A/N: Hi everyone (waves) so…it's been awhile huh (blushes) yea, so so so so so sorry about that. School has been a (w)itch lately since it's my last semester before graduation and I've had to write so many papers, I'm surprised my fingers haven't come off lol that coupled with my new job, well has left me little time for my recreational writing. Any who, I am back!! (cheers) although I am a bit nervous since I haven't written in a few weeks :o/ this chapter isn't amazing or anything but it was needed to get this party going so I hope ya'll aren't too disappointed.

Thanks: Before I let ya'll lose to read the chap. I want to thank everyone who has stuck with me even through my small hiatuses. I've received a few e-mails from people asking if I was ok and I really appreciate the concern, makes me feel loved! :o) Also, a big thanks to my betas. Kelly, I love you!! And Laura…thanks for looking this over for me!! Love you. I did play around with this chapter AFTER it was betaed so all mistakes are mine! Now read on!

Chapter 4

"Haley, move your ass!" Dean yelled up the stairs. They had just gotten back from doing some grocery shopping and were heading out on a short hike around the canyon.

Haley appeared suddenly at the top of the stairs dressed in a pair of jean shorts, a black tank top, and black converse.

"Sorry, couldn't find my shoes," she said sheepishly making her way down the stairs. "Where's Sam?"

Dean motioned over towards the front screen door, "He's waiting outside," he said pushing her lightly towards the exit.

"Wait, we need—"

"Sam's got the bag. We packed water and a few snacks; let's go," he said getting impatient. He really wasn't all that thrilled with this hike in the first place. Haley was still under the weather, regardless of what the kid said. She was stupid if she thought Dean couldn't tell.

Haley smiled brightly. "Let's go then!" she said, walking out the door and making her way to the car. "Hey Sammy."

Sam smiled. "Hey, ready to go?" he asked, shutting the trunk.

"Definitely!" she grinned. "How far out are we driving?" she asked, swinging the back door open and sliding in.

"Uh about three miles to the South Entrance; we'll park the car in the visitor's lot and head out from there," Sam said, tossing the car keys over to Dean. "Packed everything in the trunk," he said sliding into the front seat.

Dean caught the key and slid into the driver side sighing contently at the feel of the smooth leather around the steering wheel. "Wilderness, here we come." He smirked, bringing his baby to life.

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"Oh my god this is freaking unbelievable! Are you guys seeing this?" Haley gaped in awe. She had never in her fifteen years of life, seen such an amazing view. Who would've thought a giant hole in the ground could be so breathtakingly gorgeous.

"Kinda hard to miss, Hay." Dean chuckled lightly, also admiring the view.

"It's amazing." Sam sighed, closing his eyes as a small gust of wind blew by them. "Can't believe we've been to Arizona so many times and never thought to stop here once," he added softly.

Dean looked over at him. "Dad wasn't much of a tourist, Sam."

Sam shrugged. "I know."

"Guys, look!"

"Haley!"

Haley yelped as she felt herself being pulled backwards roughly.

"Dude!" she growled, turning to face her attacker. "What the hell Dean?"

"Don't fucking lean over the edge like that; there could be loose rocks or something," he scolded.

"Ya didn't have to yank me back like that." She huffed, rubbing at her sore arm.

Dean rolled his eyes. "Stow the pouty lips; I didn't hurt you."

Haley scowled and walked away, heading towards a nice size boulder a few feet away. She took a seat on it and watched nature at its best.

"Dean would it kill you to enjoy this?" Sam sighed dramatically.

"What?"

"This Dean." Sam motioned to the area they were in. "Haley's really excited about it man, can't you just—"

"Who says I wasn't enjoying it Sam?" Dean questioned, a tinge of anger in his voice.

"Dude, you keep trying to pick fights with her. I mean, what the hell man."

Dean sighed, "Look, I'm not trying to pick a fight; I just want to know what's going on with her Sam. You know she's not ok. Her mood swings, the whole waking up in a cold sweat and bunking with us; somethin's up and I'm tired of sitting back and "giving her space". She's gotta talk to us." He said almost desperately.

Truth was he was scared. Scared of losing the little sister he's known his whole life. This girl sitting in front of them now; this wasn't the Haley they knew. Haley wore her heart on her sleeve just like Sam; when something was wrong they knew it and they fixed it. But now, now she was a puzzle they had to figure out and the harder they tried, the more missing pieces they found.

Sam eyed Haley's still form perched up on the boulder. He knew a little of what was going on with her; their psychic abilities were good for something.

"So then let's talk to her." Sam said quietly.

Dean chuckled. "Dude, we've tried talking—"

"No, we've tried cornering her Dean. You know how Haley works and yelling at her is not going to make her talk to us." He argued.

"Yea you're right. So what, you want to wait until this whole vacation thing is over or what?" He asked.

"No, I think we need to do it now, but we need to thread carefully. She's depressed man. Whatever it is that's bothering her, it's bad enough to—"

"Would you two mind not talking about me as if I weren't here. I can hear you, ya know." Haley's small voice interrupted, getting both brothers' attention.

"Hay—"

Haley pulled her knees up to her chest and wrapped her arms around them. She had put this conversation off for long enough.

"I'm ready to talk." She said, her voice making her sound younger than she really was.

Dean and Sam exchanged a hesitant look before walking towards the boulder, each one taking a seat beside her.

"What's up kiddo?" Dean asked, keeping his voice soft.

Haley sighed. "Remember all that stuff yellow eyes said to us, when he had us all pinned to the walls?"

Dean and Sam nodded. How could they forget that hunt?

"Demons lie—"Dean started to say.

"I know they do, but not always." Haley cut him off. "I didn't really believe him at first ya know. But then we had that stupid pageant hunt and everything got so screwed up."

"Hay—"

"Wait, just, let me get this out."

