Bella/Rosalie

Rated M

"Bella do you miss your mommy?" I found myself asking her as she was making my peanut butter and jelly sandwich. She shrugged her shoulders and continued to make my sandwich. I was missing my mommy, it's been almost three months.

"I miss my mommy Bella...I don't like it here, James is scary and the kids here don't like me" She came over to me with a glass of milk. Sitting my food in front of me, She grabbed my chin and made me look at her.

"Rosalie, I love you like a little sister, I will protect you from anybody who dare try to hurt you. None of these kids are important. It's just you and me from now on, Just please stay out of James way." She kissed my forehead and sat with me. I nodded and took a bite out of my sandwich, kicking my feet and humming happily. Bella always knew the right words to say. I knew I was too little to make such a big decision...but I knew that Bella would be my best friend for life.

She became family

Family

Something I'm slowly trying to get accustom to, Alice been gone for about three weeks now. She kept her promise though, she visited a lot. She always brought him with her, I hated him so much...I never hated someone so much other than James. Jacob and James were the same person in my mind, that's why I think I hate Jacob so much. The fear that one day he will hurt Alice like James did Bella. Bella endured so much pain mostly because of me, she always protecting me...even if it resulted in leaving her self unprotected. Edward and Emmett been trying to get me out and about so I wouldn't get so sad. Edward was trying to make peace but I didn't trust him at all...so it was hard to be around him and his bi-polar mood swings. But Emmett was slowly becoming a teddy bear to me. A security blanket of some sort, he was very patient and kept his distance. He knew when to be close and not, he knew when I wanted to talk and when I didn't. I really didn't have a relationship with my father. My adoptive father Carlisle was always working and never was home much. I see how much that hurt my mom but she will never say anything though. Alice was the only family member I trusted, and now she was gone doing god knows what with Jacob.

I was scared

Bella visit a lot too, Somewhere in my mind I knew I really wasn't seeing Bella...it was my mind dreaming of her. I know she is somewhere in the world not thinking about me, I don't know why I think of her so much...we lay in my bed for hours just talking about every and anything. Just like old times, we protected each other from the world. Pulling the covers thighter around me, I opened my eyes to the brightness of the sun light. It was Bella birthday today, the Cullen's celebrates it with me every year. We would sit and talk about her like she was a family member, Mom would bake a cake and I would blow the candles. But this year...Alice forgot.

She didn't come

Edward was in one of his funks and he didn't show either, it was just Emmett and I as Mom baked the cake. Alice finally showed up after the cake was cut, I ignored her the whole time she was here. I didn't need her...I had Bella now so I didn't need none of them.

"Morning sleepy head" Smiling at the sound of her voice, I turned and glazed into her eyes. She touched my cheek, even thou her hand went right through...I could swear I felt her warm hand against my cold cheek. She always had the touch to just make all my nightmares go away. I sit up and folded my legs under me, she copied me and just smiled at me. We would just sit here staring at each other, last week Emmett had caught me talking to Bella...Well according to him I was talking to myself as he watched me have a whole conversation with Bella. He told our dad and now today I was going to go talk to a shrink. Edward's shrink matter of fact, Mom and Dad think my obsession with Bella and Alice wasn't healthy.

I didn't know having friends was unhealthy

"Big day for you huh?" I rolled my eyes, I wasn't really keen on telling my personal business to a complete stranger...even if they are experts on dealing with things I'm going through.

"I won't say anything Bella" I said walking to my closet, she fell on my bed and laid on her stomach.

"Well that's defeats the purpose sweetie, you suppose to tell your secrets...that's how they help you" She said as I shook my head, I didn't want anybody knowing anything about me or Bella. I left her on my bed as I made my way to a quick shower. What if the shrink manage to get inside my head? Will she be disgusted? Or worse...would she thinks everything that happen was my fault? I shook that last thought from my mind as I quickly showered and got dressed. Bella was still sitting on the bed.

"You know Jacob itsn't a bad guy Rosie, he's not James" I chose to ignore that as I bent over closer to her, I looked into her eyes.

"You will be here when I get back right?" She smiled and got comfortable in my bed

"Of course" I grabbed my jacket and met both my parents downstairs, let's get this over with so I can get back and forget about the world outside of my bedroom.

Feelings hands on me, I turned my body away from the cold feeling. Suddenly a strong grip grasps my arm, blinking back the sleep from my eyes...I see James hovering over me. Utter fear licked through my skin as I felt frozen.

Where was Bella?

