Chapter 4

~Ryan's POV~

"Hey I'm going to get something to eat." I told Cena as everyone came back into the room.

"You going to be ok?" He asked me. I nodded. "I'll be fine." I smiled and walked out of the room. I headed towards the bathrooms. How could anyone eat at a time like this? Kris seemed to be losing her mind and all I could do was sit there and tell her it's going to be ok and watch the doctors walk in and out of the room. I was losing my mind just watching this. When I walked into the bathroom, I was glad to see it was empty. I walked over to the sink and splashed some cold water on my face. I looked up in the mirror and stared at the person staring back at me. I knew that person was me but I didn't recognize myself. The Ryan I thought of myself as was full of happiness and smiles, this one staring at me was tired and depressed. "Look at yourself Ry." I said to my reflection. "You're letting yourself go. You've watched plenty of your friends go down this path and now you're not even taking your own advice." I glanced down at my hands that were resting on the counter top. I grabbed the sleeve of my hoodie and pulled it up past my wrist, revealing two cuts that were beginning to scab. "How in the hell did it come down to this?"

"Ryan?" I quickly pulled my sleeve down and walked out of the bathroom. John was standing there and gave me a worried look.

"I'm going to be fine." I forced a smile for him.

"Please babe, don't lie to me." John begged taking my hand in his. I tensed when he did this and tried to pull my hand away. "Ryan what's wrong?"

"Nothing John. This is just all too much for me!" I yelled. Tears fell down my cheeks. I couldn't hold it in any longer. The rock had finally broken in two.

"Ryan I'm taking you home. There are plenty of people here to support Kris. We can't have both of you being hospitalized." John sighed, wrapping his arm around me and leading me towards the exit.

"No John I have to stay for her." I pleaded. "John don't make me leave." I dug my feet into the ground so I wouldn't be able to move. John looked at me and frowned.

"Fine," he said with a sigh. "but the second you snap, you're going home."

I gave John a huge hug and kiss. "I knew there was some reason I loved you." I smiled.

"Yeah yeah." John smirked and he led me back to Kris's room.