Chapter 4: Karaoke
Bella POV
Karaoke. Not the highlight of the party for me. Not in the least. First up was Emmett and Rose, and they sang Barbie World. That was actually really funny. Alice sang Ur So Gay, by Katy Perry. Next up was Jessica Stanley, she sing Girlfriend by Avril Lavigne, and she was looking at Edward the whole time. Which makes no sense because he is single. A few more people went, Tyler Crowley sang Lollipop by Lil' Wayne. That was a funny sight. When Lauren Mallory went up, she was so drunk no one even knew what she was singing. Esme flipped out on her for bringing and then consuming alcohol. Emmett went up to call the next person up on stage. "Our next contestant is my dear brother Edward Cullen." Emmett announced. Everyone started clapping, and Edward glared at Alice.
"What song am I being forced to embarrass myself with?" Edward asked Emmett, after he was on stage. Emmett browsed a piece of paper, and smiled. "Gotta be somebody, by Nickelback." Emmett said. Edward sighed, and the music started to play.
This time, I wonder what it feels like,
To find the one in this life,
The one we all dream of,
But dreams aren't just not enough.
So I'll be waiting for the real thing,
I'll know it by the feeling,
The moment when we're meeting,
Will play out like a scene,
Straight off the silver screen,
So I'll be holding my own breath,
Right up 'til the end,
Until the moment when,
I'll find the one that
I'll spend forever with.
'Cause nobody wants to be last one there,
'Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares,
Someone to love with my life in their hands,
There's gotta be somebody for me like that,
'Cause nobody wants to do it on their own,
And everyone wants to know they're not alone,
There's Somebody else that feels the same somewhere,
There's gotta be somebody for me out there.
Tonight, out on the street, out in the moonlight,
And damnit this feels too right,
It's just like deja'vu,
Me standing here with you,
So i'll be holdling my own breath,
Could this be the end,
Is it that moment when,
I'll find the one that I'll spend forever with.
'Cause nobody wants to be last one there,
'Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares,
Someone to love with my life in their hands,
There's gotta be somebody for me like that,
'Cause nobody wants to do it on their own,
And everyone wants to know they're not alone,
There's Somebody else that feels the same somewhere,
There's gotta be somebody for me out there.
You can't give up,
Looking for a diamond in the rough,
(Because you'll never know)
When it shows up,
(Make sure you're holding on)
'Cause it could it be the one,
The one you're waiting on.'Cause nobody wants to be last one there,
'Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares,
Someone to love with my life in there hands,
There's gotta be somebody for me, ohhhhh,
Nobody wants to do it all on their own,
And everyone wants to know they're not alone,
There's Somebody else that feels the same somewhere,
There's gotta be somebody for me out there,
Nobody wants to be last one there,
'Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares,
There's Somebody else that feels the same somewhere,
There's gotta be somebody for me out there.
I noticed, sometimes, Edward looked at me, but when I met his eyes, he looked away. Or maybe it was just my imagination. We clapped, and I even heard some girls yelling. Edward walked off the stage, and took a seat on the couch across from me. "Alright, settle down. Who knew Edward could sing. Wow. For our next performer we have our very own Bella Swan." Alice said. I made my way to the stage, slowly. "Alice, I cant do this, I cant sing." I whispered to her. "Bella, don't be like that. I have heard you sing before, you are actually really good." She whispered back. "But not in front of crowds." I told her. "Stop your whining, and get on with it." She said, and walked off the stage and into Jaspers arms. I sighed. "What song?" I groaned. Alice looked at the list, and whispered something to Emmett. I stood there like an idiot, just waiting for the music to come on. It looked like Emmett was having trouble finding the song.
