DISCLAMIER: I do not own Inu Yasha or any of the characters, (though I wish I did) however the plot and this story are my own ideas, so please don't sue me.

Warning: There is some violence and gore (not too much but still) and a lustful event or two. (Not too much though)

Italics are thoughts

Italics underline are visions

Bold Italics is the thoughts from Rin's dark side

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Flowers bloomed their sweet aroma gracing the air. The setting sun's rays bounced off their petals, bringing rainbow light into the peaceful meadow. In the distance one could see a giant lake, surrounded by tall, proud trees. A young woman sat in the sea of flowers, her raven black hair dancing in the caressing breeze, her childish ponytail long gone. Pure happiness decorated her beautiful complexion. A village was not far away. Humans and demons lived peacefully together. Her parents, and brother lived there. As well as all the friends she met on her journey. Kohaku, Kagome, Jaken, Ah and Un, Sango, Miroku, Shippo, Kiara, even Inu yasha. But most importantly he was there. Her guardian angel, her protector, and the most important person in her life. It was heaven because he was there. Everyone was happy, and alive. Rin smiled, she laid down, allowing the floral scents to fill her nose.

A shadow fell on her face, blocking it from the dying sun's golden rays. Looking up the ningen saw Sesshomaru. Without a word, the handsome dog demon sat next to her, he placed his fur pelt (or whatever that thing is) around her, protecting her from the early evenings chill. A rare simile graced his angel features, his eyes burned with unhidden affection. The young woman cuddled next to him, pure happiness shining in her eyes, her cheeks turning an innocent shade of red. A comfortable silence wrapped around the couple as they watched the sun dip beneath the horizon, and the moon and stars take over his domain. Their long manes intertwined in the peaceful breeze. Onyx and sliver locks danced together in complete harmony. The moon and stars glowed brightly in the darkening blue sky. Slowly their faces crept closer, drawn to each other like magnets. Their lips crashed into one another's, tongues dancing in each other's mouths. His lips were as soft as a feather. He wrapped his lone arm around her waist, as if daring fate to draw them away. His kisses became more forceful and demanding, though Rin did not mind. Pleasant chills tickled her spin, electricity tingled in the air. Warmth spread to every part her body. She felt as light as air, her mind felt giddy. Nothing could spoil this moment. She was walking on air.

The sound of screams reached her ears; the delicate fragrance of flowers was overridden by the smell of blood, smoke, and death. Rin and Sesshomaru pulled away as quick as a flash of lighting. Rin grasped her steel fans, while Sesshomaru unsheathed his Tokijin. Her senses crying out danger. Sesshomaru was already ahead of her. The taiyoukai raced down to the village, his companion close behind. A veil of smoke clouded the once peaceful utopia, shadowing the heavens from view. Rin lost sight of her Lord. "Lord Sesshomaru"! She called out, smog filled her lungs cutting off any more words. Smoke burned her eyes. The screams stopped only to be replaced by the stench of more blood, and haunting silence. "Lord Sesshomaru, Master Jaken, where is everyone"? the ningen called out, worry choking her voice. A soft murmur of voices reached Rin's ears. Immediately she glanced around searching for the source. Young children, human and demon alike, whimpered in fear. Blood slowly trickled down from their wounds. The female human turned her gaze toward where the children were staring.

Out of the darkness, a figure calmly glided toward them. With a simple slash of her steel fans the figure neatly beheaded one of the children. "Nooooooooo" Rin called out, she willed herself to move her body, but it was as if she became stone. With a twist of her wrist Rin sent her own fans flying toward the monster that killed the child, like a boomerang. The creature dodged easily, her moments like the wind itself. Rin caught her weapons and charged at the figure veiled by shadow. Their weapons met, sparks flying. Brown eyes hooked on brown eyes and for a moment Rin's strength faltered, her eyes widen in shock. The creature took the chance to kick the feet from under her, sending Rin crashing to the floor, knocking the wind from her. The mysterious creature then charged at the remaining children, her weapons lusting for their deaths. Blood erupted everywhere, covering the monster. The bodies of the children lay splattered and cut up like dolls. Laughter bubbled from the figure's soft lips, her slender build was drenched in blood. Rin gapped at the horrific scene, tears burning her eyes. "Noooooo" Anger and sorrow flooded in her heart, yet a part of her delighted at the sight of blood and the corpses. It was like she was the one who killed the children, with such inhuman delight.And that's what really frightened her. The creature continued to laugh. It was like staring into a mirror. The same hair, the same height, the same body, but the creature's eyes showed such malice, such insane hate. Even the most courageous person would falter under it's gaze. "Damn you, I don't know who the hell you are but I know I will never kill for the sake of killing. I value life"! Rin screamed in defiance, to both the monster and the darkness in her heart, as she charged head on at the monster.

As soon as she spoke the words, the dream shifted. The massacred village disappeared only to be replaced with a forest. The ningen glanced around uneasily, her senses still screaming danger. "What's taking you so long stupid girl, how hard is it to get fire wood"? Jaken called out. The imp walked out from the shadows, followed by the 2 headed dragon. "Master Jaken, Ah and Un you're okay"? Rin asked dazed. She glanced around looking for Sesshomaru and for the village of death as well as her dark side she was about to fight. "Where is Lord Sesshomaru, master Jaken"? The forest hid all from view. Shadows blanketed the forest with silence. Without waiting for an answer, the teenage girl wandered down a shadowed path. Something seemed to call to her, telling her to come. The human girl walked for a while, Jaken and Ah and Un disappeared from view. They made no attempts to follow how odd. Rin thought to herself. Nothing stirred, not a sound was made. Not even the wind blowing through the trees could be heard. It was like the world was holding it's breath. Waiting for inevitable to happen.

