A/N: Hello all! Welcome to chapter 4! I still cannot believe how many people fav, reviewed, and followed this story! I cannot thank you enough for it! Well I hope you enjoy this chapter!

Thanks to my beta she rocks! also I do not own TMNT :(

Chapter 4: It's Going To Be Okay

Mikey was shaking. "St-st...op it h-hu..r...ts," he could still heard Shredder laughing at him.

Leo went to touch his brother so calm him, but he flinched at his touch.

"D-DON'T," Mikey called out panicking. In his mind he was still in the dark room.

Leo pulled back his hand. "Mikey, it's Leo," his voice was nervous.

Mikey pulled his knees to his plastron and wrapped his arms around them, he was still shaking.

Donnie reached out his hand to place it on Mikey's shoulder, but Mikey pulled back again as if Donnie's hand was on fire.

"St-st...op...Shre….dder…."

Donnie felt numb, he looked blankly at his brother. Mikey's breathing had become faster and he was sobbing.

"Mikey, you're at home," Raph said, his heart was racing.

"You're safe," Donnie added in.

"It's going to be okay," Leo said.

Mikey's body slowly started to relax. It was going to be a long recovery.

Leo, Raph, and Donnie sat down on floor by Mikey's bed.

Donnie was in Mikey's room. He did not know what to say. They had talked to Mikey after his latest nightmare and everything that could be done was being done; he still felt like they could be doing more even when he knew there was nothing more that they could do.

Mikey was coughing. "It's going to be okay," he reassured his brother. "All right Mikey, I am going to change your bandages now."

Some of the more shallow cuts had already stopped bleeding some time ago. He has some deeper cuts that were bleeding on and off.

Knowing Donnie, he had been up most of the night. Raph went to tell him he would watch Mikey.

Raph was now sitting with Mikey, his coughing had gotten worse. They had managed to get him to drink a little water, but he was still not waking up.

Raph rewet the cloth that was on Mikey's head.

"Mikey," Raph started. "I didn't mean it that way," he rubbed the back of his neck. "It's just that, sometimes…" He stopped. "You are good Mikey." he said finally. "We need you."

He left the room quickly.

"Raph what is wrong? Is Mikey okay?" Leo asked getting concerned

"He's fine, well-" he sighed "I just can't see him like that anymore." Raph said walking past Leo and to his room.

Leo walked into Mikey's room. He sat down on the bed next to him. He had stopped coughing. He rewet the cloth. Mikey's head was hot and burning

"L-Leo?" Mikey was mumbling. He was starting to wake up.

"Yeah Mikey, I'm here," He helped Mikey sit up and pulled him close. Mikey started to cough. "Here drink this," Leo said handing Mikey a glass of water.

"Sorry," he coughed "I ran-a-way,"

"Don't be sorry," Leo said. "I'm the one who is sorry."

Mikey tried to smile. "It's," he coughed "okay."

Leo hugged his brother tightly. "I love you."

"I heard voices," Donnie said, rubbing the sleep out of his eyes, "I thought I would-" he paused. "Mikey!" Donnie said smiling. He hugged his brother.

"Stay with Mikey I am going to get Master Splinter and Raph," Leo left the room.

Leo walked down the hall he knocked on Raph's door "Mikey's awake!" Leo was almost childlike. He ran down to tell Master Splinter.

When Leo and Splinter got to Mikey's room Raph was already in there.

"It is good to see you awake Michelangelo," Splinter said with a smile. Mikey returned a weak smile. It was not the same bright grin he always wore on his face. That smile would take time to get back. His bright blue shinning eyes would come back in time as well, until then they remained a duller shade of blue.

Raph went to Mikey and gave him a playful rub on the head. Mikey let out a small laugh.

"Sorry bro," he said.

"Yeah, Mikey, sorry," Leo gave his apology again.

Donnie smiled "Sorry Mikey."

"It's okay," he coughed again "just promise that-that it won't," he took a deep breath in trying to suppress a cough "happen again."