"I found it!" He said. "It's about time." I mumbled. He fumbled with the karaoke machine for another minute. The music started playing. It was same song playing that night. I started backing up, away from the music, away from the people. I hit the wall next to the fire place. "Bella?" Emmett asked, walking up on stage with me, concern clear on his face. "Bella?" He whispered. I couldn't find my voice, so I shook my head, and ran. I ran up the stairs, I knew this house like the back of my hand. All the doors on the second floor were locked, people were probably doing things I wouldn't want to see. The second room on the third floor was being remodeled, and no one was aloud in there. The only empty room was Edward's, how ironic. I ran in, I locked the door, and laid on his bed. His bed smelt even better then he did. I was aware of my tears wetting the pillow.
There was a lot of knocking at the door. "Bella? What's wrong?" Alice was worried. There was more knocking. "Bella, please open the door." Edward said. "Don't you have a key?" Rose asked. "Of course I do, it is my room. I just wanted to see if she would open up herself." Edward told her. "It doesn't look like she opening." Jasper said. I could imagine Edward scowling at Jasper. I heard the door knob turn, and then feet walking towards me. I was vaguely aware of myself mumbling no over and over again. "What's wrong with her?" Rose asked. "If I knew, do you really think I would be standing here like an idiot?" Edward snapped. Huh, since when has Edward cared so much about me. "What are we going to do?" Emmett asked. "I'll go find Carlisle." Alice said. I don't know how many minutes passed. "What happened?" Carlisle asked, sounding close. I felt a hand on my forehead. "I don't know." Edward answered. I took a peek at his perfect face, concern and pain was in his eyes, and his brow knit together in confusion. "What was she doing right before this?" Esme asked. "It was her turn at karaoke." Alice said.
"It looks like a panic attack." Carlisle said. "Panic attack? A panic attack from what?" Edward asked, angrily. "I don't know." Carlisle said, truthfully. "Perfect, just perfect." Edward said. I felt the bed shift, as someone sat down at the end. "Well, why don't we all just go back to the party, I'm sure this will pass." Carlisle said, but his voice wasn't positive. "I'm gonna stay. Just in case." Edward said. "Alright, call me if anything happens." Carlisle said. I heard foot steps and then the door shut. Then there was silence. "What happened?" Edward asked himself.
Edward POV
Bella was on stage looking nervously around the room. I am really interested in hearing her sing, Alice says she is really good. It wouldn't surprise me if she was good. Emmett was being himself, and he couldn't find the song Alice whispered to him. He pushed one final button, and the music to Decoy, by Paramore blasted through the speakers. Bella stared blankly ahead. She dropped the microphone, and began backing up against the wall. She finally hit the wall, and stayed there. Emmett walked up on the stage cautiously. "Bella?" Emmett asked, he didn't even bother to hide his concern. "Bella?" He whispered. Bella didn't say anything, she just shook her head, and ran upstairs. "Talk about stage fright." Jessica said. I sat there like an idiot. What the hell was I supposed to do? Better yet, what the hell happened?
I made my mind up, and ran up the stairs after Bella. When I got to the second floor, I realized that my family was following me. All the rooms on the second floor were locked, and there were noises coming out of them that made me sick to my stomach. The only room left was mine. Emmett, Alice, and I knocked on the door. "Bella? What's wrong?" Alice was worried. We continued to knock. "Bella, please open the door." I said. "Don't you have a key?" Rose asked. "Of course I do, it is my room. I just wanted to see if she would open up herself." I told her, lamely. "It doesn't look like she opening." Jasper said. I scowled at him. I stuck the key in the doorknob, and opened the door. Bella was on her side, curled up on my bed, and holding her knees to her chest. I walked towards her. She was mumbled no, over and over. "What's wrong with her?" Rose asked. "If I knew, do you really think I would be standing here like an idiot?" I snapped. "What are we going to do?" Emmett asked. "I'll go find Carlisle." Alice said, and ran out the door. I stood there watching Bella. I was useless. "What happened?" Carlisle asked, he was kneeling in front of Bella, he touched her forehead. "I don't know." I said. It looked like Bella opened her eyes, but I couldn't see for sure. "What was she doing right before this?" Esme asked. "It was her turn at karaoke." Alice said.
