrayal? This betrayal didn't feel like a friend betrayal, but something deeper. I know my feelings get very awkward towards Leo, even when I first met him. I thought it was a simple crush and would just go away. Even so, I still have those feeling and they grow bigger each day. Now, I am debating if I should except these feelings anymore. With him acting so different, I don't even know if that is the Leo I know and love.

The sound of a door squeaking open popped me back to reality. I leaned up from my slouched position and looked over to see who it was. Standing in the door way was the short, messy haired teen I just argued with a few hours ago. My deep frown stayed as I watched him come in. I tried to read his expression the best I could, but his dark hair covered most of his face. I watched as he came closer and my eyes darkened when I remembered how he didn't tell me about my family. The envelope was still near me and I glanced at it. I thought about mentioning it, wanting an explanation.

"I was wondering where you were." Leo's voice finally spoke up once he stopped beside me, "You feeling alright?"

I turned my gaze back to the keys of the piano, avoiding his eyes. "If you where wondering, than why did you finally show up after two hours?" I asked with a cross remark, my voice sharp.

I could tell he sensed I was still angry with him, just the way he paused and went quiet. "I see you're still angry." He finally said crossing his arms.

"Yeah! Ya thing." My voice started to raise and it made my head hurt a little.

This made the other jump in surprise from my sudden out burst. I glared at him from the corner of my eye. His expression was still hard to read but I figured he was still trying to hide something. I wont let him though because I already know everything and I am sick of him lying.

"Elliot? Why are you so angry? Cant you understand." Leo started but I interrupted as soon as his words entered my ears.

"Why am I angry? Huh, I would think you would know why." I snapped, my gaze shot towards him.

The shorter teen shook his head, his mouth gaping, "What are you talking about?"

I stood up from my seat and grabbed the letter from the Nightrays, "You know exactly what I'm talking about." I shouted and shoved the paper in his chest. My sudden out rage made me feel light headed but I ignored it. I stared at him as he grabbed the letter and looked at it. He read the words and his face went pail.

Leo looked at me and to the paper once again, as if trying to find a explanation. " I..." he tried to speak, but I could tell my glare was making him feel uncomfortable.

"Why didn't you tell me?" I asked, grabbing his shoulders so he would look at me. "Why?" I could feel my emotions get the best of me and my throat felt tight. I tried my best to sound angry but my voice came out dry.

I stared into his wide eyes and could tell he was at lost of words. " I don't know" he finally said, his voice shaking.

I tightened my grip on his shoulders, feeling almost desperate, "Dammit Leo don't lie to me." I tried to urge him.

I watched as he shook his head and squeezed his eyes shut. "No Elliot, that's not what you think." he tried to explain but all it did was confuse me.

"It's exactly what I think, you wont tell me anything! And keeping my family a secret, how could you do that?" I shook him a little, trying my best to at least get something out of him.

"I had to!" Leo shouted, getting away from my grasp. Now he looked very stressed and upset, even when he tried to hide it.

I tried to calm down now that I realized how emotional this was becoming. I didn't want to get him upset. "Why? Leo tell me." I demanded my voice a little softer as I grabbing him again and cuffed his cheeks. I wanted to make sure he knew I wasn't angry, just yearning for answers. I stared into his abnormal colored eyes, how there was no tears but where pooled with sadness.

Leo stared back at me, his mouth clamped tight. He brought his hands up to mine, his breath coming short. " I didn't want to loose you." he finally admitted, his gaze still locked on mine.

I blinked from the sudden answer, not expecting that at all. He doesn't want to loose me? What does he mean, I'm not going no where."What do you mean?"

Leo's surprisingly strong graze loosed and his eyes squinted. "You wouldn't understand! I knew you will say this." He started to look frustrated now.

I shook my head, not sure what to say; I had no idea what he meant. Did he think I was leaving him? "Yeah I don't understand because you keep acting weird. That's why you're not making any sense." I tried to explain my confusion.

This must of made the raven haired servant more frustrated because he turned his head away from my grasp and shut his eyes. "Can we just stop talking about this..I'm sorry I didn't tell you..." he tried to change the subject and my eyes went wide.

"What! No I'm not done until you give me a proper explanation." I ordered sternly, now just frustrated because I was confused.

