How to Win Your Husband Back
Chapter Four: Confronting Darien
I was sitting on our bench in the park thinking of the last six weeks, that we had been apart. Slowly a little more of my heart had died with each passing day. I wasn't in the mood to protect the world anymore, what was the point? What did they ever do to help me? The world only caused me pain. The death of my parents, losing the one person I thought would always be there for me. It made no sense to protect the ones that broke my spirit.
For the first time in weeks I felt a tear slip from my eye, and then another, until I was just weeping my heart out. There were just too many problems in my life, I finally decided, and was going to do something about it.
I quickly stood from my bench and dusted off my skirt. I was going to talk to Darien whether he wanted to talk to me or not. He needed to know my feelings, and if even if he still wanted to walk away from me, I knew that I would have to let him.
I made my way to the temple where I knew that he was staying with Raye. In my heart I made peace with the fact that he left me for her, maybe it really was meant to be. Maybe Crystal Tokyo was never supposed to be like we all originally thought. If Raye really made Darien happy then I wouldn't stand in their way anymore. Raye was my best friend, and Darien was my love of a lifetime, but maybe our love finally ran its course, and we just didn't have enough left to make it work.
Just having that thought broke my heart a little more, but I knew I was going to have to become stronger, because with or without Darien, I am going to be bringing a child into this world, and no matter what this child was going to know and feel love, even if it was from only me.
I arrived at the temple twenty minutes later, and slowly made my way up the stairs. The cherry blossoms were in bloom, and the smell of them made me truly smile for the first time in two months. Darien always loved to go for walks at this time of year…
~Flashback~
"Guess who?" he exclaimed as he covered her eyes from behind.
"Andrew?" Serena laughed knowing full well that it was not Andrew.
"Guess again." The voice said.
"Seiya?"
"No!" he sounded slightly hurt.
"I know it is you Darien." She said laughing as he swung her around to face him.
"How was school today?" he asked her.
"Oh Darien, it was horrible, I forgot everything that we studied last night, and I bombed my test. It has been horrible." Inside she was smiling, because she knew that she didn't bomb her test like she told him, but actually passed it with flying colors. It was the first perfect she had ever gotten, and it was all thanks to him.
"Serena, you worked so hard, and you still didn't pass, god you are terrible in school."
"Well thanks for believing in me jerk." She said as she handed him her test and started walking away. She noticed that he didn't even look at it. He just put it in his pocket.
"I know you passed Sere, your teacher called me and told me. I want to take you somewhere." He said reaching for her hand once he had caught up with her. "I want to show you something." And they began to walk towards the park.
As the two love birds entered the park Darien had her close her eyes and began to lead her to where all the cherry blossom trees were. With petals swirling all around them, Darien got down on one knee and looked up at Serena's face. "Open your eyes now sweetheart.' He said softly.
Serena did as she was asked, and was awestruck by the sight before her. "Darien, what are you doing?" she whispered into the breeze.
"Serena, I know that you have been through a lot this last year, and I stood by and watched just how strong you are. I love you Serena. I know that we aren't always going to see eye to eye, more like not then we will, but we have made it through this much, and if our love can withstand a millennia, it can withstand a few bumps in the road. Will you say that you will love me for the rest of our lives, and do me the great honor of marrying me and becoming my wife?"
Serena looked into his eyes and saw just how terrified he was at asking her and the smile she had brightened. "Oh Darien! You big dope! I thought that you would never ask!" she wailed as she flung herself down at him and kissed the living daylights out of him.
~End Flashback~
I walked to where the rooms were, and knocked on grandpas' door. The man had always loved me, and I knew that he would help me to at least try and talk to Darien. When he opened the door and saw me, a sad smile came to his face.
"Hello Serena, I assume that you are here to tell Darien that you are with child."
"How did you know?" I said surprised.
"I had a vision that you would come. I will show you the way." And grandpa led me to the end of the all of rooms. "He is through that door, but be prepared for what you are about to face young one, it may not be what you expect." And with that he left me.
I stood there for several minutes considering what grandpa said, and knowing that he knew what the outcome was going to be, but I had come this far, I could not turn back now without telling him. I finally lifted my hand and knocked on the door. My heart was pounding, and for the first time I felt as though I was going to faint. Damn him and his hold upon my heart.
The door swung open and my eyes met dark pools of blue. I just stared at him for a moment. "Serena…" he whispered.
"We need to talk." I said softly. "And I will not take no for an answer Darien. You at least owe me this much." I added standing there feeling stronger then I had just seconds before.
"Yes, you are right." And he opened the door wider and walked away leaving it open for me to enter. I closed the door behind me.
"Darien, I have to tell you something, but before I do, I need to know why you are doing this to us? You promised to love me forever, to take care of me, to protect me, where did that man go?"
"He died." Darien said shortly.
"Well you better figure out a way to resurrect him, because he would not like seeing what he became. I love you, Dare, and I always will, but I cannot sit here and pretend that this isn't tearing us apart. You cheat on me with Raye, yet still sleep with me, get me pregnant, and leave me. Did you take my feelings into consideration at all? Did you only marry me to sleep with me like you claim?" he was staring at me but refused to say anything. "Did you ever even love me, or was I just some girl to notch up your belt like all the others before me?" tears were in my eyes but at the moment I didn't care, he needed to see this, to see me and what it was that his actions were doing to me.
"I don't know Serena. I don't know if I ever loved you. I think I loved the idea of being in love with you itself." He looked down at the ground. "You were just so different from the others, so full of life and love, I was intrigued by you, but I have come to the realization that someone like me needs the dark, craves it really, and you are not what I need."
"The dark cannot survive alone, Darien, nor can the light be bright all the time. If you can look me in the eye and tell me that you never loved me, and that you honestly love Raye, I will go and see the lawyers tomorrow and have them draw up the papers. I will divorce you and move out of your apartment. I have places I can go, but that is only if you can do it."
"What about the child? Will you keep it from me?" he asked.
"No, never, this child has a right to know who its parents are, and I will make sure that you have as big a secondary role in its life as you want."
"Secondary? Why a secondary role?" he asked me with slight confusion in his tone.
"Because this child will live with me, and be mainly my responsibility. I am not going to ask you for a cent. Why should you feel as though you helps with this when in all reality you were just playing a part?" I knew that last part was below the belt, but he hurt me and deserved it.
"You're a bitch." He whispered, and I knew that he meant it.
"Yes I am, but it's the truth, and the truth hurts." I said with no problem.
"Serena I don't love you." He said looking me in the eyes, and I knew that he was telling the truth.
"I'll be at the lawyers tomorrow morning when they open." And with that I made my way to the door. "Don't fuck Raye over like you did me Darien, she actually loves you." And I walked out.
Darien followed me out the door and sighed. "Serena, I want you to keep the apartment, you're going to need a place to stay, and I'm happy here."
I turned and looked at him then. "When the hell would I want to stay in something with so many memories in it, knowing that each one I have is of you and me? I'll go when I can start new memories, happy memories and won't be reminded of the promises you tore up in my face." And I walked away hoping that he couldn't see my shoulders shaking from my sobbing.