Sorry I haven't updated in a while I've had issues with a guy at work that thinks just because I'm bi sexual and will date guys that it means I'm just dying to date him…he's becoming borderline stalking, someone made a comment when he was waiting on me before work and I was a bit late that if I pissed him off he'd shoot the smokers first cause the smoke shack was closest to the employee parking… thinking about that and the fact that half the facility was told…by him…that we are dating I ended up writing an angst story for something else ill post it later, not fond of starting one story and stopping for another. Multi-tasking while passing out meds is one thing...writing is harder.
Awkward, neither Janeway nor Seven knew what to say. For Seven it was already overwhelming her mind to have one child thinking of having another one, with Janeway no less, was becoming dangerous to her intellectual ability. And yet at the same time it was strangely appealing, she found herself tingling at the thought of carrying the Captain's child. Being out in the Delta quadrant where Kathryn was Captain it made more sense for Seven to carry the child…but….Seven was Borg. Borg didn't have children. Natural conception was impossible and they had no way of knowing how Desyn was conceived, Seven had no plans to go ask Desyn's mother how it was done either.
While Seven was lost in her own thoughts Janeway took the time to watch her, she found it extremely interesting when Seven's cheeks flushed. 'She can't seriously be considering it?! God I hope so.' The thought wasn't exactly unappealing to Kathryn either, a baby with Seven….Janeway felt her own cheeks heat up. Both adults had conveniently forgotten the sneaky little five year old whose internal cogs were working on overdrive to find a way to hook the two up…she had …well she had ulterior motives, she wanted a sister damn it!
Her mommy had talked about Janeway a lot, enough that even at four Desyn figured out her mom was in love with the Captain and crushed that she had to live without her. There had never been any love between her own parents, though once or twice when Desyn had been very ill both of them had held her in bed but it had been a forced and tense effort on their part. And to be honest even Desyn was uncomfortable, they thought she would die, sure, but even then she wasn't used to her mother showing her any kind of affection much less caring about if she were ill or not. She dismissed the thought and cleared her throat to get the adults attention, "Well? I am waiting…" 'Waiting to hear the excuses they can come up with..pfft adults.'
"Um….Desyn you see in normal cases…it takes a man and a woman to have a bay." It was absolutely adorable to watch her normally stoic mother stutter; even Kathryn thought so though neither voiced it.
"And they should be in a relationship," Kathryn added quickly, "with love."
Desyn thought this was like playing kadis kot or chess, adults spent way too much time thinking. "You and mommy love each other." Kathryn nodded slightly but before she could speak Desyn interrupted her, "Great, okay I can work on the baby thing…I'm a genie you know." Wait that was the wrong word…"I'm smart," she clarified she looked at both of them expected them to argue but not giving them time to even start. "You two get to work on the relation thing. Get to it!" She yawned, arguing with adults and there silly worries were rather tiring.
"Desyn honey…." Desyn knew they were going to say something stupid like they weren't in love like that …yea right…so she stopped them.
"I'm ready for my nap." She declared yay for the randomness of being a child. She looked at Seven but Seven shook her head unsure of what to do. Reality crashed in, busting the carefully formed bubbled she had created for herself, thinking Seven was the mommy she had left behind. But she wasn't and there was nothing Seven could do to change that. This mommy didn't sleep….but it was still her mommy biologically. Thinking about it just depressed Desyn and made her head ache. She wanted to cry for the mommy she lost but momma always told her crying never solved anything and no child of hers was going to show that kind of weakness. "My mommy always napped with me. It was some of the only time we got to be alone, without momma bothering one of us...momma didn't sleep." Desyn knew Seven was trying, too be honest Seven didn't know for real Desyn was her baby but she was still trying. That was the mommy Desyn knew and she was happy her mommy was just as understanding and selfless as the one she lost. Seven would learn to be a mommy….a good one, though Desyn may be bias on her opinion.
She'd been promised though, by her guardian angel, that Seven would protect her and love her for the rest of her life. This meant that she'd never see her real mom again… but her angel, she should be arriving soon she would get to see her. She'd promised to come keep her safe and get her situated, which probably meant Desyn wasn't out of danger yet but the small child was a little bit naive when it came to stuff like that. Her mommy told her she'd be safe so for now she just assumed her mommy was always right and she'd be fine.
"Seven why don't you and Desyn stay here, if there is an emergency and I need you I'll call you. Maybe you can just lay with her while she sleeps, it will probably comfort her a bit I doubt she'd nod off in a strange environment." Desyn brightened at that idea and Seven couldn't find it in herself to deny the hope she saw in the child's eyes. She nodded. "Then it's settled. I'll return after my shift and we can talk more, if you get hungry before then I'll meet you in the mess hall. Or you can use the replicator…" she hesitated halfway to the door. "Or we could all eat here later and I can replicate us a dinner. Just us, rumors are already spreading about her...we need to announce it officially….a few of the crew heard her call you mommy in the hall….and with you two in my quarters…" she trailed off.
"That will be…acceptable." Kathryn noted Seven's hesitation but said nothing of it. Seven would never let her push her into anything she wasn't comfortable with. She challenged Janeway enough so the Captain knew that for certain. She nodded and headed to the bridge, leaving Seven alone with a very sleepy daughter.
Desyn made her way to the big bed and climbed in, tucking herself in while Seven watched silently. When she got situated she patted the bed beside her and pulled the covers back urging Seven to join her. Though reluctant Seven found herself in the middle of the big bed her daughter in her arms and the scent of Kathryn all around her. It was unusual for her, though definitely not uncomfortable it felt…natural as if she had been the one to hold her since her birth. Illogical as it was Seven liked the idea, this was her daughter, and in her heart she knew that without having scientific proof to back it up. This little girl had already turned her heart upside down and lying beside her gave her a sense of peace. For the first time since she was liberated Seven felt at home.