A/N: Hey so here is a new chapter! Hope you enjoy! Excuse any of my mistake. i know last chapter i made a lot. Sorry about that.
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CHAPTER 4 (ASHLEYS POV)
I got to first period class, luckily my sister was in my class but what blew is that spencer was also in my class. I walked in about 5 minutes after the bell. I didn't even look at my teacher or any of my classmates especially Spencer. I looked up for a moment to see my teacher writing on the board. I took this as a chance to move seats all the way in the back, next to Tracy.
"Ms. Davies. Nice to know you still showed up for my class today." I wiped away my tears quickly and turned around to see Mrs. Goldberg staring at me
"I'm sorry, I got caught up." I tried to explain but a squeak in my voice came out. Letting everyone know I was crying.
"I see, well, may I ask what we have been learning about in class?" I looked her in the eyes. I knew she was going to punish me by making me act out a seen of Shakespeare. I mean seriously, who does that in an English class?!
"We have been talking about love, heart breaks and pain. We also went over Romeo and Juliet." I waited for her response. I was tensed up and nervous as all eyes were on me. I really hope no one noticed I was crying.
"Good, now explain to us your definition of the three. If it is descriptive enough to my standards I will excuse your tardy. I am not look for love is when you like something a lot as in yogurt. I am not looking for heart breaks as in when you drop your cell phone, and I am not looking for pain as in when you get a paper cut and lemon juice in it." I walked up to the front of the class and put my stuff down gently, making sure I didn't hit anybody's feet or desks.
"I think I know what you mean, although pain should totally be referred to as stepping on a lego, now that is some deep pain." I chuckled as the whole class started laughing. Even Spencer, my insides just melted as I saw her smile and heard her laugh. I was knocked out of the spell when I noticed my teacher also giggled a little bit.
"I want you to define the three the way Shakespeare would define the three." She patted my shoulder and leaned against her desk. I looked towards the ground then to my hands. I never noticed how much I played with my hands when I was nervous. I looked up to see Tracy giving me a thumbs up, I looked to Spencer and caught her leaning over kissing Okalani and pulled away to focus back on me. I saw this and I knew exactly how I was going to explain the three subjects.
"Well, I think Shakespeare would define love as falling for someone. As in, you can date as many people as you would like, say I love you as many times as you would like but then finally meet someone who you can lay your eyes on for the first time in your life and know you're going to marry them. I think Shakespeare would define love as waking up to that one special person every single morning and falling in love with them all over again, just by looking into their eyes, feelings their touch or even just seeing a smile." The whole time I explained this I was looking at the ground.
"Now, heart breaks, in Shakespeare's point of view, would be going through a day without talking or seeing the person you love. Heart breaks as in seeing this person you love sad or hurt. Seeing this person you love so very much cry in your arms. When all you want is to love that person more than you will ever know and see that person happy but they have yet to reach that point." I was more nervous than ever. Okay Ashley, one last subject. Make this good so you don't get into trouble. By now for this next subject I looked up to see Spencer's gaze locked into mine, I knew what I was about to say was towards her.
"In my mind, I feel Shakespeare would define pain as in seeing the person you love walk around with someone other than you. Knowing that the person you want to just hold, kiss, care for, comfort, and love doesn't, can't or won't love you back. Feeling a certain emptiness knowing you'll wake up in the morning with the person you love not at your side but with someone else. That is what I think pain would be if Shakespeare defined it." I noticed Spencer was still locked into my gaze. The whole time I was speaking to her. Everyone in the room faded. I noticed a tear go down her cheek and I just smiled and walked back to Tracy and hugged her.
"Thank you Ms. Davies. That was more descriptive than I expected and you are excused of your tardy."
"Thank you Mrs. Goldberg." I smiled as she nodded to me. 45 minutes later the bell rang and it was finally second period, which means, no more Spencer in the rest of my classes besides 6th period! Yay! I quickly grabbed my stuff and ran out of class; I went straight to my locker.
"Ashley! What was that about in there?" I turned around to see a worried Tracy in front of me.
"Did you see the girl next to Spencer in there?"
"Yes? What about her?" Tracy was more confused than ever.
