Hey guys, I'm sorry for the long needed update, but I've been pretty busy at school, GCSE's and all that, but I'm back and ready to show you my latest work. For anyone who reviewed last time, I'm sorry you didn't get your teaser, but I worked on this for 2 days straight whilst I was off ill, so there was no real time for teasers to be given out, I apologise.

On another note, I just wanted to warn you, that I am English so I don't understand who the school and grade system works over in America. I don't know when middle school start and where it ends, same for High school since here in England where simple and we have 7th-13th 'Grade' all in one school most of the time, so if there is any errors with that in this chapter I completely understand if it is a put off and your find it too difficult to read.

But back to the story...

May 2008

"Can you believe it!"

"Yeah. I can believe it.''

"Really? 'Cause I just can't believe it!"

"I know you've been saying this for the best 2 weeks Emmett." I said, calmly as I possibly could as Emmett carried on rambling, practically skipping down the hall way.

Since my return from Seattle me and Emmett had become closer than before. I told him I was over my troubles and I would love for us to start hanging out more than what we were before.

He is the bestest friend a guy could ask for.

"I know, but I can't believe it! Were graduating middle school. Soon were gonna be in high school. Can you beli-"

"Yes Emmett I can believe it! Now will you shut up? Please?"

"Fine." Emmett huffed. "I thought you stopped being a grump?"

"I'm not being grump, you just keep rambling on and it's annoying me."

"See? Grumpy. Maybe you need another trip to Seattle." He mumbled.

"Will you stop it? It's been 5 months. Every one else has shut up about it."

"'Cept Jasper, he uses that against you any chance he gets."

"And he has full right too. After what I said to him, I never expected him to forgive me."

"You still won't tell me what happened that stopped you being a grumpapotamos?"

"Grumpapotamos, Emmett? Are you 5 or something?"

"Don't avoid the question."

Guess he caught me.

I hadn't really told anyone why I left to go to Seattle, or what happened when I went. I guess I just wanted everyone to forget about the suicidal mode I went though and for everything to go back to normal. But I couldn't forget...

December 2007

"Edward? What are you doing here?"

"I kind of need a place to stay for a couple of days?"

"Come in, come in, it's freezing out there." I walked though the door, kissing her cheek on the way in.

"Thanks Tan."

"It's fine. So what are you doing here?" Tanya asked, closing the door.

"Who says I need a reason to visit my favourite friends of the family?"

"I do." She said, slightly smug. "Since you would never come here, alone, unless you were having a problem."

"And aren't you flattered that I turned to you for help?" I grinned.

"Sure, sure."

"So, where shall I put my stuff?"

"You know where the guest room is, unpack all your stuff in there. Mum and Kate will be home soon from grocery shopping and once we've had dinner, you will tell me why your here."

"Ok. Thanks Tan."

"No problem. So how long you staying?"

"Don't worry, I'll be gone before Christmas." I smiled.

"Plenty of time" She said with a cheeky grin.

"Plenty on time for what?" I asked, quirking my eyebrow in confusion.

"You'll see."

For the nest week I stayed with Delani family, Tanya, Kate and their mother, Irina. I spent more time with Tanya than anyone else, Mainly because Kate is 18 and has a boyfriend with a really weird name that I can't remember and Irina is in and out before you can really say anything to her.

It was mind of weird just being in a house with a bunch of girls. I felt a bit over powered. I guess that is how my mom feels at home with 2 teenage boys and a husband, although my mom owns our asses.

The day I left my mom and dad were on the phone to me for hours, explaining how worried they were when I wasn't with Jasper when Mom came to pick me up from school and that I wasn't aswering my phone. My mom was more upset about that I didn't say goodbye than anything else, where as my father was worried about how much time I was missing at school with my disappearing act, my mom has to force him not to come get me before I wanted to come home.

