IMPORTANT A/N:This chapter (together forever) takes place in the past... So there isn't any Dean or Sam... It's just Lillian history, So don't worry you didn't miss anything. The next chapter(s) will be back in the present; Or eh, I guess Dean & Sam's Present. eh. I'm giving myself a headache thinking. So On you go. Read, & tell me what you think. :)

What if I wanted to break
Laugh it all off in your face
What would you do?
What if I fell to the floor
Couldn't take all this anymore
What would you do?
-The kill//.30 seconds to mars.//

Don't stop. If they find you here; I was unable to stop the thought. If they find me here, I'll be punished. A fate worse then death.

I looked at the darken sky, praying for a miracle. How could god let this happen, how could the angels agree with this. Why didn't they stop this before it started. What kind of protectors were they to let millions on innocents be slaughtered like vermin.

I shut down, unable to move any longer I dropped to the ground. Visible to anyone who would want to harm me.

It was suicide, I knew that. I just didn't care anymore. I had nothing to care about. There was no more hope. They took my last ounce of hope when they got too Jane.

I shook my head, unable to imagine the pain my sister went through before they finished their games with her.

I could still hear her screaming, telling me to run and not look back.

And I did…

I ran.

Like the coward I was, I left my sister to her death.

I didn't even try to fight.

A loud cry escaped my lips.

"I'm RIGHT HERE YOU BASTARDS!" I shouted in a cry of pain, hoping one of them heard me.

I can't fight this anymore. I shut my eyes; tears streaming down my face.

This isn't how its suppose to be. I wasn't suppose to be leading this life, I should be doing things that I read about, I shouldn't have to morn the loss of every person I've ever come in contact with…

I glanced at my wrist knowing what I would find, knowing it was my last reminder of my sister.

Our bracelets.

I shut my eyes trying to block out the memory of the twelve year old me and eighteen year old Jane.

"Jane" I hissed in the dark building, ready for any attack that may come my way.

I looked around worriedly, knowing it wasn't suppose to take this long. It was a simple task, get in building (check) find any supplies (check) meet back in front entrance.

So where was she? I looked around, feeling the panic rise in me. I was about to look for her, but I stopped suddenly; trying not to make another sound when I heard feet approaching.

My heart started to thump in my chest faster.

It's not Jane. I knew with every instinct in my body, It wasn't her, We were trained to be light on our feet. Our survival depend on it, so why would she be so careless now?

Answer: she wouldn't.

I looked around and saw large pieces of metal debris that I could hide near. I quietly moved towards it, holding my breath.

Don't let em' hear me, please don't let em'.

When my back hit the cold metal I crouched down, keeping alert for more movements.

Everything went silent, the foot steps stopped. I held my breath.

"Come out come out wherever you are" an annoyingly high pitched female voice said.

"Mmmm. How I love the smell of fear." She laughed, walking closer to where I was hiding.

I had to tell myself not to cry, not give in to it. (though that's the only thing I really wanted to do right now was cry, I couldn't.) If I died tonight, I would do it with pride. Not crying like a little girl. I shut my eyes tight, and prayed that death would be swift.

"Hey bitch. Looking for someone" JANE!

My eyes snapped opened! What is she doing? I was about to yell to her to run when I felt someone grab me from the side -quickly and quietly- and put their hand over my mouth.

"Be still" He breathed into my ear, as my heart dropped. It was just Gabe, but why was he telling me to be still. He should be helping Jane, didn't he see that?

"Oh looks like I got a cocky one…" the she demon said laughing.

"You haven't got me yet bitch" The demon stopped laughing, I felt the panic again. Jane don't be stupid, run! I wanted to shout at her.

"We'll see about that" I heard her move towards Jane.

I tried to break free of Gabe's grip, he held be tighter and pulled my face into his chest.

I heard the sounds of a fight in progress, it was going to fast for me to tell who was winning. I felt tears pool into the corner of my eyes till a scream brook through the silence and I felt everything go numb.

No, No! NO!

"Well that was easy"

JANE!!!

Gabe let me go and I ran towards where I heard my sister.

"JANE!"

"Hey kiddo-" I crashed into her engulfing my arms around her "Whoa there, That hurt a bit." she laughed playfully as she messed my hair up.

"Come on lets get out of here"

I walked out, hand and hand with my sister. Happy that she was alive, once we got out of the building and into the parking lot I looked up at her and frowned.

"Whats wrong?" she said as she glanced down at me worried.

"You took too long-" I shook my head "You know the rules. Fifteen mintues tops then we all meet back up Jane. Why were you taking so long?" I felt the tears start to come up again, thinking about what could have happened.

Jane sighed and kneeled in front of me. "Well I was going to wait…But oh well, I guess I'll just have to give it too you know"

I frowned confused, as she reached into her jacket pocket and pulled out two bracelets. From what I could tell they were made of hemp, intertwined with two beads on both sides of a small pendant that had symbols on it.

"What is it?" I asked as she took my hand and put it around my wrist.

"This is an early birthday present" She smiled at me, her grey eyes joyful and full of love.

"You risked your life for a-a birthday present?" I asked bewildered.

She lifted my chin up with two of her fingers. "It's more than a birthday present-" she sighed and looked around the deserted parking lot. "We should get going kiddo" She said as she put the other bracelet on her own wrist.

We walked a few yards, my eyes glued to the pendant.

