Summary: He needed someone who was able and willing to listen to him, to stay by his side, always. He was his only salvation.He was his only addiction.

Chapter Rating: T

Chapter Genres: Angst & Hurt/Comfort

Ever since Kanda had heard the Musician's song that Allen had played on the piano in the White Noah's Ark, he had been lulled in by the music. It was also the same music that had save his and everyone else's lives. He had also managed to hear a few words that Allen was singing in his tenor voice. Even though Allen had sang it in a monotonous voice at that time, the two sounds blended perfectly into one.

Ever since then, Kanda had often caught sight of the boy going into the room where they kept the ark entrance. He wasn't stalking the boy, he just happened to have kept crossing paths with the silverette and recently, he had realized someone was following Allen around. He had found it weird as to why the boy was being followed by Link all the time and also why security for the Ark was to tight, since Allen, the Dark Order's bright and shining hope, was the only person that was able to pilot the thing?

He's going to need answers and Kanda didn't like who he would have to consult.

Allen had often escaped into the ark, into the Musician's room, after they had returned to the Dark Order; where, oddly enough, he found comfort despite having a wall of mirror facing him and having the reflection of the Fourteenth right behind his own. But there was no where else he could run to. Nobody understood how he felt, nobody would want to understand. Having a watchdog following him 24/7 was no help either. Link couldn't even leave the male alone for five seconds to think properly and was constantly bombarding him with paperwork to finish.

Seriously, how much paper work does one need to complete?

All this started right after coming back from a long journey, when he was accused of committing treason.

One would usually expect a huge welcome with open arms after being away from home for so long. But to the Vatican, the Dark Order wasn't a home; it was a headquarters where everyone living in the building was expected to carry out their respective duties and nothing else.

Well, maybe he wasn't fated to feel the warmth of being loved.

"Oi! Usagi!"

"Ah, Yuu-chan! What bring you to my humble abode?"

"Cut the crap and answer my questions or your head will be permanently severed from your neck. Why is the Moyashi being followed around by some guy?"

"Oh that," Lavi's cheery disposition immediately changed and the temperature in the room and dropped several degrees.

"Yeah that. I need answers, NOW."

"I'm not sure if it's my place to tell you, so I think it's better if you ask Komui for answers that you want because my explanations are just theories that I've come up with."

"Tch," Kanda promptly turned around and heading towards the direction of the Head's office.

"Wait, Kanda."

"What?"

"Why are you so concerned about Allen? I mean, don't you two hate each other?"

"… -that sprout."

"I'm sorry, I didn't catch that."

"I said, I never hated that sprout!" With that, Kanda stormed out of the library. Sure he said he's hate people like Allen in the past, but he had never meant it literally. Maybe at that point of time, when Allen looked so fragile and naïve for wanting to save every single soul out there in the world, he was enraged, that Allen would save anyone so selflessly, willing to put his own life on the line. He didn't like people rushing into their deaths, even if this was a war.

"Oi, Komui. I need answers."

"Ah, Yes Kanda-kun?"

"Why is the Moyashi being tailed by some bodyguard?"

"By Moyashi you mean Allen right?" Kanda nodded. "I didn't know you care so much about him. But I guess you deserve to know. Ok, get all the Exorcists that are in the building to meet me here. I think it's time for all of you to know what's going on in the Dark Order."

"Nii-san, you called?" Lenalee's voice rang from the door.

"Good, you're all here. Please come in." Komui paused, waiting for the Exorcists to file in and properly settle down before continuing, "I'm sure you all have realized that security around Allen has been tightened and that there are officers from the Vatican that have been sent here to investigate a few things. And all of you also know that this had started happening when Allen was able to pilot the Ark and lead to the safe return of the few of you. Am I right?"

He could see nods from almost everyone in the room, except Kanda, of course.

"Well, all this is because; Allen Walker has been accused of committing treason because he is the host of the Fourteenth Noah."

He could see many disbelieving eyes flashing right back at him, he could see his sister's lip trembling and eyes waters. But most shocking of all was that Kanda had actually showed some emotion when Komui was explaining.

"W-What? You're kidding right, Nii-san? Tell me you're joking! Allen would never commit treason!" Lenalee wailed.

"But the Fourteenth Noah betrayed the Earl right? I'm sure the Vatican knows that right? Then why…?" Lavi cut in.

"Well, you see, Rouvelier thought that even though the Fourteenth had betrayed the Earl, the Fourteenth might go back to him after he had taken over Allen's body." Komui explained why trying to calm his baby sister.

"But! But!"

"Lenalee, listen. The Vatican's decisions are final. We cannot go against them no matter how wrong they are. We can only delay what fate that will befall Allen. Right now, the only thing we can hope for is for Allen to be able to take control and suppress the Noah festering inside him, do you understand?" Lenalee timidly nodded while Komui turned to face the rest of the Exorcists, "Alright. I want you guys to treat Allen normally, like you always do. Don't make him feel anymore depressed. For all we know the Noah might take advantage of negative feelings and take over Allen. Not to mention that Allen has a parasitic-type Innocence, once the Dark Matter of the Noah reacts with the Innocence, I fear as to what might happen to him."

