CHAPTER FOUR

When You're Smiling

Narcissa actually wanted to stop reading but couldn't. Reasing about her younger years was making her feel a little happier cause she lived her live over again. But it hurted even more, she missed Lucius even more now she readed about how she thought about him when she was eleven. She missed her old friends, who mostly stayed home these times and actually were terrified that they would get involved in this too, although they actually already were because of their husbands. But they were no smart enough to relise they were actually equally guilty by supporting their men. Narcissa got more worried about Draco too. The job he had been given was way to big for him. if he failed he* would kill the whole family. Lucius was safe for now but if she got him out he would be in even bigger danger than he was just in Azkaban. There he could only hurt himself, but if he was smart he would remember their confersation. She told him she would ALWAYS wait for him. ALWAYS….

Narcissa's second year had begon and Narcissa walked through the hallway. She was so deaply in thoughts that she didn't saw him comming. She bumped in to a tall blond boy.

"Mind your…" She begon, but then she saw who walked in to her. It was Lucius.

"Sorry, Miss Black. Let me help you."She grabbed her books from the ground and gave them back to her, like a real gentleman."There you go."

"Thank you."She said."I actually guess it was my fault, I was not minding my stap. I was in deep thoughts."

"Well, that must be something very interesting."He said smiling.

"It was actually my potions homework. It's kind of dificult today."She replied blushing.

"Not to show-off but i'm pretty good at potions, maybe I could help you?"He said it looking down at the ground which made her feel flathered.

"Really? I never expected you to be the helping type. But if you're sure, then yes pleas."Narcissa said.

She spented the whole afternoon with Lucius in the library. That didn't stay un-noticed. When they came back in the Slythering common-room they got atacked by friends asking about everything.

"Narcissa, why were you ALONE with Lucius Malfoy in the library?"Catherin asked.

"He was helping me with pot-"Narcissa started.

"Yeah sure, who believes that. Did you snog?"Catherin almost screamed.

"NO! Leave me alone!"Narcissa said.

She ren to her dormitor. There she found Paula, reading on her bed.

"Hey, Cissy."She said."How are you?"

"Not that well actually."Paula looked up from her book."You've heared too!"

"Yeah, but if you don't want to talk about it then I won't say you need to."Narcissa actully never gave Paula that much attention, now she regretted. Cause actually Paula seemd really nice.

"Thanks."Narcissa said. She really ment was a silence for a while. "We really didn't do anything, you know." Narcissa said. Paula looked up.

"I know."She said."You're not like that, you've been raised better." Narcissa gave her a smile. There was nothing she knew to say. It was really nice from Paula to say that, although she didn't really know her.

"Maybe we could do more things together?"Paula said blushing."I mean, you really seem nice."

"I was just thinking the same thing"Narcissa said.

The next weeks weren't really quiet. There were absolute big changes. She and Paula hang around with each other more. Narcissa's grades were really good, although her live after school was a lot bussier now she had more friends. But the biggest change was that Lucius kept looking at her with that weird look in his eyes. She coulcn't really got what he was trying to say with it. Paula said he looked dreamy when she was around and that he was trying to flirt with her but Narcissa didn't really believe that.

The Christmas vacation had begon and Narcissa sat in her room. She was brushing her hair. When she was done she took one final glance in the mirror, she looked perfect in her purple dress. She needed to, they were going to the LeStrange Manor. Bellatrix was alreaady engaged to Rodolphus. This was a celebration-Christmas walked down, Andromeda was already waiting in hall. She looked really pretty in her peach dress.

"Andromeda you look stunning." She gave her sister a kiss on her cheek. Then she saw Andromeda's face. She had traces of tears on her cheeks."What is wrong, my dear?"

"I…I Can't tell you, Cissy"Se said.

"What? Why not?" Narcissa asked. "Andromeda, you can tell me anything.

"Cissy, I can't. I don't…I don't want to loose you."Andromeda almost cried again.

"Ooow, come on. Pleas Meda, don't cry. Look tel me than I can help you."

"I'm-" But Andromeda didn't finish that sentence cause Bellatrix came down the stairs with Druella and Cygnus. Cygnus looked really tired.

"Father, did you get any sleep tonight?" Narcissa was now worried about two people.

"Don't worry, Princess. I'll will be fine."Her father said.

Narcissa was hoping she knew what was wrong with both of them back them. She wished she could've done something. She regretted that for the rest of her life. Missing Andromeda was one of the worst thing that had happened to her in her whole life. She couldn't believe it back then. Now she did. Now she knew how painfull it would've been for her if she gave up on her love. Now she was missing her love, her dear, her Lucius.