Sam nodded.

"When I was possessed, I heard everything he had told you. Everything about mom, about Sammy and I going dark side—"

"You're not…"Dean stopped suddenly, letting Haley continue.

"I know Dean, but that didn't stop me from thinking about it afterwards. I mean, finding out that you're meant to be evil is, God I don't even know what it is…" she trailed off. "But." She sighed. "But finding out your own mother sold your soul to a demon is just—"She turned away, eyes cast down, cheeks burning with embarrassment and shame. When did she become such a baby?

"Haley, it's ok." Sam said softly, wrapping his arm around her.

Haley shook her head, "No Sam, it's not ok. How can mom selling our souls be ok?" she cried out. "What did we do? What did I do to make her decide that? Didn't she love us?"

"Haley mom loved you." Dean said.

"I mean, parents don't just go around giving their kids up to demons for no reason, right? I just, I don't understand what we did. If she didn't want us, she shouldn't of had us." She continued as if she hadn't heard him.

"Haley, listen to me!" Dean said, suddenly appearing right in front of her. "Are you listening to me?"

Haley nodded, her red-rimmed green eyes staring intently into Dean's own.

"Mom loved you; the both of you—"

"But…"

"No, listen to me. I know she loved you. I saw how happy she was when she found out she was pregnant with Sammy and how happy she was when she found out she was having you; her first girl. She loved you so damn much; you have to know that kiddo." Dean said vehemently.

Haley dropped her head, letting the tears flow. She wanted to believe so badly.

"Haley, we don't know what happened with the demon. We don't know the reason's behind mom's deal, if she even made the deal." Sam said softly, rubbing soothing circles on her back. "The only thing we do know is that we have each other; we three can overcome anything Hay, including this."

"You need to trust us Hay. Keeping secrets and letting shit fester isn't going to help any of us. We're in it together kiddo." Dean added calmly.

"I know." Haley mumbled brokenly. "And I do trust you, I just—I don't trust myself."

Dean and Sam both frowned.

"Why wouldn't you trust yourself Hay?" Sam asked.

Haley shrugged, "I could hurt you or something." She said. "My powers or whatever they are, are getting stronger and I—"

"Whoa, wait, you mean they're—"

"Yea." Haley cut him off. "Since the possession."

"Fuck."

"Dean." Sam warned, shutting the older sibling up quickly.

"I'm sorry I didn't say anything, I was just scared and Missouri—"

"Missouri knew about this?" Dean cut her off, anger starting to seep into his voice. Why was everyone hiding shit from him?

"It's not her fault Dean; I didn't want her to say anything." Haley defended the older women.

Sam glared up at Dean, "That doesn't matter now anyway. What matters is getting your powers under control." Sam said. "When you say they've gotten stronger—"

"I mean they happen at random times now. I don't have to be pissed off or whatever. And the whole empathic thing, I can feel things from miles away sometimes and I feel them ten times more intensely than I did before…" she trailed off. "Like at the hospital; there were times when I couldn't tell the difference between my pain and someone else's pain or my feelings and someone else's feelings."

Sam sighed. "You should've told us."

"I know I should've but I told you, I was scared. I just wanted it all to go away, ya know."

"How bad are they now?" Dean asked, taking a seat beside her calmly.

"Hasn't changed since then." She shrugged. "I really haven't had an episode or anything." She said, talking about them as if they were some sort of disorder.

Dean sighed, rubbing a hand over his tired face. There life was one hell of a fucking rollercoaster.

"I'm sorry I lied to you." She said, softly. "And I'm sorry I've been such a moody pain in the ass."she added humorously.

Dean chuckled. "Dude, your mood swings were givin' me whiplash."

Haley blushed. She had been a pain.

"No more keeping things from us Haley. We can't afford that." Sam added on a serious note.

"I know Sammy. I promise; no more hiding things from you."

"Good. Now how about we get going; the suns gonna go down in a bit and we ne—"

"Can we stay?" Haley asked suddenly.

"Stay here?" Dean frowned.

"Can we stay and watch the sun set?" she asked, her cheeks turning a slight shade of red.

Sam smiled softly. "Sure, we can stay." He said, taking back his seat. "We got about 15 minutes before sundown." He said looking down at his watch.

Haley nodded and turned her body so that she was facing Sam and laid back, her head resting on Dean's lap and her legs on Sam's.

"Comfy there kiddo?" Dean chuckled.

"Mmhmm."

Sam shook his head, amused.

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"Hay…"

"Hmmm."

"Haley, wake up."

"Wha?" she peeled her eyes open and stared up into Sam's face. "Sammy?"

"You fell asleep." He grinned.

Damn. "I did?"

"Missed the whole thing." He added.

"Crap, I'm sorry."

"No need to be; you were tired." He said pulling something off of her. "We gotta get going though before it get's any darker."

"Where's Dean?" She frowned, sitting up.

"Right here." Dean said, coming from somewhere behind her.

Haley turned around just as Dean came through a few thick brushes. "Where'd ya go?"

"Nature called." He smirked.

"Oh. Ew."

"You asked." He shrugged.

Sam rolled his eyes. "You ready?"

Dean nodded, silently picking up their packs.

"M'hungry." Haley said, her stomach grumbling loudly.

"I can tell." Dean chuckled. "No worries though, soon as we get to the cabin, I'm gonna make us a kick ass steak dinner and then we're gonna stuff ourselves full of awesome chocolate pie." He said excitedly.

Haley quirked an eyebrow, "Look at you getting all domesticated."

Dean flicked her off, "Shut up or no pie for you!"

Haley rolled her eyes, "Whatever, jerk."

"Midget."

"Boob!"

Sam rolled his eyes and walked ahead of his siblings. This he could deal with.

So…how'd I do? (shifty eyes)