Hello hello hello! In a great mood this morning. Ugh 12:24. So a great big thank you to everyone (96 views. I know it's not much but yay!) who have taken the time to read. And an even bigger thank you to my first favorite for snake eyes! Enjoy this chapter and 5 should be up soon ! :)

"Last night after I caught the mouse and he said it was cute things got serious and I had a whole conversation with him. Just him. No snakes." I said. She smiled.

"Well you know he's really shy but I guess he's comfortable around you." She said. I sat down on a near by bucket. I was blushing now.

"I wouldn't ever be able to forgive myself if he got hurt."

"You are really falling for him aren't you?" She asked.

"Oh crap..." I whimpered. She laughed

"Come on let's go get something to eat."

"I already ate" I said.

"To bad. Get some coffee then" she sighed dragging me to my feet and to the dining tent. When we got to the tent my heart skipped to see Snake at a table in the corner.

"Go!" Beast said giving me a shove. I turned to watch her walk away to go sit with Joker. Huh I groaned and went to sit across from Snake. He looked up when I sat down.

"Look I'm sorry about last night. I just sort of ran away" I said.

"It's ok. Look I know you didn't exactly have a good past but I'm not going judge. I didn't quite enjoy my childhood either." He sounded different, more relaxed.

"You never answered my question from the other night!" I blurted out. He blinked and then smiled softly.

"I've never been comfortable speaking in my own voice. Being in a freak show has that effect." He smiled softly and leaned forward. I blushed as he came inches from my face.

"Your different from everyone else. Your one of the only people that understands what being different really means. Lets just say I can breathe a little easier around you" he said getting up and leaving. He had to tend to the snakes I bet. I looked around the tent and saw Doll sitting with the new kid. I got up and went to joined her.

"Good morning!" She piped up. I nodded.

"Alari this is Smile my new tent mate!"

"Hello Smile I'm Alari."

"Hello." He was small with dark greyish hair and an eye patch covering one blue eye. I stood up then and stretched feeling my back crack. I patted Doll on the head.

"See ya later kiddo."

"Oh hey! Alari I wanted to know if you could join me in my performance tonight!" She squeaked. I smiled.

"Of course!" I said. I enjoyed performing with her. She was the tightrope walker in the circus. I then left and headed over to the show tent to train. When I got there I could see Black and Suit going at it. Huh today was going to be a long day. I trained all day doing flips on the trapeze and walking the tightrope. The show didn't start until 7:30 and it was only 4 so I had time to kill. I headed over to Dolls tent.

"Hello?" I called when got there. She stuck her head out.

"Hey. I bet your coming to ask what to wear tonight huh?"

"Yea."

"Just dress as yourself. I wanna do a evil slash good thing." She said.

"Awesome." I smiled and headed off. On my way back to my tent I nearly ran into Joker.

"Hey Alari!" He smiled. I waved. "Doll told me your doing a duet with her tonight in the show."

"Yea she asked me to. Wants to do a good evil thing" I said. He nodded.

"Well I gotta go find what to wear and get cleaned up." I said and headed off. I was just passing Snakes tent when he stuck his head out scaring the living day lights out of me.

"OH GOD!" I jumped, tail fluffing out and hissing. He started to laugh.

"Shut up" I said blushing. He really was cute and very handsome with his pale blond hair and golden green eyes.

"Oh come on."

"No just no." I said and he smirked. I could see the patches of scales on his skin glinting in the afternoon sun. It caused me to blush even deeper. Could I do this? Could I really let it go for a while? We'll see.

"Hey I heard your doing a show with Doll tonight."

"Yea. Hey can you ask you something?"

"Sure."

"Snake you have known me for almost two years and why now?" I asked. "I mean its like your a completely different person..."

"I don't really know. I've never really trusted anyone before and I've always been insecure but with you it's different. I guess from the moment I saw you I knew I wasn't alone. But after I learned your past I didn't want to risk getting close to you. So I just watched from a distance. I watched how you kept your distance and every move you made with careful precision. But the other day when you nearly ran into me I saw a flaw in your plan. An opportunity you might say. Your easily caught off guard if surprised. So I decided to take a risk no matter the consequence and surprise you." He said.