"Well, guess what. That is Spencer's girlfriend. She moved to Ohio and showed up today. They stopped talking after Okalani moved. Spencer thought they broke up until Okalani kissed her in the parking lot this morning. I would've told you but you ran off with Aiden."
"OH HELL NAW! Seriously?!"
"Yes Trace seriously! I didn't know I said everything in class towards Spencer" Ugh, I hate lying to Tracy, I feel like a terrible big sister.
"Aw, Ash, hug me sister!" Tracy pulled me in for a deep hug and I hugged her back. I just noticed how I wasn't crying anymore. I think I can get through today without crying now that I said those things in class. I let go of Tracy and said my goodbyes. I grabbed my stuff and headed for second period. Time to finish this day with a smile like there is no tomorrow!
It was finally sixth period, I found out basketball practice was going to be a little earlier today so I had to change into my clothes. I was so bored in calculus. All Mr. Perez does I crack dumb jokes and I just sit her on my phone. Right now, I was texting my friend Austin back about the party later. I told him I was going to bring Tracy and Aiden. I looked up to see Kyla, Spencer's sister. I snuck over to her and introduced myself.
"Hey, I'm Ashley." I put my hand out and shook her hand. She gave me a funny look that made me smile. She was way beautiful but not as beautiful as Spencer. Damn it Ashley! Shut the hell up and don't remind yourself of her.
"I know who you are, my sister Spencer always talks about you." I smiled at the information I just heard.
"Really?" Right when I heard that I perked up and listened.
"Wait; don't tell her I told you!" I started quietly laughing at her.
"No worries I won't, as long as you tell me your name, number and you come to this party tonight. My friend Austin is hosting it at his house. There'll be guys, girls, booze and live music. You can bring whoever you would like." I sat there awaiting her response. You could tell she was contemplating whether or not she should go.
"Yeah, sure, give me your phone and I'll put in my number. Text me when you're done with basketball and I'll bring my bro and sis along. Is that cool?" She seemed so scared that I was going to reject her brother and sister. I had no problem, especially since Spencer is her sister and Glen… well, Glen was kind of cute at some point. I gave Kyla my phone, when she was done I snuck back into my seat and looked back. I smiled and waved to Kyla as she returned the favor. I looked over at Spencer, she looked pissed at me. As if I was hitting on her sister. I glared and shook my head at her. She smiled and I knew she picked up that I wasn't trying to mess with anyone.
Right when the bell rang I grabbed my stuff and ran to the gym. Today is going to be a tough practice; we got a big game coming up against the North side Cougars. They were undefeated all season and so were we. They stood no chance against us and they knew it. But they were going to try, that is all the confidence they need. We did some drills and a small scrimmage. When I was done I texted Kyla giving her Austin's address. Maybe Kyla is perfect for Austin! He seriously needs a girl. I promised him to bring him a hot girl and that is Kyla!
(SPENCER'S POV)
It was after softball practice and I just got home from dropping Okalani off. I couldn't believe what just happened today. I mean I still love her but I really like Ashley. Her face today...she looked so hurt. So sad and I don't want to see her like that anymore. I threw my stuff to the side and lay down.
"Spencer!" I was slowly dozing off until Kyla and Glen busted through my door and started throwing a crap load of clothes at me. I shot up from lying down and starting throwing pillows at them both. We were all laughing having fun then Glen picked me up.
"Glen put me down!" I was hitting his back but he wouldn't drop me.
"Not until you agree to go to this party that Ashley invited us to!" I stopped hitting Glen and my eyes shot straight to Kyla. She had a scared look on her face as to why I was so quiet.
"I don't know. I don't think I should go." Glen slammed me onto my bed really hard and knocked the wind out of me. Once I regained my breathe and focus, I sat up to see Glen and Kyla, both crossing their arms and glaring down at me.
"Spencer, what did you do?" Kyla looked so pissed
"Okalani showed up at school today, and well, she kissed me and I kissed her back. What I didn't know is that Ashley saw and she looked really sad. I think I hurt her which was the last thing I wanted to do." Kyla and Glen both looked at each other then back at me.
"Spence, why can't you just dump Okalani?! Last time I checked she was the one who stopped talking to you!" Kyla fell down next to me. Glen slowly sat down and put his hand on my shoulder.
