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Rose POV
As I drifted off the sleep, I found myself on the beach by the pacific ocean. It was the same beach I went to with Alex and the others to surf. The ocean was a beautiful shade of blue and the waves were perfect swells. I'm sitting on a blanket with my bikini and sunglasses on. The sun felt great warming my skin. I wasn't sure if Adrian was still mad at me for the game we played earlier tonight so I didn't know if I would see him. Should I go look for him or let him come to me? Well, it was kinda my fault, so I'll get up and look around to see if he's lurking nearby. Nope. I put the flip flops on that were next to me and start walking down the beach calling out his name. I walk about a mile down this beach with no sign of him. I even venture into the caves to see if he's hiding in there. I turn around and head back the way I came. This is ridiculous. Why is he being such a baby.
"Adrian, I'm tired of looking for you. I'm sorry, okay. If you want to talk to me then you come out. Otherwise I'm going to sit back and relax and enjoy the sun. It's up to you." I yell into the air. Where ever he is, I'm sure he heard me. I find the blanket I was on earlier and lie back down. I hope I can't get sunburned in a dream. That would suck. I stay there alone for what seems like hours. I see the sky ripple a little and realize that I'm about to wake up and I didn't even get to talk to Adrian. I quickly get up and write a message in the sand.
I'm sorry. Love your Little Dhampir
I hope he gets the message. The dreams fades away and I wake up with my favorite warm hard body hovering over me covering my neck with kisses. I moan and run my hands up along his back.
"Oh good... you're awake." he says. I raise my head up and start to kiss his neck and shoulders.
"What... do you expect... when you... start touching... me like this?" I manage to get out between kisses. He trails his kisses to my lips and overtakes my mouth with his. It doesn't take long until we are on to bigger and better things. I don't know why, but whatever he is doing to me feels so intense and electrifying, like every nerve ending has been turned up a few notches. It feels amazing. I have to let the pleasure out somehow before I explode so I moan loudly and call out Dimitri's name. My heart was beating so hard it sounded like it was a beating drum. I think I even screamed once. I'm not sure. When we both reached our peak we lay next to each other, trying to catch our breath.
"Holy shit, Dimitri. That was...the best." By the smile he has on his face, I'd say he agrees. I snuggle up close to him and close my eyes to go back to sleep. I am worn out after that. I found myself on the same beach I was earlier. The note in the sand I left for Adrian was still there, but fading due to the tide coming in and washing it away. I look around and still don't see Adrian anywhere. Well, I'm not going to play his games. I walk into the water and stand waist high letting the waves move me around. I stand there and think back to what happened this evening to piss him off so much. He wanted me to announce to everyone that he was in love with me and wanted to be with me and start a family, and I wouldn't do it. Sure what I did say was childish and a little mean, but it was all in good fun. But what really bothered me was when he said he wasn't talking about me. The jealousy that erupted shocked me. Why was I feeling like this. I hated myself for being so selfish. Adrian was my best friend. I want him to be happy, but part of me wanted to be the one to make him smile and no one else. I need to stop getting so close to him. I made my choice. I chose Dimitri and now I need to let Adrian go.
I've been standing in the warm water a good hour daydreaming about kissing and touching my Russian God before I felt someone watching me. I know it's Adrian, I mean, who else would it be. I feel his arms caress my waist from behind me. His touch feels nice. His warm breath suddenly on my neck makes me shiver. I really should stop him, but my body won't respond to what my mind it telling it to do.
"I accept your apology. Did you like my gift?" I turn around and look at him confused.
"What gift?" He gets this crazy smile on his face and laughs like he is embarrassed about something. I actually see him blush. Now I'm really curious as to what gift he is referring. I give him a light punch to his arm to get his attention. "Again, I say what gift?" He looks me in the eye and smiles again.
"When you left the dream earlier, did something...unusual happen?" he asks. I think back and remember Dimitri and I making love, but we do that all the time, much to Adrian's dismay. But it was different. It was way more intense than it has been before. I look at him suspicious. Is that what he is referring to? I'm almost afraid to mention it if it's not anywhere near the ballpark.
"Umm, well, Dimitri and I, umm..." I couldn't look at him and tell him what we did. Luckily I didn't have to.
"I know what you did, Rose. But did you notice something different, something better about it?" Hell yeah I did.
"What did you do Adrian?" His smile got even wider if that was possible.
"I was practicing with Spirit trying to distract myself from you're middle of the night activities when I thought I would try a little experiment. Did you like it?" I tried to keep a straight face, not letting on how great it was because I was a little embarrasssed by my vocal reaction.
"Yeah, it was very pleasant. Can you do it again?" He laughs at my answer and pulls me into him and wraps his arms around me.
"Of course, but not every time. It takes a lot out of me. Plus, if Dimitri found out, I don't think he would approve of my assistance." Thinking of Dimitri causes feelings of guilt to flood into me. I didn't want to feel like that again knowing it wasn't all him making me feel that way. I pulled away from his embrace and just held his hands in mine.