"No I don't want to." Leo suddenly shouted and stepped away. His eyes glared back at me and I flinched back from the look. Never have I seen such a look like that; especially from Leo.

"Why can't you tell me, don't you trust me? Don't you know how sick I am from people keeping secrets from me and now my best friend is. This reminds me of before I died, have you ever thought of that? How you lied to me that whole time!" I shouted at him feeling so furious it made my heart hurt.

"So what, you shouldn't know , you're too dumb to understand anything! You have no idea what I am going through and now your blaming me for what happened. Well I agree with you because I should be dead anyway. I have no meaning to this pathetic world so can't you just leave me alone." Leo yelled back at me, his eyes burning with unknown rage.

I could feel my breath get caught in my thought as I heard him. The feeling of rejection just slapped me in the face, along with everything else. Is that what he really thinks of me? I stared at him in surprise, completely dumbstruck. We locked our gaze for not even a moment before Leo sprinted out of the room. I stood there dazed for a split second, but the thought of Leo mentioning things that where completely wrong made me want to chase after him. If he's thinking he has no meaning in this world, than he is wrong. So without thinking, I chased after him. The moment I stepped foot towards him, the pain in my body exploded. But I fought with it's constant screaming as I ran after my servant. It didn't take me long to catch up with him and I grabbed him arm.

"Hey stop!" I hollered as I spun him around.

"Don't touch me!" Leo's high voice screamed in surprise and he ripped his arm away from my grasp.

I didn't know what was going on in his mind, but he was defiantly not acting like himself. "Hey calm down," I tried to stop him but he still refused. I went to grab him again but this time Leo pressed his hands to my chest and pushed me foreword. I gasped as I fell back and landed hard on my shoulder. I yelled out in pain from the impact and clutched my arm. I would hate to admit it, but being this weak can cause a lot of pain for a simply injury. I winced badly and looked up at Leo. It made me think he did this on purpose, especially after he said such confusing words to me. But as I glanced at him, he looked as shocked as I was. I didn't even have the chance to stand up let alone get him to talk without him running off on me again.

I watched him go but had no strength at the moment to stand up and move. I grumbled in little annoyance and continued to fight the aching pain in my shoulder. Being this sore was really starting to irritate me. Luckily, after two minuted of slowly getting to my feet, I felt a little better. My mind was still swirling with what Leo said. How he suddenly got mad and said things that didn't make sense. It just pissed me off at how confusing this guy was being. I know something bad must of happened to him while I was gone, but what? Whatever it was, it defiantly changed him and I don't like it. Maybe it was something to do with his eyes sense they don't have those specks anymore. And on top of that, what he said about not telling me about my family. Its as if he thinks I'm going to leave him to go with my family. Why would he think that, I would never do that. I love the guy for crying out loud. I literally killed my family for him so choosing them over him doesn't make sense.

These thoughts continued to dance around my head as I walked down the hall. I was going the direction where Leo ran off too because I will not let him think such ridicules things. I need to convince him that I will not leave him and will be there for him. Even how much my limps where aching from moving too fast in the past ten minutes, I need to show Leo I cared. My annoying determination convinced me enough and I had a few ideas to fix our little argument. After stopping a visit in my room, I eventually make it to the library. Of course I would guess Leo would hide in the library, he always does when he wants to be alone.

It didn't take me long to find the book lover, all I had to do is check each alley before I spotted him. He sat on the floor, hugging his legs tight with his face hidden in his knees. I curved my eyebrows in a sympathetic way and sighed. Why does he always have to be so depressed. Without saying a word, I walk up to the teen. He didn't seem to notice me so I lean my back on the bookshelf and slowly slide down. I keep my knees up and rest my elbows on them. I had no intentions on rushing this so I stayed silent for a long moment. Nothing was heard but the soft sniffling from my partner next to me. After about five minutes of just sitting there, I decided to at least say something.

"Your not going to avoid me forever." I reminded as I nudged him a little by bumping my leg to his.

I didn't get a response for a moment, but when I did, all I got was a mumble. I tried to strain my ears to hear him but it was no use. "I didn't quite catch that?"

"I'm...a monster..." Leo's sad voice finally came but barley understandable.

I blinked at him and frowned. "Wow, how stupid do you have to be? You're no monster Leo." I tried to speak as calm as I could be.