"I agree, Spence. Plus, after you dump Okalani I can get a chance! Yay!" He started clapping in glee. I just glared and got up to push them off my bed and out the room.
"I'll think about it! Now, leave so I can get ready for the party!"
"Yes! That's the party Spencer I know!" I started laughing at both of them when I shut the door in their face. I'm glad I have them as my siblings. Ten minutes late I was out of the shower deciding what to wear. After five more minutes passed I decided to just go with a white band tee cut off, sports bra and skinny jeans. Once I was done I went to Oaks house to pick her up.
I drove up and honked the horn. I really don't want to get out. I JUST WANT TO GET TO AUSTIN'S HOUSE AND TALK TO ASHLEY. I got distracted from my thoughts of Ashley after I heard Oaks call my name.
"Oh Spency! Hey baby!" I watched as she jumped into my car. She leaned over and kissed my cheek. I just smiled at her, wishing that kiss was from Ashley. I checked her out as she was walking over. Okalani has green eyes and dirty blonde hair with light colored skin like me. She looked beautiful tonight, wearing a jean skirt with a lace, blue, flower tube top.
"Hey babe, is that all I get?" She smiled and slowly leaned in. I met her halfway to where our lips met. I didn't feel a spark, didn't get any butterflies. It just felt like another kiss. Just by Ashley holding me, I went straight to cloud nine. I love Okalani but I'm not IN love with her. About 20 minutes later we ended up at Austin's. The very first car I spotted was Ashley Porsche. I smiled at the thought of knowing she was here.
I got out and ran off to Okalani's side of the door. I decided to play nice tonight and open and closer her door for her. We intertwined fingers and headed inside. This party was HUGE especially since Austin's parents were rich, with a huge mansion! It still wasn't as big as Ashley's house. I walked in to be greeted by a lot of people, some of which I don't even know their names or have even seen them before. I saw Ashley and knew I had to talk to her. She was grinding in between a couple of girls. Not to lie it sucked to watch but I guess its karma. I turned to Okalani and kissed her.
"Hey babe, can you go get us something to drink from the kitchen. It's down the hall to the left." I kissed her once more as she walked off. I waited for her to turn into the kitchen. When the coast was clear I headed towards Ashley.
"Hey Ash." I smiled and tapped on her shoulder. She spun on her heels and faced me. God, she looked so beautiful. She was wearing a white vest with only a laced bra underneath. She had on red, black and white Jordan's with blue skinny jeans.
"Oh, uh, Spencer right?" HOW COULD SHE FORGET MY NAME? I wanted to die at how she couldn't even remember me. Then I saw the drink in her hand and thought she was drunk.
"No I'm kidding Spencer! Relax; you look like you're going to cry!" I just smirked. I WANTED TO CRY.
"Thanks for inviting my sister and I. I brought Oaks with me. Was that okay?" She smiled and shook her head.
"It's all good with me." We both got distracted after her friend called her onto the stage to get ready and Okalani popped up next to me.
"Hey babe." I looked over to see Okalani resting her chin on my shoulder.
"Hey, oaks this Ashley, Ashley this oaks." They smiled and shook hands. We heard Ashley's name get called again.
"Hey, I'm Ashley. It was nice meeting you. I'd love to stay and chat but I got to get on stage. I'll see you both around?" I nodded, she ran to the stage and I watched her talk to the guys on stage. I noticed them pray really quickly then grab their instruments. Ashley tapped on the mic a couple times.
"Check. Check. All good guys. Ready?" The boys nodded at me.
This was my chance to sing to Spencer. I know I'd barely have the guts to sing just to her. She makes me so nervous but it was a good nervous. I looked for her in the crowd of people in my friends' living room. Once I smiled she nodded her and I just held up my drink and took another sip.
"Hey everyone! My names Ashley Davies! For those of you who don't know me. My friend Austin who is hosting this party wanted me to sing a song tonight. I couldn't reject so why not?! This song is called still into you by paramore!" I turned around and nodded my head. My friend Chris started drumming, Ben jumped in with guitar, jimmy on bass and I was singing while playing guitar. I never broke my gaze with Spencer.
"Can't count the years on one hand
That we've been together
I need the other one to hold you
Make you feel, Make you feel better"
Oh my gosh, Oh my gosh, Oh my gosh. Okay, Ashley is singing right now. On the inside I'm freaking out. Outside I'm just dancing with Okalani but holding my gaze with Ash. I really like her but I wish I just had the guts to break up with Okalani.