"You're right. Don't do that again." He looks a little hurt, but nods. "I'm sorry, it's just that knowing it was you who made me feel like that, I feel like I'm cheating on Dimitri."
"Of course, I'm sorry. But now that we know that Spirit can effect you physically, hopefully we can use it to make you stronger and faster when you're fighting Strigoi. Then you'll really be unstopable." Wow. That would be awesome.
"When we get to Court, I'll have Dimitri train with me and we can try it then. " He nods. Now I need to talk to him about what he told me last night. This isn't going to be pleasant. "Adrian, who were you talking about when you said you were in love? You said it wasn't me, so who?" He looks down at the water between us.
"I was talking about you, of course. I was just hurt that you didn't want to say it so I said what I did to hurt you. I'm sorry." Traitorous relief washed over me. Now I need to break his heart.
"Adrian, we can't keep going on like this, getting too close. I'm marrying Dimitri, I love him. Everytime I touch or kiss you I'm cheating on him, and he doesn't deserve that. I don't want to do that to him." He stays quiet, digesting what I just told him. Then he looks up at me a little angry.
"What about me? I know you love me. Not as much as him, but still love. I love you so much Rose, it kills me knowing he makes you happier. But what about me? What if we never find a way to put my soul back into my body and I am here forever. Alone, never to know what it's like for someone to love me back the way I love her. There aren't any other women around here for me to be with. Just you. Am I supposed to be alone for the rest of our lives?" God, why does he have to have a good point. It makes me feel even guiltier.
"Well, you can pull other people into our dreams, so when you see someone you want to meet, pull them in and I'll make myself scarce." He gives me his 'are you serious' look.
"What woman out there wants a relationship with a man she will never be able to touch or introduce to her parents or have a family with. Only to see me when she's asleep. It won't work Rose."
"Well then, we need to make sure we succeed because I can't be split in two, one Rose for you and one for Dimitri. That isn't going to work either." At this point my voice is getting to yelling status. I'm starting to get a litte aggrivated with this whole conversation. Adrian and I stand there in the water just staring at each other, as if waiting for the other to back down. I hear someone clear their throat in the distance. I look over and search the beach for the source of the noise when I see him, Dimitri. I turn back to Adrian and give him my most ferocious glare. How dare he pull Dimitri in here to hear our private conversation without my knowledge. I know this effects him too, but I would've like to know he was here.
I walk over to Dimitri a little nervous about what he heard and how he feels about all this. I stop right in front of him, afraid he'll push me away.
"Hey comrade, how long have you been standing here?" I hope he didn't hear my voice crack. I look up to see his face and he has his mask up, showing no emotion. That's not good.
"Since he got here." Great. He heard the whole conversation. He stays silent after that, never looking at me. I feel panick start to build inside me as I think he will pull away and leave me again. I don't think I could live through that one more time. Tears start to build up in my eyes and I try desperately not to let them out. I inhale deeply to keep the sob building in my throat down, but it doesn't work . Dimitri looks down at me and moves closer to wrap his arms around me.
"Oh Roza, I'm not mad at you. You did nothing wrong." I let out a breath of relief and squeeze him tight. "I think we all need to sit down and talk." I look over my shoulder to Adrian and he is still in the water looking out at the horizon. I grab Dimitri's hand and lead him over to the water, behind Adrian.
"Adrian, we need to talk." He looks over to us and nods. As he is walking out of the water, three beach chairs appear before us. They each sit in a chair and instead of sitting in the third, I go over to Dimitri's chair and he automatically sits back and pulls me down with him. I feel the need to let both of them know who has my heart. Adrian is the first to speak.
"Rose, you could have told me you invited him to our little paradise here." What?
"I thought you did it. I'm not the Spirit user here, you are. How would I do that?"
"What were you thinking about before I showed up?" he asks. I don't really want to tell him about the r-rated thoughts I was having about Dimitri. I guess I didn't have to when I could feel all the blood rushing to my cheeks.
"That's what I thought. Your emotions must have pulled him in without your knowing it. The magic is getting stronger. We need to be careful because the darkness will get stronger too." Well, that sucks.
"How do you deal with the darkness you create when you use Spirit? You can't exactly smoke and drink like you used to." Dimitri says very down to business. Unfortunately, he isn't going to like the answer.
"Rose. Being close to her helps me defuse the darkness and let's it fade away. Just like you do for Rose. When she is with you, your physical contact, strength and presence allows her to release the darkness she pulls from Lissa. If I allow it to build up, I don't know what will happen to Rose."
"But couldn't she deal with your darkness like she does Lissa's" Good point.
"It's seperate. I can keep my darkness away from Rose, for awhile. But I think if I let it get to strong, it will burst forth and cause Rose to overload. That much darkness all at once can't be good. She could get very dangerous, not just to herself but to anyone around her at the time." he explained.
"Okay, now what were you talking about when you said Spirit effected her physically? Was that about the darkness too?" Dimitri asks. I felt myself blush and laugh a little when the memories of our earlier escapades came to mind.
