Wow. How long has it been... I won't even look. 2011 has been the crappest year so far. Break-ups. 4 funearls in 2 weeks more hospitals visits than Id like to mention. Hopefully I can get everything on track again.

So here we go

know how it goes

"I think the real question is are you cold"?

Roy let out a small laugh which would have been beleivable if his teeth hadn't been shattering as the cold a cold January wind blew across the tower roof. It was almost dark with the first few stars coming into view. The almost full moon shone brightly, outshining all the baby stars with all it's might. Raven gave a small smile and reached her hand up to stroke his cheek.

"Do you wnt to go inside".

Roy grabbed Raven's hand and bringing it down to his mouth, gave it a small kiss. "I don't want ruin your night. I know you find it relaxing out here".

Turning to get on her knees, Raven faced a sitting Speedy and wrapped her arms around her neck, giving him a small peck on his lips. "I don't want an icecicle for a bnoyfriend".

Standing up, Raven made her way to the roof door. "Besides", Roy looked up to see a smirking Raven. "There are many other ways of relaxing inside".

With that Raven disappeared through the door , leaving a shocked and very turned on archer behind.

She had known something was wrong. She had known for the last number of weeks . Roy had always been attentive and loving, but all of a sudden, it had just skyrocked. Touches whenever possible, declarations of love, presents. The sex had been great.

In theroy it would seem marvelous, but it worried Raven.

There were times at night Raven would wake up to find him, staring at her, a small smile on his face as he stroked her lavender hair gently. His new favourite hobby seemed to be telling her how beautiful she was and how much he loved her.

What really worried Raven was the look she saw in his eyes

Taking her in as if to memorise every feature, as if she was about to disappear

Like she would leave.

He saw something else in his eyes. Something she pretended not too see. Not too feel but she knew what it was.

Guilt

Roy had done something.

Something he was afraid to tell Raven.

It was so bad it would drive her away.

His greatest fear.

Maybe she was afraid as well. The fear of knowing the truth to make her stop loving Roy. Of breaking off with the only person who truly loved her and who she loved back and as cliched as it sounded, the only one she could give herself fully to.

Raven did not trust easily. It took a long time for her to allow someone into her heart. So if someone lost that trust, there was little hope of getting it back.

So when Raven entered their room, the one they had shared since moving into the new headquathers and saw Roy sitting on their bed, hands in his palms, eyes pinched painfully closed.

Raven felt the fear which she had shoved to the back of her mind pushing its way foreward so hard Raven could barely concentrate.

"Roy".

And without so much as looking up at her. Roy said the two words that Raven was so afraid of.

The words that could destroy everything.

"I'm sorry".