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A/N: Weekends will be my new update days just to make it easier. Thanks for the wonderful feedback my dears! You can thank PurebloodGirl for the song this is loosely based on (Heartbeat Song by Kelly Clarkson) which I also don't own. No flames yet! YAY! But they are accepted and used to roast marshmallows with ;P Thanks all! This was supposed to be posted ages ago, but I never got around to finishing the edits, but here it is- with edits!

Lily Evans had always been the sensible type. She was the one you went to to ask what homework there was, she was the one you went to for advice, but she never actually had someone to ask anything of herself. But then she met Remus.

Remus was always there for her, and it only dawned on her in her fourth year how much support she had always received from the tawny-haired boy. He was the one she went to talk to when Potter was harassing her, he was the one she went to whenever Petunia spoke cruel words to, and most of all he was her closest friend. Sure she was close with Severus- they had known each other forever- but after the Sorting he never quite stood as close and wouldn't meet her as often until he slowly faded into more of a happy childhood friend. However their distance didn't mean she'd let Potter walk all over him! After Petunia had shunned her, she wasn't comfortable getting too close to others- after all, if her own sister hated her why shouldn't anyone else? That all changed when Remus walked into her life; all gangly arms and worn jumpers and books- she knew they would be friends.

She had seen him around the castle and the pair had exchanged pleasantries on numerous occasions, but that time she had seen him it has been different. The boys (or the Marauders as they preferred) were calling his name and searching for him on the Quidditch pitch one day after a particularly nasty Ravenclaw game. As the first years could only watch and learn, the Gryffindor boys had all been entranced. Of course stupid Potter made sure to mention his own broom and spout all sorts of things he already knew. What had surprised her the most was the way she noticed Remus always hiding from his other roommates. Why? She had figured out that he had a secret, and was hoping to figure out what that secret may be. Her questions had been answered in the form of her semi-friend Severus Snape. She had known him to be different, just she had never thought he'd be that different. She found it didn't matter to her whatsoever, that she still cared for him, and when Severus declared it an unwise idea to remain 'so closely intertwined with that half breed', she had simply laughed in his face. Sure Remus had a little problem, but that didn't mean he'd ever hurt her! She remembered him getting detention for pushing a Slytherin who had teased her about her blood status for Merlin's sake! He was different, but that day after Charms she decided it was a good different.

That perspective of him didn't change, but almost everything at the end of her summer did. Third year could not come soon enough, and she shivered in dismay, recalling all the foul names her sister had called her. Her best friend, her life-long playmate, her Tuney- all gone. That little girl who'd read to her at night was one consumed with something, and as an adult Lily had often found herself wondering what that might be. She found it to be jealousy.

She also found Remus, often seeking him out despite the walk. She had been so used to feeling happy at Hogwarts, that whenever Tuney said something to her, it hurt so much more. Whilst at Hogwarts she mostly forgot about that particular problem, yet the numb feeling that faded into pain. It resembled strongly placing an ice pack on a sore, only to get the pain as soon as the wound defrosted. She knew deep down that her older sister's heart would always remain cold.

When Lily saw Remus for the first time coming back to fourth year, she was stunned. She knew him to be thin and because of his condition, she often found him tired and sore, but never to this extent. He was exhausted, and the sheer size of the bags that hung under his eyes hurt hers just looking at them. But she knew to expect another amazing year of friendship and companionship with the quiet werewolf. He had loosened up considerably, but maybe this year they'd spend more time together...

Lily had been right. One cold October evening, she had awaken from a nightmare about her sister and garden gnomes which had dissuaded the idea of sleeping further. She crept silently down to the Common Room, knowing that sleep wouldn't find her again. A quick glance at the clock read it to be far too early for even the earliest of risers, and she sighed contently; it was as though the Common Room knew what she needed. Either that or Remus never slept. He let her tell him all of her worries and some, and she loved every second of the cryptic words and puzzling glances. They were tight, and that's what made her hate Potter even more. Magic had stolen Petunia from her, and now Potter, Black and Pettigrew were trying to take Remus from her. Of course he always made time for her and never kept her waiting, but it annoyed her to no end that Potter was changing his behavior. But Remus was under the aegis of the other Marauders, and she found them being more careful about their behavior when the full moon was approaching. Thought she'd never even contemplate thinking about it had she known it was a certain James Potter's idea, she appreciated that the Marauders were taking it easy on him.

November...

What Remus made her feel was something she hadn't felt in a long time- she felt like she had a sibling. He was so kind and compassionate, even listening to her dumb problems when she knew nothing that she ever faced could be quite as bad as what he faced on a monthly bases. So that full moon she sat and cried quietly for her brother. She knew Remus was such a kind, sweet, studious boy, and it pained her to hear screams of pain turn to howls of anguish, the night air filled with wimpers. Surprisingly, she saw the other Marauders looked particularly worse for wear, as though they hadn't slept either. But that didn't stop Potter from sauntering up during Potions and asking, "My dearest Evans, will you go out with me?"

And it most certainly didn't stop her from sending a particularly nasty boil hex his way.

