Disclamer I do not own Twilight
I woke up in the morning hungry. I cooked up some bacon but as it started cooking in the pan and the smell became more prominit I felt a lurch in my stomach. I ran to the bathroom with my hand over my mouth throwing yesterdays food into the bowl. I washed my mouth then came out to face my family. I was kind of embaressed that they had to see it but I was more worried about who was not in the bathroom. If Jacob were here he would have held my hair then get mme a wet wash cloth to wipe my mouth with. I need to stop thinking about the what ifs. Those would just depress me because there were so many what ifs I did not want to think about. Uncle Emmett stood up to hug me as I cried into his chest. He and I always had a special connection. I knew he my mom and dad would be int that delivery room with me. But I had six months to think about that. And I wanted those six months to last as long as they could because I had some things to think about. So many things hitting me full force at the same time. Like wind pushing me back making it harder for me to step forward. But that is what my life is now. Full of surprizes good and bad. I was going to make it through this it will bean up hill battle. Life was always a little bit to easy for me not will get better I told myself that so many times I actually believed it. "So you want me in your office Grandpa?" At every little pregnancy symptom he had me sit on that same cot for some smart doctor thingys that I could never understand. "What the hell?" he said. "What's wrong?" I said worried for my baby I had grown to love these past two days. "There seems to be two heartbeats here." "Ok mine and the babbies." "No Nessie twins."
There probably be no updates tommorow I have a dance class for me and one i have to teach. But there will be another one up soon I promise!