Author's Note:

Ok thank you to all the reviews and sorry that this has taken a while, but hopefully it was worth the wait. This chapter is about Bella is still holding on to the relationship that she had with Edward and the song is Here with Me by Dido.

Chapter 3:

I didn't hear you leave
I wonder how am I still here

I collapsed on the bed, exhausted from all the crying, which had also given me a rather large headache. School had been hard, everyone asking questions about Edward and the rest of the Cullen's, wondering why they had left. This only made the whole in my heart larger than before.

And I don't want to move a thing
it might change my memory

Lifting my head from my pillow, I saw the photo of Edward and me, the one that had been taken outside their house. He had his arms around my waist, pulling me in tightly, as if wanting to suck in all my warmth, as he rested his chin on my head and me with smile so huge at the thought that this wonderful, magnificent creature had let me into his life. Just thinking back to that memory, bought a whole lot of new tears cascading down my face.

"Bella, honestly how long are you going to cry over that boy?" My father asked as he invited himself into my room. "This is unhealthy Bella." He told me.

As if Charlie would know what was healthy, the man practically lived on fast food until I came along; if it wasn't for me he'd be six feet under due to a heart attack.

And if it wasn't for Edward then so would I. this realization just made the tears pour down harder and Charlie get even grumpier.

"He's not worth it Bella, he's not worth your tears." Charlie said getting up from my bed and making his way over to the door. "And you'll see that soon enough."

"No Dad, that's the problem, I'm not good enough for him, and I knew it all along. He deserves better."

"Then why are you crying if you felt that way?"

"Because I just wish that I could have been good enough one day." I cried putting my head back in my pillow."

"That's pathetic Bella that is really pathetic." Charlie told me, as he closed the door, making me cry harder. Even my own Dad didn't want me now.

Oh I am what I am
I do what I want
But I can't hide

"Bella I think it would be best if you went to go live with your mother. I can't handle you anymore and I think your mother would take much better care of you." Charlie told me on the rare occasion that I had managed to get out of my bed and make his dinner.

"No Dad, I don't want to go I want to stay here. With you." I whispered softly, tears trying to make their way out of my eyes.

"No you don't Bella, you want to stay here in the faint hope that Edward will return. Well I'll tell you Bella, he's not coming back. HE IS NEVER COMING BACK!!!" Charlie's words hit me like a tonne of bricks.

"I'm not going Dad, you can't make me go." I cried rushing out of the room.

And I won't go
I won't sleep
I can't breathe
until you're resting here with me

"Bella," Charlie called, racing up in the stairs." How dare you walk away from me, when I was talking to you, do you have no respect?"

"I'm sorry Dad, but I just had to get away, I mean you don't want me here anymore do you? You just want to get rid of me."

"That's not true Bella, I do want you here, but I can't take care of you not in this condition. Your not yourself, you wont go to school, you wont eat. All you want to do is sleep and cry. How am I supposed to help you? How tell me?" Charlie cried, and I mean actually crying, as in tears.

"I don't know Dad, I just don't. I'm sorry." I whispered my voice cracking more than once.

"Listen Bella, please you need to be more active about your life, you have to get over him. Or you need to get out." Charlie stated as if the answer was simple. Giving me a small smile, he then left, leaving me alone with my thoughts.

I don't want to call my friends
for they might wake me from this dream
and I can't leave this bed
Risk forgetting all that's been

As much as I didn't want to leave here, I couldn't get over Edward, he was my life. Forgetting him would be like dying.

This meant there was only one thing left to do, I had to leave.

Oh I am what I am
I do what I want
But I can't hide

And I won't go
I won't sleep
I can't breathe
until you're resting here with me