"If you honestly thought I'd ever say 'yes' to you, then obviously you are more stupid than I had thought possible."

"Awwww, did the princess wake up on the wrong side of the bed today?"

"Sod off."

"Does she need her Prince to carry her to classes?"

"Actually I think I do- have you seen Remus yet today?"

He dramatically placed his hand over his heart, "Right here, my love, you hurt me right here!" With that, he returned to his station moments before Black exploded his third cauldron of the week...it had been Wednesday.

November 27th...

"Oh my dearest Lily-pad," Potter had cornered her one day after class, "when I saw you in the Common Room this morning, I said to myself, that girl will clean up nicely if one ever did, and so you have! You look ravishing as usual!" Lily could hardly speak, rage boiling up inside of her, however Remus overheard.

"It's the last day of classes before the holidays, leave Lils alone today, yeah?"

Jame- Potter only laughed. "You're no gentleman! What girl doesn't like to be told that she looks stunning?" He peered at Remus after sending a saucy wink her way. "I suppose you turn a head or two yourself, don't you?" Somehow, the quiet bookworm had become a boisterous boy.

"A few more than you I'd wager!" Remus had teased back. She had never seen him look quite so carefree and happy as he did with the Marauders, and she had to admit begrudgingly that Potter did treat him like a brother. Remus had probably told the boys about his condition ages ago, and it suddenly made sense as to why he'd be more open to them than her- because he knew the boys would accept him for that. She'd just have to prove to him that she did too…

"James, when you're finished trying to charm the owls from the rafters, I'd like to get to class. And later, you can be sure that we will have words-"

"-to ask me to take Lily to Hogsmeade this weekend. I'd be happy to! I'm sure she'd be too, after all, it's common knowledge that she fancies me."

"James Potter, I don't fancy you! What on earth made you think that I would go to Hogsmeade with you?!" Lily had butted in furiously.

"Sure you don't, love. Keep telling yourself that, my dearest Lily-pad. Come on- I know you're trying your best not to swoon. It's okay if you do, I won't tell." Every second that aggravating git continued to whip up little jokes and tease her even more, she filed it away and kept tally. So how many spells should she fire for this encounter? Seven? Is that enough?

"Can you stop doing that?!" She decided to ask, instead of hexing all of his fingers and toes to shrivel up.

"Doing what? Being honest? Why, pray tell, should I?"

"'Being honest'? 'Being honest'?! Let's see- perhap because if you don't stop then you may find that you'll wake up in the morning missing a leg or another body part!"

"Ouch! Lils, I'm not sure if that's gonna be worse for me or you, if you know what I mean." He just couldn't stop, could he? Neither particularly noticed Remus leave for Herbology with a slight shake of the head and downcast eyes. She had forgotten their quiet audience, so caught up in her banter, and so infuriated. However Potter did have a knack for capturing attention- or so she had been told...

December 31...

Lily swayed quietly to the music blaring in the Common Room. The party was loud and boisterous but she didn't trust her House-mates to take action if anything unfortunate were to happen, so that's how Lily found herself spending New Year babysitting Gryffindors of all ages. She almost fainted when the Marauders brought out Butterbeer- and it was worse because Potter had thought she had been swooning for him! To be fair, he had been carrying the box, but that only added to her enjoyment as she jinxed the bottle closest to his face shower him with the sticky liquid.

"In the mood for some Butterbeer Evans? I think I have a few drops here…" he had told her, gesturing to his cheek.

"Not in your life!" She had exclaimed, as a timing spell was activated. The whole Common Room was filled with cheers (despite there being only twenty-some Gryffindors staying for the holidays) as the countdown commenced. Before she knew what was happening, the wall she had been leaning against turned into a wall she was trapped against. Strong arms held her waist and her eyes met a pair of hazel ones.

"Be one of us tonight, Lils," he had whispered in her ear, "have some fun.."

"Lily...happy New Year." he breathed as the countdown finished, and he bent his neck low. His lips pressed against her own, and she found her eyes closing in bliss. Wait- what? She shoved Potter off as quickly as she could, hoping he didn't notice the heat rising in her cheeks. The smirk on her face told her he had.

"You're... you're... you're a git!" she finally exclaimed, when words to express her thoughts finally found her.

"A git? Here I was hoping for something a little more...creative!"

"I can't believe you did that! Have you no respect? Do you think you can just walk up, mess up your hair and have all the girls falling at your feet? Because I'm here to tell you-"

"Why are you mad? I think that was a bloody good kiss! And why are you being so moody?"

"Excuse me for not being particularly excited about being shoved against a wall and kissed against my will!"

"Well in my defense, it wasn't exactly against your will. When one person kisses another person, and that other person kisses back, usually it means they both like each other."

"You insolent little prick!"

"What did I do to induce the fiery wrath of Lily Evans again?" She had left angrily, her cheeks burning and collapsed on her bed with a sigh. If kissing Potter was the last thing she had wanted to do, then sweet Merlin why had it felt so good?

January 5th...

