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Buffy slowly picked herself up and walked out of the cave, knowing that she could learn nothing more from the demon. When she got outside she expected the sunlight to hit her full in the face, but only the freezing cold air greeted her. The day had already passed. Shivering, she made her way slowly back to the airport to catch a flight back to LA. Images of what Spike had to endure kept flashing back into her mind and she had to push tears to the back of her eyes. Just as she was about to enter the departure area Willow, Giles, Xander, Dawn and Faith came running up to her, surprising her.
"What are you guys doing here? How did you find me?" Buffy asked, unsure whether to be happy or angry.
"Well we wanted to make sure that you were alright and Will is a witch after all," Xander answered her as Dawn enveloped her in a tight hug. They walked together to the ticket sales counter and before long were on a plane homewards.
"Buf, did you find what you needed?" Willow asked tentatively, not knowing the state of affairs. Buffy shook head, but said,
"I did find something out, but I couldn't bring Spike back. There is a way. I just need to find out what it is. I really need to, Will. I can't go on like this."
The sadness in Buffy's voice just emphasised how depressed the blonde had been since the ruin of Sunnydale. Willow patted her back comfortingly and said,
"Well if it really means that much to you, then we'll try to help you, but Buffy…" she hesitated. "What…what if you can't bring Spike back? What are you going to do then?"
Buffy refused to regard that as a remote possibility.
"No. That's not possible. I know Spike. He always comes back. He's the only one to always come back. He wouldn't leave me. I can't bear it if he doesn't know that I love him. Willow he never believed me and I've seen what he went through to get his soul and he did that all for me and I can't let him go without letting him I love him!"
By this time tears were flowing down Buffy's face again. The redhead handed her a tissue, but had no idea how to comfort her. For a long time they just sat together, supporting each other, but then Buffy's face lit up.
"Maybe Drusilla will know how to bring him back!"
Willow immediately opposed the plan.
"Buffy, she left him and she's just a vampire. She won't know and I doubt she will care. Buffy you can't go looking for her. You don't even know where she is!"
But the idea was now lodged in Buffy's head. She said,
"Will, you can do a locator spell and I have to try everything. I will leave no stone unturned, I swear! You promised that you would try to help me!"
Her best friend sighed, and finally agreed, unable to stand the strength of Buffy's debates.
"Fine, but not until you've managed to have some rest in LA…" again she hesitated. "Maybe…you should speak to Angel. You two were very close for a long time after all."
At the sound of his name she had gone stiff.
"No! He's a murderer. He and Spike went everywhere together for such a long time. No, I refuse to speak to him ever again."
The redhead sighed and turned over to sleep knowing that to argue was pointless. Buffy could be as stubborn as a mule sometimes.
BTVS BTVS
"Drusilla?" Buffy approached the dark-haired vampire cautiously, knowing that she was absolutely insane. The vampiress didn't turn around, but continued kneeling at the edge of the crater where Sunnydale used to stand, wailing,
"Oh my Dark Prince. Why did you have to go to the Slayer? Why didn't you stay with me and Miss Edith? You're gone, my Dark Prince, oh."
Buffy walked up slowly and touched her on the shoulder. Drusilla immediately rose and turned in a fluid, graceful motion. Seeing who it was, she began to laugh maniacally.
"So it's you, Slayer. You know, Spikey is gone and it's all your fault. It's all your fault and mine. I left him. I drove him crazy just like Angel drove me crazy. Except that I flirted and I made out with that Chaos demon. Oh my poor Spike, my poor Dark Prince. What are Miss Edith and I going to do now?"
Buffy stared at her, trying to make some sense out of her crazy talk, but could only get the fact that she treated Spike terribly whilst they were together. How did Spike put up with her? When Angel drove her mad he did it really effectively, but unfortunately now she could tell her nothing. Finally she turned the vampiress around and slapped her across the face. Drusilla only said,
"Oh. The Slayer slapped me."
Buffy shouted,
"Damn right I did! You've had that coming a long time. He loved you so much and you just kept pushing him away! And now that he's gone you come back to mourn him. How dare you?!"
Buffy and Drusilla stared at each other, both a little shocked at her outburst. Yet Buffy felt nothing, no relief, no happiness, nothing, just an emptiness, an emptiness that had been gnawing at her since Spike had turned to dust.
"He tasted like ashes once we left here. He wasn't evil anymore. No, now he was in love with you. You made him fall in love with you and now he's dead because of it."
Drusilla's tone was accusing and full of malice, yet Buffy couldn't refute a single word of it because it was true. It was so true. He had changed for her. He had stopped being evil for her and he had died for her yet she had never let him know that she loved him. She had always made him feel like a monster, like he was beneath him. She remembered the night that she had said to him that he was beneath her and felt sick. She turned away and drove back to LA, unable to listen to anymore of Drusilla's words because despite her being crazy they struck to close to home. The moment she let herself back into the house people surrounded her.
"How'd it go?"
"What did she say?"
"Did she tell you what to do?"
Buffy raised her hand and they all fell silent. The slayer shook her head sadly and said,
"Some more of her crazy talk, but when she was making sense all the things she said were true. I just wish I could take back everything I did to him, but I can't and she made me see that I was so wrong when it came to him. But no, she didn't give me anything to bring him back."
Willow and Dawn hugged her, as if they could absorb some of her pain and let Buffy just sob into their shoulders as the others looked on helplessly.