"Yes I am, I screamed and pushed you." Leo tried to defend tightening his grip around his leg.

I paused, "Yes, put I'm sure you didn't mean it."

"Elliot," Leo started, lifting his head from his knees and rubbing his eyes, "I'm not the Leo you think I am."

"What are you talking about?" I asked, trying to find his gaze.

"That's why I'm a monster." Leo explained sadly.

"Hey! That doesn't mean anything. I might not know what happened after my death, but I know you can't be a monster." I huffed and crossed my arms.

"Just look at me Elliot! I say things I don't mean and I hear things I don't understand. I would of thought it was all over but..." Leo's voice was shaking and he held his head.

I listened to him closely and wrapped my arm around Leo's shoulder. "It'll be alright." I started but the other interrupted me.

"No it wont!" he busted out, shooting his gaze towards me. "All I did was bring pain to you and everyone else. I'm a disaster."

I stared into his distressed face, "Leo, your wrong. I don't believe that the person you are talking about was you. Just look at yourself, those eyes of yours tell everything. Without those sparkles, you are you, and nothing changed you. You might have been brainwashed, and I know how that feels, but deep inside, your still there." I explained with a kind voice, brushing the hair from Leo's face to show his eyes. I also reached over and grab a pair of round glasses from my pocket.(where I found in our room) Bringing it up to his face, I slip them onto his ears. I smile at the sight of the Leo I once remembered.

The servant stayed silent as he let me put on the glasses on him. He looked deep in thought and almost touched at what I was saying. "Why do you still do this? Even how bad I hurt you?" he asked with a small frown.

I tightened my grip around his shoulder, just a bit for comfort. "Because I forgive you. I just can't sit here and watch you suffer without letting you know that I'm here too." My tone was a little serious but I tried to keep a gentle smile. Truthfully, I had no idea how these words where coming out of my mouth. I didn't plan on saying this because I never really thought of them myself. But it was true that I will forgive him even how secretive he was being. Maybe once we settle our differences, than we could start over again.

I watched how Leo's mouth quivered with little happiness and he looked lost for words. He shook his head in doubt and moved himself away from my grasp. His head lower and it made it hard to recognize his feelings. What the hell is wrong with him, isn't he happy that I forgave him.

"Hey? Did you hear me wrong or something?" I asked shifting my position to my knees and touching his shoulder.

"I'm so stupid. This whole time, I just pushed you away," Leo spoke with no life in his voice but his lips curved into a mysterious smile; almost like he was laughing at himself. "And you still choose to go after me." He lifted his head to look as me. His eyes where clouded with something I could not understand, but his tiny smile hinted relief and realization. I thought he was going to bash me with ridicules nonsense, but instead he looked thankful. My parted mouth closed and I looked at him kindly. He finally understood what I meant and I felt overwhelmed with compassion. If only he knew the real reason why I'd never let him go.

"Yes, now can you stop being so lonely so I don't have to go all soft on you anymore. It's really starting to piss me off." I started, beginning to stand up now.

Leo looked almost let down from my response and stared up at me. He seemed to still wanted to say something but my little warning threw him off. Geez, he really needs to stop taking me so seriously.

I reached a hand down and smiled, "Well, are you coming up or not?" I wasn't planning on letting this guy down just yet.

The other to look at me for a moment before grabbing my hand and getting pulled up. Once he was on his feet, I continued to pull him towards me until he was fully in my embrace. I didn't care if he didn't like being touched, I needed to show how much I cared. He defiantly looked like he needed a hug so I planned on giving him the warmest one yet. I wrapped my arms around his thin waist as he put his arms around my neck. I squeezed him tight and soon I felt his own strength around me. He tucked his face between my neck and shoulder as his arms folded. I nuzzled into his shoulder and gripped the his shirt after rubbing his back. The feel of him hugging me and tightness of my own grip gave us both needed comfort. With our bodies pressed together and the soothing sound of our breathing , nothing could feel so indulging.

"I forgive you too Elliot." Leo's muffled voice sounded close to my ear and I could feel his moist breath on my skin. His voice was full of meaning as if he was at the break of tears.

I exhaled with a shaky breath, so relieved I felt light with happiness. My throat felt dry again but I refused to show my weaknesses. Even though this whole event was so hard to come by, we finally got over it. Now we can except each other and start over with something new. Maybe something more.

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