When school started again, she realised how much she had missed Remus. He had gone back to his home for Christmas, but Lily's sixteen year old sister was having her new boyfriend and didn't want 'the freak' to scare him off. She had almost forgotten how nice it was to have a real sibling, but when Remus helped her study for Ancient Runes or she helped him with his Potions, she knew that Petunia might've been doing that had she been normal. And that thought hurt, but it also made her smile; after all, for her and Remus, Hogwarts was normal.

January 30th...

"Lily!" Remus had exclaimed surprised! "What on earth are you doing here?"

"See, I find seeing the white walls and people in pain really lifts my spirits...why do you think I'm here? I'm visiting you of course!"

"Oh-um-well, that was very nice of you Lils, but it's your birthday! Go find James, I'm sure he's written a song for you! I just wish I could be there for the party.." he had stammered, blushing brilliantly. She had laughed and proceeded to tell him her thoughts on James' song from earlier that morning, as well as all about their projects and listed all the assignments that were due, and only left at Madame Pomfrey's insistence that she couldn't leave 'those ghastly boys to their own devices- and you should be getting to class!' and that they were the only two who had an control over them. Remus had laughed until he winched painfully, grasping his side. Madame Pomfrey must've seen the turmoil cross Lily's face because she returned from her office moments later with a letter excusing her from first period. As Madame Pomfrey ushered Lily away from Remus and to her next class, she felt her heart break a little at the crestfallen expression on his face, but that expression was gone so fast that Lily thought she might've imagined it. Lily couldn't concentrate on her Charms whatsoever, too focused on why Remus hadn't left his features the way they were- was he ashamed that he was sad when she left? Or was it something else? Years later, she knew he had steeled his features because he felt guilty about being sad. Years later, she would hold him in her arms and freely let the tears run down her face as she told him how much she cared. But that Remus had needed it then, and no amount of later was going to change that.

That night, her House-mates had thrown a wonderful party for her, with cake and music and Butterbeer and all sorts of festivities, before singing the muggle version of Happy Birthday. She had been showered with gifts and cheer yet she felt this slight hole where her sister used to be. So when no one was looking, she had snuck out to the Hospital Wing. It was well after hours, and she knew if she was caught she'd get a detention, but she still found herself sneaking through the shadows to the secluded part of the wing and settled down in a nearby chair.

"Lils?" a sleepy voice had asked.

"Hey Remus. I brought you some cake- don't tell Pomfrey!" he had chuckled slightly, before accepting the

piece in her outstretched hand.

"Lils, why aren't you at the party?"

"Oh- well, it got a little rowdy with those boys of yours and then McGonagall came and busted us. So the party left with the Butterbeer and Firewhiskey."

Remus had studied her intently.

"I think you have a little bit of Slytherin in you, my dear." She laughed, but remembering there were other patients she stifled it as best as she could.

"Fine- is it wrong I want to spend my birthday with my best friend?" She knew she had said the right thing as he beamed up at her, all happiness and smiles.

"Lils, I have your present." He told her. She raised one eyebrow quizzically, yet it fell to it's normal position as he pulled out a small box from the bedside table beside his bed.

"Open it…" he had whispered. Inside was small black notepad, nothing too extraordinary, yet she eagerly opened it to flip through the pages. The pages were filled with little incantations and snippets of informations, before Lily laughed out-loud when she glanced at the title on the top of the page.

"One Hundred and One Ways to Deal With James Potter?" he nodded solemnly.

"Spells, incantations, things to use for blackmail- it's all there. Do you like it?" he asked hesitantly.

"Like it? Remus, I quite firmly believe that I can now successfully stay at Hogwarts for the next three years without getting suspended or put into Azkaban for murder!" the sound of Remus laughing though, that was what really made her day; not the wonderful party or gifts or attention, but spending it with a real friend.

"Thank you Remus, thank you."

A/N: So there it was- our precious Lily flower has graced us with her presence! If anyone is interested, I'm writing a series of drabbles that take place in the Hogwarts Library, so please check that out too! Special thanks to:

PurebloodGirl: (who kindly reviewed)

Thank you my dear! You always review, after every chapter, and have such great ideas, so thank you! This song was perfect for Lily, and thank you so much for PMing me your amazing ideas! I'm glad you liked Peter's pov, I was trying to show that while he isn't a good person, he wasn't always bad at the start. At one point, he was like a brother, so I hope I showed that.

EmresPendragon: (who reviewed, favorited, and followed)

Thank you! I hope you liked what I came up with, and I'm glad you really liked it! I struggled to add as much depth as I could to Lily with less words because I've been told sometimes it's too long which is a slight turnoff for people, so please tell me what you think!

alliegrl: (who also kindly reviewed)

Thanks for coming over to our little neck or the woods, and first review is for me?! I feel so honored! I'm so glad you agree, I was really trying to show a more honest side to our characters which wasn't always shown. So many ff have portrayed their flaws as either so prominent it's comical, or they don't have any which is equally hilarious. So I hope I've struck a balance. Thank you so much!

Once again, first reviewer of this chapter gets to pick a song or pov or both! Thanks for reading. This story has gotten much love- 10 reviews, 4 follows, 4 favourites, 143 views- so thank you all!

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