"Umm, Adrian did something with Spirit while we were being intimate earlier and it caused me to feel everything...amplified, so to say." He thinks about that for a second and he then starts to chuckle.
"I wondered why you were so much louder than usual." he said. Well, at least he doesn't seem upset by it. "And here I thought it was my outstanding love making skills." He started laughing harder and Adrian and I just stared at him. Unable to hold it in any longer, we both joined him in a fit of laughter. We finally calmed down and I decided to shift the topic.
"We want to try using Spirit while I'm fighting to see if it can make me stronger and faster. I was thinking we should practice first before using it against actual Strigoi in case there are any negative side effects for me or Adrian." He nods at me and kisses my cheek.
"It's good to hear you being so cautious. I think that's a great idea. When we get to Court, we'll try it out." This talk is going great. Then Adrian had to open his big fat mouth and ruin it.
"I'm in love with Rose." is all he said. He looked right into Dimitri's eyes and just blurted it out. I felt Dimitri tense up and his hands formed into tight fists. I grabbed one of his hands and tried to get him to relax by rubbing it between my hands. I glared at Adrian. Does he have a death wish? He must because he just kept talking. "She loves me too. When she offered her blood to me and I drank back at the house, it created a bond between us. Not a psychic bond like with Lissa, but a love bond. I think that's why my soul was able to transfer to her body and stay here. It's going to be a lot harder than we think to get my soul back into my body. I could possibly be here for the rest of her life."
"How do you know all this?" I ask him. Is there a book of secrets in my head that he is getting all this information from?
"I feel it Rose. I know you feel it too. A pull toward each other that was created at the moment your blood touched my lips. I warned you that it would happen." I felt anger rising inside me.
"You're blaming me for this aren't you?" He looks down and shakes his head.
"Rose, I'm grateful for you for saving my soul. But it doesn't change the fact that I am here and I love Rose as much as you do Dimitri, maybe even more." he says looking right at us.
"I highly doubt that." Dimitri replies. The testosterone level just shot up. I'm just waiting for Adrian to produce some caveman clubs so they can start beating each other with them. Men.
"This isn't helping anything. Yes, I love you both, but my heart belongs to Dimitri. We have a bond too Adrian. I'm going to marry him. I'm going to be his wife, and only his wife. We have to be happy with being just friends." The look on Adrian's face just about kills me. He looks so hurt and defeated.
"Fine. I'll back off. I don't want to hurt you, Rose." With that he stood up and walked away without another word.
"Is he right, Rose? Do you have a bond with Adrian?" I can hear the insecurity in his voice and I want to reassure him but I also don't want to lie.
"Yes, there is a bond between us, but that just means that we will always be a part of each other's lives, like good friends. I doesn't change the way I feel about you or our future together. Adrian will be a part of our lives just like Lissa is."
"He needs you." He sounds like he is talking more to himself than to me. "I'm worried that with all the Spirit you two want to use to make you a stronger fighter will ultimately hurt you."
"Well, we'll find out soon enough." I lay my head against his chest listening to the rhythm of his heart. It makes me feel so safe and at peace. We stay there a little bit longer until the dreams fades away and we are once again in our room laying side by side on the bed. "Good morning." I say as I lean closer and kiss his soft lips. As I start to lean back to look at his face, he puts his hand on the back of my neck and pulls my back to him. He kisses me again, but this kiss is more intense. He deepens the kiss and rolls over so he is now on top of me. I think he feels like he needs to prove something to himself. Hey, I'll help any way I can. We make love for a second time in a few hours. Was it as intense and mind shattering as it was earlier? No, but it feels absolutely wonderful just the same. I let him know how good it feels vocally, which seems to turn him on more, which makes me feel even better and around and around it goes. By the time we're done, we are both drenched in sweat and out of breath. Who needs the gym to keep in shape?
We both hop in the shower and get ready for the flight back to Court. As I'm walking out the door of our room, I see Alex, Peter and Eddie exiting their room next door. They look exhausted.
"You guys look like shit. Didn't sleep well? Jacob snore?" I start to laugh at the thought of them with pillows over their ears trying to keep Jacob's loud snores at bay.
"It wasn't snoring that kept us awake most of the night." Eddie says looking at me with an annoyed look. Just then Jacob comes out of the room, sees me and starts yelling.
"Holy fuck, Rose! You do know that there are other people in this hotel that need sleep! Didn't you hear me banging on the wall?" I'm shocked. You would think I would remember that. "No, of course not. I'm not sleeping in an ajoining room next to you again. You two need to learn some restraint. Fuck!" he shouts as he storms down the hall to the elevator. Man, he's grumpy when he's tired. I just stand there stunned. I look over to the othe guys and turn beet red with embarrassment knowing they also heard me last night. Dimtri walks out and sees me and gives me a questioning look.
"We need to buy the guys some earplugs."
I hope you liked it. I needed to try to lay some basics about Spirit and darkness in their unique situation. Review and let me know what you think.