My dreams of Bella had changed completely since I got here. She never screamed anyone else's name, ever. And almost every morning I woke up with a fantastic boner. I did still think about her alot, but I knew I had to get over her, so I was trying to silence myself to only a few thoughts about Bella by keeping myself busy hanging out with Tanya.

With me and Tanya, friendship was easy, even though she is a year older than me. She was like a female version of me, not that I was calling her a slut or anything, but Tanya was no virgin so I guess when she leaned over to kiss me the day before I had to leave, I shouldn't have been surprised, but I was.

We were lying on her bed, watching TV, when she leaned in and kissed me on the lips, a first for us, and she stuck her tounge right in. I was shocked at first, but I hadn't kissed anyone in such a long time and I was trying to get over my huge crush on Bella, and even though I felt guilty for using her, I carried on.

I grabbed onto Tanya's hips flipped her so she was underneath me. We began to make out like crazy teenagers, our lips moving in sycn along with our tounges, at first out hands were stirtly PG, but then Tanya's hand travel down to my semi, I grasped. It has been long.

"I want you." She whispered into my ear as she began to fiddle with my belt buckle.

I was shocked. "But I...I've never you know...and I urr-"

"It's ok, I've dealy with a virgin before. Just don't come to early huh?" She smirked.

I smirked back. "That's not my stlye."

We began to remove eachothers clothes as quick as possible, and my semi was turning into a full on hard-on as Tanya took off her bra to show me her amazing pert breasts, we were both now only in our underwear. I bought my hand up and began to massage it with my fingers, pinching the nipple before moving my other hand up to do the same to her other breast.

"Use your mouth." Tanya moaned as she rocked her hips against me thigh.

"What?"

"Put your mouth on my tit."

Oh.

I moved my mouth down and flicked my tongue over it and Tanya began to pant slightly she I enclosed my mouth over it and began sucking as I kneaded and tweaked her other breast, then switching to do the other.

"Oh, Edward." She graoned as her finger nails scraped up my back, making me shiver. "I want you inside me now."

I didin't think twice before I stripped the two of us out of our underwear and I moved myself to press up against her entrance.

"Comdom?" I panted in anticipation.

I was not longer going to be a virgin.

"Draw."

I opened the draw next to the bed to see an open box of comdoms as I got on out, quickly ripping it with my mouth and leaning to slip it on.

"Please Edward..."

"Please what?" I teased.

"Please fuck me." She moaned.

With that I moved myself back to her entrance and slid inside her easily. I could tell be the only slight tightness of her walls that she had done this more than half a dozen times, but who was I to judge, she was letting me stick my dick in her.

We quickly moved in time with each other, moaning and panting as we went. It was an amazing feeling, but there was something missing and even as I began to feel myself coil up, there was something. Our movements became frantic and I closed my eyes picturing that it was not Tanya I was fucking, it was Bella and I felt complete. It Bella was panting my name repeatedly, Bella was grabbing and crawling at my body and it was her I felt her explode around my dick, which made me cum on the spot.

But as I opened my eyes, I remembered it wasn't Bella I was having sex with, it was just Tanya.

I felt guilty.

I pictured another woman as a girl came around my dick.

But I also realised, I couldn't just get over Bella.

May 2008

That night I told Tanya about Bella, leaving out her actual name and age incase this ever got spoken off with my family near. I told her that what happened what happened wasn't some way to get her out of my head and he reply was just;
"I know Edward or you would have kissed me."

I guess she was right.

She also told me that she has planned to seduce me all week.

That's got to be cool right?

Even though I now knew that getting over Bella wasn't really an easy option at the moment, I lived with the fact that the woman I wanted was going to be getting married very soon and I was not going to try and stop it, even if it is to an asswipe like Jake. I don't know why my 'crush' on Bella got easier, it just did, but I feel what happened with Tanya had something to do with it.

I got to Emmett's quite over now that I'm not so much of a grump and I still felt my heart flip when I'm near her and I felt angry when I seen her hug or kiss Jake, but I'm a teen and once I'm at college fucking random girls, Bella will be forgotten. I think.