"We won't," Leo said smiling. He hugged his brother, Donnie, Raph and even Master Splinter joined in.

"Could you do something for me?" he asked.

"Yeah, sure," Leo said nodding "what is it?"

"Get me pizza?" he asked. Giving a smile.

Leo returned the smile. "Of course."

April came back with the pizza. They brought in some chairs and all ate in Mikey's room.

Leo put a slice of pizza on a plate and handed it to Mikey. He grabbed it and began eating it fast. After a few bits he began coughing and started to choke.

"Easy Mikey!" Donnie said. "Promise to eat slowly," he said trying to grab this pizza from his brother, "and I will give it back to you!"

"But I'm just so hungry," Mikey complained, giving his brother his best puppy dog eyes.

Donnie sighed "slowly," he said handing him the pizza.

Mikey ate it in two bites.

Mikey had fallen asleep. He tried avoid sleeping when he could. The memories of what happened haunted him in the night.

"Hun...gry," Mikey muttered when the door opened. The light was so bright he could not open his eyes. He could smell food.

"Tell me where I can find Hamato Yoshi and you can have this," he showed him a single slice of pizza. Mikey's mouth watered.

"Never!" he shouted.

"You must be hungry," he smirked "and it can be yours for just one little detail."

Mikey said nothing. He stomach spoke for him. Shredder left the room.

"Sorry stomach," Mikey said, "I won't tell him where sensei is; even for pizza!"

Mikey began twisting in his sleep. He was muttering to himself.

"Mikey!" Donnie said, rubbing his brother's shell. "Wake up! You're having a nightmare!"

"NO!" Mikey yelled bolting upright knocking Donnie's hand off his shell. He felt dizzy, he moved to fast. His breathing was fast again.

"Deep breaths, Mikey," Donnie instructed. He watched his brother calm down. "Here," he said handing him a glass of water.

Mikey took the glass and sipped slowly. If he drank too quick, Donnie would take away the water, like he did the pizza.

"There you go," Donnie said smiling.

Mikey returned the smile. "Thanks."

"It can only get better now," Donnie said.

Mikey was sitting in his bed reading a comic book. Everything still hurt. He was still coughing. His fever was staring to come down. Despite all this he was feeling better today than the past few days.

His brothers had extra nice to him; they had felt terrible for what had happened.

He heard a knock on his open door. It was Raph.

"Come in," Mikey called over smiling.

Quietly Raph walked in. He walked over to Mikey, pulled him into a hug.

"I love ya, bro," He said and walked out without another word.

For the first time since he came back he left his room. He stopped short.

"Donnnniieeee!" he wailed.

"What Mikey!" Donnie said panicking, he stumbled.

"The-The TV is BROKEN!" he cried.

"That is why you yelled?" Donnie snapped.

"Fix it! Please!" He flashed his best sad eyes he could.

Donnie pushed himself up onto his feet. "I'm trying,"

"What happened to it? It was a good TV! It never did anything wrong."

It hit Donnie. Mikey had no clue about the tape.

By this time after hearing all the commotion Leo, Raph and Splinter had joined them.

"Michelangelo, come have a seat," Splinter said placing a paw on his sell and leading him to the couch. "From your injuries we know you went through some," he paused "abuse," he said with difficulty. Mikey shuttered. "There is another way we know." Mikey was confused. "One of the first days you were there, they day he took your mask. Do you know what he did with it?"

Mikey shook his head. "I thought this was a new one."

"It is your old mask, current mask." It was getting harder and harder for Splinter to explain. "That day he filmed-," he paused.

"You saw it?" Mikey said talking in a whisper looking at his feet.

"Yes, my son" Splinter said sitting down next to his son.

"Oh," Mikey said simply, the memories of that day flooded his head, he stared at the floor.

"While we were watching it…" Leo's voice trailed off, he sat down next to Mikey, "uh, Raph could not take it…"

"I put the sai through the TV," Raph continued.

"Then Leo used a katana and cut the tape in two," Donnie added in.

