Clary POV
I haven't been sleeping at all I stay up all night and draw or listen to music which is down low because my parents still insist that Jace sleeps in my bed which I don't mind really because in the past few days we haven't had a fight; okay that was a total lie we are still fighting like mad but I really don't mind him sleeping next to me because with him I feel safe and that no one will hurt or touch me again. Jace thinks hes being smart about asking me certain questions about my past and who've I dated, who my friends are etc but I know hes trying to find out what happened or what nearly happened to me but he won't find out until it is necessary. Simon and I have gone back to normal which is good because I need him; I have dark circles under my eyes which I cover with makeup which he has noticed but I quickly just say "Isabelle insisted again" but the truth is I haven't seen Izzy, Alec, Maia, Jordan or Magnus in a week and they don't know that I am getting married which seems like a good thing or so I think for now.
"Clary get down here there's a letter here for you!" did my mum seriously have to shout my head is so sore.
"I'm coming!" I put down the paints and make sure I didn't ruin any of my mum's art or she'd kill me because lately people have been interested in her art and lately she only trusts me to paint in her studio. I run down the stairs and see that Luke, Jace, Celine, Stephen (who has gotten better) and my mum are all sitting watching TV which is actually strange. I walk over and she hands me the letter and I lean against the door frame and begin to read. The letter read
Dear my sweet Clary,
Darling it's been awhile since we've been able to talk since you're the one who decided to put me into prison because you just had to scream rape but baby nothing happened; yet. I know by now you've heard about my court hearing and you know that I'm getting out and once I do I'll come back for you and finish what I tried to start before you messed everything up but I have a plan and its going to work because you're unprotected and you'd give yourself up before you let anyone get hurt for you and thats what I'm counting on. I hope you kept yourself pure for me. I can't wait to see you Clare-Bear. Not long now.
Love forever Sebastian
At that moment in time my whole world just came tumbling down. Hes actually going to come after me like he said and someone I love are going to get hurt and it's going to be my fault. I have to run away or go somewhere he can't find me but if I run he'll torture my family and friends and not only have I got Sebastian to worry about I've got the 'others' coming after me too.
Flashback
My day started off pretty normal I was out with Simon whilst he talked about D&D I blanked out again because honestly I never really got it but then again I loved Si so I went along with it. We went to Java Jones and waited for Izzy, Alec and Magnus but Maia and Jordan weren't coming because they were out on 'a date' but actually we all knew they were having sex it was pretty obvious and we were also waiting on Sebastian. We are each other's best-friends and family because we've been through everything together. Oh I forgot to mention Alec and Magnus are dating whilst Alec is all dark colours and such a guy, Magnus is all glitter and fashion so really to us he's one of the 'girls' and by us I mean me and Izzy. We all sit together and talk and talk but one by one each of my friends begin to leave Alec and Magnus, followed by Izzy who had a date and then Si who had band practise or so he said. I and Seb stayed until closing time and he offered to drive me home which is normal. Then 10minutes later we are at my house which is empty because mum and Luke are on a date. Seb walks me to the door and bends down and kisses my cheek and says goodbye but I ask him if he wants to stay awhile and watch a movie because I hate being alone in this house. Everything is normal whilst we watch the movie.
I begin to tidy up the rubbish me and Seb made until he grabs my hand and pulls me back to the sofa "Clary I don't know how to say this but I've been waiting to tell you this for awhile and I know you feel the same way as me. I'm in love with you and have been for awhile and I know you feel it too" I couldn't believe what he just told me I only loved him as a friend and I never lead him on at all. I was in shock and when I didn't answer I felt a hand slap me in the face and then suddenly I was pinned down on the sofa and being shook repeatedly "Tell me! Tell me you love me!" I couldn't speak I was shell-shocked. "Seb i-i-i do love you but not like that, I'm sorry. Just get off me and we can talk. Everything will be fine" then his fist came down again and again until blood was flowing from my nose and lip. In that moment in time I thought this wasn't him like he was processed but then again none of us knew anything about his past.