I hope.

"I'm not avoiding the question Emmett, I just don't want to talk about it."

"But why?"

"'Cause what happened is my business."

"But Jasper told me th-"

I worlded around to face him.

"Jasper told you what?"

After spending a full 2 days apologising to Jasper, even though he already said that he forgiven me, I couldn't stop. I felt so guilty for saying what I said and I realised that I needed to tell him about what had been going on. I didn't tell him about Bella, I told him about the dreams, partly.I told him that I was having dreams about me being with a girl and then them calling some random guys name and it was freaking me out and that is was always women I knew. Pretty lame, I know, but what else could I say?

He seemed to believe me, I wouldn't be surprised if he thought it was utter bullshit. He also wanted to know what happened whilst I was in Seattle because when I came home I seemed to be glowing or some shit like that.

I guess I did feel kind of good for losing my virginity.

So I told him that some good stuff happened, but I didn't want to brag about it.

I guess that was a mistake.

Bastard.

"Well Jasper told me something 'good' happened when you were in Seattle."

"When did he tell you that?"

"Last week."

"Look, what happened isn't something I want to brag about. It may have been mutual, but I can't help but feel like I used them."

I heard Emmett gasp and I knew I had said too much.

"Fuck!" I muttered

"You had sex?" He whisper yelled at me as we carried on walking down the hall.

"I don't want to talk about it Emmett!"

"Well why not? you do know your probably one of the only guys who have popped their cherry in the the entire school? why not brag?" He asked,
bewildered.

"I just said, I felt like I was using them. I had sex with them whilst I was still experiencing my own issues, it's hardly fair." I argued.

"Was it good?"

"Yeah," I replied sheepishly. "It was good. Really good."

"God, I can't wait till I get to bang Rosalie."

Oh. That was another thing that had happened over the past 5 months. Before spring break Emmett asked Rosalie to go on a date with him and have been dating ever since. I kind of felt like a fifth wheel at the lunch table or when ever we went out now, but my friends are happy, so I am too.

"Well you'll have to be alot me careful than I had to be." I stated.

"What do you mean?"

"Well Rosalie's a virgin."

"And?"

Guess I'll have to say it.

"And the girl I was with was no where near a virgin."

"Dude that's awesome. You could just get right in there."

I couldn't help but snort at that. "Yeah, I could."

"So, how old was she?"

"Are you going to make me keep talking about this?"

"Yes! No one else I talk to is a not virgin."

"What about Jake?" I tried to joke, but it just made me cringe.

"Aww dude that's not cool. He's engaged to my mom."

Yeah, don't I know it.

''And what do you think they do at night when your asleep, dicuss the nation debate?"

"Dude!" He whined, punching me in the arm.

"Sorry. So when's the big day then?"

"June 20th."

"What?" I looked at him, shocked.

"What?" He looked back at me confused.

"Did you just say June 20th?"

"Yeah?"

Fuck, Fuck, Fuck!

"That's my birthday."

Why?

Why that day?

Is god messing with me?

"Your still going to come right?"

"Of course, although I have no clue why she is marrying him." I grunted. "Does she even know how Jake treats you?"

"No."

"Well why the hell not?" I demanded. "He doesn't exactly treat you all that great."

"Yeah, but he loves my mom and I'm sure she loves him, or she wouldn't be marrying him and before Jake came my mom was never all that happy." He explained. "I don't want to destroy her happiness."

"Wow Emmett, that's so... selfless."

"Yeah well..." He trailed off. "Besides, once I go to college I won't have to live with him anyway." He laughed and I couldn't help but laugh too.

"Let's just concentrate on graduating middle school at the moment hey?"

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June 2008

It was 1 week before Bella's wedding.

I week and I have lost any chance I have of being with her and Emo Edward or what Alice likes to call 'Emoward' is back.