"Don't you fucking say one word, I don't want to mess up that pretty face of yours" His face was stone cold, emotionless and scary. I was so scared I suddenly felt wetness spread through my jammies and down to the bed sheets.

"Fuck! You pissed on yourself" He raised his hand to hit me when I heard her voice, it was like silk to my ears as my heart rammed into my chest.

"James she a little girl, she doesn't know what she's doing...come on let's go to your room for a little while" I looked at her in shock...what was she doing! He was going to hurt her, I scrambled up into a sitting position pulling my knees up to my chest.

"Bella honey go wait for me, she needs to be punish for wetting the bed" She rushed to us and grabbed his hand, she turned her dark eyes towards me. I whimpered at how scary my best friend looked, she pushed me off th bed.

"The little bitch don't deserve your time...let her be so she can clean this mess up" He looked at me with cruel eyes and finally got up and left. Bella quickly helped me up and to the bathroom.

"Take a shower and go sleep in my bed, I'll be right back sweetie" She kissed my forehead and ran out the room, I knew what she was going to do with James. Tears weld in my eyes, it was all my fault.

Lately...everything was my fault

After taking my bath, I climbed into her warm bed. It smelt just like her, I hugged her pillow to me and cried myself to sleep. Many hours later, I felt the bed dip and warm arms around me. Waking up and turning towards her, I quickly scanned her body for bruises

"Are you okay?" Of course she not okay, she buried her face in my hair.

"Did you take a bath like I told you?" I quickly nodded pulling the covers away so she could see my freshly clean PJ's. She nods and pulls the covers back over us.

"What did you do?" She squeezed my waist hard, it hurt but I ignored it. I ran my fingers through her hair and felt her tears soak through my top.

"Bella don't cry" I said worried that I hurt her in some way, it was all my fault...he was in here for me and she saved me from god knows what.

"James is just a sick person...I don't want you anywhere near him. If he comes near you ever again I will kill him" I looked at her confused

"What does that mean?"

"Nothing...just got to sleep, you're safe here in my arms" She kissed my cheek and pulled me closer to her. I let my eyes closed and finally sleep took over once again.

I felt so exposed, I was set on not saying anything but as soon as I looked into her honey color eyes...I was a goner. I never cried so much in my life. It made me angry, and betrayed by my family for letting this woman come into my life and pull all my secrets and fears out. I didn't dare tell her about Bella, that was just a topic I was never discussing. She was mine...she was safe in my mind and she was going to stay there. Talking about my parents murder and my brother suicide was too much to handle. My mom burst into the room when she heard me sobbing and screaming, now we were making our way back to the house. I been calling Alice all day but she hasn't returned my calls yet, I was worried about her. Wiping at my eyes for the millionth times since we left the shrink office, I quickly ran from the car as soon it stopped in the drive way. I needed to see Bella before I lose my mind. Running up the stairs, She was still lying there smiling with her arms wide open for me. I bit my lip so I wouldn't cry but as soon as I laid down...they fell.

"Aww Rosie...it will hurt at first, but it will get better I promise"

"I don't want to ever go again...it was horrible! I told her about my brother killing our parents and than killing himself, I told her about when the first time I cut myself" wiping my nose with my sleeve, I turned so I was laying on my back.

"Rosalie that's her job to make you open up about dark things in your past, Once you get the hang of it...you will get better and I will be gone and you can fi-

"Wait what? You will be gone?" I yelled suddenly, no! I didn't want her to go

"You're not going anywhere...I just got you back, you can't leave me" I said crying, she looked so heart broken.

"Rosalie I don't have much time, I was sent here to help you get pass...to get pass me and make you see that life is not all about pain and hurt. To make you love again, Rosalie I am not your Bella anymore...that Bella is gone." She explained but all I heard was Bella was gone.

"So you mean Bella is dead somewhere and your her ghost or something?" She laughed

"Bella is alive somewhere in the world...I'm your creative imagination, you created me based on what you would think Bella would looked like older" I perked up at that.

"And no I don't know where she is...I'm just your imagination" I flew up and out the bed towards my computer, she followed me intrigued.

"What are you doing?"

"I'm going to find my best friend" She sat down on the bed with a sad look on her face

"Rosalie...I don't think you want to do that" I powered on my lap top, she walked over to me.

"You might not like what you find Rosie...even if you did find her, she might not be that same" I didn't care, if she was still breathing and still on this earth...then she was still my best friend and I was going to find her and bring her home.

I owe her that much.