Everyone nodded, they couldn't believe it. Their precious Destroyer of Time, their shining hope for the war was a host for a Noah?

Having gotten the answers he needed, Kanda stormed out of the office, in search of the silver-haired male. He didn't know why but he needed to find the boy and talk some sense into him. 'Always claiming to want to save everyone when he couldn't even save himself. What a joke!' Kanda thought darkly.

Everyone in Komui's office could only stare after the raven-haired male stalk towards the direction of the Ark room.

Allen sat on the piano seat, hugging his knees and resting his head on them. In a split second, he sensed that someone had entered the Ark, he called out, "Go away, I'm not in the mood to do any more paperwork, Link."

"Baka Moyashi, if you're talking about that stalker of yours, he's knocked out cold outside."

"Kanda?"

"No shit, now where are you?"

"Um, hold on, I'll open a door for you."

Upon hearing a note pressed on the piano, Kanda saw the familiar white door appear beside him, beckoning him to enter.

Stepping into the entrance, he was met with the familiar white piano room, empty except a white piano, couch and a wall of mirror. It was spacious, to say the least, but even then, it was eerily empty.

"What are you doing here?" Kanda questioned, suspicion was evident in his tone.

"Haha. Even you're wary of me now huh?"

"…"

"What? Nothing to say? Well I didn't expect anything from you anyway. It's not like you would care about me right? You said I was the type to die early, so congratulations, your prediction came true. As soon as the Noah take over me, the Dark Matter and the Innocence will most likely have an internal battle in me and I'll be purged from this world. You're happy now aren't you, Kanda?"

Seething with anger, Kanda made to slap Allen across his left cheek, leaving an angry red mark on the pale skin.

"Ever since you came back and all this shit started, you had avoided everyone that cared for you, that wanted to help you and you just stay in that hole, feeling all depressed and sorry for yourself. What the hell happened to the boy who wanted to be a 'Destroyer that saves'?"

Now it was Allen's turn to have nothing to say.

"I know you know that there are so many people out there who care for you and you choose to shut yourself from the outside world and not let anyone in to help you. Your mask is fake. And I can see right through it."

It was that moment that Allen broke down, sobbing, "I don't know who I am anymore. I don't know what I am anymore! Kanda, I'm scared. I've never been so scared in my entire life. Mana told me to keep walking, but I'm at a dead end. I don't know what to do!"

Having the Moyashi express his true feelings for once, and to the stoic samurai no less, had really stunned Kanda into him unable to form a coherent sentence anymore. Maybe their relationship in the past wasn't that bad after all, seeing how the Moyashi had trusted him enough to released everything that was bottled up inside.

"Oi Moyashi, calm down."

Kanda had tried to calm the boy down, but to no avail. Allen's small stature shook vigorously. Having no choice, Kanda picked up the boy and threw him onto the couch in the room and straddled him, pinning his hands above his head.

"What are you doing, Kanda?" Allen panicked. Their position right now was to be… questioned.

"Have you calmed down now?" Kanda growled.

"Y-yeah."

"Good." With a fluid movement, Kanda was off Allen and also a good distance away.

"I'm sorry for ranting out at you."

"Tch, whatever," Kanda wanted to walk out of the door and back to him room, seeing how his job was done (why had he decided to come and talk some sense into the sprout was still beyond him) when Allen made a grab at Kanda's hand, silver orbs pleading for him to stay.

Reluctantly, he agreed to stay and Allen led him down to the couch. When Kanda had settled down, Allen made to sit on his lap, hugging the raven-haired samurai, while burying his head in the crook of Kanda's neck. Feeling Kanda tense up at the intimate position they were in, Allen said, "I'm sorry, just let me stay like this for a while."

Kanda wouldn't say he hated the warmth emitting from the smaller form. But he wanted to see and feel for himself if that feeling inside was what he thought it was. Hesitantly, he tilted Allen chin and brought his mouth to his own, placing a chaste kiss.

And that was when everything started.

Allen would frequently visit Kanda at various times of the day because he had found out that whenever he was is close contact with Kanda, he could forget everything that was going on in his mind. He could forget everything that was troubling him at the moment, and the only thing he could think about was Kanda.

Kanda had become like a drug to Allen, and vice versa.

They both didn't know how or when it had happened but it was probably during that period of time in the piano room. The have been unknowingly drawn to each other, never getting enough of each other's touches, never getting enough of each other's kisses. But that was all there was to it.

Because of this addiction both of them had for each other, Kanda doesn't seem as tense as he was last time and Allen had been more cheerful. It was like a healing drug to both of them. Neither of them questioned it, neither of them wanted an explanation for it. As long as they have each other, they could get through any hurdle that life has lay out in front of them.

He was his only salvation.

He was his only addiction.

A/N: Sorry, this totally sucked. T^T I have no idea what to write for Addiction, but still I wanted to take up the challenge of writing it. But I kinda failed miserably. So yeah.

Reviews please! And let me know what you guys think! Even though it really sucked. I really want your opinions and they always motivate me to keep writing.

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