AN: Yes another chapter. Hope someone is enjoying this. I enjoy writing it.
Chapter 4
I felt warm and well rested. I kept my eyes closed not wanting to break the feeling. I could hear Ryan's light snore in my ear. My hand strayed down to where his arm was draped over my waist. I squeezed his arm.
"Ryan. Wake up" I said
He continued to snore.
I turned over to face him.
"Ryan, Wake up" I said louder. He stirred slightly. He sighed and stretched.
"I'm up" he said not opening his eyes.
I laughed. I saw him smile and open his eyes, his eyes darkening to a chocolate brown color.
"Morning" he said. His deep voice sending a delightful shiver through my body. He noticed and pulled me into him and wrapped the blanket around us.
"Is that warmer?" he said. I nodded wrapping my arms around him.
"We should really be getting up"
"I have work in 2 hours" I added
"Yeah. We should." he nodded, except neither of us made a move to get up.
I was enjoying being close to his body even if it didn't mean anything to him. I could pretend he at least wanted me, for a little while.
After dozing for awhile. I pulled away, regretfully.
"I need to get ready for work"
"Okay" he smiled still staying in the bed while I began to rummage for some work clothes. I went and showered. I came back to my room, just in a towel.
I expected Ryan to be gone but he had fallen back asleep. I clutched the towel closer to me as I grabbed my clothes from the foot of the bed. I went to my closet hiding behind the door as I quickly changed.
I threw my towels in my hamper and dove on to the bed, bouncing his sleeping form.
"I'm awake" he said
"And you have quite the lovely backside" he smirked
"Perv, I thought you were asleep"
"I am only kidding. I saw nothing. Just you in a towel, I closed my eyes, I am a gentlemen you know"
"I am leaving for work. Get up"
"I will. Have a good day."
I leaned down to kiss his cheek. He moved and my lips grazed his.
I inhaled sharply. His hand went to my neck and pulled me in kissing me softly. My mind was spinning. Why was he doing this?
I melted into his touch. His lips were soft and warm against mine. I wanted to pull away just to know why he was suddenly doing this.
I couldn't make my self do it though. His hand strayed to my face. My heart felt like it was going to leap out of my chest. He started to deepen the kiss when my phone rang.
I pulled away breathless.
"Hello?" I answered.
It was my work asking me if I was coming in.
"Yes. I am on my way right now" I said hanging up
"I have to go. I get done at 5pm"
"See you later" I called out, not bothering to wait for his goodbye.
I rushed out the front door to work.
Ryan's POV
I heard the front door slam. I groaned.
"What am I doing?" I sighed
I had just kissed her. I couldn't help it, I don't know what would have happened if her phone didn't ring. My body felt on edge. Maybe if neither of us brought it up, we could each forget about it.
I got up and went to take a very cold shower.
Normal Pov
I couldn't stop thinking about it. All day long at work, my mind kept replaying it over and over again. 5pm came quickly. Part of me didn't want to go home. So instead I went at sat at a diner. I called Katrina to join me
She sat down across from me.
"What's the big emergency?"
"Ryan kissed me"
I saw her smile.
"And?"
"And what? He kissed me. It probably would have gone further if my phone hadn't rung"
"So what did you do?"
"I ran out of there and went to work"
"Ry did seem a little off when I got home"
"Why did he do it?" I asked
"I am having a hard enough time convincing my self to not love him and this happens."
"How long has this been going on?" She asked
"Ever since that night at the bar, I felt something before I was even with Jason and it came flooding back that night."
"Why did you never just act on it?"
"I don't want to risk losing him" I said
"Let's say you two did get together and things didn't work out. Do you really think that either of you would end up hating each other?"
"I don't know. If he decided he didn't want me or something. I think I would be heartbroken and it would be hard to be his friend"
"But there is always a chance it would work out. I watch the two of you. He has never been like this with anyone else. Even girls he dated, he never let them in as closely as he does with you. He tells me, Heather and Eilfie things and confides in us but I think you two hold a stronger connection." she smiled
"What do I do then? Just tell him?"
"I think you should wait a little while. Summer is coming up, we are actually done filming the show until September. He said he rented a beach house down south for the summer to relax at. Tell him there"
"How do I know if he will invite me?"
"He'll invite you. Trust me" she smiled
"Let's order. I am starving. We do have to get back though by 7pm, Ry wants to set up a camera in your room."
"Why?"
"To see if Jason is in your imagination or if you are actually see him"
"He and Serg are working on it now. A camera will be pointing towards your bed and then one towards the door…"
She continued to rattle of details of how it would be set up. After finishing eating we left and headed home.
I was not looking forward to going to bed tonight.
"She'll be fine Ryan" Serg said.
I had come home to Ryan pacing back and forth in the living room.
"Tell him she'll be fine Katrina" Serg pleaded
"Why what's going on?"
"Serg wants me to stay down here while we watch for anything to happen in the bedroom. I think that it's too risky. I think we should set up tech in my room and I can watch"
"We don't know if anything is actually happening" Katrina said
"Yeah I could be insane." I smiled
Serg laughed
"The closer I am. The faster I can get there if something happens. Last time she screamed for me. I was in my room. If I had been anywhere else in the house I might have not heard her"
"Ryan everything will be fine. We'll be watching very closely. I am sure if anything does happen you'll notice and be up there in two seconds" Katrina said
"Yeah, seriously I will be fine" I said trying to agree. All I felt was sick and scared. I wanted it to just be a normal night.
