First person POV from Eren haha let's watch me fail w !
Anyway sorry ive been so lazy ive been dealing with a lotta shitty shits. Sooo, hopefully I'll be getting on the road with Round and round we go as well as Chained.
I love u all for waiting seriously I could cry thanks sooooooo much /kudos !
Warning: there will be erenx? Mystery man ooo so if u don't like eren with anyone else well shit this chapter miiight not be for you it has smutty smut between a guilty eren and a hot person hehe I feel bad about not feeling bad o*o
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It's been almost 5 years since I thought about him. He broke my heart by sleeping with another man, and denying it, standing stark naked in front of me, his other lover still in bed.
He was the one who got me hooked into singing, and though I'd never admit it aloud, he was the reason I still sang, hoping he'd come back. To love me and only me again. And maybe, just maybe I'd be worth him then.
He's the reason I hate Jean, why I hate that jackass with every blood cell in my body. Jean took him from me, right under my nose. He stole my love away, and didn't give back. He didn't realize either. He never pieced together his supposed boyfriend's past relationships.
I couldn't decide. Should I go back? Or should I go back to the dorm, curl up and bed and forget about all those moments. It was futile, either way the burning at the back of my eyes, and the pull in my chest wouldn't stop.
My time to think was cutting close, the parking lot was just a couple blocks from where we were now, and I'd almost completely forgot about Levi sitting quietly in the passenger seat.
"I'm just going to drop you off, I'm going out to mean someone." I tried to make my voice sound even, glancing over at the contracting male.
"Whatever." He muttered, why'd I tell him anyway? Like he'd give a fuck.
I pulled into the parking lot, taking the liberty of pulling right up to the front doors, but Levi swung the door open and jumped out before the car even stopped, almost jogging inside.
"Levi!" I yelled, but it was muted by the door slamming in my face. I sighed, my breath shaky. Why was I getting so worked up? Levi was just my roommate, we weren't even friends.
I set my forehead on the steering wheel, taking another relaxing breath, but it caught in my throat and I felt the warmth pour from my eyes.
I sat with the ignition running for about 15 minutes, quietly sobbing. I managed to pull myself together, noticing my current parking spot was illegal and the last thing I needed was a ticket to haunt me.
I'd ended up crying for about an hour, but either way, it didn't really matter. I had still cried, which was a new one. I usually only cried when I had a bad dream I didn't even remember, and Mikasa had to tell me I was crying.
We'd been sitting in the fields after playing over the hills. I'd fallen asleep against a tree, and when I woke up, Mikasa was leaning over me. She told me it was time to go home, since it was getting late.
"Why are you crying?" I looked at her confused, reaching to touch the tears in my eyes, why was I crying? I couldn't even remember my dream.
But here I was, crying over a sadistic fucktard who'd I only met yesterday, and why, was still unbeknownst to me.
I was pretty sure my ex-boyfriend still lived in the same house, since he moved out early as a kid. He'd been such a sweetheart, with a great smile and a big heart. But he grew up and joined the military, he'd lost his eye and damaged most of his arm in a war.
He came back different, and that's when I fell hard. His new exterior was to die for, and his brute personality had me at my feet, begging him to give me everything.
It was sickening, that'd I'd been so submissive to such an asshole, but I'm not the one to talk. Seeing as I was pulling into his driveway.
I silently hoped he'd moved, or wasn't home so I could go home and pretend like nothing happened. Lie to Levi that I went to the bookstore to check for a new release, but it ended up not in or something like that. He wouldn't question me.
I fixed my shirt, running a hand through my hair. I pressed the doorbell, listening to the muffled tune echo. My stomach did flips, and I shifted from foot to foot, glancing around.
His garden was still as beautiful as ever, the flowers blooming. I imagined a scary man like him watering the flowers with a pleasant smile on his face, it made me want to laugh at the irony.
The door knob jiggled, and my head snapped back to see the door swing open. I unconsciously took a step back, looking up at the tall, handsome man before me.
He hadn't changed, and my break was taken away staring at him. He had no shirt on, showing his totally hard six-pack which made my heartbeat speed up.
He had dark raven jeans that hung low on his hips, but hugged him in all the right places, and I resisted the urge to lean behind him.
My teeth found my lip as I looked up at his face, he had a strong jaw and a black eye patch over his eye. He still had a dazzling smile that sent shivers of desire down my spine.
"Eren, it's been so long! What're you doing here?" I could hear the gruff edge in his voice, with the sultry purr that made my insides melt.
"H-hi Marco."
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oOOOOOOoOooOoOOooo if u didn't guess that somewhere near the middle im ashamed of u I dropped a lotta hints lol xD
im working on the next chapter tonight, soo it'll most likely be all kinds of smut, you can skip it if u want, you'll only miss a little nostalgic backstory about eren eue