When we returned from the mall, it was late. Alice had made me try on a gazillion outfits, and eventually, we left the crowded area and returned to her car.

It had been hard for me to resist the temptation to bite in the mall. But Alice kept a close watch on me, and we only went to the less crowded shops. In the end, I felt very proud of myself. There was now no excuse for Jasper and Carlisle and Edward to kill me.

In the car, Alice and I talked about books. It turns out that she likes reading, and she mainly reads magazines, and biographies about famous models and stuff. She adores Anne of Green Gables, though, and we talked about the whole series together the ride back.

When I entered the house, I was surprised to see Edward there. From what I had heard from Alice, he spends almost every waking minute with Bella. Quickly, that surprise turned into fear. I glanced at him again, and he looked confused. Obviously, he didn't know why I was scared. And that was good.

Alice and I struggled to get up the stairs with our bags, and Jasper suddenly appeared. Extending an arm out to each of us, he smiled. Alice accepted the help without question, but I was hesitant. Was he going to kill me? Trying to remain normal, I took his arm lightly. His eyebrows narrowed as he looked at me, and I struggled to conceal my emotions. He mustn't know that I was scared. He may have a secret power too.

I walked up the stairs next to Jasper. My eyes kept on flickering over to him. He seemed puzzled, like Edward had been. Jasper dropped us off at my room, and Alice and I stuffed the new clothes in my closet. The majority of them were more goth than anything I'd ever worn, and Alice loved the idea of me being all sassy and dark with my style. I didn't really get what she meant- basically, I just chose what I liked at the stores, and she made outfits out of them.
She left to go talk to Jasper, and I holed up in my room again. When I had finished Wuthering Heights and Pride and Prejudice, I stared out the window. I was so hungry from the mall, so I put a note on my bed and leaped out the window. I landed lightly on the ground, and I raced into the woods.

I quickly found a deer. I drained it, and moved on to a lynx. As I finished, I felt full and content. I guess I was getting used to this whole 'vegetarian' lifestyle. I wandered through the woods, looking at the beauty of the leaves that were swaying in the breeze. Then I heard footsteps.

I stiffened. This was it. They had come for me. I whirled around, ready to run, but I stopped. It was Rosalie.

"Hey Bree."

"Hey Rosalie. What's up?" I asked, hoping the relief wasn't apparent in my voice.

"Just hunting a little more. I saw that lynx back there."

I laughed. "Yeah?"

"Yeah. I love lynx." Rosalie smiled.

"I'm sorry! If I had known I would have left it for you!" I cried. I really didn't want Rosalie to hate me too.

"No, it's fine. I actually caught one a week ago. So what are you doing out here?"

Rosalie said, sitting down on the forest floor.

I sat down too. "Just thinking how beautiful it is here."

"Where did you live before?" I flinched inwardly. I hated these types of questions.

"Seattle." I responded.

"I've been there. It's not bad. Which neighborhood did you live in?" Ugh. Great. Now she was going to know that I practically lived on the streets before I was changed.

"Umm-" I said, stalling for time.

"Wait! I smell a deer. I'll be right back." Rosalie hissed, standing back up.

"I'm actually going back to the house. See you there." I whispered, before dashing away into the forest, relieved. It was morning already, and I was anxious to see Alice.

I reached the house and entered. I cleared my thoughts as I kicked off my boots. Edward would still be here.

"Oh... Bree..." Alice said. She had whipped her head around the corner of the wall. "Bella's here, so..." She looked upset.

"No, it's fine. I'll just go back out." I said, smiling at her. As she turned away back into the other room, I sighed silently. I laced my boots back up and went back outside.

I walked slowly. I was a danger to them all. And they were dangerous for me, I realized. They thought I would kill Bella, and in return they wanted to kill me. I wandered off back into the woods, away from where I last left Rosalie. I just wanted to be alone.

My first thoughts and impressions of them were absolutely wrong. Esme was kind, but Carlisle wasn't. Edward wasn't just a mind reader- he was prepared to kill. Alice wasn't so bubbly as I had thought- she truly didn't want me either. And Jasper- well, Jasper was the same.
I stopped in my tracks and sat down next to a bubbling brook. I wasn't being fair. I was judging them unfairly. It was me that was making all of this happen. Maybe if I just left everything would be better. They were just defending what was theirs.

They would always care about Bella more than me, I realized. She had been in the family longer, and I was new. I didn't really belong in this coven. They all had mates except for me. And I was frozen in time as a fifteen year old girl. You don't find true love when you're fifteen. Except for Diego. But he was dead. And he had been my soulmate. I would never find another one.
If vampires could cry, I would be crying right now. My body heaved with dry sobs. Everything was wrong. I wished that the Volturi had killed me. Then I wouldn't have to deal with Diego's death, and trying to fit in, into this new and strange coven.

I stayed out for the day. I hunted some more, and wandered around the forest. Eventually, I made my way back to the house. I could tell that Bella was gone, and that Edward had left with her. I clambered up to my room, and settled in for the night. I turned on the lamp and picked out a history book from the shelf. Once I finished that book, I started writing a story about a young soldier and a girl who fall in love. I was halfway through writing my third chapter when there was a knock at the door.

"Yes?" I asked. Panic crept into my mind.

"Its Esme." I fought back a sigh. "You can come in."
The door opened instantly, and Esme flew in. She settled on my bed, sitting next to me. She started to talk.

"I'm so sorry about today, Bree. It's just that Bella hadn't been here in a while, and we thought you would be out for longer..." Esme trailed off. I didn't speak for a moment. I was making her chose between two of her daughters- if I even counted as one. I had done enough damage. But I kept my sorrow out of my voice.

"No, no, Esme. It's fine. I had just wanted to ask Alice about clothes. I was fine going back out." I reassured her.

Esme visibly relaxed. "Oh, ok, Bree. I just wanted to make sure that you felt like a part of this family, you know."

"Yes, I know, Esme. Thanks." I smiled at her. She left my room, and I closed my eyes. I needed to hunt. I knew that I was pretty full already, but I needed to feed more because I was determined to meet Bella soon. Leaving another note, I left my room at daybreak to go snag a deer.

Sorry about Bree's meltdown. I just felt like it should put that in there because now you all know where she's coming from and everything. Also, I know nothing really happened in this chapter, and the next chapter will be much better, I promise. ;)