A moan of pleasure echoed in the forest abyss. Rin's body carried her unwilling spirit to the source. Something told her she would not like what she would see, yet it was like her body had a mind of it's own. She entered a small clearing, where two figures were intertwined in each other's arms, their tongues playing war in each other's mouths, their clothes tossed aside like a pieces of garbage. Sliver hair shown brightly in the darkness. Sesshomaru. Rin choked on a batch of tears. Her heart fell to a million pieces as she watch her lord 'play' with the wind witch, Kagura. Ever since she entered woman hood, even before then she loved her lord, more then a servant or ward should. Though she knew nothing could ever happen between them, he was a demon lord, and she was a nothing but lowly, immature, pathetic human. Yet She stilled loved him. Like a rose loved the sun's warm rays.

The tears came freely now. Sobs shook her small frame. Her world was falling apart, it was like reliving the death of her family all over again. First she killed a helpless village including it's children, now the only man she would ever love was having sex with the enemy. The moans, and rustling stopped. A menacing shadow fell over the young ningen. Gazing up Rin saw her lord. His pants were on, but his chest was bare, his moon lit hair a bit messy, but he still looked like an angel out of heaven. If Rin was not so heart broken she would be blushing up a storm, yet as it was she could not get the image of Sesshomaru on top of Kagura out of her head. The forest around them slowly disappeared into an abyss of shadow. Even Kagura was gone. His voice broke her from her chaotic thoughts. "Stupid human, did you really think that this Sesshomaru would ever love a lowly human such as yourself" The dog demon glided toward his teenage servant, his golden orbs full of malice. Without warning he raised his hand toward her pale cheek and slapped her, making Rin spit out blood. What's going on? Sesshomaru never hit me or insulted me before, suddenly she remembered the creature who attacked the dream village earlier. And it's horrible eyes, the eyes that looked just like Sesshomaru's at that moment. This is all just a dream, but then why can't I wake up. Rin thought to herself. The teenage girl closed her eyes, willing herself to awaken from this nightmare.

A soft, but cold hand caressed her cheek. Opening her eyes, Rin saw Naraku standing where Sesshomaru was supposed to be. "You"! the human woman yelled, her chestnut shaded eyes engulfed in anger. Skillfully Rin slashed the evil hanyo before her. Her weapons sliced through the air, making her fans hum. Rin glanced around trying and failing to locate her enemy. "Do you knowwhat makes your lord happy"? his cold voice called out. Rin glared at the shadows, anger boiling in her veins. "How dare you speak about my Lord,"! "Power, it's what every demon wants, and your Lord Sesshomaru is no different. He is just using you in order to steel the Tessaiga from Inu Yasha. In the end he will kill you" Naraku continued calmly, as though gossiping about the weather.

An image of Sesshomaru killing her flashed before her eyes. She lay bleeding her left arm gone. Sesshomaru was above her, in his newly obtained left hand was the Tessaiga. He gazed coldly at the dying girl before him, his metallic eyes showed no compassion, only a never ending lust for power "Foolish human" the taiyoukai stated before,using the wind scar to destroy the rest of her body."Your wrong, Lord Sesshomaru may act apathetic but he really cares" Rin shouted into the darkness, though doubts started to cloud her mind. You know he's right, when did Lord Sesshomaru ever really care about you? He's just using you to get that stupid sword. The dark part of Rin's mind stated slikly.The corrupt hanyo appeared in front of her. His red eyes shining in the shadows "Come join me child, and I can ease your pain" He stated with false kindness. "No, you lie"! Rin replied defiantly. I will never betry Lord Sesshomaru! Her heart screamed. Naraku snatched Rin by her throat faster then a blink of an eye. His claws dug into her neck, making droplets of blood seep through the punctures he inflected. The pain of his grip, made the teenage fighter lose her hold on her weapons.Her beloved fans fell into the shadowy depths that engulfed the landscape.

The monster placed on the girl's chest a piece of the shikon no tama. Evil erupted from her heart threatening to ensue her soul. Doubt, hate, anger, sorrow, they all tried to consume her. Lord Sesshomaru please help me! Rin begged. He won't come. The dark part of her informed her. Your wrong, Lord Sesshomaru will come. Why would he? You are nothing more then a burden. Why would he want you when he can have any other woman? Demon and human alike. You saw him with Kagura.Join Naraku. Save yourself from more pain. Never. You can take my life and my soul, but I will never help Naraku. My loyalty is and will always reside with Lord Sesshomaru! Rin's heart screamed in an desperate attempt to fight back Naraku's hold on the dark side of her heart.Sesshomaru's golden eyes were the last thing she saw before, she lost consciousness. Her internal war was taking all her strength and will power. Hanyo and maiden disappeared in the shadows.

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"Oh, I wish Lord Sesshomaru would hurry, Rin is getting worse" The toad servant complained aloud to himself. The young woman stopped moaning, and she no longer coughed up blood. However her slender frame still underwent painful spasms, her pulse became freighting slow. Her eyes that always held such warmth and life were soulless. Her skin was ice to the touch. The quiet of the night began to grow uncomfortable, and the sliver orb of the moon no longer gave warmth, or comfort only mocking beauty. "Hold on Rin, Lord Sesshomaru will come" Jaken whispered confidently to himself. The girl did not only worm her way into Sesshomaru's heart, but into his as well.

Authors' Note: wow, that was a long chapter. I hope you liked it. Tell me what you think. Chapter 5 won't be for a while. I must pass Chemistry and Geometry, so instead of writing I will be studying. oh fun, I can't wait. Any way I hope you like this chapter