All of these chapter names are songs, if you hadn't noticed. I think they all apply to the content in their individual chapter. Listen to them and you will understand the chapter better. I just recommend you do that.

This one is by my favorite band:

Chapter 4. Ashes and Wine by A Fine Frenzy

BPOV

My smiled faded as he said my name in recognition. I also saw the other Cullen Family members face freeze in shock. I nodded and Edward gasped. I looked at Isolde. Her eyes were burning with obvious hatred and her expression was confused. And, did I see jealousy? Ha!

I turned to Damien and his eyebrows were raised at me in a confused position. I rolled my eyes and he laughed.

I didn't really love Damien, not even close; I barely even like him at all. But he had been all I had, all this time, and I knew that if the disappeared I would be hurt badly, maybe beyond repair. I couldn't take someone leaving me again. I hadn't just lost one person, I had lost seven. They were the most loving and caring people I had ever met, or it had seemed.

"How do you guys know each other?" Demi asked trying to conceal his laughter. I had to admit, the Cullen's faces were looking quite funny at that moment and I giggled loudly.

I smiled back at the vampire family and then answered his question, "These guys?" I laughed, "Aw, they are just old friends…well more like ex-friends. Don't you think?" I asked Alice, smirking again. Instead of answering, her eyes just opened wider, "Yeah, we go way back."

"Ah, no wonder whenever I mentioned the Cullen Family you flinched, well, you don't anymore, but you used to." Damien said. I winced at the memory. Whenever Aro or anyone said the word "Cullen" in their vocabulary I often flinched, even without realizing it. I sighed and glared at Damien for giving away that secret information. He just looked innocently back at me, and I rolled my eyes.

"What happened to you?" Emmett asked. His eyes were pained and his arms that were wrapped around Rosalie dropped to his side. I smiled at me and then at the rest of the Cullen Family.

I decided to make them feel guilty. My voice sounded careless, for which I was happy, "Why would you care?" I questioned them.

"Oh, Bella, we have always cared." Alice said. Her voice did sound genuine, but these vampires had years of practice. They were amazing liars, but not a good as me. I laughed an evil sound and glared at Edward. I stared right into his eyes, which were full of pain. I smiled at him and then my lips formed a hard line.

"Maybe some of you do." I said my voice only a whisper. I took a step backwards and wrapped my arm around Damien's back and stared at the ground for a long moment. He smiled and kissed my hair. He put his stone cold arm around me also.

I swore I heard Edward growl, but then Emmett put his hand on Edward's shoulder. Then suddenly Isolde spoke, "Who is this?" Her voice was lethal as she glared at me. I swore her eyes were green the envy was so strong. I smiled at her, well more like a sneer, and laughed again. My laugh use to be sweet and comforting, music if you will, but now it sounded sharp and cold. I guess that was how I was then.

Alice spoke, "I don't know who this is. She surely isn't the Bella I knew. I can't believe you would do this Bella. Why would you join the Volturi? They are evil Bella, snap out of it." At the beginning of the monologue it had sounded like a hiss, but as it came to an end it sounded like a desperate plea.

I looked down, feeling a little ashamed. In my heart I knew they were evil, but it just felt like I belonged with them, like I fit in. I never had with the Cullen Family and I never would. I shivered, but it was not from the cold. I bit my lip, not knowing what to say.

"Why don't you all come in and lets visit for a while. I know that Damien, you would like an explanation from Bella, and I haven't seen Demetri in so long." Carlisle was wise and calm as always. I thought about for a moment. I really didn't want to discuss killing Edward, though killing Isolde would make me feel exceptionally happier.

I finally nodded and Damien grabbed my hand and led me through their front door. The living room was amazing as ever. All the furniture was amazing, and it was light and open. Then I saw Edward's piano and I sighed sadly unthinkingly. Thankfully no one heard me. I sat on a couch next to Demi and Damien and sighed as I took Damien's hand. He kissed me lightly on the cheek and I couldn't help but notice Edward staring at us, so I deepened the kiss. Before I knew it out tongues were circling each other. Apparently out kissing was a chain reaction. Edward was making out with his girlfriend to.

With every peck they gave each other I was stabbed with a new level of pain. I hated Isolde so much, that during out little make out session I almost slipped and killed her. I would have to work on my temper problems. I had them a lot, which every one who knew me had knowledge.

"Bella I need an explanation." Damien suddenly said as he abruptly broke our kiss. I sighed and looked down at my feet. I really didn't want to tell him, but I knew I would have to eventually, so I might as well do it then.