"It's not a walk in the park
To love each other
But when our fingers interlock,
Can't deny, can't deny you're worth it
'Cause after all this time, I'm still into you"
I'm looking at spencer and Okalani. Right now, they are making out and grinding on each other. God, it hurt so much to watch but I was just waiting until Spence would look at me again. When I knew she wasn't going to look back, I just shook my head and focused on everyone else. 'Come on ash, focus.'
"I should be over all the butterflies
But I'm into you (I'm into you)
And baby even on our worst nights
I'm into you (I'm into you)
Let 'em wonder how we got this far
'Cause I don't really need to wonder at all
Yeah after all this time I'm still into you
Recount the night that
I first met your mother
And on the drive back to my house
I told you that, I told you that I loved ya
You felt the weight of the world
Fall off your shoulder
And to your favorite song
we sang along to the start of forever
And after all this time, I'm still into you
I should be over all the butterflies
But I'm into you (I'm into you)
And baby even on our worst nights
I'm into you (I'm into you)
Let 'em wonder how we got this far
'Cause I don't really need to wonder at all
Yeah after all this time I'm still into you
Some things just, some things just make sense
And one of those is you and I (Hey)
Some things just, some things just make sense
and even after all this time (Hey)
I'm into you, baby not a day goes by
That I'm not into you
I should be over all the butterflies
But I'm into you (I'm into you)
And baby even on our worst nights
I'm into you (I'm into you)
Let 'em wonder how we got this far
'Cause I don't really need to wonder at all
Yeah after all this time
I'm still into you
I'm still into you
I'm still into you"
Wow, that song was so cute. Ashley is such an amazing singer. When she was done she turned around and put her guitar down. She hugged all the guys in her band then got off stage. I was going to walk over to her but right when she stepped off stage, a group of about 5 girls mobbed. I watched the whole time; every now and then she would look up and smile at me, but return her focus on the girls. She exchanged numbers with all of them. Once they walked away a new girl came up and kissed Ashley. Wait what?! Did that girl seriously just kiss Ashley?! Hell no! She is mine! Oh... Wait... She isn't, Okalani is mine. God, I want to be with Ashley so bad!
When I was done performing, I hugged all the guys in my bad and got off stage. I really wanted to go talk to Spence but a group of girls started talking to me. Good thing they were all oh so gorgeous! Every now and then I would look up and smile at Spence. Yet, I had to put my focus back on the group of girls. We all exchanged numbers and it made me pretty happy to know there were some girls there. After I was done talking I turned around and out of nowhere this random girl kissed me! I tried to push her off but she was holding on to my vest to tight. She had a wicked grip! What the hell?! Who's kissing me! Finally, when the girl pulled away, I got to see her whole face.
"No way! August, when did you get here?!" I was completely and utterly shocked to see August. It made matters worse but not too bad. I was happy to see her again. I missed her a lot!
"I just got in town about an hour or so ago! My friend texted me, begging me to come to this party!" She smiled and pulled me in for a hug. I hugged back and asked if she wanted to dance. We were grinding on each other and slowed down to slow songs. I was having a lot of fun.
"Kiss me." My jaw dropped slightly, in that moment we were slow dancing, my hands on her waist and her arms around my neck.
"Um, what?"
"You heard me, kiss me."
"August, last time I checked you cheated on me. I really don't have the strength to be hurt again."
"Ash, I know what I did was stupid and wrong of me, I really want another chance. Stupid right? Asking for the same thing once more. But Ashley, this time I'm not messing around. I really want to make it up to you." I looked into her blue eyes that reminded me of Spencer, I will always love August. I could hear the sympathy in her voice and see the desperation in her eyes. I leaned in and she met me halfway. When our lips met, I didn't feel anything but I knew I needed to be with her. Jesus, Trace is going to hate me so much!
"Let's get out of here." She whispered into my ear then softly kissed my neck. I intertwined our fingers and left the party. No words were spoken on the ride home. Once we got to my place we went straight for my room. That night we had sex twice, and I didn't regret any of it. I do love her but I feel like I am just using her. At least she is great in bed!