Chapter Four- Have You Ever Needed Someone So Bad?

"Why save your kisses for a rainy day

Baby let the moment take your heart away

Have you ever needed someone so bad, yeah

Have you ever wanted someone you just couldn't have

Did you ever try so hard that your world just fell apart

Have you ever needed someone so bad

And you're the girl I gotta have, I gotta have you baby, yeah"

-Def Leppard- "Have You Ever Needed Someone So Bad"

(Sam's POV)

It had been two weeks since I'd first laid eyes on Emily. Two weeks without her was too much for me to handle. I planned on going to see her as soon as Jared was stable. That changed when another kid phased. I certainly have my hands full with this one. Paul is volatile and he can't seem to control his temper to save his life. So who knows when I'd get to see her. I called her nearly every day but she hangs up and refuses to talk to me.

I was feeling more than loneliness though. I had an ache in my chest that I couldn't get rid of. Every day without seeing Emily made me more upset. Jared told me I was rivaling Paul in the volatile department. I believed him when I snapped and Paul told me to calm down.

"Fuck it." I said. "Guys, go patrol. I'll get you when I come back."

They shot me questioning looks but they did as they were told. I decided driving would be the best option. So I climbed in my truck and began the journey to Emily's house.

After I finally made it to her house, I didn't know what to do from there. Just sitting outside, and knowing she was in there, helped dull the pain in my chest. I needed to see her though. I was this close and I wasn't giving up without at least seeing her.

I rung the doorbell, and Emily's mother answered giving me a hard look. "May I help you, Sam?"

I smiled. "I need to see Emily. It's important."

"What's it about?"

"Leah." I answered quickly. She stepped aside and pointed out where Emily's room was. I slowly walked up the stairs trying to prepare myself for this. I knocked on her bedroom door.

"Come in." She called. I took a deep breath and pushed the door open. She saw it was me and narrowed her eyes. "What are you doing here?" She spat.

I didn't answer because I was too busy staring at her. She was even more beautiful than I remembered. Every little thing about her was gorgeous, from her deep brown eyes to the dimples in her cheeks. Everything about her drew me in like a siren's song.

She cleared her throat. "If you're done staring at me could you please tell me what it is you came here for?"

I blinked and cleared my own throat. "I came to talk to you about Leah."

She stared at me and then asked, "What about her?"

"Well, things would never be right between Leah and I. I thought that we were soul mates, but... something happened and made me think other wise. I'll always love Leah in a way, but I feel something stronger for someone else."

She gaped at me. "You're in love with someone else?! Oh my god! Leah knew you were cheating on her!" She said angrily, crossing her arms. I almost smiled at how cute she was but I didn't want her to kick me out before I explained.

"No, Emily, listen. I didn't cheat on Leah. It's just…the first time I saw you, when I looked into your eyes I knew you were my soul mate and not Leah." I said.

Her eyes widened in terror. "Oh my god. You're insane! There is no way that you and I will ever be together. Got that? Good, now get the hell out of my house."

I could feel tears welling up in my eyes, so I turned and left before she could see me cry. I thought Billy told me the imprint felt the pull as well? I trudged past Emily's mom and out to my truck. I didn't blame her for telling me to go. I just wish that I could explain things to her, but I knew in my heart it wasn't the time to tell her everything.

When I pulled into my driveway, I turned the truck off and ran straight for the woods. Jared and Paul were waiting for me.

'How'd it go, man?' Jared asked. I showed him everything. He and Paul were both quiet. 'Maybe she'll come around.' Jared said optimistically. We did the rest of our patrol in quiet. I sent the boys in early since they had school the next morning.

I stayed out all night running around the woods. I kept wondering why Emily wouldn't just listen to me, but then I thought about it from her point of view and it made sense.

If you're cousin's ex-fiancé shows up at your house telling you he's in love with you, it can be a little weird. I would wait a little while and then try to talk to her again. It had only been two weeks since Leah and I broke up. I was really upset over the pain I was causing her and if I could go back and do it all differently I would.

Although I wasn't sure if I would go back and break up with Leah after I came back from the first time I phased, or if I would go back and tell her not to invite Emily down here. I loved Leah, but I knew she wasn't right for me so would I continue to be with her just so she can be happy? Or would I break her heart and pursue her cousin so that I could be happy? I would like to believe the former but I don't think the imprint would agree with that.

(Emily's POV)

I felt so bad for what was happening to Leah. She really loved Sam with all her heart. She thought he felt the same way. They were engaged to be married and both seemed happier than they had ever been. Then Leah calls me not even a week after they'd gotten engaged and says Sam broke up with her.

I was livid as she told me what he said. Told her she should give the engagement ring back to him. No matter how proud Leah was, her heart wouldn't let her do that. She may be filled with rage that Sam did this to her, but in the end she loved him. All she wanted was for him to come back to her, but he wouldn't, no matter how much she wanted. Her keeping the engagement ring was her way of having a piece of him. Something small to represent the love they once shared.