Ryan sighed, finally agreeing.
"Well let's make this just like any other night. Do what ever we would normally do and then we'll let her go up to bed when it's time." Ryan said taking charge.
"I am not hungry at all. Katrina and I just ate. Let's play poker!"
Serg laughed
"No way, I always lose about 50 dollars when I play with you"
"You have a tell. That's not my fault, don't be so easy to read" I smiled
"No let's just watch a movie. If we play poker, I know for a fact it won't end until the early morning" Katrina said.
We settled down in the living room. I sat next to Katrina on the couch while Serg and Ryan took the chairs. I was thankful for that.. If I was forced to sit next to him, I would be too tempted to touch him.
Katrina got up to go the bathroom. Ryan got up taking her spot.
He smiled at me, making my heart pound.
'Yeah' I thought 'he's trying to kill me'
Katrina came back and rolled her eyes at Ryan. She threw his blanket at him before she sat down in the chair.
She smiled though as he spread the blanket out over us and pulled me closer.
'He can't like me. He's just my best friend. Best friends hug and cuddle, they tell each other everything' I thought
'But they do not kiss' my mind added.
I felt his arm come around my shoulder. His fingers rubbing, nearly caressing my arm, I decided to fight fire with fire. If he was going to drive me insane this way, I could do the same. I put my legs under myself and cuddled up closer to him. I peeked out of the corner of my eye to see him smile slowly.
I brought my hand down on top of his thigh. I felt him jump slightly.
I smirked as I began to move my thumb in circles. His hand moved down until he reached my hip, his fingers sliding under my shirt and caressing the skin at my waist. I bit my lip to keep from giggling. He was starting to tickle me. My fingers dug lightly into his thigh. He made a strangled sound in his throat that he tried to cover up with a cough.
"Ryan" I heard Sergey say.
"Yeah"
"Stop fondling each other for a second and listen. I heard something upstairs. So I went to check the monitors I set up. Both cameras are blacked out" Serg said
How had I not noticed when Serg get up? Katrina got up and turned on the living room lights. Ryan stopped the movie.
"Katrina stay down here with Meg while Serg and I check the cameras" Ryan said
Katrina sat down next to me as they went upstairs.
"What was happening over here?"
I shook my head
"I don't know. He kept rubbing my arm. So then I started rubbing his leg and then he started rubbing my waist"
"You two were in your own world. Serg got up twice and neither of you took your eyes off the screen" she smiled
I sighed. I heard them coming down the stairs.
"The cameras are fine" Serg said
"Were you in your room any time today?" Ryan asked me
"No" I shook my head
"Well all your blankets were ripped off the bed and some picture frames on your desk were smashed" he said sitting down next to me.
"The cameras stopped recording around the same time I heard the noise" Serg said looking at the footage on the monitors
"Well let's just get to bed and figure out what to do in the morning. It's late and I think trying to continue investigating any further when we are tired is not a good idea" he said running a hand through his hair.
"Well we can't just leave meg in her room alone" Katrina said
"She won't be. I'll stay in there with her. It will be fine. If things get bad anytime tonight, we'll leave and I'll call chip in the morning." Ryan said
We all went upstairs and I got ready for bed. Ryan shut the bedroom door and looked around the room briefly. I saw some medals in his hands and a bottle of holy water. He set them on the bedside table. I saw him walk over to the window with the bottle of Holy water. He made a cross on the window with it.
I actually felt scared. He got in beside me and brought the blanket around us.
"I blessed the door with holy water also" He said
I nodded
"Scared?" he asked
I nodded.
"It'll be alright, do you know the saint Michael prayer?"
"Not by heart, only bits and pieces" I said
"I'll say it then" he began reciting the prayer. I followed along as best as I could.
I moved closer to him as he finished.
He reached over turning off the lamp, sending the room into darkness, except for the light coming from the streetlight.
I buried my face into his chest. I tried to fall asleep but all I felt was someone one watching me. Ryan looked like he was having trouble as well.
"Can't sleep either huh?" He asked
"I just feel like I am being watched" I sighed
"I know. I have felt it all day. I felt scared that something might happen to you. I got scared that you might run away again"
"I didn't run away before. I left because I thought he loved me. I wasn't running from you. I told you I was sorry I hurt you. I still am sorry I hurt you."
"I told you, it was fine"
"If it's fine, then stop thinking I am going to just run away, you are important to me"
"You just up and left. I was scared. I was…afraid you got hurt. I didn't know what to think. You could have given someone some warning. So obviously I wasn't that important"
I felt anger boiling up inside of me
"I left with out telling you because I couldn't stand it any longer. I couldn't stand knowing that you would never want me the way I wanted you to and Jason offered me that. I really grew to love him too. I thought that being with him would make it easier to forget"
He didn't say anything for a little while
"What do you mean. I would never want you the way you wanted me? Are you saying you were in love with me"
I sighed
"I still am. I've come to realize. There is no use pretending anymore or trying to ignore these feelings. If you don't feel the same way it's ok. I just am so tired of keeping these things in."
He laughed lightly
"I am going to bed now. Night" I said
"Fine but we are talking in the morning these suppression of feelings around here is probably not helping what is going on"
I didn't hear him. I was falling asleep. I felt his arms encircle me and I fell asleep.
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