It's not as back as I thought it would be. I am depressed that she is going to become Bella Black, but as Emmett said last month, she is happy with him and no one, not even myself is going to ruin that.

I had only seen Bella twice since my conversation about her and Jacob a few weeks prior and both times Jake had been there and he seemed a bit...off.

Each time he looked at Bella, his eyes looked like they were filled with pain, like maybe he was feeling guilty about something. I half want him to flake out on the wedding so Bella can still be available, but I also want him with stay with her so she can be happy. She deserves happiness.

"Edward!" My dad called as I was making myself a sandwich.

"I'm off to work in a bit. Do you need anything before I go? Want me to order you a pizza or something? Your mom's not going to be back till late"

"No dad. I'm fine." I replied.

He didn't reply back, but I heard his office door close.

My thoughts of Bella consumed me as I carried on making my sandwich. I picked up the knife to cut it in half when some one screamed my name.

"EDWARD!"

"Fuck!." I screamed as I sliced the middle of my hand with the knife.

"You ok?" Jasper asked.

"No! I'm not 'Ok', I just sliced my hand. Fuck!"

"Shit! Come on, I'll take you to dad."

My dad's office was only a short walk from the kitchen so we were outside in a couple of seconds and I just barged right in.

"Edward? What wrong?"

"He sliced his hand by accident." Jasper said.

"It's your fault! Why were you calling my name anyway?" I said with gritted teeth.

"I was just going to ask if you wanted to play Halo."

"Edward come here and let me see how deep it is." Dad said, ignoring our bickering. I moved over to him and he grabbed my hand gently and examined it. "It's pretty deep. I'm going to have to take you to the hospital."

"Why can't you do it hear?" I groaned. I hate the hospital.

"I don't have all the right stuff." He answered. "You'll be in and out with in an hour."

"Fine." I grumbled.

"Don't sulk, this is your own fault." I could practically hear the smile in his voice.

"No it's not! It's his." I pointed towards Jasper with a scowl.

"You were the one with the knife." Jasper mumbled, I just pretended I couldn't hear him.

"Let's just get this over with." I said, moving towards the door.

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"There you go." The nurse said, almost triumphantly, "Good as new."

"Thanks." I muttered, rubbing my hands over the poorly done stitches.

I could have done better with 1 hand.

"Dr. Cullen said to check in with him before you leave." She smiled at me, sweetly, before walking out of the room.

I hoped of the bed and out the door, walking down the familiar corridors that I had been down many times before, until I seen something that made me come to a sudden Holt.

Jacob Black.

Jacob Black was here, at the hospital. But not only that, he was here, holding the hand of another woman, a nurse and getting pulled into one of the hospitals janitors closets.

Holy Fuck!

Jacob was cheating on Bella!

I slowly, still in shock, sneaked up the door of the closet, standing next to it, trying not to make it to obvious that I was ease dropping.

"God, Jake. I can't wait until your inside me." The trampy nurse moaned loudly.

"Leah, you have to be quiet. We don't want anyone to hear." I could hear Jacob seethe at her.

"No one is going to hear Jake." The whore, now known as Leah laughed. "Just let me satisfy you the way your little fiancée can't."

"Stop talking about her like that!"

"Sorry, but I don't understand why your still with her if she can't give you what you want. We could be great together Jakey."

"I love Bella." He practically shouted. "We agreed this was just sex."

"If you love her so much, why are you hear?" The slut teased.

"Bella just not being... doing what she's supposed to lately, she too distracted, probably wedding stuff." He explained.

What she's suppose to?

She's not a slave!

"Don't you feel guilty for cheating on your precious Bella?"

"Oh course I do...look, can we just get to it, some of us want to keep our jobs." Jacob huffed.

"Oh Defiantly baby cakes." She giggled and after that I couldn't hear much, so I decided to walk off towards my dad's office in a daze.

Jake was cheating on Bella and I some how had to tell her, a week before her wedding.

I'm so fucking screwed.

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