"It looks like a panic attack." Carlisle said. "Panic attack? A panic attack from what?" I asked, why was he being so vague? "I don't know." Carlisle said, truthfully. "Perfect, just perfect." I said, putting my hands in the air. I sat down at the end of the bed. "Well, why don't we all just go back to the party, I'm sure this will pass." Carlisle said, from the look in his eyes, he wasn't sure. "I'm gonna stay. Just in case." I said. I just couldn't leave her. "Alright, call me if anything happens." Carlisle said. All of them walked out. Then there was silence. "What happened?" I asked myself. I adjusted my self so I was facing Bella, and sitting cross legged on the bed. After a while, her breathing slowed, and she fell asleep. I moved to the couch that was parallel to the bed. It would be more comfortable, and I could still see Bella. She looked peaceful in her sleep, like there were no worries in the world. I guess that's what happens when you go to sleep, you have no worries. I dozed off a couple times. It was weird, I wouldn't sleep for more then twenty minutes each time, it was like my conscious was waking me up to check on Bella. Weird. A long time passed, because I heard cars pulling out of the driveway. I checked my clock, it was midnight. Wow, I missed almost the whole party. Carlisle walked in with Alice behind him. "Any change?" He asked, walking over to Bella. Alice came to sit on the arm of my couch. "She fell asleep a couple hours ago. So no, no change." I told him, sitting up. "Alright, don't forge to get me if something happens." He said, then walked out.
Alice didn't move, she continued to watch Bella. "Alice?" I said. She turned her attention to me. "What were you and Rose talking about earlier? About Bella acting weird." I asked. "Oh, that. I'm still having a hard time believing that I am the only one who notices." Alice said, shaking her head. "Notices what?" I asked. Alice sighed. "Ever since Bella moved here, she has acted different from her usual self, the beginning of September, and end of May." Alice said. "Different how?" I asked. "Well, for one, in September she is a lot more bitchy. And in May, she seems more depressed." Alice shrugged. "Oh." I said. "Yeah, I have tried to ask her what is going on, but she either walks away making up some lame excuse, or she changes the subject." Alice added. Bella started mumbling things non intelligible. "She has a habit of talking in her sleep." Alice laughed. "No. Stop." Bella said. She spoke so clear, I thought she awoke, but she rolled onto her back. "I would love to know what she dreams about." Alice said, thoughtfully. "Why?" I asked, never taking my eyes away from Bella. "C'mon, like you don't. You can tell she is hiding something. I just want to know what it is." Alice said. "You would care about that." I told her. "Says the guy who has been in love with her for two whole years." Alice said. I scowled at her, but before I could say anything Bella started yelling. "No! Please don't! Get off. Stop!" She was screaming and kicking. "I think her dream turned into a night mare." I told Alice.
The door flew opened, and banged into my wall. "What happened?" Carlisle asked. Everyone was there, Bella was still screaming. "She just freaked." Alice explained. I walked over to the bed, and kneeled down in front of Bella. "Bella." I whispered. "Bella, it's okay. Nobody is hurting you." I told her. I put my hand on hers, she stopped kicking, but not screaming. "Bella, wake up, it is just a dream." I said. She shot straight up. "Where is she?" She asked. "Where is who?" Carlisle asked. "Is she okay? Where is she?" She asked again. It was Bella speaking, but it didn't look like her, her eyes were in a daze like she was focusing on something far away. "Who the hell is she talking about?" Emmett asked. Bella seemed to snap out of it, because she focused on my face. "Um, you're kind of cutting off circulation to my hand." She said. "Oh." I said, and pulled my hand away, and sat next to her on the bed. She looked at everyone in the room. "Did I miss something?" She whispered to me. "Yeah, you were screaming bloody murder." Emmett answered. "I was? What was I saying?" She asked, in a small voice. "You were screaming for someone to stop, and then you asked 'where is she'." I said. "I did?" She asked. "Yeah." I answered. Pain, regret, and terror crossed her face. I never noticed before, that she has a scar right below her jaw bone, and it is about 2 inches long. How could I not see that?