Note: I'd like to apologize for that last chapter. I wanted to update but I was sort of falling in and out of sleep while doing it and it sucked. I'll try to do better!
Chapter 4
This sucked to the highest degree of suckiness. Dave sat there in the meeting...feeling more like it was an AA meeting. 'Hello I'm Dave and I'm gay' 'HI DAVE'. ...Yeah this was horrible. He really didn't want to be here. Football. Football was interesting. Why couldn't they talk about that? Or the new Modern Warfare game. He really wanted to get back to playing that. The last game ended like a movie and completely left you hanging! He felt awful when Ghost died, he was his favorite character.
Oh crap, Kurt was giving him a pointed stare. He huffed and shifted in his seat, trying to pay attention. Why did he have to go to these meetings? He made his promises. He helped Kurt. Protected him. This was just...busy work. Finally the meeting came to an end and he didn't remember a single thing. Something about farting whistling rainbows and unicorns prancing with fairies or...something. He stopped those thoughts the instant he noticed Kurt giving him an annoyed look. It was like he could read his thoughts! Creepy...or...it could be rather hot. He smirked. Kurt turned away from him, speaking to a few members before joining Dave and together they walked back to Kurt's car.
"How'd you like the meeting?" Kurt asked. Dave huffed, crossing his arms. " 'Like' isn't even in the sentence of how I feel." Dave muttered. He looked at him once they were in the car. "Hummel...Kurt, this is stupid. I don't need to go to these meetings. I've changed haven't I?" Kurt gave him a look of disbelief. "Changed? Hardly! You're only acting nice because you're scared of people finding out that you're gay! You shouldn't be scared. You're strong and brave enough to take on anyone who might have a problem. If you came out you could be a hero to every gay or bi person at the school! They'd think that if you could do it then they could too!" Kurt said. Dave's nose wrinkled. "No! I'm not coming out! And if you keep telling me to..." His hands balled into fists angrily. Kurt arched a brow at him. "And what was that you said about having changed?" He murmured.
Dave grabbed the door handle and threw it open, getting out. "I'll walk." He growled, slamming the door shut. He started on his way and Kurt opened his own door. "David! Don't leave like that! I'm sorry!" Dave didn't slow down, he just kept walking. "At least let me give you a ride back to the gym!" He called, but Dave refused to even look back. So Kurt sighed and finally drove off, leaving Dave to walk the rest of the way back to the gym.
Dave huffed quietly, running a hand through his hair as he walked. Kurt SUCKED! Sucked sucked sucked! Oh crap now thinking of Kurt and the word 'suck' he was imagining Kurt doing just that...to his cock. He groaned and shook his head. Damn Kurt! The idiot still didn't understand that he was in love with him and that he was scared about that! If people knew... His face screwed up in pain, he felt like crying. No! He wouldn't! He was a man! He took a few deep breaths, trying to calm down. But he couldn't. Singing seemed to help Kurt and the other Gleeks...maybe he could try it. He looked around, no one was around. ...It might help since he didn't have his iPod with him.
"I saw your face in the morning sun So many things that I wanted to say Our love could never die
oh, I thought you were there
I heard your voice as the wind passed me by
silently, whispering my name
forever left untold
I still remember the tears that you shed
over someone else
save a little prayer for the fallen one."
The song worked. In his mind he was picturing Kurt's face, shocked at his singing. He smiled slightly at that. But the image changed. Kurt wouldn't come running to his arms. He had a boyfriend now. He huffed. Why couldn't he have fallen for him instead? He wasn't that mad of a guy. Right?
"There is a light down at memory lane Our love could never die Still on my own, chasing the sun of a time long ago Still on my own, chasing the sun of a time long ago I saw your face in the morning sun Our love could never die
slowly fading away
Still holding on to the dreams torn apart
I will follow my heart
all I can do is cry
save a little prayer for the fallen one
The shade in my heart, tearing apart
everything that I long for
The shade in my heart, tearing apart
everything that I long for
oh, I thought you were there
I heard your voice as the wind passed me by
whispering my name
all I can do is cry
save a little prayer for the fallen one
oh, yeah."
He had been right. Singing had made the time pass by faster, and finally he was crossing the parking lot, heading to his car. And no one knew. He climbed inside his truck and called his house, telling his Dad he was heading over to Az's. He needed some bro bonding time in order to forget everything that had happened that night. And so he drove to his friend's house where they spent the entire night pigging out on doughnuts, chips and energy drinks...
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Dave made it back home on Sunday and was now sitting on the couch...staring at the scariest thing he had ever seen before. He'd gladly go on the news and announce he was a butt-fucker to the entire world...anything to get out of this room and erase the memory from his mind. Sitting opposite of him was his father...holding hands with a woman.
Dave hadn't told many people this, he never thought it was important. But his parents were divorced. He chose to live with his father so that way he could finish school. His sister went back and forth between their parents, visiting one and then the other, but she chose to live with their mother during the week, and every other weekend she would come back and visit him and their father. Dave didn't go and see his mother as much as he probably should. He loved her. Practically worshiped the ground she walked on. She was there for his first steps. Taught him how to speak and even got him into math. He saved up all of his money to get her the most beautiful gifts. That was why he didn't want her to know he was gay. The pain that would be there...he wouldn't be able to take it. She had come to see him when he got suspended...or...expelled...whatever. He had broken down then, crying into her shoulder as she held him, like he was a little kid.
But the fact of the matter was both of his parents were able to date whoever they wanted to. His mother had started seeing a man name Alexander King, a man who owned a coffee shop a few towns over. He was...nice. Too nice. When Dave first met him he thought the guy was gay. Turns out he wasn't. He doted on Dave's mother. His father, however, hadn't chosen to date anyone. It wasn't that his parents hated each other...they simply fell out of love. But his father hadn't gone out with anyone since the divorce four years ago. Not until now it seemed. While his father seemed happy...Dave was busy wondering how long it would take to dig his own grave. For the woman sitting across from him was none other than Sue Sylvester...
More Notes: First off, I would like to apologize for the 'butt-fucker' comment. To me it seemed like a phrase Dave might use if there was no rating on Glee. But I'm still sorry for the comment and hope no one takes offense to it.
The song used was The Fallen One by Hammerfall.