The air was heavy in the room. No one was speaking. Each of them was plagued with a painful memory.

"We have something for you," Leo said breaking them of their thoughts. The others smiled leaving Mikey confused.

Leo, Raph, and Donnie disappeared. Master Splinter remained sitting with him. Mikey's head dropped to his sensei's shoulder. He had not been up for long but he still just so tired. When his brother's came back they found Mikey sleeping on Splinter's shoulder.

They removed the old TV and placed the new one where it had been. There was a large orange bow on it.

Even when his older sons offered to carry Michelangelo back to his room Splinter refused. Michelangelo would always want to sleep in his bed when he was scared or was feeling ill. Instead Donnie brought over a blanket to cover his brother with.

Mikey felt safe sleeping next to Splinter, but that could not stop the memories from coming.

Shredder walked into the room. He walked over to Mikey, and smacked him to wake him up. Mikey closed his eyes again but that just caused another attack.

"I have something for you," Shredder said, "and you don't need to do anything for it."

He pulled out a what looked like a stripe of black fabric from behind his back. He tied it roughly over Mikey's eyes.

"Much better than that stupid orange one," he said as he left the room.

Mikey woke with a start, knocking the blanket to the ground.

"Easy my son," Splinter said, "you are safe here."

"Sensei," Mikey said softly. "Shredder said he was going to kill me if I did not tell him where you were. I told him I would never tell. Why did he keep me alive knowing I would not tell?"

Splinter closed his eyes. When he opened them they were fixed on his youngest son. "Oroku Saki is an evil man. He gets joy out of watching others suffer. He wants to attack you physically and emotionally in the hopes that your mind will be swayed. He could not kill you, he needed you. Without you he still would not know where I was, where I am."

Mikey tried to understand what Splinter said. He did not know what to say. He wrapped his arms around his father.

"Sleep my son," he said. "It is the best way to heal."

"When I sleep I-I can see what happened…" his voice trailed.

"You must push the memories from your mind. What happened to you is not who you are, but they are a part of you. Do not let the Shredder control your thoughts. It will be hard, but in time you will find your mind will go back that place less and less."

Mikey snuggled against Splinter's shoulder. He felt safe. He allowed himself to fall asleep. For the first time since he came back it was a dreamless sleep.

Leo, Raph, and Donnie overheard the conversation and made a solemn vow to never let anything like this happen to him again, even if it meant their lives were in danger.

He was starting to feel a little better, not much, but enough to where he could leave his room and walk around a little bit, watch the new TV. He could still not shake the memories of what happened to him. Every time he closed his eyes be was back in the dark room at the hands of the Shredder, even with that Master Splinter said.

Mikey's head began hurting, as it did when he sat up too much. Added to the fact he tried flipping himself upside down on the couch. He went back to his room and laid down. He eyelids felt heavy. He was still so tired and weak. He tried to the resist the urge to fall asleep but it was not long before he was back in the dark room.

The ground was cold. He was cold. He would never tell Shredder where his Sensei was even if it cost him his life.

He knew it had been a few days since he ranaway and was kidnapped, well, turtlenapped.

"Why have my brothers not come yet?" Mikey asked himself. "Maybe they really don't want me and this is their way of getting rid of me," he sighed. Mikey knew that if they did not find him soon, they would have no one to find, he would be dead. Mikey struggled to keep himself awake. He knew from things Donnie had told him it would be best to stay awake.

The door opened.

"Stay awake," Mikey told himself his eyes grew heavy. His body was already limp. It hurt to move.

"Mikey!" he heard his name called it sounded like Donnie. His mind must have been playing tricks on him. His mind slipped into unconsciousness.

Mikey woke up in a cold sweat; that was his last memory he had before he woke up at home. Could it really have been Donnie?

"You okay Mikey?" Donnie asked.

"Where you in that dark room where Shredder kept me?"

A/N: yes the "gift" is really lame I know I thought on it for so long and really could not think of anything.

The next chapter is Mikey's first patrol back. How bad can it be?

If you know me by now I am sure you can guess :p