Hi! So this is Edward's reaction. I hope I kept true to Edward's character as much as possible. Also thank you so much for your response to this story. I love you all so much and appreciate that you took time to read and review my story! It is really short and I felt maybe a little rushed but I don't know what else I could add in. This chapter hasn't been betaed so sorry for any mistakes! JCCx
There was a knock at the door and I jumped a mile. I turned to Alice and she had the mask of calm all the Cullen's were experts in.
"Don't leave me Alice" I pleaded taking her hand. She shook her had and whispered "I won't". Content with her answer I stood up, my hand still linked with hers and headed towards the door. Before opening it I took a deep breath and let it out. Keep it together Bella! I yanked open the door and came face to face with my Adonis.
Edward stood on the porch with a troubled look on his face. His golden eyes held longing, love, displeasure and fear. His eyes pierced mine and sent me silent pleas. I felt so guilty for putting him through this but I couldn't have done it any other way. I needed time to think, and calm down. I also needed to prepare myself for the worst. Alice told me I was being irrational and that Edward would never dream of leaving me; we were in this together after all.
"Hello" I almost squeaked out. With the door open the sound of the pounding rain brought a familiar calm to my body. But defiantly not enough to make this situation any less hard.
"Hello, love. Can I come in?" Edward asked warily. His usually silky smooth voice was shaky and troubled.
"Of course" I said taking a step back to let him pass. Once he was inside I closed the door but kept my back to him.
"Bella, what's the matter? Talk to me! The suspense is pain full!" Edward cried after a minute. I turned around and motioned to the couch with a shaking hand.
"You might want to sit down…" I mumbled. He stared at me for a second but then nodded his head and moved into the living room. I turned to Alice and she could see I wasn't doing to well.
"I am here, everything is fine. Go and talk to him, you are both scaring each other at the moment." She whispered in my ear, keeping her voice to low for Edward to hear. Once she had finished she kissed me on the cheek and pushed my lightly towards Edward's still form.
I moved towards him and came around to sit on the other end of the couch. Once I had sat down I looked up at the love of my life. He was looking straight back at me with his piercing eyes and took my hand in his ice cold one. I looked at our entwined fingers and wondered how long this connection would last once he found out. I decided to bite the bullet and get this over with.
"Edward…I…Uh…I am…pregnant" The words seemed to catch in my throat as if they didn't want to be spoken. Once they were out tears started leaking from my eyes and fell onto our joined hands. A sob shock my body when he didn't respond but I would not move my hand from his. This was our link, our connection, our life braded together.
"Pardon?" Edward said in an over controlled voice. He was fighting some emotions and the news obviously hadn't sunk in yet.
"I am pregnant" I whispered again. It was getting harder to say every time he hid his response from me. After what felt like a life time Edward didn't say anything thing but stood up and bolted for the door. Once he was outside it swung shut with a thud.
The oxygen in my body came out in a gash and my eyes were wide. Tears made rivers down my cheeks and my body tensed. He had pulled his hand from mine. He had severed the link.
"I'm sorry" I sobbed as I fell forward onto the couch cushions.
EPOV
I ran and ran fast. My mind was blank other than the feel of the wind in my hair and the grass under my feet. I ran from what I was, who I was and the emotions I was having. I was free until I heard the thoughts of my brothers.
"Edward! We are catching up to you! You need to talk to us! Or we are going to make you" Jasper shouted.
"You are such an idiot! I could kill you for what you did to Bella back there!" Emmett yelled.
My pace slowed down when they played the sound of Bella's pained cries in there heads. It tore at my heart to know I had caused that. I was the monster I knew I was. I stopped moving altogether and my legs buckled underneath me. I was sat in the middle of a field contemplating what I had done with my time with Bella. I could hear Emmett and Jasper approach me but I didn't break my trance.
I had risked Bella's life on countless occasions, caused her unbearable pain, taken her innocence and now made her pregnant. But I had also given her unimaginable love, protection and safety (from falling down the stairs). She had in turn made me a new man. I was happy, reassured, comfortable and in love. She was my meteor and had shot across the night lighting up my life.
"What are you doing here Edward?" Jasper asked with a sigh after he sensed my joyous feelings. I didn't respond straight away but when I did it opened the flood gate.
"I freaked out. I don't know what I will be like as a father. I have no idea what to do! I am a vampire and am not really parental material. Bella must hate me for doing this to her! She is only eighteen!" I ranted letting the fears crash down around me.
"Edward, you have been given a miracle. Embrace it! Emmett and I will never have the opportunity you have and we accept that, we love Rose and Alice too much to even contemplate what life would have been if we hadn't been changed. But you have the love of your life and a child and we will be damned if we let you run away because you are scared!" Jasper said with authority.
He was right of course. I was being a coward. I was running away from Bella when she needed me the most. She had my unborn child growing inside her and I was sat thinking about myself!
"I am going to be a father." I said adoration seeping into my voice. I may be scared and shocked but Bella had just made me the happiest man in the universe. She had given me the news I thought I would never hear and some would never.
I stood up and ran back towards my Bella. And my miracle child.
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