YAY! I finally finished it! It is a bit confusing but it's supposed to be so suck it up and deal.

I apologize to those who find the charactes changing their moods or opinions often, but thats how they are supposed to be

Chapter 3

Will your system be alright
When you dream of home tonight?
There is no message we're receiving
Let me know is your heart still beating

The Killers- Human

I wake up screaming, drenched in sweat. I am shaking and in excruciating pain. I shoot out of my bed and start to tear apart my room; I look for a knife or something sharp. Tearing apart my bags I find nothing, I then run into the living room and straight to the kitchen. I rip out all the drawers looking for something to end this, this horrid pain caused by the memories of before.

"FUCK!" I see a locked cabinet and know then that Gabe had come back sometime and locked up everything I could hurt myself with. I pull at the cabinet doors, but they don't come lose. A sob of frustration and pain escapes past my lips. Then an idea comes to my mind. To my room I run, clumsily knocking down anything in my path. I run into the bathroom that adjoins the room and promptly smash the mirror with my fist.

I laugh as I clutch a piece of glass off the floor and into my wrists, cutting a bit too deeply, at least three times. I scream at the pain than fall to my knees as the relief sets in, than finally I fall onto the sea of glass that covered the bathroom floor. My world goes black as the blood soaks my reflection so I can no longer see my cut up face.

Gabriel's P.O.V

"Bye Isabelle. I'll see you later, kay?" I hugged my sister goodbye before walking into the dorm that I now shared with my weird ass French roommate. I liked the guy, don't get me wrong, but he drove me a little fucking crazy.

I sighed and ran a hand over my face then called Asce's name…no reply. I called again and there was still nothing. That's when I saw the trail of destruction leading form Asce's room to the kitchen.

"What the fuck?" I walked into Asce's room to see an empty bed an closed bathroom door. Thoughts started to creep into my head, horrid thoughts of where Asce was and what he had done.

I walked tentatively towards the bathroom door. I grasped the doorknob nervously, not sure if I wanted to open it. The blood I saw seeping out below the crack of the door convinced me to yank the door outward.

"Oh my god." I whispered then dropped to my knees in front of a bleeding Asce. "Asce! Asce! Fuck, wake up you dumbass." I hissed as the broken pieces of blood covered mirror dug into my knees as I shifted to dig my cell out of my pocket. I dialed the number then held it up to my ear, waiting desperately for someone to answer.

"911, what's your emergency?"

Memory

"Gabriel what did you do?" Isabelle asked as calmly as she could when she came into my room, no doubt seeing my blood stained pants and shirt as well as my slashed wrists.

I looked up at her with dead eyes. "They're yelling because of me again." Every night it was the same thing, my parents were always yelling at each other. It had been this way ever since I had come out and told them I was gay. I guess it's just what happens when you parents are the biggest Catholics the world has ever known and you're cursed with this…this…disease.

I had broken their hearts already by refusing to go to church and telling them I did not believe in God. The homosexuality nearly killed my mother, she sent me to the priest, a psychiatrist, and even a fucking exorcist. My parents hated me and I tore apart our family as they argued about what to do with me.

The cutting took away the pain, and when they finally sent me away to boarding school in Miami I promised myself that I would make my self better. I'd never fall in love with a guy, even though I would never fall in love with a women either.

I ran my hand through my hair and sighed in annoyance as I sat in the chair by the bed of Asce's hospital bed. I have no idea why I'm still here. I wish to hate the boy but I can't fucking leave him.

Not when I know how alone he must feel.

I've been through it and I never would have been able to get through it without my sister. Asce has nobody, no matter what is wrong, I can't let him suffer like this.

"How long have you been here?" I was snapped out of my thoughts when I heard the raspy voice speak out. Asce was sitting up weakly in his bed, rubbing at the bandages on his arms.

"A couple hours maybe, I don't really know." I sighed again and let my head fall back against the chair again. I need a nap.

"Why? You don't need to be here; quite frankly I didn't expect you to even care." My head shot back up, I glared at him with narrowed eyes.

"But as it happens to be, I do care. I have no idea why and I really don't wish to. But I do. And I wouldn't leave you here in a hospital room knowing your fucking suicidal Asce."

"I'm not suicidal. I like life. Just not all the time."

"Well what was so fucking bad that you had to go to such desperate measures as smashing out your mirror?" I was yelling now, and standing up.

"It's none of your fucking business! And if all you wanted was to know why my life is so fucking pathetic, then you can leave! I'm not telling you shit!" He was yelling know too, and I swear I could see tears brimming his eyes. Fuck I made him cry.

"Hey! Stop it both of you! This isn't getting anywhere!" Isabelle walked into the room with a bouquet of roses. I fell back into my chair.

"What's with the flowers?" I grumbled.

"They're for Asce, I figured that you weren't going to get him any so I got him some." She walked over and handed them to Asce. He took them with a small smile.

"Why the fuck did you get him flowers you don't even know him?"

"Yes, but you like him, don't you?"

I let out a small laugh. "Hardly."

"Neither of you need to be here, so get the fuck out." Asce said from his bed, he was now lying with his arm covering his eyes. The flowers were thrown on the bedside table.

"C'mon Gabe, let's go." Isabelle started to walk out and when she tried to pull me out I shook off her arm.

"I need to talk to him, I'll be right there" She nodded and left.

"What do you wish to talk about? Enlighten me, please." Asce said in a sarcastic tone that implied he was done dealing with me. Well to fucking bad, I wasn't done with him. I walked over to where he was laying and after a few moments hesitation, I kissed him.