After 5 minutes of being punched in the face and in the stomach and ribs again and again I couldn't breathe everything was going dark then I heard a voice say "Stay strong you can do this. Hold on" I held onto that voice in my head telling me to be strong because I have to survive. "If you won't tell me that you love me I'll show you how much I love you Clare-Bear" Then suddenly he was tearing my shirt in half and began kissing my neck, chest and then down to my stomach I was struggling and kept shouting "STOP!" but every time I did it earned me a punch. I knew what he was going to do and I was frozen; unable to move but cry and whimper. Then whilst he was distracted with undoing the buttons to my jeans I brought my knee up and kneed him in his personal area and I jumped up and ran to my bedroom and closed and locked the door. I rang the police and then there was banging on my door "Clarissa let me in let's finish what we started. This is fun and you know it!" Why wasn't the police here yet? I rang Si and told him I needed help but before I knew it I had his voicemail; I screamed in frustration and then the door came crashing down "Its time Clarissa" then there was devious and terrifying smirk across his face. I tried to run but he grabbed my hair and then I was dragged to my bed with my arms pinned above my head then tied together and then by jeans were getting pulled off as well as my underwear. He climbs on top of me and he whispered in my ear "I'm so glad you agreed to be mine"
Then when he went to in force himself into me there was shouting and screaming all around us I open my eyes and see police surrounding us and pinned Sebastian to the floor whilst women officers covered and untied me. They hand me clothes and begin to walk me out then I see Sebs eyes he has lost all his humanity and I wondered what did I do to make him do this? I am brought to the hospital and they begin to check me over; I had 3 broken and bruised ribs, broken nose, sprint wrist, black eyes and broken fingers. Everything about me was broken. Everyone was in my room the next day. The police told them everything but what was strange was they didn't see me as broken they seen me stronger.
After a couple of months I stayed in sweats and drew or listened to music it kept me sane and the house made me feel protected. Then the court date came up. He got a year because they thought he was mentally unstable and that within a year he would be better but everyone knew that was a lie he wasn't mentally ill he is just a sick person. When someone brought the subject up or tried to get me to speak to a counsellor I pushed them away again and again because every time its mentioned I am brought back to being a self conscience little girl who couldn't protect herself against a rapist. After awhile I became fed up of being pathetic so I began to become myself more and I was myself again but I could never let another person who I didn't know touch me or come close to me as I feared they would try the same thing as Sebastian. I am still haunted by his inhumane eyes and how someone could turn a switch off their humanity like that made my stomach turn.
End of flashback
I was holding the letter shaking and I began to cry into my hands and I forgot everyone else was in the room. "Clary baby what's wrong? Who was the letter from?" I just cried harder and harder and fell into my mum's arms; after 10 minutes of crying I stopped. "Clary what's wrong?" her hands are cupping my face and brushing the tears from my face. "I-i-i-i just don't feel that well and haven't been sleeping much" I managed to croak out. "Clary stop lying tell us please" her hand reaches for the letter but I abruptly stand up and run to the kitchen and search for a lighter after I find one I push the button beginning to burn the letter then Luke comes in followed by everyone else and they watch me with fear and like I'm crazy. I stand over the sink and burn the letter until its just ashes. Out of sight; out of mind. But thats not the truth.
I collapse to the floor and then Jace begins to come closer to me but Stephen puts his hand out to stop him "Don't son" then Stephen comes closer to me and is sitting on the floor in front of me "Clary no one here is going to hurt you" then he reached his hand out and I took it and he quickly wraps his arms around me in a tight embrace. "Hes coming" and with that Stephen grabs my face and looks straight into my eyes "He may be coming but we are here now to protect you; you're family" He pulls me to my feet and holds me tight and we walk past everyone whose eyes are on us, we walk upstairs and he lays me down on my bed and kisses my cheek and walks out and closes the door. I lie on my bed wide awake thinking about what is going to happen and that I need to tell everyone that he's coming back for me. But when is the right time?