"Hey Jane?" I asked, my voice cautious.

"Yeah?"

"What does it mean?" I asked studying it. She smiled and looked down at me.

"It means we'll be together, together forever Lillian" I smiled up at her, knowing that was true.

My bigger sister my hero, She wouldn't ever leave me.

In a world where everything we had wasn't a guarantee, I knew she was. She would be there for me whenever I needed her.

We'd be together forever.

My eyes snapped opened seeing in a flash a demon grinning cruely at me.

My heart quickened in pace, I knew what was coming. I was ready, I would die in this fight. I wouldn't let them keep me alive, I wouldn't give them a choice to 'punish' me. They would have to kill me. Slow or fast, I didn't care as long as I ended up dead.

I stood up slowly, brushing my hands off on my jeans.

"Took you long enough to find me. I was starting to think you all are getting slow. All this power must me going to your head. Ego's are a bitch-" I laughed looking him up and down. He was large and I could tell powerful but I didn't stop "I always heard guys that build their body like that are trying to compensate for smaller equipment. Is that true?" I cocked my head to the side as if I was studying him.

His cruel smile grew larger.

"How about I show you girly"

"I was really hoping you would say that"

I took off towards him, grabbing the knife from my waistband, It was reckless and stupid. It was just the way to get yourself killed, I smiled at that thought.

I didn't worry about a protective stance, or defending myself. I want a fight. No. I want a blood bath.

Lunging at him full force, I went for a facial blow and below the belt kick. I knew it wouldn't hurt him as much as it would have a human male, but it still hurt enough to send an angry shock through him.

He hadn't been expecting me to do that, to be so forward in our fight. He was use to us being on the defense not the offense.

Quickly recovering he threw me to the ground where my head hit the pavement hard. With my vision blurry, I stood up, tossing the knife up in the air with a flick of my wrist.

"Little girls shouldn't play with knives" He said eyeing the knife, I smiled.

"Really? Well why not? Are they dangerous" I jerked forward as if to go after him but stopped and laughed. "Don't tell me your scared of the knife. A big ol' bad scary demon like yourself?" I was taunting him.

"I'll show what a knife like that can do girly"

"Please do." I said sarcastically mocking him, rolling my eyes. Before I knew what was happening he was on me. I could feel the bones in my arm snapping as he bent it away from me.

I did everything not to cry out in pain. He grabbed the knife from my right -newly broken arm- while his other arm wrapped around my waist holding me to him.

He sniffed the side of my face, making me cringe. Laughing he threw me back on the ground. He stomped on my left hand causing me to shout out.

He straddled me. (If I wasn't in such pain, I would have found the situation funny. Who would have thought a big guy like him could straddle someone)

He slowly cut my shirt off, smirking while he did it. I shut my eyes, praying it would be over soon.

" I'm going to gut you girly" He said as he placed the tip of the knife right below my bra.

"Any last words?" He said mockingly. I opened my eyes and stared into his black eyes.

"I'd tell you to go to hell, but it seems like were already there" He laughed at me.

"Nighty night girly" I felt the tip pirce my stomach and slowly going down. Pain riddled my body, sending me into shocking waves of cold and heat. How can you body feel both? I wondered.

I felt the darkness ready to take over, the pain unbearable. The metallic taste of blood entered my mouth.

This was it, I was dying. I wanted to smile at that thought, I would finally be out of this hell.

My eyes closed.

Peace. That's all I wanted, was peace. Even if it meant eternal dark, I just wanted peace. No more blood, no more death. I just wanted everything to be gone.

I opened my eyes hoping to see… well, I'm not sure. I couldn't hear much but the vibrations and the extra coldness on my body.

"Stay….. Can…Why…. Look…." I saw the face of an angel staring at me. What a handsome angel.

I couldn't understand what he was saying, or even why he looked so upset. A bigger question why would he even be talking to me.

I lost focus, and faded into the darkness.

Finally.

BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP

BEEP BEEP BEEEP BEEP BEEP

My first thought waking up from death was, what the hell shouldn't it be total silence. Sighing, I felt enourmas pain all over my body.

Wait… Pain? No. I was dead, you don't feel pain when your dead.

I opened my eyes and saw that I was in a room, it looked like a bedroom. I frowned.

I noticed the IV's hooked into my hands. The machience making that unpleast beep was hooked up to me.

Then it his me.

I wasn't dead.

The pain of that thought hit me hard. Making the pain in my body seem weak in comparison.

COME ON NOW!

I was suppose to be dead. Gone. Gone to this hell, and instead I'm… Well I didn't know where I was. But I sure as hell shouldn't be here.

I felt tears run down my cheek.

"Your up" I heard a male voice. I turn my head towards it, my eyes still droopy from the state I was in.

"Can you hear me"

Yes, you big idiot. I wanted to shout, though it seemed as if I couldn't speak at all. My throat my too dry and sore.

I heard him sigh, and felt him take my hand.

"I'm Ben…And-An…I-I was the one to find you-" He sighed again " I want you to know I'm doing everything I can for you. You'll be fine. I promise you, I'll make it better"

I could only blink in response, but if I could talk; I would tell him one thing.

I would never forgive him for taking away my death.

Eh. So tell me what you think? Yay or Nay to the chapter that takes place in the past? Would you like to see more thrown in, Or Only do little flashbackes during the story?...

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