If it were me, then I'd get rid of it. I wouldn't want any reminder of him or what he did to me. However, something told me that if Sam and I were together, he'd never do that to me.

Never would I admit this to Leah, but I never thought her and Sam fit well. She claimed they were soul mates, but I couldn't believe that. They were too different. According to Leah, Sam ate a lot, but she didn't cook. Leah liked flashy things, diamonds, shopping and knowing that she was the most beautiful girl in La Push. While Sam was simple, she told me. He'd taken her to the beach on their first date. She said Sam loved it, since they were alone with no one to bother them.

Leah liked spending the time with Sam, but she liked to be seen. She liked when people noticed her and stared because of her immense beauty. I'd seen that with my own eyes. Everywhere she goes, she is ogled and adored by numerous people. She loved attention.

Sam however, liked to be unseen. He preferred to blend in. Not sure how he managed that seeing as how he's nearly seven feet tall and had Leah on his arm. Talk about drawing attention to yourself.

That was over now, and the great "power couple of La Push" was no more. Leah was utterly depressed without Sam. I couldn't imagine how she felt to be so incredibly happy and in love with someone, thinking you're getting married and then a week later, you're crying in your room wondering what went wrong.

Imagine my surprise when Sam came over to my house. I heard the doorbell downstairs but didn't think anything of it. I heard footsteps on the stairs but didn't pay any attention. It could have been a friend from school. So when there was a knock on my door, I called, "Come in." I noticed this strange pull on my heart, but I ignored it and looked up. There stood the heartbreaker himself. Sam Uley. "What are you doing here?" I spat.

He stared at me like I was the most beautiful thing he'd ever seen. I didn't feel self-conscious under his watchful eyes, though. I felt loved. I shook that thought from my brain and cleared my throat.

"If you're done staring at me, could you please tell me what it is you came for?" I wanted him to hurry up and leave because I was feeling this strange urge to be with him. Something was pushing me to go to him, let him wrap his arms around me and never leave his arms.

He blinked and cleared his own throat. "I came to talk to you about Leah."

Leah? Oh, right. "What about her?" I asked. Almost didn't want to hear his answer, though. I knew he was better off without Leah, they never quite fit. Leah might have seen this had she not been so blinded by her love for him. Sam might have seen this had he not been so blinded by her beauty.

"Well, things never would have been right between Leah and I. I thought we were soul mates but….something happened and made me think otherwise. I'll always love Leah in a way, but I feel something stronger for someone else."

I gaped at him. "You're in love with someone else!? Oh my god, Leah knew you were cheating on her!" I said angrily and crossed my arms. Mostly I didn't want to believe Sam would ever cheat on someone. He didn't seem like the type to do that.

"No, Emily, listen. I didn't cheat on Leah. It's just…the first time I saw you, when I looked into your eyes I knew you were my soul mate and not Leah." He explained.

My eyes widened in terror. "Oh my god. You're insane! There is no way that you and I will ever be together. Got that? Good, now get the hell out of my house."

It broke my heart to see his eyes moisten with tears. I bit my lip to fight back my own tears and watched him leave the room in a hurry. A piece of my heart went with him.

Flopping back on my bed, I asked myself, how do I fix this? What can I do to make this right? I felt this pull to Sam, something pushing my heart to his. I could never do that to Leah.

I know she'd never do this for me. Leah may be like my sister, but she is selfish. If my ex-fiancé broke up with me and professed his undying love for her, she would be with him in a heartbeat and just tell me it was fate. I wouldn't do that to her though. I didn't have it in me to hurt someone like that, especially someone I was so close with.

Only question now is: Do I tell Leah that Sam came by? Luckily, I didn't have to make that decision. My mom came into my room just then with the phone in her hand.

"Who is it?" I asked.

"Leah. I called her and told her Sam was here and wanted to talk to you about her." She shoved the phone in my hand and left. What has this woman done?

"Leah?" I asked.

"What did he say?" She asked urgently. No 'hello' at all. Not even an 'Emily'. Just right into the conversation with Leah. No manners at all.

I sighed. "Nothing good."

"Well, just tell me everything he said and I'll make that decision. "

"He said that he was in love with someone else and that's why he had to break it off with you." I said softly. I was not telling her that Sam said it was me.

She was quiet, and then asked in a shaky voice, "Did he say who it was?"

"No. Just that he found someone else."

"Why did he come talk to you though?"

Uh-oh. I thought quickly. "He said that you may not want to see him and he thought I'd be the only one to talk to you."

"Oh." She said. "Well, thanks." Then hung up. I hung up and threw the phone on the bed next to me. No 'good-bye.' At least she said thanks before she hung up, was my last thought before I rolled over and went to sleep.

Oddly enough, that night I dreamed of Sam.

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