Jace POV
Clary is a piece of work and the most stubborn person I've ever met. Lately I've been trying to get her to open up about her past but she shoots me down every time without hesitation and its freaking annoying. I've asked her about whom she has dated, about her friends and everything else I could think of but she just shoots me down again and again. I think her mum knows how I feel about Clary because she keeps insisting that we have to sleep in the same bed which I have no objections to and something about sleeping in the same bed as her gives me peace and wanting to change for the better. To love is to destroy; to be the one loved is to be destroyed. I never understood what my father meant but now I do if someone knows your weakness they exploit it and once they do you're the one destroyed and Clary is my only weakness. My dad has got better but he still won't tell me why me and Clary need to get married he gives me the same answer every time "You and her are in danger and with you two getting married you will be offered protection but they think she's the easier target and she is so you protect her" I went home during the night to check my father's office for information but there is nothing and I've given up; he destroyed everything.
Clary is in her mother's art studio drawing whilst everyone else is watching some shit on TV. If I wasn't getting married I would be out partying and getting laid but I'm actually taking this serious which is actually surprised to me too. While we are watching TV the door goes so Jocelyn goes to answer it but its just the post and like usual nothing for me but there is something for Clary; a letter. Once Jocelyn calls Clary down she takes the letter and reads it whilst leaning against the door frame which is cute wait stop she isn't cute asshole she's beautiful. I see that her hands become to tremble and then she burst into tears in front of everyone and collapses to the floor I want to run over and hold her but her mum gets there first. After 10 minutes she stops and lies and says that she is sick and hasn't been sleeping but I think she is nervous to tell her friends she is getting married to me. Drama queen or what? Jocelyn reaches for the letter but Clary stands up and Jocelyn falls backwards and Clary runs out and runs straight into the kitchen. We all follow Luke into the kitchen we didn't know what to expect I've never seen someone act so crazy before. What is her problem? Clary lifts a lighter and burns the letter and then falls for the ground then I see another opportunity to help her and when I take a step forward my dad stops me "Don't son" he walks towards her and he says "Clary no one here is going to hurt you" then he reached his hand out and she took it she actually took it? And he quickly wraps his arms around her in a hug. Then I hear Clary says something and her face is so full of fear, who is she so afraid off that she acts this crazy for? And then my dad says "He may be coming but we are here now to protect you; you're family" Then my dad brings her upstairs. Everyone is so freaking confused and they aren't the only ones.
We all go back into the living and turn the TV off and everyone is in silence. Jocelyn and Luke are so scared. What did I get myself into? One minute she is happy and then she reads and then she freaks out. I don't get girls. Then what was weirder was my dad he has never acted that way before towards anyone before but then again he knows whats up with her whilst the rest of us are in the dark again. After 5 minutes my dad comes down and sits down in front of everyone not saying anything but I look into his eyes and all I can see is pain and sorrow and I've never seen that look on his face ever.
"What happened Stephen? You know what Clary is hiding tell us" Jocelyn was pleading with my dad and begging for answers.
"Jocelyn I'm sorry but it's not my place to say it's your daughters; she is just having a rough time and I'm sure you understand why"
"Yes Stephen we know how Clary feels about the marriage but she would never act that way not since-" Luke just caught himself off and then Jocelyn put her head between her hands and started to cry and then Luke started to comfort her. "Stephen she's having nightmares about what happened isn't she?" Clary having nightmares not that I've noticed but I'm a deep sleeper. Then my dad stands up and says yes and walks out followed by my mum and I'm left with a crying mother and a comforting Luke.
"What happened to Clary?"
"Something that you do not need to know until Clary trusts you" And with that both of them left and I was alone.
A/N: So guys with us all knowing what happened to Clary, who else thinks it's time for everyone to find out what she's been hiding? Please review and give me your honest opinions on this chapter please.