He didn't like the way things went. He didn't. Now that he was alone, he had time to think about that meeting. It had been a bad idea. If he knew that neither of them was going to change his or her mind, why did he go? What exactly did he hope to accomplish by going? Sheesh, he knew that both of them are stubborn, and he also knew that just like him, she was fighting on the other side for her beliefs, but what were his beliefs? He didn't have an answer, why was he here, on this ship? He didn't know why he was fighting; it was the same as back then….
'And why is it the you are fighting for, Athrun Zala?' His ex-fiancé, Lacus Clyne, had asked him. 'Is it because your father ordered you?'
He had not been able to answer. The girl was sweet most of the time, but that day, she had got him good. It was on that day that he decided to confront his best friend and ask him man-to-man, why was he fighting. And his friend had an answer. He didn't. It didn't matter if he joined their side, he still didn't know what he was doing…maybe he only joined their side because she was there? She did knock some since into him, she did hugged them and told them they were idiots, and he did become her bodyguard after the war…but something still nagged him…and it was that he still hadn't found himself.
He saw as all his friends settled into their lives after the war, they all moved on, with conviction, yet he was still left hanging. Even now, the one girl he wanted seemed to be moving on just fine without him, even she had a mission in life, a plan.
What is it that he wanted out of life? He didn't know.
There were three girls after him on the ship. He had no particular interest in any of them, but maybe he should give one of them a chance. But who? He knew that he did not like his ex-fiancé's look-alike, Mia Campbell. She seemed too conniving, too sluty, like she didn't really want him as much as she wanted his body. Then there were the sisters, Lunamaria and Meyrin Hawke. Lunamaria was nice, but so was Meyrin. It was hard, it would not be good to pit two sisters against each other, ah, life was hard. Maybe he shouldn't try after all, and just wait to see what came.
What came? He didn't try, the girls were still there, but Lunamaria seemed to have moved on to another guy, Shinn Asuka. The guy had issues, but at least he knew why he was there. He was glad that Lunamaria had moved on, but he still didn't know if he should give Meyrin a chance. Mia was out of the question.
Meyrin proved her worth and her devotion to him. She owes her his life. If it weren't fro the girl lying on his behalf he would have been dead. Why did he instinctively run to her room? He didn't quite know, but the girl was sweet, and maybe, just maybe he was using her feelings for him to his advantage. The thing was, she didn't disappoint, and she came through. She even went as far as to activate the emergency alarms to get them off guard, but then she also had to run. Just like him she had become a traitor.