AN: I am going to try and make this chapter a lot longer than the previous three, it's going to start to get real interesting so stick around and read into the confusing and twisted lives of the main characters, hahaha!!! Also I'd like to thank all of you who reviewed, I love to hear your thoughts and input on how the story is progressing, so thank you all!!!! Much love to you, lol.

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Is this reality, or is it merely my imagination causing these emotions to well forth from the depths of my soul…

Chapter 4: Lonely Past

Kenshin had yet to open his eyes and Kaoru was beginning to wonder if now was the best time to escape.

'He doesn't even seem like he's alive anymore…I wonder if maybe he's like meditating, but if he is than he should be super aware of his surroundings, which means I'll have no chance in hell to escape…damn.'

Looking over his face Kaoru studied the almost invisible lines crossing his forehead and wondered what kind of life he had led before their meeting.

'He can't really be all that bad, well he has threatened me countless times since I've met him, but somehow I know that he wouldn't hurt me, well, really hurt me.'

Shaking her head Kaoru was angry with herself for trying to defend him, what the hell was she trying to do, rationalize the situation so that she could somehow be alright with how things were right now. No, she wasn't going to do that, she was going to get out of here if it is the last thing that she ever did.

"Ummm…sorry to interrupt your thinking, or mediation, but do you think you could tell me what you wanted to or let me go?"

'Well, figured I'd slip that in just in case he really has lost his mind.' Laughing inside she noticed the small smile on his lips as well and instead of creeping her out, she merely stared in amazement.

"Sorry, I was just lost in thought, there's a lot to say, but not a right beginning."

Looking more confused than ever Kaoru merely nodded her head dumbly and just told herself she'd agree with anything he said, even if he did sound like an imbecile.

"Well, do you think you could just start with how you seem to be familiar with me, and how you completely changed an hour ago, when you said I was the same old Kaoru. That might help clear some things up." Kaoru suggested, really hoping he had a good explanation for his bizarre behavior.

'Not that his "normal" behavior was any less bizarre'

Kenshin seemed to contemplate this idea and nodded his head in agreement.

"That's a good idea, Kaoru, I didn't know you were capable of thinking rationally." He said with a smirk.

'I'm going to let that one go, but if he says anything else, he's going to die' she thought solemnly as she nodded with a smile a little too big.

"I have known you since you were a little girl and I used to play with you quite frequently. Do you recall any of this occurring when you were younger?"

Kaoru frowned and shook her head no.

"I have no memory of you past yesterday, I don't know why you seem to think this. Because I don't know you and I'm pretty sure you don't know me. Unless you've been stalking me my entire life, but that seems a little too pathetic for you." She said the last part a little fast, but Kenshin caught every word.

"Of course you don't remember, you were given a substance to erase your memory of our world and of your past, but I thought you would remember a familiar face." Kenshin didn't seem perplexed or disheartened at her obvious failure at remembering anything.

Kaoru got up and started to pace back and forth, trying to ease her nerves. None of this could be true I mean he was talking like they were from another planet or something and that stuff wasn't true, especially when she was concerned.

"You are concerned Kaoru, why is that? Why are you so worried when you said there was no way that I know you, so why should anything else I say bother you, if you know it to be untrue?"

Glaring at him she realized he was right, why was she so upset when what he said couldn't possibly be true, she shouldn't let this bother her. But there must have been something in the far end of her mind that believed him. Even if it was so insignificant that she could push it back and forget it the rest of her life.

"So are you saying that you have been lying to me all this time?"

Kenshin's eyebrows knitted together in frustration and he replied, "No I am suggesting that if you really didn't believe me than you wouldn't be worrying over it like you are. So you know this to be true, in your heart you know that you know me and I know you."

Sighing Kaoru breathed slowly trying to calm herself and sat on the lush couch.

"Your logic is confusing, but I think that's what you want to do is confuse me, right?"

Moving over to her Kenshin sat down next to her and stared into her sapphire irises.

"You've always been confused easily, so it's not really your fault, Kaoru."

Blowing out her cheeks she huffed indignantly and stuck her tongue at him.

Laughing, Kenshin hugged her tightly and whispered the words taught to create the rift between their world and the human world. Not being able to control the urge to take her home he did the thing he knew would be a mistake.

Seeing a whirlwind of colors swirl and collide greens, blues, pinks, yellows, oranges, and sparkles and stars, it nearly caused her to become dizzy with the entire visual coloring.

However, realizing this was a little unnatural she screamed and tried to get away from Kenshin.

'Hush, Kaoru it's alright I won't let you go, you're safe.'

What the hell, now I'm hearing his voice in my head, I really am loosing it and then there was nothing, bleak darkness and quiet.

Groggily opening her eyes, Kaoru's vision slowly became less blurry as shapes began to take form. There were a few wooden chairs and a table in the center of the small space, obviously whoever lived here had few comforts in life.

When she found Kenshin she was going to kill him, no she was going to make him suffer and then kill him and then bring him back to life and kill him again. Satisfied with her plan she attempted to get up, but quickly fell on her bottom, noting the jelly consistency her legs had become.

"What the hell is going on?" Kaoru yelled, more to herself than anything else.

"You're awake, little one, I'm sorry I didn't realize."

Looking up at the voice Kaoru was shocked and awed to see that it was Kenshin, but he seemed so different, like he was an entity instead of a man.

"What happened? Why do you look so different? And where the hell are we?"

Smiling sadly Kenshin replied gently, "So many questions, well I transported us back to our world, fuyu no tsuki, which as you know the meaning is winter moon. I look different because I am known as a yokai in your world."

Kaoru couldn't help the gasp as she realized what he had just said, "So you're a demon and we're in some kind of winter moon world, this makes no sense, but then why do you look so heavenly and beautiful, not ugly or scary?"

"You're one of those people that believes everything you read aren't you? Not al yokai are scary looking and ugly, in fact it works to our advantage to be beautiful, so it's easier to lure young maidens into our clutches."

Inching away from him, Kaoru blankly stared and wondered if perhaps she pinched herself all of this would vanish.

"No Kaoru pinching yourself will not make all of this go away, it is just beginning."

The last thing Kaoru saw was his pale face looking down at her and his vibrant blood hair spilling onto her skin.

Yay!!!! I updated that real fast, as a sort of apology for the long wait, anyways it's starting to get a little more interesting and I hope you all enjoyed it…. Please review, you know you want to!!!! Hopefully I'll write another chapter real soon!!!