As I looked up I saw that everyone's eyes were on me. Isolde's were full of curiosity and confusion. I knew that she would be mad after I told her, Demi, and Demetri this. All of the others knew the story. Well, the Cullen family didn't know how I became a vampire.

"When I was human I moved to live with my father in forks. There I met many people, but only five of them stood out to me. I didn't know it then, but they were vampires. Edward had some weird pull to my blood. I was his singer." Demi gasped at the word and Damien's eyes tightened waiting for the rest of my autobiography. The Cullens left their faces blank, all except for Edward. His face was pained and his thoughts were obviously not at the present. He was thinking of how he almost killed me, I'm sure. Not that he would care, "Then when I almost got squashed by a van Edward here saved me. I knew something was up though, when his hand left a dent in the car." I laughed without humor, "We grew as friends and then I heard a legend about vampires from one of the Quileute tribe members. The Cullen family name was mentioned and I knew it that Edward, and his family were vampires. I had known that they weren't human. It was obvious. Then one night when I was almost…" I cut myself off there, seeing Edward stiffen and Emmett's face grow cold, "That night Edward told me he was a vampire, so it was official. Our friendship grew and before I knew it I was in love with him, and I thought he was in love with me. Then a vampire named James came after me and Edward had to fight him off and stuff. Then I got a paper cut when I was with the entire Cullen family and Jasper tried to attack me. That got Edward thinking."

I took a deep breath and closed my eyes before I finished this story. I had never said this part out loud, and I tried really hard not to think about it. I took Damien's hand and he squeezed it as tight as he could.

I finally continued, "Edward told me that he didn't want me," I had only said one sentence and I was already dry sobbing. I leaned in my head and buried in Damien's chest. "I wasn't good enough for him, and I can't blame him really. I was just a human, nothing special. I wasn't pretty and I wasn't smart. I was left broken until I started hanging out with Jacob Black, who I now know is a werewolf. One day I went to our meadow and Laurent bit me. Two humans found me and when I was done with the change I killed them. I was proud of myself and I decided to go to the only place a monster like me belonged…the Volturi. I was made the head of the family due to my potent powers. Now I'm here 75 years later."

I finished and looked around the room. Everyone's face was frozen in shock, well; Isolde's expression was murderous. I'm sure she was mad at Edward for this, and afraid he might leave her too. I couldn't blame her.

Then suddenly, like a flash of lightning, Damien was on top of Edward, his teeth only inches from his face. Then Emmett was attacking Damien. I got so mad for some reason. I couldn't help what I did then. I ran forward as fast as I could. Emmett and Damien were now fighting outside, as Edward waited to help. Carlisle was not calm, for once, and his stance was protective along with Jasper's as they stood to fight.

Then all hell broke lose and all of them were fighting. I saw Alice suddenly attacking Damien, and for once she hadn't seen what I was about to do, or she didn't think I would do it. I pushed Damien aside and pinned Alice to the ground. My face was lethal as my arm pinned her to the ground, the other across her neck, almost if to choke her. Everyone had stopped fighting and was staring at me. I looked around and then back at Alice.

Her eyes were wide in surprise and shock. She had been my best friend, and I had attacked her. I was breathing heavily, or so it seemed in the silence. All of the Cullens stared at me in pure horror. I got up and brushed myself off. I ran over to Damien, needing his arms to give me comfort, or at least give me shelter. Alice up as quickly as she could, not knowing if I would attack her again.

Damien kissed me lightly on the lips, but I deepened the kiss, needing an escape. Before I knew his tongue had entered my mouth and mine had entered his. Then I abruptly broke the kiss and started dry sobbing. I fell to the ground, for my legs had grown numb.

I felt a hand on my back and looked up to see that it was Alice. I jumped and pulled her into a hug. I held her tight and repeated sorry over and over again. She forgave me, which just made me want to sob more.

Then suddenly Demi stepped forward and glared at Edward, his expression vicious. "Well," He said directed toward me, "are we gonna kill them or not?"

My eyes widened and my face froze. I had forgotten that it was my choice to make. Everyone's expression turned panicked and agonized as they stared me.

I gulped. This was a decision not easily made. I was going to have to decide if I wanted to kill my former love and his new lover. I thought for a moment and then I knew the answer.

I stood up, opened my mouth, and told them my choice.

Did you really think that I was going to tell you her decision? I thought you knew my better than that!

I do NOT do non-cliffys. Srry!

I am also writing a new chapter for Impulse and I promise right now. They should be up by Wed.