"Snake I... I can't, I don't want. NO! This can't happen. No no no no no no-"

"Hey calm down would you!" He said striding over and placing his hands on my shoulders. I was beginning to hyperventilate and I couldn't breathe. Fear streamed through my veins and I started to uncontrollably sob.

"No no no I have to go. I can't stay here anymore!" I shrieked gasping for air that wouldn't come fast enough. And then the darkness slipped over like a sheet. Images of flames, blood and snakes flashed all to real before my eyes.

When I woke up it was dark but a soft glow shine from the lap on the table. I was in my tent. Why? My heart sunk. CRAP!

"Oh good your awake!" The voice was all to familiar.

"Snake?" I groaned sitting up.

"Easy!" He said placing a hand on my shoulder.

"What? What happened?"

"Um I confessed your pretty well the only person I trust you freaked out saying you had to leave, had a panic attack and passed out."

"The show!" I exclaimed looking at the clock to find it was nearing four in the morning. Shit.

"Don't worry I told Doll you weren't feeling well after I carried you back here." I blushed instantly.

"You... You carried me?" I stuttered.

"Yes. But you need to know I don't want to do anything I'm going to regret so friends?" He said sticking out a hand. I hesitantly took it.

"Snake-"

"Alari I can take care of myself. Please don't worry" he said sitting down on the edge of my bed.

"Ok. So what all happened last night?"

"It was actually pretty funny Peter and Wendy couldn't do the trapeze act because I think it was Wendy sprained her ankle so Suit and Black had to do it and you know they aren't to find of each other so they bickered the whole time but it was pretty cool in the end."

"I have never heard you talk so much" I smiled. I liked hearing the sound of his voice. It was cold but had a certain warmth to it.

"Oh yea and the new kid Smile is really sick. Asthma I think."

"Damn."

"Yea." He said. I then yawned.

"You should go back to sleep but one more thing Joker left on one of those 'trips' again." Snake said making me lay down as he covered me up.

"Huh I wonder what will happen. Hey Snake have you been here the whole time?" I asked as he got up. I watched him nod before turning out the lamp and leaving. I blushed in the dark but rolled over and curled up. Falling asleep once again. I slept well into the day and right into the night but was woken up early morning when Snake came running into my tent.

"Black and Smile are GONE!"

"Ah well happens to few. Circus life isn't for everyone ya know" I said rolling over. Snake gave me a deranged look and left. I continued to sleep until night fell. Something didn't feel right, I knew I had to get up. I dressed all in black. Corset long skirt knee high boots leggings instead of tights and a long black cloak. I grabbed a small waist back and slipped my most valuable items inside. My make up and all the money I had. I then left. Near the entrance of the Circus I could see a heated discussion was going on. Snake looked up at me when I approached.

"Everything has gone to shits Alari. Dagger, Beast, Peter, Wendy and Jumbo all left to attack the earl and Phantomhive manor. Doll left to inform Joker. Half the circus has no clue were most if the first string member went."

"Snake I'm leaving. Something really feels wrong and I want to get as far away from her as possible." He nodded. I could see all nine of his favourite snakes on him. He was prepared to leave as well.

"Let's go." He said. Together we began walking ignoring the sounds of those who shouted at us to come back. I simply waved a hand over my head. I was done with this.

"So where to now?" Snake asked.

"Follow the Phantomhive scent."

"Why?" He asked.

"Snake I know the story of that kid. It's linked to the circus. "Father" as they called him plays a part. You know about the kids house being burned and how is parents were murdered and he was sold off. They used to kid to summon a demon. Who guess what is Black and Smile or Ceil is the master. Now the group that did this to him are dead but that group is linked to the group that ruined my life to." I said.

"And?" He asked. "Why do we need to go to Smile?"

"I want answers he can give me" I grinned.